Disclaimer: I don't own Final Fantasy, but I do own this story so you can't sue me!
My Immortal
I'm just so tired of being here. Suppressed by all of my childish fears
When you faded, it was a sword going through my heart. I was afraid to love again after Chappu died, but you showed me that even fruitless love ending in pain is better than not knowing what it is to love. But everyone and everything I have loved has gone. I just can't do it.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave, because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.
When I look to the blue ocean, all I can see are the deep depths of your eyes. The piercing blue gems that I had many times wished to fall into. I suddenly snap back into conciseness and cry. I cry because you are not there to love. I wish you would stop playing with me like this and just go away. And yet I wish you'll stay.
These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.
Whenever I cast a spell, I remember the many times that we fought side by side to protect Yuna. I see the sunset and remember the day that Yuna sent the many souls. You came to me for the answer to why there was a sending. I felt my heart skip a beat every time you spoke. But you gazed so admiringly at Yuna. You don't know how I wished that you would look at me like that.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears. And I've held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me.
At the Al Bhed Home, it was the hardest thing to tell you the tragic news that I had had to deal with for years. When you cried, I felt tears of my own, but I held them back. Many times I had wished that I was brave enough to outwardly cry, but then, it seemed that I was empty of tears. But I did my best to make you feel better. I knew that it was a small token of kindness, but it was a lot for me. When we fought Evrae I could see the fear in your eyes that it was too late. I cast my strongest spells to help you. I wish you noticed but I fear you hadn't. When we watched Yuna marry Seymour, I don't know if you consciously felt me put my hand on your shoulder, but you seemed to relax when I did.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
When we walked down the long roads, you always were able to smile when our feet got tired and painful. You smiled when you promised Yuna would live. Your laughing eyes were the light in the dark nights. You always smiled in the sad times. I look into my heart sometimes to find you and even now I feel the warmth of your joy and the loving passion of your smile.
Your face haunts my once pleasant dreams. And your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
Every night I have the same dream about you. We are running towards each other. When we come close together, you vanish, and I am left to fall on the cold, hard ground, my blood-red eyes spilling tears. And then everything goes dark. I wake up in a cold sweat. Whenever I visit the temple, I hear you singing the Hymn of the Fayth. I then run out crying my eyes out. People find me curled up in a ball, having cried myself to sleep.
These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.
I could not feel more pain if I slashed myself with a dagger. Chappu's death must not have been true heartache. I want to die sometimes, but the memory of all our good times together gives me a reason to wake up in the morning and relive them for hours.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears. And I've held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me.
I remember one time we were both knocked out by a fiend. I was revived first. You were unconscious, but your eyes were open. Your hand was grasping mine. You were crying. Your face seemed to hold emptiness. I had wished that you felt you lacked me, but it was probably just fear. I took a Phoenix Down and revived you. I looked after you. You watched after me too. When you jumped off and disappeared I know you didn't hear me whisper "I love you," but I hope every day that you just might have noticed my affections. I couldn't tell you how much I loved you if you came back and gave me all the time in Spira.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. But though you're still here with me, I've been alone all along.
I sometimes regret ever meeting you and falling in love with you. I keep remembering you and sometimes you appear with me. But I reach over to embrace you, but you disappear and I collapse onto the cold, hard ground, my blood-red eyes spilling tears.
I hope that this is not corny; it's my first songfic, my first romance fic, and first Final Fantasy fic. If you're going to flame, be gentle.
