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A/N: Sadly I don't own 7th Heaven but the story is original and is mine and I also own everyone else except for the following—Annie, Eric, Mary, Sarah, Matt, Kevin, Carlos, Simon, Ruthie, David & Sam, Sergeant Michaels, Ben, Patty-Mary, Carlos & Mary's first child (I do own the name though), Kevin's Mom & Step Dad's name and anyone else I forgot.

A/N: Sorry for not updating sooner!! I had such a major case of writers block and my dear friend Star2717 hasn't been online hardly to help me with it!

A/N: Tanguay18 thanks for the suggestion!! I'll change it right now so it makes sense! When anyone sees _____ that means it's a new person's POV or their section!!!

"Katie…what do you mean you need help right now?" her mom asked tiredly. She had just gotten home from her doctor's appointment and was feeling nauseous and very very tired.

 "I have no clue where I should even begin looking…you're the only person who would be able to lead me in the right direction…you lived here most of your life"

"Katie…it's been almost 28 years since I have lived in Glen Oak…I'm sure things have changed by now"

"You don't understand…I'm completely and utterly lost at where to start…do I start at the police station or do I start a church or do I start at the stupid phone book?"

"Well…give me a second to think…" Monica replied closing her eyes thinking back to when she lived in Glen Oak.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

"Paul…where are you taking me?" she giggled as her boyfriend of three months blindfolded her before he lead her to his black pick up truck.

"I'm not telling…it would ruin the surprise…"

"So? I like it when people ruin surprises for me..."

"Well I don't like to have surprises ruin…especially for the women that I love" he replied giving her a quick kiss on the lips before starting the car. He placed his foot of the break and shifted the car out of park and left Monica's driveway…he knew where they were heading…his favorite place in the world…and he wanted to share it with the women he loved.

"Here we are..." he told her stopping the car in front of a huge half finished white building…it was going to be the newest church in Glen Oak…it was also suppose to be one of the biggest as well.

"Well are you going to take this stupid thing off me or not?" she whined lifting the blindfold enough to see her boyfriend roll his eyes at her.

"Go ahead…you probably have already ruined the surprise anyways!" he teased her opening the driver side door and getting out. He walked to the front of the car and leaned against the body of the car…this church was his favorite place to be when it was dark outside. He could feel the energy run through his entire body when he looked at the building.

"Is this it? This is the surprise?" she exclaimed getting out of the passenger seat and slamming the door. She was expecting something totally different…something more romantic than…than a half finished white building. She had just moved to Glen Oak less than 4 months ago and she still wasn't familiar with the quaint little town.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

"Mom? Hello? Can you remember anything??" Katelyn asked getting aggravated. She only had a few weeks before her flight left for New York and she was determined to find something or at least meet what his name even if it was the last thing she did. She threw the phonebook that she had started to look at to the side of her and got up off the bed and paced around the small hotel room for a few minutes before she heard her mom finally speak.

'Katelyn…have you checked out the town at all?"

"Well…no not yet…I wanted to ask you first before I started anything…I've started to look through the phone book but I still haven't found anything yet…the only Kinkirk I have found is a Kevin…so obviously I know that it isn't him"

"Well…when I as living there with my Aunt Jillian there was a few restaurants and a pool hall…you could try there…ask one of the employees who look older…about my age…they might know something…oh yeah! Just before I left they were still building a huge white church…I'm not sure the name of it but I'm sure it has been completed by now…your dad…I mean Paul took me there as a surprise for our third month anniversary" Monica replied closing her eyes and leaning up against the bed post and sighed quite heavily.

"Mom? Is everything ok? Should I come home for a while? I can postpone this trip until you are feeling a lot better…I swear I will I don't have to know who he even is at this moment" she spoke into the phone saying a silent prayer that her mom would tell her to come home.

"Katie…I'm fine…it's just the Chemotherapy treatments are a lot harder on me this time…now that I'm older…and no I don't want you to postpone anything…I want you to find him and talk to him…at least let him know you do exist and you want to know more about him…"she rasped into the phone.

Listening to her mom talk on the phone Katelyn grabbed the phone book and looked up churches. She figured that the first one listed would be the first church to visit. She moved her finger slowly on the yellow paper when her finger hit dead onto the word churches. She looked at the first one listed and sighed…

"Kat…did you find something?"

"Yeah…I was looking through the phone book for a list of churches around here and I found one…it looks like it's the only protestant church around here…so I guess I'll go there…I mean who knows maybe that Paul guy converted to a Buddhist or something" she laughed.

