A/N: Spike is back! Let the Spuffy roll! Hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters so far. Eventually there will be some of my own. Wish I had Spike, but that's a whole thing all together.

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Chapter 7:

Dawn woke up from what seemed to be a very restless sleep. She found that she had been sleeping on the floor of her living room. The bright light outside indicated that it was already morning and fairly late. Dawn got up on wobbly legs and looked around. Anya and Xander were also knocked out. They seemed to be in the same state that Dawn had been in. she racked her brain for an explanation, but the events were a little blurry.

All she remembered that was concrete was the fact that it had something to do with Willow. She walked into the hallway and saw that the door was thrown off of its hinges and lay in a heap on the ground. Other then that the house seemed pretty normal. Dawn walked back into the living room and tried to wake up Anya and Xander.

"Xander! Anya! Wake up!" Dawn yelled as loud as she possibly could.

The two adults stirred, but didn't wake up. After fifteen minutes of doing this repeatedly Dawn decided that it was a lost cause. They would wake up when they woke up. She was hungry and her stomach was telling her to retreat to the kitchen.

Stranger things had happened in the Summer's household and this would definitely not be the last. Dawn decided a long time ago not to let it get to her as much. Besides a person had to eat. She walked off to the kitchen to fix herself a sandwich.

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Blankets covered the windows of the car, but Spike could tell that it was early in the afternoon. Eleven or maybe even noon. Buffy was driving and Giles was getting some rest in the back seat. After finding out that Willow's 'men' were after them, Giles and Buffy decided that the best course of action would be to keep driving straight to Sunnydale. Giles had stopped driving at dawn and Buffy took over the wheel. She wasn't a very good driver, but she was okay.

Spike could hear Giles's gentle breathing and the sound of Buffy lightly tapping her fingers on the steering wheel. She had the radio on but not that loud. She was listening to KISFM, which was driving Spike crazy. If he had to hear that new Justin Timberlake song one more time he would surely stake himself.

Spike had tried to get some rest, but he had weird sleeping patterns of sleeping in the night and being awake in the day. He wondered when that had started. Probably sometime after the chip and during his whole thing with Buffy. He was well rest but a little jittery. Unlike how he had hoped he did not have a dreamless sleep. No dreams of Buffy, but more memories. The ones that seemed to pop up the most were the ones of him killing the slayers.

Spike couldn't help but think that it was some sort of message that his subconscious was trying to send him. Although since having the soul he had been more broody. He had sworn up and down that he would not turn into a Peaches Junior. He knew that he wasn't meant to hurt Buffy and just because he was remembering killing the slayers didn't mean he was going to hurt Buffy. It meant that he thought that Buffy didn't deserve to be around someone who had killed girls just like her.

As Spike was thinking about this he noticed that they had come to a stop. "Whas going on?" Spike asked Buffy.

"It's time for Giles to wake up. He got some sleep at least twelve hours and now it's his turn to drive the rest of the way." Buffy stated as she climbed into the back of the car.

"Oi dontcha think that the Watcher should sleep?"

"Yes, but we have to keep driving. We don't know what Willow is planning."

"I could drive."

"And die from sun exposure?"

"Right keep forgettin that this damn car doesn't have the black paint."

"It's no big deal. We have like only four hours till we reach Sunnydale."

"Did you call home? Check to see if the bit's okay."

"No. I should do that though. Giles wake up!" Buffy said when she reached the third row of seats.

"Huh?" Giles said rather sleepily.

"It's time for you to drive. It's only like four more hours. I stopped to get gas and some food."

"Oh yes drive. I'll pump the gas and you can go in and get something to eat." Giles said as he sat up and put on his glasses.

"Okay what would you like?"

"Nothing. I'm not that hungry to eat junk."

"Okay I'm going to get some food. Would you like anything Spike?"

Spike had been trying to go back to sleep rather unsuccessfully. He quirked his head up when he heard his name. "Huh?"

"Food do you want any?"

"I could go for a beer."

"I'll see what I can do." Buffy said.

"I'm going now so you might want to cover yourself with the blanket."

"Right." Spike said as he draped the blanket over himself and Buffy and Giles walked outside of the car. Spike decided that he should try sleeping again.

Buffy left Giles to the gas while she went inside the little store to buy some greasy goodness. Buffy walked into the door and looked around. There was mostly chips and candy, but there were some hot dogs at the other end of the store. Buffy walked over and got one putting on only ketchup. She grabbed a Coca-Cola and looked over at the beer section. She wasn't too sure of what to get. Spike didn't seem like the Budweiser type of guy. She grabbed a Heineken and went to the cash register.

