A/N: I love all sorts of reviews; if they are good, or sad, happy or bad I don't care I love them all!!! Thanks for all of your reviews!!! I just wish I could get like the 112 everyone else has LOL….but hey I'm not popular but getting almost 5 in one day was like buying candy in a candy store!!

A/N: Sadly I don't own 7th Heaven but the story is original and is mine and I also own everyone else except for the following—Annie, Eric, Mary, Sarah, Matt, Kevin, Carlos, Simon, Ruthie, David & Sam, Sergeant Michaels, Ben, Patty-Mary, Carlos & Mary's first child (I do own the name though), Kevin's Mom & Step Dad's name and anyone else I forgot.

A/N: Thanks to my friends Star2717 & Tardychick06 who helped me get over a writers block!!! You guys really rock when it comes to helping me and I'm glad that I know you! Also I'm SO SO sorry for not updating sooner!!!

It was almost 10 am before Lucy woke up on that late June morning only to find out that the weather man was right for a change…it had undeniably started to rain. She stared at the rain soaked ground for a few minutes when the slamming of a bathroom door jolted her back to reality. She let the curtain fall back into place and turned around to see Kevin standing in the middle of their bedroom with a towel wrapped around his waist  where a puddle of water that was starting to form under his feet.

"What are you doing home?" she asked walking over to the dresser and grabbing a couple of Kleenex out of its holder and handing them to him signaling he needed to wipe up the mess. 

"As if you can't remember" he told her bending down to the floor and wipes up the mess with the soggy Kleenex before he stood back up.

"Umm…refresh my memory again…it's been a long two weeks Kev…and I'm still pretty tired" Lucy admitted to him yawning as soon as she stopped talking and sat down on the bed.

"You…I mean we have a doctor's appointment today…remember?" he told her walking over to the dresser and pulling out a clean t-shirt before heading back to the bathroom.

"You have got to be kidding right? I thought that I changed the appointment so it was a week after we got home…it was suppose to be on Monday July 3rd, not Monday the 26th" she replied getting off the bed and walking over to the wall to check the calendar.

She barely made it over to the wall when Kevin came running out of the bathroom fully dressed, scooping her up and practically throwing her on the bed and started to kiss her on the neck, the lips and even on her forehead…faster and faster until she started to laugh.

"Kevin!" she shrieked with laughter "what do you think you are doing? It's not even noon yet and you're just now…" suddenly her expression changed when she pushed Kevin away, jumped off the bed and ran towards the bathroom, missing it by a few feet when she threw up over the bedroom floor. She stood there for a few moments obviously very embarrassed because it was something that had never happened to her before. She quickly ran into the bathroom and closed the door shut.

Kevin who watched the whole thing from the bed got up quietly and walked towards the bathroom and knocked softly on the door. When he didn't get an answer he opened the door to find Lucy heaving over the toilet. He reached up top where she kept the rags at and turned the faucet on letting the cool water run over the rag before he walked back into their bedroom and cleaned it up. He knew she would be mad but he didn't want to leave a mess because knowing Lady…their puppy of one year would get into it. He walked back into the bathroom where Lucy was still hanging over the toilet and rinsed the rag off and threw it into the hamper and grabbed the washcloth that was sitting by her towel and turned the faucet back on and let the cold water run over the washcloth before he bent down, lifted her face and wiped her forehead where she had started to sweat.

She smiled weakly at him and mouthed the words "thank you" before another wave of nausea over came her and she threw up again.

He knew how hard this was on her so he left her alone and walked downstairs to open the blinds and turned the coffee pot on. He never use to like coffee because the taste was so bitter, but since he gotten a promotion from traffic cop to Homicide Detective he had to get use to the strange hours that were part of the job and that usually meant he was up from 1 am till almost 1 am the next day so he had to find something that would keep him awake.  He started to search around the kitchen for something edible to eat but found nothing…that's when he heard the floorboards creak and turned around. There stood Lucy fully dressed looking green and very pale.

"Are you ok sweetie?" he asked turning around.

"What are you tearing up the kitchen for?" she asked him walking across the wooden floor in her bare feet.

 "Food…we have nothing…nothing to eat…why is that?" Kevin replied back to her slamming the cabinet doors shut for the third time.

"Hello…earth to Kevin…did we not just go on a vacation for two weeks? I mean did you think the food that we left would be edible?" she asked him laughing. He rolled his eyes and started to walk towards their living room when he heard Lucy talking in the kitchen.

"What?" he said a few minutes later to her not paying attention to a word that she was saying.

 "I said…we need to go now if we are going to make it to the doctors on time" she replied slipping on a pair of clogs before she grabbed her purse and the keys that were on top of the counter.