"Katelyn Adair…that wasn't…" her mom started to say before a round of coughing hit her. She grabbed a Kleenex and put it over her mouth. When the coughing stopped she lowered the Kleenex and went to crumple it up when she gasped at what she saw…she was coughing up blood.

"Katie…I have to go…let me know what happens…I love you" her mom replied quickly not letting Katelyn get a chance to say goodbye before she hung up the phone. Monica quickly walked to the master bedroom's door and closed it tightly so everyone would think she was sleeping. She walked over to where her purse lain strewn over the dresser. She reached for her wallet and opened it up and started to flip through the many business cards that she had stashed away…finally her hand stopped at one plain looking white business card which plainly stated on the front "Johnson, Johnson and Smith". She sighed quite deeply when tears rushed to her face…only she knew how much time she had left…and the way that things were going now…it wouldn't be much longer.

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Walking through the medical building was one of the scariest things for both Lucy and Kevin. The last time they were both here was the day before their only daughter died. Lucy was petrified, and Kevin who just wanted to make sure Lucy wasn't scared, but he himself was worried.

"Lucy, I want you to know I am here for you." Kevin said.

"I know, thanks Kevin." Lucy replied kissing him. They walked down the hall and walked up two flights to the third. Slowly they both entered Dr. Jacobs's office. He was a specialist involving high risk pregnancies. It wasn't that Lucy was high risk but her old doctor, Dr. Harrison recommend that she see Dr. Jacobs only because he was a specialist who had a lot more experience dealing with premature babies he was the perfect candidate for Lucy to have as a doctor. Lucy walked up the glass window and checked in with the nurse. After filling out some forms the nurse called her up, weighed her and showed her to the examination room.

"The Dr. will be in shortly." she said sticking Lucy's chart into the plastic pocket on the door and shutting it closed.

"Kevin…I don't think I can handle this…I'm already shaking" she said nervously showing Kevin her hands that where shaking violently.

"You can Lucy, I'm here." Kevin reassured her when the knocking on the door scared them both a little bit. 

"Hello Lucy…how are you feeling these days?" Dr. Jacobs greeted her warmly walking into the exam room and shutting the door behind him.

"I'm feeling better…the morning sickness still isn't over but I'm feeling a lot better these days…Dr. Jacobs I would like for you to meet my husband…Kevin"

"Hello Kevin…nice to meet you" he replied shaking Kevin's hand while Kevin did the same.

"Now Lucy…have you been taking the prenatal vitamins and the extra calcium pills that we prescribed last time?" the doctor asked checking her patient profile to see what was updated since the last time she was there.

"Yep…I have a few more pills left and then I need a refill" she said nervously looking over at Kevin who gave her a reassuring smile. She knew in her heart that no matter what happened today Kevin would be there for her.

"All right…as I'm checking your charts Lucy…I noticed that you have gained at least 6 pounds since I last saw you which was…" he paused for a second and flipped to the second sheet and looked up again. "Last month…" he finished peering over the folder again for a few moments before straightening up again.

"Is there something wrong with her gaining six pounds in a month?" Kevin spoke up noticing how wide Lucy's eyes had gotten when the doctor mentioned that.

"Well…normally there is but I'm sure there is a reasonable explanation for it…I'll have one of my nurses bring in the ultrasound machine and we can see what's going on" Dr. Jacobs told them walking out of the room.

Lucy laid down on her back and all she could think about was a year ago yesterday…she was in the same position… A small sob escaped out of her…she was scared…it was like déjà vu all over again.

"Luce?" Kevin said softly from across the room "Are you sure you want to do this today? We can always reschedule…"he told her gently.

"No…we can't…I can't…I can't avoid this every time we have kids Kevin…" she replied letting her voice trail off at the sound of a metal cart being pushed slowly towards their room. After this it would be real…they were going to see their baby on the screen for the first time…and then it would defiantly become real…they were having another baby…and this time nothing could go wrong.…she was sure of it.

"Are you all set Mrs. Kinkirk?" asked the petite blonde haired women who was dragging the ultrasound machine behind her. "Mr. Kinkirk if you would like to see the ultrasound with your wife you might want to take a seat over there…" she pointed out.

Kevin got up from his seat and walked over to the examination table were Lucy was laying at. She smiled at him and held out her hand…she was scared but she didn't want the nurse to know that…after all it wasn't any of her business what had happened in the past.

