Lost in the Past

Chapter 27

A/N - Thanks a billion for the reviews of the last chapter. I realize the last chapter was some fluff but after the cute parts of this I might have to add a little drama. But, we're coming to the end and I'm a firm believer in happy endings...even though it's not true to life. But hey, I write to escape reality not about it. lol. So, here's some Lost in the Past:

The three boys were standing on the lawn smiling evilly at their girlfriends. It had been such a long time since the 6 of them just acted like kids again. They were reliving their childhood that they never got from the sudden appearances of the kids.

"Ok, come on girls!" Nathan yelled.

The girls each gave weary looks and walked to their side of the lawn to wait for the boys to get settled. Peyton and Haley could see the laughing and giggling going on between the two Scott's. It left an unsettled feeling in their stomachs.

"Here's the rules. Your touchdown zone is from that side to the end of the driveway and ours is from the garden to the curb. It's tackle...but we'll be gentle. No backward laterals and just get to the other side. First one to 50 or more wins. Now, let's play some ball!" Lucas yelled, getting excited again.

"Um, kay!" Brooke yelled, acting as she did from high school she pulled the girls into a huddle. "We're gonna win this P. Sawyer and Tutor Girl. We're gonna play dirty and show them who's good at football...or flashing!" she yelled and jumped from the huddle before the other two had a chance to object to her idea.

"Yea we're ready!" Haley called out, finally getting into the spirit.

The boys decided to be generous let the girls have first ball. The girls had a strategy starting with Brooke as the quarterback. Brooke took the textured ball into her perfectly manicured hands and got into a football stance.

"Blue 42, 15, 21...hut, hut, hike!" she yelled as Peyton and Haley immediately took off to the other side of the yard.

Brooke was doing everything she could to get the girls in the right position, but the boys were cheating. Her point of view was that 'if they're not playing fair then why should we?'

They had the first incomplete pass when Lucas began to tickle Peyton and she completely missed the football by about 50 feet.

"Now, they're obviously not playing fair. He can't tickle you so we don't get the ball. They don't play fair then we don't play fair," she whispered to the blonde and brunette. "Use all your weapons against these 3."

"What?!" the two girls asked in unison.

"We have things they don't. We have a nice chest area and we have the art of seduction down to a T...so use these two secret weapons and let's beat these boys," she said with a quick wink and ran to be quarterback again.

"We are in for so much trouble," Peyton mumbled to Haley and received a giggle in return.

"You ggggiiiiirrrrlllsss ready?" Jake asked in a sing-song voice.

Haley threw him a dirty look as Brooke was getting ready to throw the ball to the girls. They waited for Brooke to call 'hike' and as she did they ran out across the lawn for the second time.

Lucas came up from behind Peyton and wrapped his arms around her mid-section while his hands began to roam and slowly his fingers walked their way up her shirt. She began to get lost in his touch and his steady breathing from behind her, but was startled when she realized where they were.

"Peyton! This is PG, hun!" Brooke yelled when Peyton's knees started to buckle from underneath her and she adjusted to Lucas' touch. Her back arched somewhat and Brooke yelled again. Peyton snapped from her fantasy world and looked behind her, to find a Scott smirk cross his features.

"Ah, ah, ah. I have a football game to win, Scott. You are not going to manipulate me like this. I refuse!" she said in mock-seriousness and scrambled from his arms.

Jake was charging towards Brooke and she was in a helpless state. Nathan was holding Haley hostage in the air while she kicked and yelled at him to get off. Brooke did the only thing she could.

"C'mere big boy," she whispered seductively and he fell out of football mode and into lust. His eyes filled with a look of hunger for the girl in front of him and he walked to her when she wrapped her arms around his neck. She let her lips come dangerously close to his while teasing him all the while.

Peyton noticed the torture the brunette was throwing Jake's way. She hid a small smile as she watched Jake's obvious need for the girl, who she considered one of her best friends. Now, was the right time to throw her plan into action, considering Haley was a little caught up.

She pulled Lucas into her and pulled his ear closer to her mouth. His hands rubbed against the small of her back and for a moment, her mind went blank. She had to channel all of her energy to remember the point of this whole thing. She opened her mouth and began to whisper. She whispered in a sultry tone and watched his eyes close. Her mouth inched closer and she blew a tiny bit of air to his ear which resulted in a small moan. She released herself from his grip and turned around, putting her back to him as he engulfed her in his arms.

Peyton saw Brooke's face and the smile that played across her lips. Brooke threw it as hard as she could to Peyton who caught it and took off, completely snagging herself from Lucas' hold. She ran to the touchdown zone and made it just before Nathan had her foot.

"Haha! Take that you...boys! We got a touchdown and you didn't!" Peyton yelled at the top of her lungs to the dumbfounded boys. Haley and Brooke came running to her and the three of them had a nice little victory dance in front of the boys.