"What time was our appointment again?" Kevin asked walking back into the kitchen and takes his last sip of coffee before he dumped the rest down the sink.

"It's at 12:30 and if we don't leave now we won't get there in time and we might even miss the fifteen minute window that they allow" she yelled running through the back door and into the garage to get the car ready.

 He raced up the stairs and threw on a pair of tennis shoes and grabbed his wallet…he had a feeling after today that they would need it.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

"Katelyn,  you go and  play with Sammie," Maggie demanded.

"But I want to play with you guys though," Katelyn begged her 14 year old cousin.

"You can't play with us, it's the light browns vs. the blondes and well you, have dark hair." Maggie snapped as she joined the group of neighborhood kids and cousins.

"So, can't I be on the light side?" she pleaded.

"No, you can't play, go play with Sammie." her younger brother James said. "

But she's only 5 and just copies me, why can't I play?".

"Do you really want to know why you can't play?" Maggie asked as Katelyn nods her head eagerly.

"You can't play with us because you're a freak…you have dark brown  hair, green eyes and don't look anything like us…so just leave us alone and go play with the babies while us normal kids play…freak" Maggie declared flipping her blonde hair over her shoulder as she walked away.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

Katelyn woke up drenched in a cold sweat and feeling sick to her stomach...she had another dream again, wait, no more like a memory. She was 13 all over again and playing with her cousins and her brothers. All of a sudden her hotel alarm went off and she groaned. She had gotten in at 3:30 am on Monday June 26th and felt like she wanted to die. It wasn't the reality that she had gotten in so late it was the shock of trying to get her body use to the new time zone.

"Oh lord…what time is it?" she asked herself barely able to keep her eyes open to shut the alarm off.  She groaned again as she flung her body towards the middle of the bed and looked up at the ceiling and then at the clock. It was noon…so it actually was 3pm her time. She gradually moved herself to the side of the bed with her hands in her face when she heard the familiar tune of her cell phone. She got out of bed and grabbed her purse and started to frantically search for the phone. Her hand felt the vibration of the phone and pulled it out of the purse and smiled when she saw who was calling.

"Hey…" she spoke into the phone.

"Hey yourself…what are you doing up this early?" Mitch asked cradling the phone on his shoulder…he didn't have any free hands since he was feeding Elizabeth.

"I couldn't sleep…I had another one of those dreams again and it woke me up".

"Oh…what was this one about?"

"Same thing…except I was 13 and we were visiting my Aunt Jackie…you know my dad's older sister and I was outside playing with my cousins Maggie and Lauren and some of the neighborhood kids when they decided to play a game based on your hair color" she said sighing as she tried to forget that memory.

 "I wish that they would just go away…I'm sick and tired of waking up every morning feeling like this…always sick to my stomach"

"I'm sorry…I wish that they would go away to and I wish I was there for you" he replied shifting Elizabeth to his left shoulder to burp her.

"I wish you were here too…you still can you know…mom and dad said that they would have paid for your ticket…and they even offered to watch Lizzie" she exclaimed walking over to the window and opening the blinds to reveal the bright sunlight.

 "You know I can't or I would…as thankful as I am to have your parents pay for me it just doesn't feel right…besides…I have a lot of work that needs to be done while you are gone" he told her gently patting the back of Elizabeth.

"I know…I know…but I hate being here alone by myself…in a strange town, in a strange state trying to find someone that I have never met before…" she sighed sinking herself into the chair sitting beside the table. "How's my mom doing?" she asked changing the subject to something that would hopefully bring better news.

"If your asking how her treatment went today I don't know" he told her honestly "I told them to call me if they needed peace and quiet…I offered to take Allyson if they did" he said speaking of Katelyn's 5-year-old sister.

"Oh Mitch…that was sweet of you…I'm glad that you are there instead of me…I think I would be a complete basket case" she whimpered into the phone…she couldn't bear being almost 3,000 miles away from home while her mom was sitting in a doctors office waiting to find out if the treatments were actually working. After a few moments of silence it was finally broken by a screaming Elizabeth

 "Katie…I have to go…I'll call you later tonight" he shouted into the phone. She sighed quite heavily as she hit the end button on her cell phone and checked the clock…it was only 12:10 pm and she had a lot of work ahead of her.

"Hey Luce…remember that we have to stop by Peter's house today and pick up Lady" Kevin reminded her while they were driving to Dr. Jacobs office.

