THANKS: I owe a huge amount of thanks to Mallory and to CindyET for helping me flesh out these
characters after this ep. I also owe a huge amount of thanks to Jim for getting my ass in gear.
I always loved you from the start
But I could not figure out
That I had to do it everyday
So I put away the fight
Now I'm gonna live my life
Giving you the most in every way
I belong to you
And you
You belong to me too
----- "I Belong To You" by Lenny Kravitz
I can't believe that you went with him. You, the skeptic, Miss "Show Me The Proof," went off with that
cancer-riddled son of a bitch and you can't even tell me why. Sure, you say that it's because he made you
an offer you couldn't refuse. If that were the case, you could have called me, left me a note, something. But
no, you ditched me.
Why?
Now, I know that I've ditched you in the past, but it was only to protect you, Scully. That's all I've ever
wanted to do, to keep you safe. In keeping you safe, I knew I could keep you with me. That's where I want
you, always.
Why can't you understand that?
You're upset, I can see that. You are upset with me, you think I'm being a hypocrite. You're right, I am. But,
Scully, I was afraid. I was terrified that I'd never see you again. How was I to know that you may have held
the fate of the world in your hands? How was I to know that you were even alive?
Why can't you trust me?
Damn it, Scully, that's all I ask. Instead, you chose to trust my enemy. You chose to trust the man who left
me for dead, who was responsible for taking your future from you, your children. This man is my nemesis
and he had you wrapped around his finger.
Why can't you see that I love you?
I don't know how to show you, how to get past your walls. Won't you help me? Show me what I need to do.
Clearly I am blind to what you want, what you need. Scully, I need you and I need your help. I almost lost
you and I still don't understand why.
Why can't I tell you this?
End
Originally published: 03/22/00