That was exactly how the rest of the game went. The boys actually managed to get two touchdowns in while the girls had 4. If not for the wonderful art of seduction, the girls would've had nothing, but those boys succumbed to every little whisper or touch the girls offered.

"I cannot believe we won!" Brooke yelled, in a giddy state after messing with the boys in front of her.

"Oh, please. We let you win," Nathan pointed out, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

"You did not! You boys are just way too horny," Haley added to the girls comebacks.

"Ah, but that's where you're wrong. You girls want it just as much as we do," Lucas responded, putting his two cents in.


Peyton let her jaw drop as did the other 2 next to her. Peyton wanted to know just who he thought he was, and she was not going to let him have the satisfaction of knowing that she wanted him more than anything when that smirk crossed his face. 'Damn hormones. I want him right there. I should just throw him down and take him right there. Wait...bad idea. I need to tell him tonight' she told herself, but the pain was almost unbearable. She was scared of getting hurt again. 'I'm always so scared' she whispered to herself while Lucas, Jake, and Nathan stood across from them. She blanked out from the whole argument but all the while Brooke, Jake, Nathan, Haley, and Lucas were arguing over who wanted the other more. Did the guys love the girls more...or the other way around?

"Maybe we do want it...but who says we want it with you?" Brooke questioned, in the sexiest tone she could muster. Jake's face faltered a little before he quickly regained his composure.

"Who else would take you girls?" he asked, insulting Brooke and Haley along the way.

Brooke huffed, and crossed her arms across her chest very slowly. She made a face of disgust at the three boys and stomped off, dragging Haley and Peyton with her.

"Peyton, what's up with you?" Haley asked, noticing her drifting while they trudged along behind Brooke, who was 5 feet ahead of them. Peyton wondered whether she should tell Haley or not.

"Um, I want to tell you but I just don't know if I want Brooke to know yet," Peyton replied, hesitantly.

"Why?"

"Look, I love her to death and she has been my best friend since I was little. She was there for me when my mom died and has been ever since. But, if you haven't noticed she isn't the best at keeping her mouth closed when I really need her to," Peyton rambled off quickly before Brooke heard anything.

"Ok, here I got an idea," Haley whispered before she grabbed Peyton's arm and darted off sideways.


The two girls of only about 24 years old sprinted as fast as they could off towards the River Court. Peyton Sawyer had never felt more alive in years. The last time she had spontaneously snuck off and ran had been on New Year's Eve of 2003. It was so many years later and she was actually enjoying just running. She was laughing and completely out of breath when they arrived at the picnic table.

"Wow," Haley said, joining the laughing and plopping herself on the table.

"Yea...I haven't done something like that in years," Peyton whispered, her voice full of nostalgia.

"Guess we all need to do that once in a while. Especially with how we all grew up. Especially you, Peyton."

"What do you mean?" Peyton asked, questioning the meaning behind Haley's words.

"I mean, your mom died when you were only ten. You grew up so fast and learned to take care of yourself, then at 16 you find out you're pregnant and Lucas doesn't even stick around when he finds out. You never really got to be a kid. Just a carefree kid who didn't have to worry about going home to their baby or empty house. Ya know?" Haley explained, watching Peyton's expressions wearily.

"Yea. Is that why I'm so scared?" Peyton asked the brunette, cryptically.

"Huh?"

"I have something that I need to get off my chest. It's just that I didn't know who else to go to and I don't wanna lose him...things were just starting to be normal and we were really good..." Peyton said, trailing off.

Haley sat in the silence watching Peyton's eyes tear up. 'The six of us cry way too much for being in our 20's. This is supposed to be the prime of our lives and all we've done is cry' Haley thought to herself. Haley scooted closer for support and Peyton sensed it.

"What's wrong? You can tell me," Haley said, soothingly.

"I'm pregnant again. I didn't mean it, but it happened. We were together one night at my house a little while ago and everything just happened so fast. We hadn't had each other in so long. I needed him. We rushed into things. I don't think we can afford another kid, and I don't want it to put a strain on us. Have you noticed that every time I've gotten pregnant something goes wrong? I can't lose him, Hales."

FLASHBACK

"Lucas, believe me I didn't want to hurt you, that's the only reason I left. I left because I didn't want to tie you down to me and this kid. I wanted to let you live happily," Peyton told him as tears ran down her cheeks for the hundredth time today.

"So, what would've happened if I never found out? I would just have a kid somewhere that I didn't even know of. Peyton, you of all people should've known how I wanted to be there when I had a baby. After what my mom went through. God, I wanted to do all that with you. I wanted to go to the breathing classes and I wanted to be there for the 3AM cravings. I wanted to do all of that. Why would you leave when you knew the way I grew up. I looked for you all these months and all this time you were talking to my two best friends? Do you have any idea what I went through trying to get to you?" Lucas asked with tear filled eyes.

"Do you have any idea what it was like to watch you lay there? For four months I was wondering if this kid was going to have a father. That's when it hit me. If you did wake up, what were you gonna do? Go back to Brooke? Were you gonna leave me because you had a career in basketball?"

Lucas sat there shocked. She knew he was thinking I'm not my father so she answered before he had time to say anything.

"I know you're not your father but when it comes down to it you didn't think you were going to be in this situation. You never know how you're going to react until you're in the situation. Do you get what was going through my mind?"

"Yea, you apparently didn't think I was going to be a good enough father for him." He walked over, kissed the baby on the forehead and walked out of the room.

END FLASHBACK

Peyton fell into a memory that she truly hated to relive. It was probably the second worst moment in her life. It sat right up there with the day she found out Lucas cheated on her and when she handed the divorce papers to him in the delivery room and when Haley left. It was absolutely horrible that she could recount the worst memories of her life so quickly. But, hey, what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger, right?

Haley nodded her head, remembering the day clearly. Lucas had punched Nathan into oblivion and threatened him. He had also pushed her across the floor and taken off in a mad rage. She looked over to Peyton who looked entranced by the day her baby girl was born. One word came to mind from the stories she'd heard, Divorce.

FLASHBACK

"Peyton, why don't you just come home?" Lucas asked, wanting his wife and kids home.

"Lucas, not now, please," she demanded, aggravated.

"Peyton, we can get past this," he stammered.

"No, not this time. I didn't want to do this here, but it's the only way," she said, handing him a small manilla envelope.

Lucas felt his heart stop in his chest. He already knew the divorce papers were sitting in that envelope. His heart told him it was time to be a man and set her free. He signed the papers and hoped that she had it in her heart to let him have joint custody of the kids.

END FLASHBACK

Haley gave Peyton's arm a little shake to wake her from her memories and Peyton's eyes widened. Her insecurities played right through her eyes, and Haley felt her own eyes tear. 'Crying sucks' Haley thought bluntly. Peyton was so scared. How could she make it with another kid. Would Lucas actually be there for the birth and stay this time? Could she trust him? She was distraught and the memories came back all over again of her lonely nights the first and second times around. She didn't want anyone to have to go through the pain, when she found out Lucas was cheating. So many nights had been spent in the shower in tears, not knowing what to do with herself anymore. It was a time in her life that she would've considered herself clinically depressed.

FLASHBACK

The fetal position was not one she used for many years. The last memories of being this way was right after her mother died. Her knees were pulled closely to her chest as she wrapped her weak arms tightly around them. She laid on her side, tucked under the covers. Her little boy had ever so gently tucked his mommy in and made sure his sister was ok. At four years old, she had someone who had unconditional love for her.

The tears fell quietly as another cold and lonely night passed her by. How could she go on living like this? There was no way in hell her nights were going to be this way. But they were. She laid in the dark and solitary room, alone. Never feeling more lonely before, never feelings more numb. Her heart had already shattered and taken it's damn good old time falling into the pit of her stomach.

"Fuck love," she muttered, but her words went unnoticed by the t.v. and bureau.

They stood in the same position as before, not making any move to comfort her. They stared blankly at her curled up figure in the bedspread. She gave a look of disgust at the useless pieces of her room that were doing nada for her in her time of need.

"I'm supposed to hate him," she said quietly and yet again nothing made a move. She watched expectantly, as if something in her room was magically going to wrap her up and take her away. "Why do I still love him so much?" she questioned as she pulled herself from the bed and collapsed to the floor.

She laid and let her eyes shed tears for her whole life that had gone wrong. For her kids with no father, for Haley stuck in Europe, for Nathan who's left alone, for her broken marriage, for the girl who was breaking it, for Haley's baby who wasn't going to know Nathan, for her mother who was gone, for her father who was left with shattered memories, for Brooke who had been cheated on, for Jake who was living alone without Nikki, for her whole broken childhood, and finally for Lucas, who she still loved with all the pieces of her broken heart. That he broke in the first place, may I mind you.

END FLASHBACK

And now, everything was right back to where she started. Haley sat next to her, not knowing of the nights she survived or the tears she shed. But that was Haley, always there and the best friend that Peyton could ever have. They didn't know how much they needed each other in these moments.

HOPE YOU ENJOYED. I WORKED REALLY HARD AND I NEED YOU TO REVIEW. TELL ME WHAT YOU THOUGHT.

NEXT - Peyton needs to tell Luke / Will things turn out ok? / Some couple time!!! (much needed) / the kids find out about Peyton / maybe some more surprises!!!!

I realize the part with the bureau and tv made not much sense but I needed some comic relief from the tears. Will update soon!!!