:sneaks in and whispers: hey everyone. :glances around quickly for flying objects:

Yuusuke: well it's about damn time you updated this story. :walks in and stands behind Cloe:

:jumps about ten feet in the air and gives Yuusuke a startled look: don do that!

Yuusuke: would you get on with it already:crosses arms and glares:

:holds hands in a surrendering pose and grins lopsidedly: okay, okay already. :coughs and grins broadly showing fangs: and now I'm proud to introduce the long, very long awaited fifth chapter of Lost.

Chibi cloey:holds up disclaimer board proclaiming that Cloe is borrowing the characters and doesn't own them:

Warning: chap contains mention of rape.

A Little Thing Called Remembering

Upon opening my eyes I found myself in that strange mirror room once again. With a sigh I ran my hands through my hair and sat down with a loud thump. Glancing around I noticed that my reflection was only shown in the mirror infront of me. I felt my eyes widen in shock as my reflection tilted it's head and smirk at me. A tiny surge of anger coursed through my veins. Oh damn… Not this again.

"Well, well, well. Look who's finally come back. Did yah miss me?" It's smirk turned into a wolfish like grin as it stared at me. "So are yah finally ready to remember? Or am I gonna have ta drag yah kicking and screaming."

My eyes narrowed as I clenched my teeth in anger. Just who the hell did this guy think he was? Er… Wait… He's who I used to be. A sigh slid past my lips as I openly glared at my Reflection. Jerk. "Just why the hell are you so eager for me to remember anyway?"

I flinched away from the mirror as my Reflection slammed its fists against the mirror cracking it and snarled. "Cause those BASTARDS that did this to us need to PAY! There the reason you decided to get rid of me! Cause you couldn't deal with what they did to us."

The Reflection's lips curled back baring fangs as its eyes took on a slightly red sheen. "Your coming with me whether you like it or not."

I swear my jaw must have hit the floor as I watched the Reflection reach right out of the mirror and roughly pulled me through. Inhaling sharply I noticed I was falling through a fractured space. Shards filled with moving pictures flew by me to quickly for me to try and comprehend them.

A scream of pain erupted from my throat as I crashed through a shard suddenly being bombarded by memories. Clutching my head in my hands another scream tore past my lips, as I seemed to relive every moment of a painful, humiliating, and torturous fight. It hurt. Oh dear Kami, did it hurt.

Vaguely I noticed I was lying on the floor in the mirror room once again. But it didn't really matter to me. The pain of being forced to remember; to relive the fight coursed through my veins causing my body to twitch now and then. With a pained gasp I sat up and blinked a few times to get rid of the blurriness. Hopefully anyway.

"So do you think you'll be ready?"

My body jerked slightly in surprise as the Reflection's voice hit my ears. Tilting my head I tried to glare at the Reflection. It didn't work to well on my part as pain lanced through my skull. With a moan of pain, I clutched my head gazed at the now doubled Reflection.

"You bastard…" I winced lightly at how weak my voice sounded to me. "Why'd you have to do that?"

"Because you're going along on the mission, with the team this time I might add… Goddamn Koenma for not sending all of us last time. If he had we wouldn't be in this forsaken mess."

I watched in slight amusement as the Reflection went into a full rant mode about how badly it hated Koenma. "I think you got a bit off track." A chuckle escaped my throat as I watched a blush spread across the Reflections face. With a soft sigh I relaxed lying on the floor. The pain I'd felt earlier was begging to dull. And I couldn't wait till it was gone.

"You know… We might actually die this time. Not that that's a bad thing."

Opening my eyes I looked at the Reflection and blinked. When the heck had I closed my eyes and why the hell was there a look of defeat on its face, "Well if we die, we die. And if we don't, we don't. Simple as that." Although now that I thought about it; I'm leaning more toward the dying situation of this whole ordeal. I blinked in startlement as the Reflection burst out laughing. Okay what the hell did I say that was so fuckin funny?

"Well from that comment I can tell you're heading in the right direction." A few chuckles escaped from its throat as it gazed at me becoming serious. "But now… It's time you got back to reality."

Raising a brow, I opened my mouth to ask how the hell I was suppose to do that when a familiar cracking sound assaulted my ears. Unfortunately a squeak slid by my lips as I fell through the shattered floor, watching the Reflection that's me but not me wave with a cocky grin on its face.

With a jolt I sat up straight, faster then I probably should have. Groaning I put my head in my hands. Damn, I think I just gave myself whiplash. I should sue. Er, wait that doesn't make any sense. I'd end up suing myself and that'd be kinda, somewhat pointless. Not to mention stupid. Massaging my temples I glanced around the room. Well, for once I'm completely alone as I wake up to my living nightmare. Throwing off the blanket I walked over to the dresser in the room, and started throwing various items around. Pulling out a pair of black jeans and a black T-shirt I stopped my rampage of the dresser and quietly left the room.

Walking softly so as not to make any noise I quickly slipped inside the bathroom and locked the door. Resting my head against the door I released a breath of air that I hadn't realized I'd been holding. Dropping the clothes on the counter I quickly stripped off the clothes I'd been in. Holding up the shirt to my nose I almost gagged. Ack! I think the clothes I just rid myself of could be used in chemical warfare. Dropping them I kicked the smelly clothes into the corner. I'd through em out after I had a shower. Turning it on I stepped into the scalding hot water. With a moan I leaned against the wall and slide down till I was sitting. A shudder went through my body as a few moments stuck in my mind; from the crash course of going down memory lane that my Reflection had decide to inflict upon me.

My nails traveled down my arm drawing blood at the memory of those 'things' running their hands across my body. Taking sick pleasure in the way I had broke down and practically begged them to stop, to leave me alone, to stop touching me. They didn't stop. Hell they took turns for a while and were delighted in my screams of pain as I cried for help from pretty much anyone. No one came though; I was left to this torture. Some friends I had. A sob broke free as I clutched my hands in my hair. It wasn't fair; I didn't want to remember this. I so didn't want to remember this. I could vaguely feel my skin becoming numb as the scalding water continues to caress my damaged body. With a morbid fascination I watched as the pink tinted water washed down the drain. Funny, I think that's the direction that my life will be going here in a few hours. If what happened last time happens again… I'm killing myself. And no one can stop me from doing that.

With a quick twist of my hand I turned the water off and exited the shower. Grabbing a towel I ran it across my body, stopping now and then to admire scars that ran here and there. Hn, I don't even know where they came from. Then again maybe I don't really want to know. Lifting my gaze to the mirror I blinked. Looking back at me was the face of a guy who'd been broken, damaged, and had nothing more to lose. I couldn't stop the smirk that fell upon my face. Yeah I had nothing to lose. Getting dressed I stepped out of the bathroom. Watch out Zenba brother's cause I'm finishing this fight one way or another this time.

:blinks and looks kinda like a fish: that… it wasn't… it really wasn't supposed to go it that direction. :shakes head: I can't believe I wrote that. :looks over the ending of the story: I really can't believe I did that.

Yuusuke: YOU! WHAT ABOUT ME:is shaking like a leaf from rage: HOW THE HELL COULD YOU DO THAT?

:blinks: I have no idea but what's done is done. ;coughs a bit: um… don ask about the Zenba brothers thing. I needed a name for the bad guys and that's what I came up with. And the next chap will probably be a flashback thing, not a real descriptive one. Since this site don like that kinda thing, but I'll probably post the descriptive one somewhere else. So I'm gonna run now since I don't really enjoy the thought of painful death by flying objects. Bye:disappears in a flash of fire and smoke:

Yuusuke:blinks and yells: GET BACK HERE YOU COWARD:runs off to look for her: