Tourniquet
I tried to kill the pain but only brought more. I lay dying, and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal.
Tidus, I can't take it anymore. I can't keep going on like this. This is the last time I will be crying on this world. I look at the slit in my wrist with the dagger my father gave to me. All my sadness, misery, and angst are leaving my body. I feel so purified of it. But it hurts. It hurts so much.
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?
I just don't feel right about this though. The memory of your face gave me something to wake up to. Yuna needs me! I won't see them for years! I have to reverse this somehow.
My God! My tourniquet! Return to me salvation. My God! My tourniquet! Return to me salvation
My tourniquet is tight. I keep twisting. But the blood keeps flowing. I don't want to die like this! I want to live to a healthy old age. But I want to see you too. I want to die. I must survive
Do you remember me? Lost for so long. Will you be on the other side or will you forget me?
Will you be happy to see me in the Farplane? Have you been thinking about me? Tidus please don't have forgotten me. All of my struggle will be in vain and I will be forced to wander alone until the day I am returned to my friends. What if they shun me too? An immortal life of misery is what I will risk to see you. I love you that much.
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?
This hurts so much. Yevon kill me quick. Let me live. I want to die. I must survive.
My God! My tourniquet! Return to me salvation. My God! My tourniquet! Return to me salvation.
I don't want to sit here in pain forever. Let something happen to me. I want to die. I must survive.
My wounds cry for the grave. My soul cries for deliverance. Will I be denied Christ? Tourniquet. My suicide.
My blood flows freely now. I feel so light-headed. I am going to die. Will my soul make it to the Farplane? Will I become a fiend like so many others? Yuna, come send me. I want to die. I must survive.
(A/N: this chapter stinks. But hey, the lyrics are set and there is nothing I can do about it. Sorry)