The clerk ran up the stuff and then asked, "Can I see some id?"

"Huh? I'm being carded?"

"Yes ma'am."

"Wow weird. I don't have an id."

"Well then I can't let you buy the alcohol

"All right just give me the Coke and the hot dog."

"That'll be three dollars and ten cents." Buffy pulled a five out of her wallet and handed it to the clerk. The clerk gave Buffy her change and she walked out of the store. Giles was walking over to the store to pay for the gas.

"Bloody machine wouldn't take my credit card." He said to Buffy as he passed her.

"Hey can you get Spike's beer. They wouldn't let me because I didn't have any id." "What does he drink?"

"I don't know. Never seen him with a beer. Always scotch our bourbon. Think British."

"Heineken. Right maybe I'll get one."

"You're driving."

"Yes well I'm under a little stress lately."

"Okay I'm calling the house."

"Okay."

Giles walked inside and Buffy took out her cell phone. She had gotten her and Dawn one when Dawn started school this year. The high school had been rebuilt and who knows what kind of freaky things could happen. She wanted Dawn to be prepared. She went to the speed dial that said home and pressed the button that said call. The phone rang four times before Dawn answered it. Buffy frowned. Dawn should be in school.

Dawn was in the middle of eating when she heard the phone ring. At first she let in ring thinking that Anya or Xander would pick it up, but then she remembered that they were asleep. She walked over to the phone and picked it up.

"Hello?" Dawn said. There was silence at the other end before Dawn heard Buffy's voice.

"Dawn? Why aren't you in school? Where is Xander and Anya?" Buffy asked.

"I'm not in school because Willow and Amy came over for a nice little chat. They sucked information from our brains and that made us fall asleep. I missed school because I wasn't up. Anya and Xander are still sleeping off the effects of their brain suck in the living room."

"God are you okay?"

"Yeah. Willow seemed a little hesitant on hurting us. She just got the information that she needed and left."

Buffy was quiet for a minute before saying. "Well we should be home in about four hours. Be careful during that time."

"I will. How's Spike?"

"Well he's a little crazed. Kind of sick looking. Cowardly and unSpike like. It's all a part of the process. He should be back to normal soon."

"Physically or mentally?"

"Physically he'll be right as rain soon. Mentally. I don't think he'll every be fully back to normal. He's got a lot of guilt to go through."

"Hopefully he's not a mini Angel because I gotta tell you that that would just be terrible. Spike all broody all the time. Doesn't fit."

"Yeah I know what you mean. That would just be scary. I don't think that he'll be like that though."

"Good because I got enough of that when Angel was around. That whole feel sorry for me thing is a lot less attractive then he thinks."

"I think that's the point. Try not to get involved with anyone because of the pain and worry about becoming an evil bloodsucking fiend."

"Yeah well he should have stopped it when you guys were together."

"He had a tortured past."

"Well it was torture to listen to him. And what was with all the whispering. I could barely hear him some times."

"Yeah well let's not talk about my ex boyfriends."

"Yeah cause that conversation could go on and on. First Mister Feel Sorry For Me, then Mister Player, then Mister Farm Boy Military Man That Leaves At The Drop Of A Dime. You can pick the real winners."

"Again we're not in that conversation. Take care of yourself till I get home. I love you."

"Yeah love you too. Tell Spike I miss him and I hope that he gets better. Hurry home." Dawn said as she hung up the phone. Buffy ended the call and walked back to the car.

She opened the door to the car and steeped inside. Spike was still under the blanket but lifted it when he heard the door close.

"Oi? No beer?"

"They wouldn't let me buy it. They carded me. It was odd. I've never been carded before."

"Never bought alcohol fore ave you, Slayer."

"That would be a big fat yes. Giles went inside and got it for you. He was complaining about his credit card or something."

"The machine wouldn't take it. I could hear 'im rantin an' ravin bout it."

"Well he had to go inside and I told him to get you a beer. You hungry?"

"A little. I could go for some more blood. Is there any?"

"Just a couple of packets left. Should last."

"Right then."

"Do you want one?"

"Wait for the beer. Alcohol gives pig blood flavor."

"Oh okay that was a little gross that I just got tips on how to prepare pig blood."

"Happens when you live on the Hellmouth."

"Yeah well I guess so. Are you feeling better today?"

"If by better you mean less hungry then yes. Though the mental part is still a lil' foggy."

"Well Dawn sends her regards and said that she misses you."

"You talked to the bit. Shouldn't she be in school?"

"What are you her dad? Willow attacked the house last night."

"Is Dawnie okay?" there was some much concern and worry in his voice and in his eyes that Buffy really thought that Spike could be a worried parent.

"Yeah. She just pulled the brain sucking thing that that guy did on you."

Spike let out a sigh if relief that was foreign to most people that weren't parents or talking about loved ones. "Thas good. Wait till I get my hands on Red."

"Can't do much with the chip and the fact that Xander probably won't let you hurt her."

"'M gonna talk some sense inta her. I mean I really liked Glenda and all, but Red's takin it to extremes."

"Yeah I know. What with her running around Sunnydale like a mad woman none of us have been able to grieve. There was a burial, but no real grieving. Couldn't break down when the world is in jeopardy."

"Sounds tough."

"It is. I haven't been able to talk about it for fear that someone would break down and that would put us in danger. I mean we were all very close with Tara. She was one of us and she was the most loving and caring person there ever was."

"That she was. Didn't judge or anythin like that. She knew people."

"It's hard to think that she's gone. Just as hard as it is to think that Willow is the new Big Bad. It's like when my mom died. I just couldn't believe that it happened."

"Well it doesn't help when you don't get to grieve. Puttin it behind you might seem good at the time, but you havta except it sooner or later. Sooner is always better then later."

"I'm going to ask you a question and you have to be totally honest with me." Buffy said out of nowhere.

"Okay." Spike said. He was curious to know what Buffy wanted to know.

"Did you get your soul?"

"How did you know?"

"Anya said that champions have to have a soul. Is that what you did while you were gone?"

"Yes." Spike said in a whisper. "It was s'posed ta be who told you." Spike said whiningly.

"Did you do it for me?" Buffy said. She had to know. She knew the answer but she had to hear him say it.

"Well not just for you. Course you were the main reason I did it. I did it for everyone I cared bout and myself as well."

"But did you do it for me? Was I the person that made you realize that you wanted it?"

"Course Summers! Whatcha think that I jus' woke up one day and said 'Oi! Why don't I go out and get a soul? Why don't I face bloody impossible trials jus' for the heck of it.'?"

"I wasn't sure. I mean I didn't know that." Buffy wasn't sure of how to finish that sentence. The truth was that she just wanted to hear him say it. To finally know someone that would do something so life altering just for her. "I just wanted to hear you say that you did it for me." Buffy said. Might as well be honest to someone that knows when you lie.

"Well then thas the truth innit. Better then the lies you spew out sometimes."

"I thought I might as well tell you the truth. That and I couldn't think up as lie fast enough."

"Your honesty kills me.

The driver door opened and Giles climbed in.

"Stupid wankers! Bloody Americans! Now I know why I wanted to go back to England." Giles ranted.

"Giles are you okay?"

"It took forever to just get some gas. I think that that clerk was high was something. He asked me for my id."

"Wow I was sure that he would just give you the beer. You're like fifty."

"Thank you for that not-so-charming complement."

"Did you get the beer?" Spike asked hoping not set of a time bomb.

"Yes after I should him my id twice. He said that he had to be extra careful because I'm foreign. Something about homeland safety."

"But you're British." Spike said.

"And you're telling me this. I know that guy was just."

"On something." Spike finished.

"Yes." Giles said as he started the car and opened his beer.

"Not ta be rude or anythin but I was really kinda hopin that I'd get a beer." Spike said.

"Oh right. Here you go." Giles said handing Spike a beer.

"Thanks mate." Spike said as he popped off the cap to his beer. "Hand me a packet-o-blood will you, luv." Spike said.

"Sure." Buffy said and then tossed the blood to him. Spike opened the blood and poured his beer into it. "Okay that has to be the grossest thing that I've ever seen." Buffy said as Spike shook up the blood and beer.

"No you've seen me drink it and thas gotta be worse."

"I was over-exaggerating."

"Oh." Spike said as he lifted the packet up to his lips and drank the blood.

"You're right though. Seeing you drink the blood is worse." Buffy said as she looked away from Spike as he drank.

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Dawn was watching Passions. She had started to like the show ever since she was forced to watch it with Spike and her mom. Everyday where she didn't have school or didn't go to school she watch it. The show was on commercial and Dawn decided to get up and get something to drink. Just as she was about to enter the dining room she heard a loud moan. She ran back into the living room to see Anya and Xander waking up.

