Lost in the Past
Chapter 22
A/N - You guys are totally awesome when it comes to reviews!! I love getting them. I also got reviews on my story Absolutely Zero and I'm so glad you liked it. I think I'm just going to leave it as a one parter, and although it wasn't my usual writing I'm glad you liked it. Here's chapter 22:
Insecure. She was so insecure. So scared that this was a dream and he would be with another girl in the morning. No matter what he did, no matter how many times he said he loved her, she still thought he would leave her. She was lying in her bed at 12. It was only midnight, but Lucas had drifted to sleep a little while after their shower. She knew he would be waking up soon and she wasn't sure what she was gonna say when he did. She didn't know if it would make an awkward situation.
"Hey," he said planting a kiss on her neck from behind.
She gave a small laugh at the sensation and turned around to face him. She immediately locked her lips with his before either could say a word. They were locked in a moment of pure happiness and for a minute they were ok.
"Peyton, what's going on here?" he said when the finally pulled away.
She wanted to say 'What do you mean?' but instead she was shooting for the truth.
"I don't know," was all she could say. It was the truth though. She didn't know what she wanted from the two of them.
Lucas sat pondering over what he wanted. He knew for a fact that he wanted Peyton. He wanted his family and wife back. He wanted it all with her. Those words rang in his ears. He'd said them so long ago to her in high school and she ran away scared. 'Maybe this time it would be different' he thought.
Nathan and Haley were lying on the floor of the living room in front of the dying fire. Haley's smile was from ear to ear on her face. She remembered it all until there was a striking realization. She saw a little boy in her memory and he was calling her mommy.
"Nathan?" she said as he laid on the floor with an arm protectively wrapped around her.
"Hmm?" he responded quietly.
"I have a little boy don't I?" she asked with a fear showing through her voice.
Nathan perked up immediately. His eyes grew a little wider and he looked at her. She looked scared but an almost serene smile played over her face.
"Um...uh...I meant..." he said stumbling over his words.
"Hey, hey it's ok." She pulled the blanket up over her as she sat up to Nathan's level. "How old is he?"
"Well, he came to me when he was only 2. He's about 4 now. He knows about you. I show him pictures and tell him stories every day. He's great at basketball and he's getting to look a lot like you," Nathan said while a smile appeared on his face at the thought of their little boy.
"So...he knows who I am?"
"Yea. He pretends to talk to you on the phone and he always asks about his mommy," Nathan told her as her face lit up.
Jake was sitting in Jenny's room while her and Nate told him stories. It was midnight and he could not get them to settle down and go to bed. Jenny was sitting up in her bed while Nathan was on the floor in his sleeping bag. They were both telling Jake a story about how they almost got in a fight last year.
"So this guy he like yelled at Jenny," Nathan said getting more excited every second.
"Yea, yea! And then you were like 'she's my best friend so stay away'" Jenny said in a deep voice.
"And then he was all like 'ok whatever' and he walked away and then..." he said as he got cut off.
"Then you grabbed the back of his shirt and got in his face!" Jenny almost yelled as Jake quieted her.
"Yea I did! And he was all scared after that!" Nathan said sitting on Jenny's bed next to her.
Jake was amazed that all of this went on in second grade. He was shocked but unbelievably happy that Jenny had a guy like Nate to stick up for her and make sure no one was mean to his little girl. Nate was just like Luke and he laughed a little at the similarities.
"You guys wanna hear some music?" Jake asked hoping it would be the key to sleep.
"Yea!" they yelled in unison and Jake glared at them while he went to get his guitar. He passed Brooke on the way downstairs.
"So how's it goin up there babe?" she asked with a smile. She could hear the kids from the basement, and she just asked to play around with him.
"Real funny. I'm gonna play some music for them. Maybe it'll quiet them down. Ya know...if she ended up with him one day...well I think I might just be ok with it," he said the last part quietly.
"My big bad dad would be ok with his little girl ending up with a guy?!" she asked feigning astonishment.
"Well, it's just that they were telling me a story about how he stood up for her in school and I want her to have someone like that," he said and then walked upstairs.
She laughed to herself and continued lugging laundry up and down the stairs. Nate had really turned out to be a cute little kid. 'Come to think of it...I'd be ok with it too' she thought as she made her way to the washer and dryer.
Jake had sat back on the floor in front of the kids who were wrestling on top of the bed. They seemed to be having fun.
"What song?" he asked waiting to her some requests.
"Daddy, can you do that song that you used to play for me when I was little?" she asked with a smile.
"Sure."
He strummed a few chords for the beginning of a Ben Jelen song he used to sing to her. She loved that song ever since she was 2.
"And finally the silence, lookin out looking back across the sky, tryin to find a meaning, knowin that I just left it all behind, still I feel a lingering softness, how did she go, where did she go, I wanna, wanna know. I wanna know that she'll be comin here, to me..." he began as the kids put their heads on Jenny's pillow. Nate remained on her bed as they got under the covers. They drifted off to sleep as soon as the song came to an end.
Lucas was standing in Peyton's room and he was trying to untangle his shirt from under a pile of clothes. Peyton came back from the bathroom to find Lucas in a beater and pants while he was struggling to recover his belongings. She couldn't help but laugh.
"Having a hard time, Indiana Jones?" she asked him sarcastically.
"No...just this damn shirt," he said trying to find out where the shirt was attached.
"So, about that question you asked me..." she mumbled while trying to find the right words.
"Yea," he replied letting the shirt fall to the floor. "I guess I'm just trying to tell you...that I won't hurt you again. I just want you to trust me," he said quietly.
"Well, what do you want from me?"
He let those words travel through his mind. He wanted to give her the most honest answer that he could. He wanted to truly let her know what he wanted, and now was his chance. A smile swept over his face as he finally found the words to let her know.
"It's just that I've waited for this for so long," he said as his smile grew when he saw her face.
"Me too. And now we can have it," she said stepping closer to him.
"I want this," he whispered as he put his hand over her heart. "You know? I want to be here. I want to have everything with you. I want it all. I want us, Peyton."
She started to back away just as she had done before. He looked hurt again and she saw it.
"This isn't supposed to be that," she said standing away from him.
"Peyton-" he said confused. He thought she was playing along.
"It's not just us, we have a family now."
His face was relieved and he gave her a wide smile as he ran to her and spun her around. She laughed and threw her head back in joy.
"Did I scare you?" she asked with a laugh in her words.
"Maybe..." he said as she lowered her head to his.
Haley was getting dressed and she couldn't help but think about her little boy who was waiting for her. She couldn't wait to get out of the hell hole she was in and get to be with Nathan, where she was happy. She was thinking of how great it would be to be a family with him. She would have so much fun finally being happy for the first time in over 4 years.
Nathan saw the smile on her face and couldn't help but smirk and be cocky because he knew he put it on her face. He could be arrogant, but she was happy and he was too, so why not? Everything was ok until they heard the front door open.
SO THAT WAS CHAPTER 22. MY LONGEST STORY SO FAR. I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT AND I HOPE YOU'LL ALL REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THOUGHT.
NEXT - Leyton...they have to tell the kids / Who's at the door? (It's obvious) / Jake and Brooke a night together? (doubt it with all the kids. Lol) / Surprises on the way with all the couples...
I got the words from the episode Life in a Glass House from www.onetreehill.tv Will update when you review!!
