Lost in the Past
Chapter 4
A/N - Ok, I first off wanna thank everyone for reviewing. I really love knowing what you guys think about this story. I hope you're all enjoying it because as long as I know you are I will continue it. This chapter's gonna be a little sad with Nathan and Haley. I love writing this and I know where I'm going with this story so here it is!! Enjoy!!
We left off with Nathan saying his good byes. So here it is:
"Haley," he said with fear of loss in his eyes. Haley had been very collected and she was handling the whole situation great until now. Then again from the moment she got to the airport she was dreading Nathan's good bye. He had so many emotions just piling up watching her stand there. He looked into her deep brown eyes and all he saw was his whole life drifting away to Europe. He took a step closer and she began to get nervous. She got those butterflies in her stomach when she looked at him. He had a hard time keeping himself together as he felt his whole world crumbling. 'This has got to be the worst feeling ever' he thought to himself. Haley just couldn't control herself any longer. She ran as fast as she could and jumped into Nathan's arms. He threw his arms around her and lifted her off her feet. They both had tears rolling rapidly down their cheeks. The group just watched in silence and all the girls standing there began to get teary eyed. "I love you so much you will never ever know," Nathan said sadly. "I think I do because my heart wouldn't hurt this much if I was leaving anyone else," Haley said loud enough for the group to hear. Peyton and Brooke were both sobbing because of the scene. "You'll come and visit right?" he asked sounding like a little boy. She nodded as the tears continued. "I never really liked Europe, but I guess I have to if they're going to have an angel like you over there," he said smiling. "That was so corny," she replied laughing and crying at the same time, " but that's why I love you." She put her head back on his chest and he hugged her tightly.
The announcement came over the loud speaker that Nathan knew would change his life forever. "Boarding call for flight to Europe." Haley looked back up at the man she'd loved for so many years and began to feel like she was going to die or at least faint. He looked so scared when the announcement came on, something like that of a lost little boy. "Guess that's me," she said grabbing her carry-on bag. "Haley," he said as she stood up straight. She lifted her eyebrows instead of answering him. She was scared that if she opened her mouth to talk to him that she wouldn't be able to go, and that she'd just fall apart all over again. "Good luck," he said trying to be the gracious loser. "Can I...have a hug for good luck then?" she asked him trying to smile. He nodded and pulled her back into his arms. The final boarding call came and she reluctantly pulled away. He tugged back and kissed her as passionately as he could trying to show his emotions and love. This left them both lightheaded. He grabbed her hand trying to remember her touch and everything about her. He intertwined their fingers as he kissed her again. She pulled away again and tried to walk off, but he continued to hold her hand until the very last second. "Don't make it harder, please," she whispered with the strength she had left. He ever so slowly let her go and watched her walk away. She didn't dare look back as she stepped onto the plane. Nathan looked back at the small group of people now staring at him. He looked at them and walked out of the airport.
Lucas even let tears roll down his cheek watching Haley pull her hands from his brother. He saw Nathan stare at all of them and silently walk out. Nothing hit him until an hour later. He was sitting at home reflecting on past memories with Haley when the past two days came flooding back to him. "Oh my god," he said to the room. "Peyton!" he yelled upstairs."I'm up here," she replied. He stormed up the stairs and looked at his wife. "Nathan," he muttered. She flashed him a look that said 'I have no idea' and she stood there. "Do you remember why he was here yesterday?" Peyton thought back to yesterday and her mouth nearly dropped to the floor in shock. "You don't think..." she asked the blonde haired man standing in front of her. Lucas nodded his head and she ran to grab little Nathan. They jumped in the SUV they got and sped off. Lucas had only really spent a lot of time with his brother over the past few years and Peyton was bound to know him better.
"Look, Peyt you've known him longer than me. You'll know the places he goes and hangs out. Where would he go if he's depressed like this?" Peyton thought back to the many years she'd spent with Nathan and that whole crowd. She didn't really know where he'd go because they never really were close. "Try the river court. I don't know if he's there but that's the only place I can think of," she informed Lucas. They took off towards the river court and got out of the car. They grabbed little Nathan and walked around. He gave the 3 year old to Peyton and took off into the trees. He spotted movement behind a tree and immediately went towards it. It turned out to be his brother. "Nathan," Lucas said quietly so as not to startle him. Nathan jumped a little and turned around to face his brother. Lucas looked at him in shock again because all that could really be seen in the dark of the trees was a metal blade. "Lucas," Nathan said trying to get rid of the blade he'd been holding. Lucas had never been put in the situation of life and death before, he didn't know what the next step was. "I thought you stopped," Lucas said with disappointment evident in his voice. Nathan could do nothing but look to his shoes. "I tried," he dead panned. Lucas slowly reached out for his brother's hand which Nathan very reluctantly gave to him. They stepped out of the darkness of the trees and found Peyton on the basketball court with little Nathan. She looked back when she heard footsteps. The look on Luke's face gave away the seriousness of the situation.
