Lost in the Past

Chapter Two

A/N - So, I got a lot of reviews for the first chapter and I was really happy about that. Apparently people liked the first chapter and since I got reviews that means I'm going to continue on with the second chapter. I know everyone was really shocked from the way I took the chapter and I got positive reviews for it. Don't worry, the whole Nathan situation will be real and convincing. I've never dealt with it before but I'm going to do the best I can NOT to make it fake. I hope you're all enjoying the story and here is the second chapter.

We last left off when Nathan came to Luke and Peyton's. He confessed he needed help after they found slits on his arms and wrists.

Nathan looked his two friends straight in the eyes and they were taken aback by the situation. Peyton had zoned out and she had a look of despair on her face. Lucas on the other hand looked like he had no idea what to do with himself. "Nathan, this is serious," Luke said to his younger brother. "God, what am I supposed to do?" Luke thought while trying to help. "Yea. That's why I came to you guys. Look I don't know what to do. I feel absolutely horrible for what I did to Haley and I don't know how to fix it. Please help me," Nathan said beginning to sob. "You need to get some serious help, Nathan. How long have you been doing this?" Lucas asked quizzically. "Not long. I guess I started the night Haley said she was leaving. I said I would be ok with it...I said she was coming back to me and I would be fine. But when it came down to it and I got home that night...I didn't know where to put what I was feeling, and I needed to numb the pain. I don't want to do this to myself you guys. I just don't know what to do, but I want to live for when she gets back home and I want to live to see my nephew grow up. Please just let me spend the night before I hurt myself more. I don't wanna die, Lucas," Nathan told them while

Peyton got up and left the room. It was too much to handle all in one night. She never, ever expected Haley's departure to effect them this much. "What am I going to do with all of this and on top of it I have to take care of little Nathan," she said aloud to the empty room. She sat on the couch and fell asleep looking a mess. She had mascara messed up and tear stained cheeks. That's how she fell asleep and that's how Lucas found her.

Nathan was going to spend the night and the next morning Lucas was going to do everything in his power to get his little brother help. He walked upstairs to get Nathan some clothes to sleep in when he found Peyton asleep on the couch. He felt his heart fill with love all over again while he watched her sleep. "Well, I can't let her stay there," he said to the empty room. He picked her up and she began to wake up. "Luke, please tell me it was all a dream," she whispered to him. He laughed a little and laid her down in bed and put the covers over her. He kissed her forehead and whispered "I wish it was a dream too." He got Nathan clothes and brought them down to where Nathan was sitting.

He found his younger brother looking at an old photo album Haley and Peyton had created. It was basically the time before Luke was in the hospital. Some were from the night of the New Year's Eve party. Some were after Luke was in the accident and they showed Peyton and Haley running through the hospital. Then there were some after Peyton left and they showed Luke always had a frown on his face. Then right after Peyton returned and the night Luke got on stage and sang to her. The last ones were of Peyton, Luke, Haley, Nathan and the baby all happy again. It broke his heart to see happy times. Lucas also had no idea that the girls had so many pictures from all of those times.

"Nathan...," Luke said very quietly, "are you ok?" Nathan looked up with tears in his eyes again. "I miss that," he said pointing to a picture of them all making faces at the camera. Lucas nodded his head while staring at the picture. He began to relive that moment in his head. It was a big piece of him.

FLASHBACK

"Lucas!" Peyton screamed across the café. "Yea, babe?" he said walking over with coffee. "Can you change his diaper? I really have to go to the bathroom," she asked him smiling. He smiled back and said "Nope." She hit him playfully. "Pleasssssse," she whined. He kissed her cheek and she ran off. Haley and Nathan came walking in too. The first thing Nathan did was walk over to the baby and play with him before Luke changed his diaper. "Nathan, you like him too much," Luke said laughing. Peyton ran out with a camera. "Hey! Nathan and Haley are here! We can take a picture. Luke, your mom gave me the camera. She said we don't get enough pictures of Nathan." Big Nathan looked up and gave his famous smirk. "I always knew she liked me." Everyone laughed and Lucas looked at his brother, "Ya know the whole mixing of the names is gonna get old one day," he said trying to be serious. Then started cracking up. Peyton held up the camera and everyone squeezed in. "Make a face!" Haley screamed. They all made the weirdest faces they could come up with and the flash went off. They all were laughing again and Haley and Peyton ran off to play with little Nathan. Since he was like a new toy for everyone.

END OF FLASHBACK

Nathan had thought about all that too he cried even harder. Lucas looked over to him and felt so bad. He didn't know what to do for him. He was hurting so much and the cuts on his arms reflected that. Lucas laid his hand on Nathan's back and just sat there with him. Haley was leaving in two days and Nathan was still not on speaking terms with her yet. Lucas decided the only way Nathan was really going to try to get better was to get Haley and him talking.

Then a knock on the door came. Lucas ran to the door so little Nathan didn't wake up. He opened it and the person standing there was Haley. "Hey," she said. He looked at her and she was out of breath. "What are you doing here so late?" "I need to talk to someone," she said trying to catch her breath. "Well, maybe I'm not the best person to be talking to but Nathan is here." Lucas saw her cringe at the name but then a small smile flashed on her face. "Hales, he needs you." "I can't do that right now, Luke," she said sternly. "Haley, please. You don't know what he's been going through. I mean you have no idea. Haley this is a matter of life and death." Haley heard his last sentence ring in her ears. Fear was present in her eyes and it felt like her whole world had been wiped away. "Death?" she said so quietly that Luke strained to hear. "Let him tell you," Lucas said running back up the stairs. "Nathan, someone wants to see you. I want you to get help for what you're going through. The only way to do that is to reconcile." Nathan had a confused look on his face.

He walked down to the door and saw his angel standing there. "Nathan," she said under her breath. He felt his breath get caught in his throat. She took a step into the house and said, "What are you doing to yourself?" He fell to his knees and began to cry again. She got down on her knees too then wrapped her arms around him. He laid his head just over her shoulder and debated what to tell her what he was doing. "I love you and I always will," she whispered to him. He pulled back and put his hand on hem of his sleeve. "What's wrong?" she asked worriedly. He slowly pulled up his shirt sleeve and revealed the cuts to her. Some were still freshly scarred. Haley felt her heart stop in her chest as he pulled up his sleeve. "I caused this?" she said trying to find a voice inside her body that felt like it was going to collapse.

HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED!! THIS CHAPTER WAS HARD TO FIND A PURPOSE FOR BUT I HOPE YOU LIKED IT. IF YOU ALL WANNA SEE A THIRD CHAPTER ABOUT HALEY'S REACTION THEN ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS REVIEW. SIMPLE AS THAT. THE THIRD CHAPTER WILL ALSO INCLUDE HALEY'S DEPARTURE AND A FEW OTHER THINGS. REVIEW, REVIEW!!