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Title: I Love You…. Sometimes

Chapters 1? Pairing: RxS this will be a Yoai Fic. If it's not your cup of tea don't read.

Ch.1 I love you…Sometimes

POV: Riku

I love him. I love him more than life itself, and tonight I am going to tell him. I have to tell him. I can't keep holding it in

I have the whole scene planned out. We will be on play island where we will share a paopu (AN: Did I spell this right?) fruit under the New Star comet tonight.

Sora and I have been dating for about three months now, right after we admitted to having "more than friendship" feelings toward one another, and from then we were inseparable. Doing anything and everything from battle ling to going down to the clinic for Sora's monthly treatment.

It wasn't after about a month that we were dating that Sora told me about his condition. At first I was a little scared, but was soon told of all the cautionary steps placed to keep my Sora safe. I mean all the monthly clinic visits, the daily shots at home, and the meter he needs to prick his finger with every day are an adequate way to keep him safe, but I cant help this tiny seed of doubt in my heart that something someday will go bad, and I wont be able to stop it.

As I walk into the only jewelry shop on Destiny Island, I take a quick survey of all the fancy rings and jewels, but find them all too flashy and showy for my Sora. That is when I spot the necklace. It's large crown pendant on a thick silver chain. It's gorgeous, and I knew then I simply had to get it for my Sora. He would love it. Plus he has been complaining that he never has anything to wear on his neck, so now he won't have an excuse not to wear it but, it's not that he wouldn't wear it though.

As I walk down the street keeping my purchase close I can't help but smile as I pass the spot where me and Sora first kissed, right next to the candy shop where only a few minutes before I had bought Sora some of his favorite candy. We had just exited the store when I saw Sora had smeared some chocolate on his lift cheek and went in to lick it up with my tongue, and in that split second Sora turned his head causing a full blown make out session between me and Sora. I don't know if that is the reason I now love chocolate or, the ability of chocolate to make my Sora bow to any whim of mine just for a piece of it, and at those times when Sora is eating a piece of chocolate I ask why had I been made human instead of a piece chocolate. I will never admit out loud my jealousy for chocolate, only in the recesses of my do I admit it at all, but watching Sora eat that chocolate make me have certain problems in my body. Watching him take small tasting licks before putting a good half in his mouth and sucking until almost a third is left…

But anyways I am now on my way to Kairi's house to insure Sora's and mine privacy tonight. As I slowly trudge the way to her house I finally realize tonight is the night. The night I will tell Sora I love him. All of him, even the parts he is ashamed to admit are a part of him. I will tell him I will always be there for him to protect, him to shelter, and to love him.

Though as I think of what I will say to my Sora I find something wrong. I do not love all of Sora. I love Sora for his smile his laugh. For his passion and love, but I do not love the part of Sora that even as we speak infects his brain. I know the doctor that work with Sora are doing every thing they can to heal Sora, but as Sora has said before, if the doctors would take this out of him it would be as if a part of him would be missing. I guess I can truly never love Sora fully but can only love the side I saw as we were children, the side I first admitted all my secrets to during my pre-teen year and the side that gave me my first and only kisses. I cannot love the thing Sora's father put in him through testing and drugs as we were children.

POV: Sora

Something is going to happen tonight. I can just feel it. I can help feeling the excitement as if tonight is the night we will tell each other we love each other. But he can never truly love you can he, Sora?Shut-up Soran, Riku and I love each other. If he truly loved you he would have to love you as a whole, which means including me, and you now he could never do that so that kind of makes you in adequate doesn't it. No it doesn't. Riku doesn't need to love you to love me. It was me this whole time until you were forced into my body. You know it scares him don't you. That I am in here and one day I will break free and take control of the body and there is nothing you or he can do about it. You're wrong. You can never break free. As long as continue to take my shoots, go to the clinic, and test myself you will never be free again to wreak the havoc you once did. Then why do you sound so unsure of yourself? Is it because you know that it will only take one slip up and I will be free. Free to do what I like to that precious boy friend of yours. I have to leave… I have to save Riku from my self. To save him from what he can't fight. And isn't that just convenient for me. Your little boy toy can't hurt me because it would be like hurting you, cream puff. I wall get you someday Soran. I will make you pay for what you did. What are you going to do hit me with a Q-tip; because Sora you know, you've said it yourself you would feel whole with out me. Someday I won't feel that

way, and when that happens you will stop being that little annoying voice in the back of my head. Promises, Promises. Guarantees. Well guess what sugar that day isn't till very far away so I guess you will have to keep on getting used to me. I will not let you ruin my day Soran. What are you doing Sora? Putting you away for the next couple of hours! NOOOO! The pain in my arm is nothing to the headache of the medicine once more trapping my worst half in some dark recess of my brain. Someday I hope I won't have to use it… someday. I better go start getting ready for my date with Riku. He's expecting me at Play Island in 4 hours, so I better get moving.

For a second I flinch as I feel the anger coming of Soran. He is angry he will not be able to give his O so useful "advice". I suppose putting him away for now was the best course of action, but I will probably not be able to get to sleep tonight though because he will be screaming my head off. At least tonight, it will only be me and Riku and no outside influences.

I wonder if I should wear the red or blue shirt. I'm thinking the blue as it will bring out my eyes. As I put on my shirt I see a flash of yellow outside the corner of my eye. "Alright Selphie", I say "you can come out now". As if opening a flood gate her whole 89 pound body comes flying at me screaming "is tonight the night". I don't know Selphie I reply but I really hope so, but that when I feel my medicine start to weaken and pass-out. All the while hearing Selphie screaming my name out loud, and mechanical laughter in the back of my mind.

Dunn Dunn Dunn. What is happening to Sora is Soran taking over his body. Are they becoming one? Stay tuned for Chapter 2. I'll protect you.

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