AN: In answer to the person who asked if I meant 'State of Mind', no I did not. I meant what the title says: 'State of Mine'. This story is an exploration of the way in which some of the characters see themselves and others. The title refers to this self examination.
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The testing went smoother than Ranma would have thought. There were nearly no comments about her change after going through the tests in her female form. Her male form did elicit a few comments from the female nursing staff, though those quieted down thanks to Akane's growls and her glowing mallet. Ranma wished he had grabbed a longer gown since the nurses had gotten an eyeful of a part of him he generally didn't parade in the open. It didn't help that Akane had also gotten a peek and she had dropped the mallet onto the head of an innocent desk, causing the desk to shatter and the contents to spill across the floor while she blushed and stared. Ranma had yanked the gown down to cover himself, so thoroughly embarassed by the mistake he failed to notice the shakiness in Akane's steps as she walked over and collapsed into a chair near the door, or the wide eyed stares the nurses kept giving him afterwards.
While the results of some of the tests would take time to be known, there were some that were ready by the time they prepared to leave, Ranma having once again returned to her female form.
The doctor guided them through the closeup xrays of Ranma's skull in both forms in comparison to a normal xray of both a male and female brain (Images taken at the same time with Akane and Tofu volunteering for their genders). Though neither Ranma nor Akane knew much about anatomy and medical problems, they could see that there was indeed something different about Ranma's xrays. Near the back of the skull, where the head starts to slope downwards, there was a thin spike of something pressing directly against part of Ranma's brain.
The image showed that, in his male form, the spike was pressing against more of the skull due to a lack of space. The inside back of his skull showed the faint lines of healed fractures and there were other, smaller, pieces of bone floating in the fluid cushoning of the brain pan, occassionaly pressing against the tissue of the brain. In his female form, the spike shifted, making much less contact with the brain, and the floating pieces of bone shifting closer to the skull than the brain.
Yosami-sensei pointed out to them the pieces and mentioned that, as Akane had theorized, they were pressing against the part of the brain that regulated sexuality and emotional control. The specialist explained in a way they understood, that Ranma really wasn't able to control his emotions in the way most people could and that this affected how he responded to certain situations. He also explained that the other xrays showed many signs of broken or fractured bones, there was nothing indicating that there was anything physically wrong with Ranma's . . .equipment. The problem was that the bone spurs were pressing against the area where sexual excitement was control by his hormones.
It was stopping the hormones from being released so that Ranma was incapable of becoming aroused. Somehow, during the shifting done by the curse, the spurs were moved and Ranma's female brain was able to release those hormones and that was why his female body could become aroused while his male could not. Admittedly, there was a limit to the amount it was releasing. Ranma's inexperience with being female and the lack of reciprocal hormones were the main causes of his confusion over the feelings he had in his female form.
Akane felt both saddened and pleased by the news. Here was actual physical proof that Ranma wasn't the pervert she had so often accused him of being. The confirmation of her theory pleased her to no end. The sad part was that she had been so mean to her fiancee, and there had never been any reason for it. The fact that Ranm was so forgiving strengthened the guilt she felt over the months of bashing and insults she had thrown at him. The knowledge that Ranma had not been able to keep from insulting her due to the injury also saddened her.
The best news was that the condition was easy to fix. All they had to do was drill a small hole in the top of Ranma's skull and carefully remove the spurs closest to the brain. Once that was done, the doctor was certain that Ranma's brain would begin to produce the hormones needed. It might take him some time to gain control of himself since he would begin to experience emotions and thoughts he had never felt before. And it would also take time to heal. Judging from Ranma's xrays, and his medical records which had been provided by Tofu, the doctor was certain that it wouldn't take long for the hole to heal completely. He even theorized that removing the spurs would stimulate the weakened part of Ranma's skull to heal further. Of course, they'd have to wait for the results of the MRI's and CAT scans before they could do anything. Those images would detail exactly where they'd have to cut and which spurs they could remove safely.
They arranged to return the next week, after the Saturday morning school session. By that time, all the results would be in and they'd be able to arrainge for the operation. Ranma muttered a little to himself about the wait, but calmed with a gentle hug from Akane. The doctor than told them that even with Ranma's increased rate of healing, it would be at least a month before his head was fully healed, though he would notice changes in his emotions and physical reactions almost immediately. The doctor advised that during that recovery time, Ranma would need to avoid fights of any kind and would also need to remain in one form.
The pair groaned at that and gave a quick explanaition of their life, beginning with their parents and running thtough all the suitors and rivals the pair had. The doctor thought for a moment and decided that he would bring the results to the Tendo dojo himself and explain to all about the dangerous nature of the surgery and about the limitations that Ranma would be under while in his care. They then explained the way water always seemed to find Ranma. The doctor suggested staying in female form for the month, but realized that that would be counter productive since the surgery would mainly effect his male form. He asked if there was a way to block the transformation and they hesitantly told him about the waterproof soaps the Amazons had. He thought for a moment and told them that by Saturday, he'd have the means to convince the Amazons that lending them a month long supply of the soap would be in their interests, without compromising the engagement between Ranma and Akane.