"Thanks for setting the machine up for me Rosemary…" Dr. Jacobs told the nurse as she quietly left the room. He walked over to the sink and washed his hands and grabbed a bottle that was lying by the sink and walked over to where Lucy was laying with her shirt half way up and her normally flat stomach peeking out. She couldn't believe that her stomach had already started to show since they had gotten home from vacation.

She looked nervously over at Kevin who was standing behind the examination table. He looked extremely nervous as well but he was trying to hide it…which wasn't working because she could see right through him.

"Scared?" he heard a voice whisper in his direction.

"Nope" he replied with a smile "you?"

"You bet!" she laughed reaching out for his hand and squeezing it hard before Dr. Jacobs interrupted them.

"All right Lucy…I'm going to rub some of the jelly onto your stomach and it will be cold at first…" he told her squeezing some of it onto her stomach and started to move it around with the transducer. He moved it back and forth from one side to another frowning at spots and shaking his head at others. Kevin who was paying attention to the screen thought he saw something odd but didn't want to say anything to Lucy who had closed her eyes breathing deeply trying to calm herself. All of her past emotions were coming back to her again…and she just wanted them to go away.

She felt Kevin squeezing her hand which she knew that meant everything was going good until she felt the doctor remove the transducer and Kevin let go of her hand. She propped her self up onto her elbows to see what was going on but Dr. Jacobs had already turned the machine towards him and was shaking his head…she thought that meant something awful was about to be told to her until she saw the slight smile on his face.

"What's wrong?" she asked him frantically trying to sit up. "I know something is wrong…Dr. Harrison did the same thing…please…please…tell me something…" she sobbed.

"Luce…settle down…nothing is wrong…"Kevin told her trying to calm her down. He knew what the doctor was hiding but he wasn't sure if he himself could believe it or not. "Just calm down…it's not good to worry about things that haven't even been told yet"

"How do you know? You told me that the last time…and looked what happened!" she accused letting the tears fall down her cheeks.

"Lucy…Kevin is right…you really do need to calm down and nothing is wrong…actually nothing has ever been better" Dr. Jacobs told her with a smile. He had just finished printing out two pictures…one for her chart and one for Lucy and Kevin to take home.

"What do you mean nothing has ever been better?" she repeated looking at him closely when she could finally tell that what he was saying was true…her doctor seemed so calm and so peaceful not like Dr. Harrison who had seemed uptight the minute he had looked at her ultrasound that day. "May I see the screen please?" She asked him sweetly.

"Lucy…are you sure?"

"I'm positive…now let me see the stupid screen!" she demanded laughing as Dr. Jacobs turned it around for her to see.

She gasped out loud and grabbed Kevin's hand…what she was seeing was true…they were having another baby…but this time things were going to be a little bit different…they were not only going to have another baby they were going to have two babies…which meant twins!

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Katelyn hung up the phone in frustration…she felt defeated and wanted to go back home. That was her third call to Glen Oak Community Church and still no one had answered the phone. She sighed and flopped onto the bed hugging the hotel pillows close to her body. She looked at the clock…god it was only 2pm and she still had another 6 hours to do something until Mitch would call. She moved around the bed until she felt comfortable spot and almost immediately she fell asleep.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

"You have what?" 17-year-old Katelyn shrieked at her mother. She couldn't believe it…her mother just told her she was dying on the nicest day of what was suppose to be a celebration of Lexie's birthday…August 29th

"I have leukemia Katie…I…I found out a few months ago myself…I start radiation treatments next month" Monica replied struggling to hold her tears in. Here she was at 39-years-old telling her 17-year-old daughter that she had cancer. Except the saddest thing was that Katelyn had a lot to learn about being a wife, mother, daughter and a sister and that was what Monica was afraid of the most…that she wasn't going to be able to teach Katelyn everything she knew in case she died.

"I can't believe this!!! When where you planning on telling me? After you had gone though all the treatments or when I was sitting in a lawn chair at your funeral?" Katelyn spat out angrily…she was upset and yelling at her mom was the only way she knew how to deal with her emotions.

"Katelyn Adair Hepler…" her mom started to say before 2-year-old Kyle and 5-year- old Alexandria (Lexie for short) walked into the living room.

"What are you guys screaming about?" Lexie asked sitting down on one of the overstuffed chairs that was at the end of the couch. She pulled a sleepy looking Kyle up on her lap as he snuggled closer to her and started to suck his thumb.

"Nothing…its adult business sweetie…" Monica told the young girl, shooting a look over to Katelyn who had suddenly became quiet interested in her chipped nail polish.

"Am I an adult to?"

"No…not yet sweetie…when…when you get to be Katie's age then you can become an adult…but right now I still need you to be my 8-year-old tomorrow that I know" she replied with smiling as she ruffed her light blonde hair and taking a sleeping Kyle out of her arms and headed for the stairs before she turned around and walked back into the living room.

"This conversation is not over yet Katelyn…when I put Kyle down I expect you to be in the kitchen…ready to talk" she exclaimed walking back up the stairs.

Katelyn sighed with anger…she was fuming and she knew that if she talked to her mom now she might say something she would regret. With one quick look at Lexie who was engrossed with watching a T.V show she quietly exited the room and walked into the kitchen grabbing her jacket and house key. She needed to get out of the house that was slowly closing in on her…and she needed to get out fast. The only person she knew who could help her was the one person she had loved for most of her life…Mitchell Spencer her best friend, her boyfriend and the one guy she knew she would marry one day.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

She woke up startled again…she wiped her eyes so they would get adjusted to the light. She hated having these dreams…it was like everything she never wanted to know or wanted to see right now was coming back to haunt her. She flipped over onto her side and stared at the clock for a few minutes…she only had been sleeping for a half and hour. She sat up and decided that she needed to get out of this hotel room…and if she didn't she might just go crazy sitting here.

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Back in Buffalo Monica was still staring at the business card in her hands. She had just made the hardest call ever and now she just wanted to cry…except she couldn't…all of her tears were gone…now the only thing she could do was write what she was feeling…to her children, to her soon to come grandchildren, to her friends, to the rest of her family, to her husband whom she has loved for so long and finally she would write one letter…to Paul Kinkirk…apologizing for everything that she had done to him and explain why she had kept Katelyn's true parentage a secret.

A soft knock was heard at the door…she wanted to ignore it but she figured that if she didn't answer someone would be coming in wanting to know if she was feeling ok.

"Come in" she replied stuffing the business card back into her purse…hidden between the old Kleenex's, lipstick tubes and even a small Rubbermaid container that held her medication for the day.

"Hey mom…I stopped by to see how you were feeling" 24-year-old Michael said to her as he entered her room and shut the door tightly behind him. He was still in college and had a long way to go…he hadn't started taking classes until he was 20 but he knew what he wanted to be…a doctor…not just any doctor…a cancer doctor…so he could help others just like the doctors now were helping his mom.

"I'm feeling fine Mikey…don't worry about me…worry about your studies…" she replied struggling to get the words out of her mouth. She couldn't cry…she needed to be strong for the rest of her family…but the way Michael was staring at her she knew he could see right through her.

"Mom…you don't look ok…here I'm going to go back and make some tea and then when Meghan, Lexie, Kyle and Allie come home from school I'm taking them out to dinner…you and dad need some alone time" he told her opening the door again and exiting quickly before Monica could protest.

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She walked back to the bed and sat down and started to cry…she started to cry because she knew she only had a few years…maybe even a few months left with her children, she started to cry because she didn't know what to do…she only hoped that what path god was leading her down was the right one. She yawned and thought how good another nap would feel before Stephen came home from work and they went out to dinner. No sooner did her head touch the pillow she was out like a light.

"I know it's here someplace" she muttered to herself walking around the shops in Glen Oak. She was walking what some people would have called a mini-mall back home…but it really wasn't a mall it was more of a small little village within a city.

"Oh!! There it is I see it!!" she exclaimed out loud ignoring the curious looks she got from the residences of Glen Oak. She had finally spotted the big white church that her mom had been talking about. She walked over to the pedestrian walk and looked both ways before she crossed the street. She started to walk faster towards the main doors but decided against it…she wanted to take her time…make it seem like she knew what she wanted but wasn't in a rush.

She got to the main doors and started to get dizzy…she had to sit down…she had to breathe…this was her dads favorite place in the whole world…she sat down on one of the benches outside of the main doors and closed her eyes…trying to see what  her dad had saw oh so many years ago…

With her eyes closed she could feel the peace just flow right through her body…it was like she had been there before and felt the same way. She took a deep breath not wanting this moment to end when she heard a voice.

"Excuse me…miss? Are you ok? Do you need any help?" an older male voice asked her. She opened her eyes and was face to face with an older gray haired man.

"I'm fine…thanks for asking…actually I'm looking for the minister of this church…do you know where I could find him?" she asked standing up and adjusting her purse on her shoulder.

"Actually he should be in his office right now…if you go to the right and walk a little bit around the sanctuary his office should be on the left hand side" the older man explained. When he was done he walked down the stairs and disappeared…now it was up to her to figure out what to do next. She took a deep breath and walked in and turned towards the right and walking down a long hallway until she got to the office and knocked on the door.

