Hopeless Confessions
It was now evening and Ginny sat alone in her flat watching her muggle television, not really seeing what was going on. She was to wrapped up in her own thoughts.
Just then, there was a soft knock on her door. She thought to herself, wonder who that could be. When she opened the door she came face to face with Harry once again looking into those eyes.
"Hey Gin, sorry to barge in on you like this but I think that we need to finish our conversation that we started earlier," he said with a smile.
"Oh yeah sure come on in," she said stepping back to let him in, she was rather surprised that he would want to continue their conversation so soon, and wasn't at all prepared.
"Wow, I just realized that I haven't been over in a while," Harry said in an off hand sort of way.
Ginny who had just turned off the television muttered, "Lucky you."
"What's that supposed to mean?" asked Harry losing his cheery manor.
"What I mean is… I never see you anymore, that's all," Ginny told him trying not to sound upset.
"I'm sorry about that Gin, it's just that I've been busy," he explained.
"Yeah I know, with Vanessa."
"You don't like her?" he asked looking hurt.
"I don't know," Ginny sighed. Then motioned for him to follow her over to the couch.
Once they were sitting Harry wasted no time in asking, "So why were you at the park?"
"You have to understand Harry, about that I… wait a minute, what do you mean 'why was I at the park' when I should be asking why you were there?" Ginny had just been about to explain to Harry that she was just having some sort of bad day when it occurred to her that he should have never found her in the first place.
"Well Ginny if you really must know, Vanessa and I cut through on the way back to her place, she lives just on the other side of that park." Harry explained to her.
"Oh well how was I to know that?" snapped Ginny.
Harry sighed, "Ginny just tell me what's wrong. I know there is something wrong because of the way you were at lunch, at Ron's, and the park."
"Lunch? What do you mean at lunch?" Ginny was shocked that he had even noticed her at lunch.
"You weren't at all yourself Gin. You didn't even talk and you never so much as looked at Vanessa without cringing," he spoke as though he thought Ginny would attack him at any moment.
"I did NOT," Ginny growled.
"Gin, I saw you," he argued.
"How can you have saw me when you were to busy making goo-goo eyes at that Vanessa?" Ginny yelled and then cringed; she knew that she had just sounded like a jealous thirteen year old.
Harry looked as though he was trying to find the words to say something, so Ginny said, "Look Harry I'm sorry that I'm acting like a selfish prat okay. I just need to get used to the fact that things at going to be different from now on."
"Gin, nothing is going to change."
"But Harry it already has."
"How?" he now looked extremely confused.
Ginny was holding her breath, she didn't want to tell him, but was getting close. So she said, "Look Harry I think it would be better if you'd just go."
She then rose from the couch looking down at Harry, "You didn't answer my question Gin," he said.
"Harry, how can you be so blind?"
"Maybe I am, but at least I tell you things," he protested.
"You do not tell me anything," Ginny yelled.
"Oh yes I do" Harry said looking taken aback.
"No, because if you did then I would have known about Vanessa before the rest of the world did!" said Ginny still yelling.
"Why do you care so much anyway!" Harry yelled back.
"Because I wish it was ME!" Ginny yelled and then froze, she felt her heart stop, her blood turn ice cold, she hadn't meant to say that.
She wasn't supposed to tell Harry, this wasn't at all going as she had planed. So she decided to come up with the courage and just say it, "because I, being the stupid little girl that I am, have once again fallen completely and totally head over heels for someone who doesn't want me in return. There, now if you don't mind I…I… really think…" but Ginny couldn't finish her sentence. She choked on her words looking at a very pale and shocked Harry, then turned and ran into her bedroom locking the door. Feeling once again like a total idiot.
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