Title: "Now The World"
Author: CrimsonRose327
Genre: Angst
Summary: Riku decides to give his heart to the darkness, in exchange for a chance to forget. One-shot, Riku P.O.V.
Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts and all it's characters belong to Square Enix. Uh…Mickey belongs to Disney I guess and the the song "Now the World" belongs to A.F.I.
"Now the world"
Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
That summer created, those words, that came to life in three,
They were denied by you.
Summer I laid down, below, the glitter adorned night,
And silently sparkled, my own way.
Summer I laid down, by you, and shared my frail light,
You gave the dark to me.
(You gave the dark to me)
I stood atop the snow-covered mountain, the cold surrounding me like a blanket, beckoning me forward. The road was long, a winding path that criss-crossed throughout the mountain ending at two large intricate doors.
According to Ansem my biggest desire lay beyond those doors. Once I stepped through those doors I would be granted the ability to be free. No longer would I be chained by memories of "friends", if that's what you'd even call them. I had suffered at her hands for too long. He had said…even if it was unconsciously. I loved her so much…I went through so much to save her…and she repaid me by denying me. She chose him as her protector.
'It is better that I forget, that I surrender completely. The darkness is all I have left…my last chance.' These were the thoughts that carried me to the doors. The snow path that led the way did not seem so long, it didn't matter. I would do anything to forget.
I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(This excoriation)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Thrive on)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(This self mutilation)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them one last time.
Oh.
As soon as I pushed them open I felt something stir inside me. Only the chosen could open this door…and I had managed it effortlessly. So I did have a purpose. I was just as good as him! I was better than him! I was always the strongest…why couldn't she see that? My purpose was to feed the heartless, to become a sacrifice to the darkness! The very thought filled me with joy.
Memories I had long forgotten passed in front of my eyes, as if I had watched them and not lived them. I remembered everything. I remembered her…how she'd push her auburn hair behind her ear and challenge me to a race. I'd always let her win. She was short tempered and passionate…and oh so beautiful. She was the reason (though we didn't know at the time) for me and Sora's "friendly competition". A beautiful temptress, oblivious to her powers.
Summer a morning, so pale, alone when they found me,
As I remained sleeping, I heard them say,
"This summer created, a boy, of abject misery."
He was designed by you.
(He was designed by you)
The darkness pulled me deeper, surrounding me. No more was it something I saw and felt, it was something I was. A feeling of utter relief caught me by surprise as I allowed wisps of darkness pin me down. Slowly the memories flashed before my eyes before fading away completely. A smile formed on my face as I lay back and allowed my heart to surrender to the tranquil darkness.
I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(This excoriation)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Thrive on)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(This self mutilation)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them...
The memories of her then flashed quickly, no longer could I remember her eyes, her hair, her smile. My eyes widened in terror when I could no longer recognize the sound of her laugh. She was my addiction. I should forget about her…all she does is hurt me, and yet I could not live without her. My memories with her were the most precious to me, and here I was practically watching them be erased.
"You're a coward." I heard a harsh voice say. I looked up into the face of King Mickey himself. His face was twisted in a way anyone rarely saw. He was angry.
"Leave me alone" I mumbled drowsily. "I want to forget," I stated as the darkness slowly veiled my eyes.
"You have no right to forget! Your not the only one who was hurt!"
I knew he was right, I was just as cowardly as Ansem and Maleficent, hiding behind the darkness because the light was the scarier path.
So like a lost child,
I will hide.
(Now the World)
And like lost lie,
I will find.
(Now the World)
Find a way to return to the ones who made me,
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
I willed her heart to me. I desperately tried to reach out and grab it, wherever it was. Why should she waste her life waiting for Sora? I'm right here, I could take care of her. I wanted to scream…"WHY WAIT FOR HIM? I'M RIGHT HERE!" But she wouldn't hear me. She was just like me. She heard what she wanted to, saw what was convenient.
"Do you think…she'll notice I'm gone?" I asked as the darkness crept up my neck, already having claimed my body. "The girl I…"It struck me then, reality stuck me like a brick in the face, I couldn't remember.
Will you cry for me,
Or will you cry with me?
Will you cry for me,
Will you cry for me,
Or will you cry with me?
Will you cry for me,
(I've been a lonely one)
Will you cry for me,
(I've had this whole world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me)
Will you cry for me,
(Am I the only one)
Will you cry for me,
(I've had this world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me, drained from me.)
What was this place? Who was this creature standing before me, his mouse like features unmistakable as he turned and slowly walked away. " I could have helped you Riku, if only you had let me"
I wanted to call out to him. I had so many questions…who was Riku? Where was I? My head throbbed with pain. I couldn't remember anything. Except…except for one voice, a soft velvety voice that reverberated throughout the cave.
"What do you plan to do when you get there?"
"You've thought about this a lot haven't you?"
"…hee hee, thanks…I guess."
Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
A/N: Yes, I know…it sucked. I haven't played Kingdom Hearts in a while so forgive me if the dialogues a little messed up. There's something wrong with it…but I'm not quite sure… please review and tell me what needs to be improved to make this a semi-decent story. Thanks for reading!
CrimsonRose327