"Come in" a voice behind the closed door answer. She took another breath and opened the door.

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"I can't believe it…we are having twins!" Lucy exclaimed happily as she walked out of the medical building holding hands with Kevin.

"Me neither Luce…me neither" he replied to her wrapping his arm around her waist and pulling her closer to him. He was ecstatic…even though Leah still weighed heavily on his mind he knew that these two babies were a gift from god…though they would never replace Leah he knew that both him and Lucy were going to have a long road ahead of them.

"I'm hungry Kev…can we go and celebrate and then tell my parents?" she laughed rubbing her stomach and giving him her famous puppy face.

"How can you be hungry? It's not even 3 p.m. yet…and dinner is going to be at 5!"

"I want some ice cream…a large hot fudge chocolate sundae with everything but nuts" she whined wrinkling her nose at the words nuts. They reached the car and he opened the door for her and she climbed in and he slammed it shut and walked back around the car himself and got in.

"Well are you going to take me to get ice cream or not?" she demanded while putting her seat belt on.

"Oh all right…we will stop at the promenade on our way over to your parents house" he replied putting the key into the ignition and starting the car while at the same time putting his seat belt on and pressing his foot to the break and put the car into drive.

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She stared at the door for a few seconds before she realized that someone had told her to come in. She opened the door and looked quite shocked…there was a young man maybe about her age sitting at one of the two desks that were in the office.

"Hello…I'm Reverend Hampton…and you must be Chelsea?" he asked her standing up to shake her hand.

She stared at him for a few moments before she realized that he had been talking to her. Her face flushed with embarrassment before she stuck her hand out to shake it.

"Actually I'm not Chelsea…my name is Katelyn…I'm looking for the minister of this church" she replied

"Well you found him" Chandler replied sitting back down at his desk

"Oh" was all she could say…he seemed so young…and so not what she expected.

"Is something wrong?"

"Well…no not really…actually there is something wrong…I was looking for a much older minister…"

The young reverend just laughed at her statement which she thought wasn't funny at all.

"What's so funny?"

"Actually I'm the associate minister of Glen Oak Community Church…the other minister had some personal business to attend and wanted me to take over his counseling sessions today…" Chandler told her honestly closing the manila envelope that held his next session.

"Oh…do you know when he might be here?" she asked disappointedly…she wanted to find out something…even if it was that Paul Kinkirk had moved she didn't care she just wanted to find something out.

"He should be here tomorrow…same time"

"Oh…all right thank you…I'll come then" she replied starting to back her way out when she bumped into someone.

"Oh I'm so sorry!" she cried flipping around to see that she had run into an older man who looked to be her dad's age.

"That's ok I should have looked where I was going anyways…excuse me for a second…Chandler I didn't mean to interrupt your session but it seems that I forgot my laptop" the older man replied walking over to the desk where Chandler was sitting at and took the laptop off of the desk.

"Actually she's not here to see me…she is here to see you" Chandler told Eric who was about ready to walk out of the door when he froze.

"Oh…well today is my day off but if you want you can come back tomorrow and see me…let's say at around 11?" he asked her grabbing a pen off the desk and a slip of scrap paper that was on top of the table. "Here write down your name and your phone number where I can reach you and if anything changes I'll call you…will that work?" he asked handing her the pen and piece of paper.

She nodded as she grabbed the pen and paper and wrote down her name and the number of the hotel she was staying at and handed back to him.

"I'll see you tomorrow" he told her rushing out of the door. It was only then that she turned to face the younger minister.

"He thinks he can fool me" he laughed "but I know that his daughter came back from vacation just a few days ago and she had a doctors appointment today…both him and his wife are anxious to see how everything went" he told Katelyn who just nodded her head.

"Things haven't been great in his daughters life so far these few years…they just lost their first child last year and it has taken a lot of counseling with her to realize that it wasn't her fault" he told her sadly looking down at a sheet of paper.

"That is sad" she choked out starting to back towards the door again. "I guess I'll be leaving…thanks again" she told him giving him a short wave and walking out of the door.

Just as she hit the main doors her cell phone rang and she took it out of her purse and saw who was calling…it was Mitch

"Hi sweetie…how's everything at home?" she asked pushing the main doors open as she stepped out into the warm California weather.

"Katie…something happened with your mom today" he told her seriously leaving her only a few seconds before she collapsed onto one of the benches.

"What happened?" was all she could muster out.