At Long Last…
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A/N: Hihi greetings to all! This story is going onto chapter four now! Hmm, this will be the last chapter for my very first fanfic, hoped u like it! Erm, anyways, at this point in time, Fenris is slowly discovering her feelings for Loki ( thought she certainly doesn't know or realise that she does or simply refuses to accept the fact), and Loki knows that there is no way that he can stop himself from loving her…oops said too much I guess, read on now….
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It was about sometime past midnight when Fenris awoke, sensing that something was not quite right. Dragging herself up, she turned around to examine the surroundings, everything was alright, nothing much seemed to be the matter…..except that Chaos and Iris were MISSING…!
Being curious, she adjusted her clothes and strode over to where Loki was carrying out his nightly patrol…
"Umm…Loki? Do you know where Chaos and Iris went?" inquired the warlock.
"Yes. Iris said she was hungry, and dragged Chaos into the nearby forest to find something to eat." The assassin crossed his arms and cocked his head to one side, giving Fenris a look of curiosity (cute huh? XD)…, "Fenris, is anything wrong?" he asked.
Realizing that the assassin had noticed the look of worry splashed all over her face, Fenris tried to thinking of something to cover up her embarrassment…, "Oh! It's nothing! It's just that tonight's a little chilly, don't you think?"…
"Hm. Maybe…Do you need a coat Fenris? I do not feel cold, you can have mine." Loki said as he started to take off his coat as if he could not wait to give it to her. "No Loki, I'm fine, if you are not feeling cold why would you wear your coat in the first place? Keep it on. I just need a walk and I'll be fine. Thank you."
"…"
"Fenris? Do you mind if I accompany you? I fear 'tis not safe if you go by your own." Said the assassin, with a trace of concern quite audible against the quiet of the night…
"Sure, let's go" smiled Fenris as she turned to leave. Hmm, Loki seems to have changed lately…,for the better…I never knew there could be such a…warm side to him…
Fenris smiled to herself, feeling comforted by the thought that she may not be alone after all,…,now that Loki seemed to become more approachable… In truth, he actually was the only person she could talk to without feeling miserable… (well, I'm sure you guys know about Chaos and Iris right?).
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She would let me walk with her… thought Loki as he failed to stop the smile from coming on. Feeling a little bit less nervous, he took the initiative to drape his coat over Fenris.
"There, I still think that you need it more than I do…no buts." He added the last two words in as soon as Fenris was about to say something in protest. "Well, thank you Loki...", appreciation clearly evident in the warlock's voice.
As they were walking along the hill, Loki felt the sudden urge to hold Fenris's hand, he wanted to hold it to remember what it felt like, as he recalled the surge of emotion that he experienced when he saved her, back on the sky-ship. He had never felt this thing called love before, never had he experienced walking with someone feeling this way…never had he liked anyone even…the assassin was truly thankful to the Fates for letting him chance upon Fenris Fenrir…the woman he adored and loved…
No…I cannot… he thought as what his elder said occurred to him again…arrgghh…why does this have to happen? If only I was free to love her…Fenris…help me… he thought out to her as a headache started to plague him…
Unknowing to what the person behind her was thinking or feeling, Fenris strolled with aimless steps, a many dozen things going through her mind at once… Images of Chaos and of Iris fleeted through her mind incessantly as she tried to rid herself of them… Balder…come back to me, Balder… don't leave me…please don't…
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Two people strolled under the night sky of Rune-Midgard, together physically but yet trapped separately inside his and her own universe of thoughts…trapped in unseen agony…
Meanwhile…somewhere not far off….
"Chaos, say it to me…please…" came the pleading voice of Iris Irine in the distance…
Them! Hearing Iris's voice, Fenris ran over to where it was coming from…fearing that her worst thoughts were coming true now…
Loki, jerked out of his thoughts suddenly by Fenris's sudden reaction…ran after her, fearing HIS own thoughts coming true as well…
Standing behind an oak tree, Fenris tried hard to calm herself down, as she witnessed her worst nightmare unfurling its hideous wings right before her very eyes…
"Chaos…will you say it to me? I know we both feel something for each other, don't we?" the cleric said imploringly to the rune knight in her arms.
"Yes Iris…it's been some time now, I…yes…I…I love you Iris, I promise you to take care of you forever Iris, I'll be your comfort when you need me, will you be mine?"
"Oh Gods! Of course I will be yours…I thought you would know that right from the start! Numbskull…took you so long to say to me what had been obvious to us all this while…I love you Chaos…I love you." Sighed the cleric as she buried herself deeper into the knight's warm embrace, both lovers beaming in unison with their newfound happiness in each other…
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"Balder! You…Yo…"
Letting out a sharp whimper of despair seeing her worst nightmare realize in front of her…Fenris buried her face in her hands, unexpectedly breaking down into sharp sobs of agony. She felt as if the sky just came down on her as her heart, broken so many times before, sank into the very depths…
"Fen..Fenris! Wh…Why are you here?" cried out Iris in surprise as she quickly dislodged herself from Chaos and ran over to the warlock, whom she almost could not even recognize, for she had NEVER in all this time seen Fenris in such a broken state… "Fenris! Are you alright? What's wron…"
"GO AWAY! Leave me alone! Please! Don't come near me! Don't!" screamed the warlock as she turned around suddenly and fled into the darkness, her heart-wrenching sobs fading to nothingness…
"W…What have we done?" cried Iris, still confused over Fenris's reaction. "Loki, do you know whats happening here?" pleaded Iris, about to burst into tears as well.
The assassin glared at them with utmost anger and spat only three words before he took off after the warlock, "Fools, utter fools."…
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Why? Why did it have to turn out like this? Balder…what have you done? Why have you turned from me? I've waited for you for a thousand years…It cannot end like this…no…it can't…
Am I doomed to this fate? O Gods you must be laughing at my foolishness now…laughing at my folly…traveling through a thousand years just to hurt myself with this… Save me from this…someone…anyone…I cannot live with this anymore…no more…
"Fenris."
His voice came through her thoughts like a cold winter breeze through a hot summer's day. Her confusion seemed to clear by itself as he came through to her… As he wiped away her tears…her vision cleared to see that it was him all along…a sudden ray of realization hit her like the first ray of the morning sun did. Loki…, his name seemed to have a meaning to it now, somehow…
"Fenris, let me come to you…let me heal your pain…Fenris…" the assassin whispered to her in a gentle voice, one so familiar and so comforting, one that was there all along, without her realizing it.
"Fenris, let me come to you…let me heal your pain, wipe away your tears…"…
It was him.
The one person who could give her comfort, the one who could give her hope, the one who could give her everything when nothing else remained…It had been Loki all along…the silent, ever-watching companion that was with her ever since her journey…how could she have missed knowing it was him all along?
"Loki…It's you…it's really you…"muttered the warlock as she gazed into those familiar, deadly azure eyes…eyes that were now washed with concern…concern for her…
"Fenris, it is I who loves you true, did you not know? I love you Fenris, do not hurt yourself anymore from this moment on, for you hurt me deep when you do…" the assassin's voice seemed so much more human this time, so much more…loving.
Throwing herself with abandon into his embrace, his ever-open embrace…Fenris cried, she cried hard into his wide, strong shoulders. Having realised how much she had hurt him all this time…all this time when she was pining for someone who did not in the least notice her, she felt Loki's pain as her own now…
"Loki, I…I'm really sorry! I never knew how much I hurt you until now! Forgive me Loki…forgive me…" Fenris found that she could not find any words to heal his pain, she truly appreciated him now, the one person who had been there for her all along, silently giving her his love.
"Fenris, it is fine, you don't need to apologize to me Fenris, I have never blamed you for anything…I am already glad that I met you…it is to yourself that you need to apologize to, for you have been hurt. Let me be with you Fenris, I promise to never leave you, I will always protect you Fenris, my love, always." Loki took in a deep breath as he pulled her closer to him, feeling their bodies together as if they were made to fit into each other so perfectly.
It seemed as if where they stood under the stars, the two of them once lost and trapped in their own universes of pain and sorrow, there now seemed to be a separate universe that took them deep into each other…sharing their every thought and fancy…one universe that seemed to have been born…created only for them…the doorway to which only the two held the key to…and in this alternate universe of theirs, both Fenris Fenrir and Loki finally found what they had been looking for all these years….each other.
Gazing into each other's eyes, the both of them saw themselves mirrored in each, looking at what was made for them since the very beginning of time, what they have always searched for, but never did find….until now.
"Fenris, my love. I am actually forbidden to love anyone in my time here, all these years I have shunned human company in order to obey this cruel rule, but as I hold you now, I know that I would give up everything Fenris, I do not care for being greatest of assassins or for pride or anything else…Fenris, you complete me. I am willing to give up all else to be with you Fenris, let me take you to where we should be Fenris…let us go to somewhere to escape all these sorrow my love… Come with me…we will be happy always…"
"Loki…I know now that I was such a fool to have been so blind, I never saw you Loki, I let my blindness hurt me time and again, and I hurt you too…but all these will be gone now, I will go anywhere with you my love, my saviour. Take me, take me wherever you are going Loki…Let us have the happiness which we deserve, after spending so many years going around in circles, much time has been wasted, and I want to cherish every moment with you Loki, I love you…I really do…"
And as the first rays of dawn broke through the darkness of night, Loki sealed the doorway to their own universe with a kiss on Fenris Fenrir's lips.
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"This is strange…where did the two of them go? Chaos…just what did we do to make them behave this way?"
"I don't know Iris…Maybe they have left for good…I don't think they're coming back Iris…..ever."
As the red-haired couple faded into the horizon,…neither of them noticed a familiar wolf-bone hair-pin(1) lying in the grass…
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(1). The wolf-bone hair-pin that belongs to Fenris reminds her of her past existence as the wolf-goddess, as the lover of Balder. Well, the fact that it is discarded by her now shows her decision.
Wahahahaha! Yay! Finally finished this story although the ending might not be too impressive…too much mush going on here maybe? Lol….peace outs