"Uh! Did we drink last night?" Xander asked groggily.

"No remember Willow came over and did that information sucking thing." Anya said.

"Right. Where's Dawn?" Xander asked when he was able to sit up.

"Right here. I woke up a little while ago."

"Really how come you didn't try to wake us up?" Anya said

"I did, but you guys were dead asleep. Regenerating or something." Dawn said.

"Yeah well whatever it was I feel like I did yesterday night before Willow should up." Xander said.

"Yeah are you hungry or tired?" Dawn said.

"Actually I have to go to the bathroom." Xander said as he got up and walked to the stairs.

"That was so weird last night. Did you feel like something was being sucked out of you? Like you were being drained of all your energy?" Anya asked Dawn.

"Yeah it was like I was doing a lot of exercise or more correctly like I did exercise and the effects were barely taking effect at that time."

"So did Buffy call at all?"

"She called a little while ago to say that she was like four hours away."

"What did she say about Spike?"

"That he was a little loopy and that he was not Spike looking."

"Well that's understandable. He probably went a long time without blood and that would make any vampire look sickly."

"She didn't say if she knew that he had a soul or not. She probably didn't have time to ask him yet."

"I think we all know that he does have it. How else could he be a champion?"

"Maybe you didn't hear."

"Dawn I've been a vengeance demon for quite some time now. I think that if I did hear the wrong version that eventually I'd hear the right one. Besides it's just known in the demon circles. D'Hoffran made sure that we knew about champions."

"Then I guess we know. Although I think that Spike would have told us."

"Maybe he didn't want to get anyone's hopes up. You know make sure that it was possible before telling. It's obvious that he has found a way."

"Yeah isn't it great. I didn't want to be too gleeful when around Xander. He has that thing were he hates any vampires or demons."

"Hey! Not all demons."

"Right I was just. you know what I mean."

"Yeah I guess so. And I do agree with you that it's great. No more drowning in the river in Egypt for Buffy. She has no reason to hold back now."

"Yeah and it's gotta be good for Spike too. He probably remembers some stuff about his life before the undead."

"Well right now it isn't all good. He's reliving thing he did while he was a vampire. A cruel, heartless vampire. Stuff like that will haunt him for awhile."

"But he'll be close to the same afterwards, right?"

"Yes very much so. There will be a fusion of the nature of his soul and the man he turned out to be. Should be interesting to see."

Anya and Dawn thought about what he would be like before Anya felt her stomach growl.

"Well I guess I better eat. Did you eat?"

"Yes I made myself a sandwich."

"And the house is still fully intact?" Anya said in mock seriousness.

"Ha! Ha! Ha! That's very funny Anya. It was only one very small fire, but I'll never live it down. I'm going back to watching Passions."

"Fine I'll get some food and come over here and watch it with you. Although we really should do some research."

"We can save that for later. We were brain sucked for crying out loud. We deserve a little time off."

"That's what you said last night when we watched those videos. We didn't get much done and I think that we should really started searching."

"Yeah after the show."

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"Giles how much longer?" Buffy said for seemed like the hundredth time. Giles was starting to get annoyed and Spike was already there. Buffy was not the on the road type that was very evident.

"A half-hour or so." Giles said. He was remaining vague on purpose and it was doing nothing to help Buffy's mood.

"That's what you said an hour ago." Buffy whined.

"Well it was true then and it's true now. Just be patient Buffy."

"I hate the road."

"Everyone loves the road, pet." Spike said. He was getting a headache from listening to her whine, but he would never tell her that. For some reason even when she was giving him a headache he still thought that she was the best woman out there. Love's Bitch and he knew it.

"Yeah well I'm not everyone I'm Buffy. These blankets are preventing us from playing any kind of road game and it's hot in here."

"You could always take the blankets down and I could be Mister Pile of Dust." Spike said rather snidely.

"Geez maybe Mister Cranky would fit better."

"Jus' not used to all the noise."

Buffy gave him a curious look.

"'Aven't been around people in a while." Spike explained.

"Oh. Sorry I'm a giving you a headache or something?" "

Somethin to that effect."

"Oh poor Spiky. You going to be okay?"

"Yeah 's jus' the noise is bothering my head. There's a lot of stuff already going on in there." "Like what?"

"Guilty feelin's for things 've done a long time ago. 'S all very unorganized."