"Oh yeah…I almost forgot" she answered staring out the passenger side window. She sighed very deeply lost in her own train of thought about the forthcoming events that were about to take place in both her and Kevin's lives.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

 "This can't be happening…not again…not this soon" Lucy thought to herself starring at the little white stick that displayed a bright pink plus sign. This was the fourth test she had taken and it was the fourth time she got the same results…she was pregnant…again. She put both of her hands up towards her face and started to weep…she didn't know if she could go through this again…especially after what happened last time…she didn't want to carry another baby for 9 months only to let God take the baby away from them again.

Suddenly the backdoor opened and as startled as she was she managed to turn the facet on and splash cool water on her face and toss all the evidence into the corner cupboard where she knew Kevin would never think to look.

"Luce? Are you here?" a familiar female voiced said. Lucy took one quick look in the mirror and rushed out of the bathroom.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

"Luce? Sweetie…we are almost there…so you got to wake up soon" he said interrupting her thoughts as she struggled to get her eyes opened.

"What? Okay…" she replied groggily back to Kevin and sank back into the passenger seat falling back asleep almost instantly.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

 "Mom? What are you doing here?" she asked trying to keep her voice clam enough so her mom wouldn't think anything was wrong.

"I came to drop off Lady…thanks again for letting us borrow her…Sam and David loved having two dogs to play with for the day" Annie spoke as she poured herself a cup of coffee before she sat down at the kitchen table.

"That's…great…umm…where is Lady now?" she asked looking around the kitchen searching for the puppy.

"I tied her to the tree out back before I came in…didn't need her to run off while I was here" she laughed taking another sip of coffee while she wait for Lucy's reaction.

"Huh? What…sorry I wasn't paying attention… what were you saying?" Lucy responded back trying to shake herself out of the daze that she was in. All she could think about were the four tests that sat thrown into a cupboard.

"Hello…earth to Lucy? Are you even in there…did you even hear a word that I said?" Annie asked jokingly waving her hand in front of Lucy's face.

"What? Oh I'm here…"she replied staring into the empty coffee mug.

"All right Luce…what's wrong?"

"Nothings wrong…I'm just a…a little preoccupied right now…you know with everything that's going on with school…last minute studying and stuff"

 "Are you sure? Your face is a mess…trying a new makeup line or something?"

"No…it's just stress…nothing else and nothing more"

 "Are you sure?"

"I'M POSTIVE…so quit asking me if everything is ok"

"You know Lucy…if you ever need to talk I'm always here for you just like Mary and Sarah are always just a phone call away to…it's not good to keep all your emotions bottled up inside all the time" Annie told her pushing the coffee mug aside…it had been almost 10 months since Leah died and it still hurt Lucy to talk about her.

"WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP SAYING THAT? I'M SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYONE ALWAYS TELLING ME HOW TO FEEL OR HOW I SHOULD TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS…YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL…YOU HAVE NEVER CARRIED A CHILD FOR 9 MONTHS ONLY TO HAVE GOD TAKE HER AWAY FROM YOU" Lucy cried out in pain and anger at her mother.

"Lucy…that's not what I mean…and you know it"

"I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU MEAN! I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO LEAVE ME ALONE…IT'S BAD ENOUGH I'M PREGNANT AGAIN…LET ALONE THE FACT THAT I'M SCARED TO DEATH THAT I'LL LOSE THIS BABY TO!" she sobbed sinking to the floor not realizing what she just said…and not knowing that Kevin had just walked in the door and heard the whole conversation.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

Kevin glanced over at his sleeping wife while driving to the doctors…they still had about another 15 miles to go and he couldn't help but smile…she looked so calm and so peaceful he never would have known what was running through her head at that moment. He ran his fingers through his hair thinking about the events that were leading up to the most important moment of their life…becoming parents again.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

Kevin heaved a sigh of relief as he leaned back into his chair and pushed the pile of paperwork aside…finally all of the paperwork was done for one case he had been working on, but he still had another 5 folders worth of paperwork left before he was able to go home...Just as he picked up the top folder and opened it, someone knocked on his door.

"Come in" he spoke not looking up from the paperwork

"Kinkirk…what are you still doing here? I thought I told you take today and tomorrow off as personal days?" Sergeant Michaels spoke sternly.

"I know…I know…I just wanted to get some of this paperwork done before I went home"

"Well leave it…you can do it when you come back from your mini-vacation…it will still be waiting here for you…your wife won't be…you and Lucy have been through to much these past few months and you have been working WAY more than you should be…you need to spend more time with Lucy" Sergeant Michaels told him with the honesty of a family friend more than a boss.

