Ch 4: Memories 2

Disclaimer: I don't own JAG. If I did Harm and Mac will have been together by now.

Summary: Mac thinks about the past and the future.

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It began as a normal dinner between me and Harm. Then, out of the blue I told him I loved him for years and I couldn't hide the secret any longer. Harm just looked at me as if I had two heads. I was embarrassed and was about to leave, when Harm told me, he loved me. I thought he was joking around, but when I saw his face, he was serious and his eyes meant it. He took me in his arms and we just looked at each other for what seemed forever and I forgot who made the first moved, but we started kissing. I forgot he was a good kisser and I held him tightly. We both realized, we had to breathe, so we stopped. He touched my face lightly and told me, "You're so beautiful, Sarah Mackenzie." Then, by surprised, he carried me to his bedroom and that's when the most passionate night I ever had. It was wonderful and it felt right.

About two weeks later, I was in my doctor's office waiting for my latest results. I had no idea that the next couple of minutes were going to change my world. The doctor came in and to my surprised she had a smile on her face. She then blurted out those words I always wanted to hear, "Colonel Mackenzie, congratulations. By some miracle, you're pregnant." I was in shocked. "Are you sure?" I asked. "Did you confuse me with someone else?" She shook her head no. "If you want, you can take a pregnancy test right now." I agreed to take the test and was in the bathroom for three minutes and when I saw the red line on the stick, she was right. I was pregnant with Harm's baby. Twenty minutes later, I went to Bud & Harriet's house and told Harriet the good news. She knew right away, the baby was going to be Harm's and soon after was planning my baby shower.

That entire night, I was trying what to say to Harm when he got back from visiting his mom and stepdad. Two days later, in the bullpen Bud congratulate me for being pregnant and Sturgis overheard us and pretty soon the whole office knew. The only person who didn't know was Harm. When he came into the bullpen, the whole staff started to clap. "Congratulations, sir", said Bud. Harm looked confused and when to my office to find out what was going on. When I told him, his whole face was in shocked and soon after he hugged me and told me he loved me very much over and over again.

Nine months later, I gave birth to a girl. We decided to call her Elizabeth Harmony Mackenzie – Rabb. Elizabeth, from one of my favorite character in a book, Harmony because of Harm and we decided to give her both our last names, to keep it fair. When we got home, our friends and Harm's family were there just to see baby Elizabeth. Harm's mother told everyone, "Elizabeth looks like Harm when he was a baby." "Let's hope she has Mac's brains", said Sturgis. Everyone laughed and I knew Harm wanted to kill him. Nobody ever thought that in a year, nothing would ever be the same again. For nine months, we were the perfect family. Until one day that all changed. Harm told me he was leaving JAG and the Navy for good. I thought it was just a phase and was going to be back like the last time. I was wrong. I was furious with him and kicked him out of the house. I also told him, he couldn't see Elizabeth anymore. That was one of the cruelest things I ever done in my life. I didn't want to be a single mother to Elizabeth. I wanted Harm, to be there for his daughter and I ruined that for him. He should have sued me, for not letting him seeing our daughter, but in the end he didn't.

As the years passed, he still gives me child support and in return once a month I send him a letter on how Elizabeth is doing and pictures of her. The last letter I sent him, I wrote that she got accepted to the Naval Academy. I know Harm is going to be glad to read that part. His own daughter is going to follow in his footsteps. I really hate lying to Elizabeth. Ever since she was six, she always asked, "Who is my father, mom?" I know I should have told her the truth long ago, but I was afraid what her reaction would have been. I would tell her the truth one of these days, but where should I begin?

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