Peyton looked at her son who was content playing basketball and told him, "Stay here ok buddy?" He nodded and she walked off to the boys. She got closer to them and what she saw made her want to run. She looked at Nathan's wrists and fresh red blood was running down them. He was covered in blood, it was all down his arms. "Oh, Nathan," she said looking at his face. "Look, I'm sorry," he replied trying apologize. "For what? It's your life, if you don't want to be here then don't be," Lucas said coldly. "Lucas!" Peyton yelled at her husband. "Now is not the time to worry about if he wants to be here or not. We want him here and he needs to be here when Haley gets home. Let's get you home," she said to the man who looked like a little boy at this moment. 'He looks too vulnerable to be the Nathan I knew in high school' Peyton thought as she grabbed little Nathan and they all got into the truck.
They got home and put little Nathan to bed. Lucas went up to read him a story and Peyton was trying to clean up her brother-in-law. "You know you can talk to me. I'll always be here if you need someone," she said trying to sound supportive. He nodded and headed off to the couch. He sat there in the silence of the dim room. 'Why can't I stop? What's wrong with me?' he thought to himself. "Nathan, look we'll get you help tomorrow. I promise you're not going anywhere," Peyton informed him. He looked up thankfully and stood up to face her. He grabbed her and hugged her tightly trying to show his gratitude. "Thank you," he whispered near her ear. "I love you...you know as a friend and brother-in-law." He chuckled and hugged her a little tighter. "I know," he said again near her ear. "I'm here for you," she said walking up the stairs to her bedroom. He nodded and his thoughts again wandered back to Haley. "God, I love you so much," he whispered before falling asleep on the couch.
SORRY THIS ONE MIGHT BE KINDA BORING BUT IT'S SETTING MORE BACKGROUND ON CHAPTERS TO COME. I'M ALSO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO UPDATE. I'M HAVING A CASE OF WRITER'S BLOCK. I KNOW WHERE I WANT THE STORY TO GO BUT I'M NOT SURE HOW TO GET THERE. SO REVIEW IF YA WANT MORE AND I'LL BE WRITING!!
Chapter 4
A/N - Ok, I first off wanna thank everyone for reviewing. I really love knowing what you guys think about this story. I hope you're all enjoying it because as long as I know you are I will continue it. This chapter's gonna be a little sad with Nathan and Haley. I love writing this and I know where I'm going with this story so here it is!! Enjoy!!
We left off with Nathan saying his good byes. So here it is:
"Haley," he said with fear of loss in his eyes. Haley had been very collected and she was handling the whole situation great until now. Then again from the moment she got to the airport she was dreading Nathan's good bye. He had so many emotions just piling up watching her stand there. He looked into her deep brown eyes and all he saw was his whole life drifting away to Europe. He took a step closer and she began to get nervous. She got those butterflies in her stomach when she looked at him. He had a hard time keeping himself together as he felt his whole world crumbling. 'This has got to be the worst feeling ever' he thought to himself. Haley just couldn't control herself any longer. She ran as fast as she could and jumped into Nathan's arms. He threw his arms around her and lifted her off her feet. They both had tears rolling rapidly down their cheeks. The group just watched in silence and all the girls standing there began to get teary eyed. "I love you so much you will never ever know," Nathan said sadly. "I think I do because my heart wouldn't hurt this much if I was leaving anyone else," Haley said loud enough for the group to hear. Peyton and Brooke were both sobbing because of the scene. "You'll come and visit right?" he asked sounding like a little boy. She nodded as the tears continued. "I never really liked Europe, but I guess I have to if they're going to have an angel like you over there," he said smiling. "That was so corny," she replied laughing and crying at the same time, " but that's why I love you." She put her head back on his chest and he hugged her tightly.
The announcement came over the loud speaker that Nathan knew would change his life forever. "Boarding call for flight to Europe." Haley looked back up at the man she'd loved for so many years and began to feel like she was going to die or at least faint. He looked so scared when the announcement came on, something like that of a lost little boy. "Guess that's me," she said grabbing her carry-on bag. "Haley," he said as she stood up straight. She lifted her eyebrows instead of answering him. She was scared that if she opened her mouth to talk to him that she wouldn't be able to go, and that she'd just fall apart all over again. "Good luck," he said trying to be the gracious loser. "Can I...have a hug for good luck then?" she asked him trying to smile. He nodded and pulled her back into his arms. The final boarding call came and she reluctantly pulled away. He tugged back and kissed her as passionately as he could trying to show his emotions and love. This left them both lightheaded. He grabbed her hand trying to remember her touch and everything about her. He intertwined their fingers as he kissed her again. She pulled away again and tried to walk off, but he continued to hold her hand until the very last second. "Don't make it harder, please," she whispered with the strength she had left. He ever so slowly let her go and watched her walk away. She didn't dare look back as she stepped onto the plane. Nathan looked back at the small group of people now staring at him. He looked at them and walked out of the airport.