"I guess you are right…I've been coming in early and staying as late as I can these days…I don't know what to do anymore with Lucy…all she does is go to school and come home and mope…it's been 10 months…all she ever tells me is Kevin, you don't understand…you never will…how the hell can't I understand? Damn it I was there with her…I was there to say goodbye…I was there to comfort her when…when we had to take her off of life support" His voice grew louder and more choked up as the words poured out of his mouth. "My wife finally came back to me but she still isn't the same person I use to know…now I'm lost and confused on how I should treat her"

"Haven't you two ever gotten into a  fight before and you are always the first to cave in? well cave in Kinkirk…go buy her flowers and something nice…take her dinner…treat her like a queen for the day…make her feel special...just like you do when you two have a fight…now either you leave this office in 5 minutes or your fired!" Sergeant Michaels replied half jokingly, half being serious as he left Kevin's office.

15 minutes later Kevin was out of his office and had already stopped off at the nearest flower shop where he picked out a half dozen of Lucy's favorite flowers white and purple lilies and started to head home. 20 minutes later he pulled up into their two story brick home with the white picket fence that Lucy had demanded they put in when they moved. He pulled into the driveway and noticed that Annie's green mini-van was parked in his spot which meant he would have to park on the other side for her to get out.

He pulled the Black Chevy Trailblazer to a complete stop and turned the engine off. He grabbed the flowers and got out of the car shutting the door shut and started walking to the back of the house. He unlocked the backdoor and that's when he had heard the screaming and the crying…and that was when he heard the news.

 "IT'S BAD ENOUGH I'M PREGNANT AGAIN…LET ALONE THE FACT THAT I'M SCARED TO DEATH THAT I'LL LOSE THIS BABY TO!" Lucy had screamed in anger towards Annie when she sunk to the floor sobbing. He looked at Annie who looked momentarily surprised before she started to get up from the kitchen table to go and comfort her daughter. 

Kevin tried as hard as he could to keep calm as he set the flowers down on the counter and walked over to where Lucy lay crumpled up on the floor.  Moving delicately around Annie, he gently scooped up Lucy into his arms and closed his eyes, tenderly rocking her back and forth.

 He felt her wrap her arms around his neck still sobbing as he sat down on one of the kitchen chairs. He sat there not saying anything letting her cry…he didn't know what to say…he was thrilled to be a father again but he was also scared…he didn't know if he could go through the same thing again.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

He pulled into the doctors parking lot and parked the car before he lightly touched Lucy on the shoulder…he didn't want to scare her but he didn't want her to get mad at him for waking her up. She stirred a little bit and rubbed her eyes before she said anything.

"Are we already here?" she yawned grabbing her purse from the back seat.

"Yeah…we made it here with almost 10 minutes to spare!" he replied back giving her a kiss on the forehead.

"Great…I can't wait" she replied sarcastically getting out of the passenger's side. He got out and hit the lock button on the car's key pad and met her at the end of the car. She was leaning against the back looking up at the medical building that they were about to go in when it happened.

"I can't do it Kevin…I can't do it" she cried letting the tears fall freely this time.  Shocked at her sudden outburst, Kevin walked towards her.

"Yes you can…we both can do it…we have each other remember? He told her pulling her into his arms and hugging her tightly…they were going to do this…together

"You don't understand…I can't do this again…I can't go through losing another child again…" she sobbed harder and with those thoughts weighing on both of their minds, Kevin and Lucy held onto each others hand and crossed the parking lot and entered the medical building through the double glass doors ready to start another chapter of their life.

It was almost 1:30 when Katelyn finally decided to take her shower and get started on the search. She at last got up out of bed and walked into the bathroom. She looked like hell but she figured that it was only her first day here in Glen Oak and she really needed to figure out where she was going to start. After taking the long awaited shower and put clean clothes on she sat back down on the bed and opened up her carry on bag where she had put her purse. She opened up the manila envelope that contained her birth certificate and the piece of paper where her mom had written down his name and the town where he was suppose to be.

She sat on the bed and thought for a few minutes before an idea came to her. She grabbed her cell phone that was lying on the nightstand and hit the speed dial button. She was going to call the one person that got her into this mess because that person was going to help her get out of it wither she wanted to or not. As the phone started to ring she thought about what she wanted to say.

"Hello?" a female voice answered the phone.

"Mom? It's Katie…I need your help and I need it now" she spoke into the phone not waiting for an answer.

A/N: Sorry for this chapter being super long…I just didn't want to stop and put it in another chapter…This fan fic is based mainly on Katelyn's journey but since Lucy & Kevin are my favorite couple I can't resist putting them in either!!

A/N: kellybell- thanks for the review…I thought that I made it as clear as possible in chapter 6 that Elizabeth was Katelyn's daughter. As for the last question about why Katelyn is going to Glen Oak…well you will have to wait and find out!! Or else the rest of the story would be spoiled. No one knows for sure how long the Kinkirks have lived in Buffalo but my story will make sense once everything starts to get into its place