"It will be like that for a while. You'll just have to learn to deal with it. Come to grips that you've done those things, but have changed." Giles said from the front seat. He couldn't offer anything more then that. The only vampire with a soul was Angel and no one really knew how he got passed that. According to information gathered it took him quite some time.

"Yeah well 's startin to subside, but innit jus' the guilty thins. I mean mostly it is that, but then there's my mind sayin that I should be doing thins one way instead of the other. Like Buffy should be this close."

Buffy looked a little shocked and angry.

"Sorry luv. Got nothin to do with you, I don't think."

"It's the nature of your soul. The things that made you who you were before becoming a vampire. We all know that William was a little."

"Poofish." Spike said.

"Well to put it in terms you'll understand yes. I was going for gentlemanly. I've read of how people acted in your time and I know that you were more of the quiet, stay at home be nice to others type of person. That's just how it will be."

"That makes sense. Do you want me to move?" Buffy said. "

No see thas the problem. I don't want you to move because we're far apart as I can see, but part of me is sayin she's too close. 'S like a battlefield. A great debate that no one can solve. I mean things are just so. unsorted."

"Okay well while you're having the great debate of 2003 I'll be here in this incredibly hot car. Are you sure there isn't a short cut?" Buffy asked Giles.

"Yes Buffy there isn't a short cut."

"Well what time is it?"

"It's close to four thirty."

"How far are we from the house?"

"I already told you that it would be an hour or so." Giles said in as calm a tone as he could manage. He could feel the repressed angry building up as he talked to her. She may be twenty-two, but she acted like a bloody child.

"Well at least it will be close to dinner time when we get there. I'm hungry."

"Welcome to some of the blood." Spike said.

"Thanks, but no thanks. I could go for some chicken."

"Night's approaching." Spike said out of nowhere.

"Yeah it's almost five."

"Right. Night is. right."

"Spike what's wrong."

"Nothin'."

"Are you sure? You don't seem too happy about nighttime. Supposed to be a vampire's favorite time of day."

"It's always worse in the night then in the day." Spike said expecting Buffy and Giles to know what that meant.

Buffy was unsure of what to say to him. Giles obviously preferred to stay silent.

"Well it will be okay tonight."

"You don't understand. The night calls, but I can't answer the call. Only bad men answer the call."

"Spike you're not making any sense."

"The night. Vampires roam in the night, but I can't. Gotta be good; can't be bad. I see all the bad things that I did and it hurts."

"It'll be okay tonight. Things will be different."

"Okay." Spike said as he curled up into a ball. Buffy got closer to the drivers seat and whispered to Giles.

"Hurry up and get home. I have a feeling that Spike isn't going to do to well when night comes." Giles gave a knowing nod and went back to driving. Buffy went back to where Spike was laying and tried to talk to him.

"Is there anything that you would like? Maybe some more blood. When we get home you could have some chicken when we get it."

"No 'll be too tired. Jus' want to try and sleep. If I sleep it innit so bad." Gone was all the cocky confident man who always was so self-assured and aware. In his places stood a man who was scared and frightened of himself. Spike looked and sounded like a small child trying to escape the boogey man.

Buffy placed her hand on Spike face and started to caress his check. It was something that was purely based on instinct. She wanted to make him feel better because she cared about him.

Spike's eye instantly shut the moment he felt Buffy's hand on his face. He was lost in the moment. Everything in his head was screaming for him to tell her to stop, but he couldn't it had been far too long since he had been this close to Buffy. The dreams didn't count because even though they were so real, they weren't really real. He loved her so much that he would do anything for her. He had done something big for her. He had gotten his soul back for her. So she could be assured that it was okay to have feelings for him. Everything since the time he had first realized that he loved her was for her.

"Spike are you asleep?"

"No jus' tired."

"You should rest. Go to sleep if that's what makes you feel better. I'll just sit and watch you."

"No don't move." Spike said with a desperate tone in his voice.

"You want me to stay right here?" Buffy said with an incredulous tone in her voice.

"Yes please." Spike said as he shut his eyes again.

"Okay." Buffy stayed right there and just watched him. Her hand was still caressing his face and she was just admiring his face. He looked even more innocent when he was asleep. Buffy had never really stayed to watch him sleep and now she was just absorbing the moment.

Spike tried to sleep. Sleeping through it was better then being awake when he saw the terrible images of what had happened in the past. It was like he could pretend that they were just some bad dreams that he kept having rather then facing the fact that it was him doing those things. He just couldn't sleep though. He felt Buffy's hand on his face and he put all his energy into feeling Buffy's hand.