Lucas even let tears roll down his cheek watching Haley pull her hands from his brother. He saw Nathan stare at all of them and silently walk out. Nothing hit him until an hour later. He was sitting at home reflecting on past memories with Haley when the past two days came flooding back to him. "Oh my god," he said to the room. "Peyton!" he yelled upstairs."I'm up here," she replied. He stormed up the stairs and looked at his wife. "Nathan," he muttered. She flashed him a look that said 'I have no idea' and she stood there. "Do you remember why he was here yesterday?" Peyton thought back to yesterday and her mouth nearly dropped to the floor in shock. "You don't think..." she asked the blonde haired man standing in front of her. Lucas nodded his head and she ran to grab little Nathan. They jumped in the SUV they got and sped off. Lucas had only really spent a lot of time with his brother over the past few years and Peyton was bound to know him better.
"Look, Peyt you've known him longer than me. You'll know the places he goes and hangs out. Where would he go if he's depressed like this?" Peyton thought back to the many years she'd spent with Nathan and that whole crowd. She didn't really know where he'd go because they never really were close. "Try the river court. I don't know if he's there but that's the only place I can think of," she informed Lucas. They took off towards the river court and got out of the car. They grabbed little Nathan and walked around. He gave the 3 year old to Peyton and took off into the trees. He spotted movement behind a tree and immediately went towards it. It turned out to be his brother. "Nathan," Lucas said quietly so as not to startle him. Nathan jumped a little and turned around to face his brother. Lucas looked at him in shock again because all that could really be seen in the dark of the trees was a metal blade. "Lucas," Nathan said trying to get rid of the blade he'd been holding. Lucas had never been put in the situation of life and death before, he didn't know what the next step was. "I thought you stopped," Lucas said with disappointment evident in his voice. Nathan could do nothing but look to his shoes. "I tried," he dead panned. Lucas slowly reached out for his brother's hand which Nathan very reluctantly gave to him. They stepped out of the darkness of the trees and found Peyton on the basketball court with little Nathan. She looked back when she heard footsteps. The look on Luke's face gave away the seriousness of the situation.
Peyton looked at her son who was content playing basketball and told him, "Stay here ok buddy?" He nodded and she walked off to the boys. She got closer to them and what she saw made her want to run. She looked at Nathan's wrists and fresh red blood was running down them. He was covered in blood, it was all down his arms. "Oh, Nathan," she said looking at his face. "Look, I'm sorry," he replied trying apologize. "For what? It's your life, if you don't want to be here then don't be," Lucas said coldly. "Lucas!" Peyton yelled at her husband. "Now is not the time to worry about if he wants to be here or not. We want him here and he needs to be here when Haley gets home. Let's get you home," she said to the man who looked like a little boy at this moment. 'He looks too vulnerable to be the Nathan I knew in high school' Peyton thought as she grabbed little Nathan and they all got into the truck.
They got home and put little Nathan to bed. Lucas went up to read him a story and Peyton was trying to clean up her brother-in-law. "You know you can talk to me. I'll always be here if you need someone," she said trying to sound supportive. He nodded and headed off to the couch. He sat there in the silence of the dim room. 'Why can't I stop? What's wrong with me?' he thought to himself. "Nathan, look we'll get you help tomorrow. I promise you're not going anywhere," Peyton informed him. He looked up thankfully and stood up to face her. He grabbed her and hugged her tightly trying to show his gratitude. "Thank you," he whispered near her ear. "I love you...you know as a friend and brother-in-law." He chuckled and hugged her a little tighter. "I know," he said again near her ear. "I'm here for you," she said walking up the stairs to her bedroom. He nodded and his thoughts again wandered back to Haley. "God, I love you so much," he whispered before falling asleep on the couch.
SORRY THIS ONE MIGHT BE KINDA BORING BUT IT'S SETTING MORE BACKGROUND ON CHAPTERS TO COME. I'M ALSO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO UPDATE. I'M HAVING A CASE OF WRITER'S BLOCK. I KNOW WHERE I WANT THE STORY TO GO BUT I'M NOT SURE HOW TO GET THERE. SO REVIEW IF YA WANT MORE AND I'LL BE WRITING!!