He didn't want her to ever stop. He could feel the night coming and knew what that would bring. He would just have to focus on everything but the memories that he had.

"Spike you gonna wake up or do I have to carry you." Buffy whispered in his ear. He had been so focused on other things that his mind had drifted into a half sleep mode.

"Hum?"

"We're here. We've been here actually. Come on let's go." Spike only responded with. 'Hum'. "Okay then I guess I'll have to carry you." Spike felt himself being lifted, but wasn't sure what was going on. He kept his eyes tightly shut. Buffy walked inside her house where all the people were waiting for her.

"Why are you carrying Spike?" Dawn asked.

"Because he refuses to wake up from this state that he's in. Some sort of way to block out all the memories I guess." Buffy said.

"He does look very unSpike like. The hair would throw anyone off." Anya said pointing to Spikes hair, which was longer then usual, and turning brown.

"Yeah and he's paler then usual." Dawn said.

"Okay now that everyone has given Spike the good once over I'm going upstairs to put him on a bed. Save me some chicken."

"Kay." Buffy heard them say as she carried Spike all the way upstairs. He was very light. She had carried Spike before a couple of times and he was never this light. She decided to let him sleep in her room.

She opened the door and lightly placed him on the bed. She had every intention of going downstairs and eating some of the delicious KFC chicken, but she had to make sure that he was okay. She took a seat next to the bed and watched him.

Spike wasn't entirely asleep. His mind was in this state where he was half- aware of what was going on around him. Like he was trying to find rest, but couldn't. Then a memory hit him. It was one that was really gross and demented. It was one where he was with Dru, Angelus and Darla. They were out killing a family.

Not just killing to eat, but totally massacring them. Doing awful things to them. Spike had been more of a kill for food kinda guy and would engage in a slaughter when everyone else was. He actually didn't have the stomach for massacres often. This was sick though. He saw him and Angelus doing awful things to the women of the family and Dru and Darla playing with the others.

"No stop it! You shouldn't do that! Please I don't want to see this!" Spike screamed. Buffy was alarmed to hear him talking. He was shaking and yelling. He most have been having another one of those times were he saw his past. She walked over to him and tried to calm him down or at least wake him up.

"Spike! Come on Spike! Stop it and just wake up already!" Buffy said as she tried to get him to wake up. The memory ended and Spike opened his lazy eyes. They were glistened with tears.

"It was awful. 'M awful. I should be dead." Spike said in a barely audible voice. The tears were threatening to come down.

"No, you are not awful. That was in the past. Things are different now. You have a soul and you aren't the man who did those things. Even your demon wouldn't do those things anymore. You've changed so much and you're a better man then anyone gives you credit for." Buffy said as she tried to calm him down. She had climbed on the bed and was holding him close to her.

"But I did 'em and I can't change that. All those people are dead because of me. How can I not be a bad person?"

"Because you've changed."

"But I was such a bad person. A killer and I enjoyed it."

"Spike don't think about what you did. You're right it's in the past and you can't change it. You can however do good for the rest of your life to try and make things better. You can be a good man. You already are. You've grown so much and I refused to see it, but now I do."

"But."

"Shhh go to sleep."

"I can't sleep. They'll come again and I don't want to see things like that. I don't want to be alone." Spike said in a whisper. The tears were flowing down his face by this time.

Buffy turned him around so that they were facing each other.

"You're not alone. I'll stay here and make you feel better. I'll take care of you."

"Really even after I did very horrible things to you?" Spike said questioningly.

"Yes. I'll be here for you." Buffy said as she pulled Spike closer to her. His head rested on her chest and she put her chin on top of his head. One of her arms was draped around his waist and one of his arms was draped over hers. She held him close to her and pulled the blanket over them when he started to shake again.

She would kiss his hair anytime she could feel him shaking. Soon he fell asleep and so did she with the chicken long forgotten and the furthest thing from her brain. The only thins she thought about was how nice it was to sleep next to Spike again.

A/N: Okay so I'm a sucker for the Spuffy. My feelings are why should I drag it out. I know that everyone is just waiting for it and I really don't feel like waiting as well. So the Spuffy comes out right now. And it stays that way for awhile so there you have it. On a totally different note: Please review. Love reviews a lot. Yes I do! So go on submit a review. It's fun. Hope you enjoy the story so far. I'll try to update faster, but you know, things get in the way some times.