They said their farewells and made their way back to the elevators, emotionally drained by the experiences of the day. Once in the elevator car, Ranma's stomach growled loudly and was echoed faintly by Akane's, much to her shagrin. In preparations for the test, Ranma had not eaten since lunctime the day before and they had already missed dinner at home so the three decided to stop at a small eatery near the hospital for a quick bite before returning to Nerima. Yosamisensei had provided Ranma with several invitations made out to their socalled friends for the following Saturday and advised them that Ranma was under his care and any attacks of any kind, be they romantic in nature or revengeful, would result in the person being charged with assault and would mean that Ranma would be hidden away from them until he was fully recovered.
Ranma was looking forward to seeing the looks on their faces as he handed his friends the doctor's orders. He doubted any of them would really obey the orders and wondered if they would really be arrested. He hadn't seen much evidence that there even were police in Nerima, and doubted that any of them would be able to contain even the weakest of his friends and enemies. Of course, they could always call in the JSDF, but that might be too much effort for too little reward.
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The testing went smoother than Ranma would have thought. There were nearly no comments about her change after going through the tests in her female form. Her male form did elicit a few comments from the female nursing staff, though those quieted down thanks to Akane's growls and her glowing mallet. Ranma wished he had grabbed a longer gown since the nurses had gotten an eyeful of a part of him he generally didn't parade in the open. It didn't help that Akane had also gotten a peek and she had dropped the mallet onto the head of an innocent desk, causing the desk to shatter and the contents to spill across the floor while she blushed and stared. Ranma had yanked the gown down to cover himself, so thoroughly embarassed by the mistake he failed to notice the shakiness in Akane's steps as she walked over and collapsed into a chair near the door, or the wide eyed stares the nurses kept giving him afterwards.
While the results of some of the tests would take time to be known, there were some that were ready by the time they prepared to leave, Ranma having once again returned to her female form.
The doctor guided them through the closeup xrays of Ranma's skull in both forms in comparison to a normal xray of both a male and female brain (Images taken at the same time with Akane and Tofu volunteering for their genders). Though neither Ranma nor Akane knew much about anatomy and medical problems, they could see that there was indeed something different about Ranma's xrays. Near the back of the skull, where the head starts to slope downwards, there was a thin spike of something pressing directly against part of Ranma's brain.
The image showed that, in his male form, the spike was pressing against more of the skull due to a lack of space. The inside back of his skull showed the faint lines of healed fractures and there were other, smaller, pieces of bone floating in the fluid cushoning of the brain pan, occassionaly pressing against the tissue of the brain. In his female form, the spike shifted, making much less contact with the brain, and the floating pieces of bone shifting closer to the skull than the brain.
Yosami-sensei pointed out to them the pieces and mentioned that, as Akane had theorized, they were pressing against the part of the brain that regulated sexuality and emotional control. The specialist explained in a way they understood, that Ranma really wasn't able to control his emotions in the way most people could and that this affected how he responded to certain situations. He also explained that the other xrays showed many signs of broken or fractured bones, there was nothing indicating that there was anything physically wrong with Ranma's . . .equipment. The problem was that the bone spurs were pressing against the area where sexual excitement was control by his hormones.
It was stopping the hormones from being released so that Ranma was incapable of becoming aroused. Somehow, during the shifting done by the curse, the spurs were moved and Ranma's female brain was able to release those hormones and that was why his female body could become aroused while his male could not. Admittedly, there was a limit to the amount it was releasing. Ranma's inexperience with being female and the lack of reciprocal hormones were the main causes of his confusion over the feelings he had in his female form.
Akane felt both saddened and pleased by the news. Here was actual physical proof that Ranma wasn't the pervert she had so often accused him of being. The confirmation of her theory pleased her to no end. The sad part was that she had been so mean to her fiancee, and there had never been any reason for it. The fact that Ranm was so forgiving strengthened the guilt she felt over the months of bashing and insults she had thrown at him. The knowledge that Ranma had not been able to keep from insulting her due to the injury also saddened her.
The best news was that the condition was easy to fix. All they had to do was drill a small hole in the top of Ranma's skull and carefully remove the spurs closest to the brain. Once that was done, the doctor was certain that Ranma's brain would begin to produce the hormones needed. It might take him some time to gain control of himself since he would begin to experience emotions and thoughts he had never felt before. And it would also take time to heal. Judging from Ranma's xrays, and his medical records which had been provided by Tofu, the doctor was certain that it wouldn't take long for the hole to heal completely. He even theorized that removing the spurs would stimulate the weakened part of Ranma's skull to heal further. Of course, they'd have to wait for the results of the MRI's and CAT scans before they could do anything. Those images would detail exactly where they'd have to cut and which spurs they could remove safely.
They arranged to return the next week, after the Saturday morning school session. By that time, all the results would be in and they'd be able to arrainge for the operation. Ranma muttered a little to himself about the wait, but calmed with a gentle hug from Akane. The doctor than told them that even with Ranma's increased rate of healing, it would be at least a month before his head was fully healed, though he would notice changes in his emotions and physical reactions almost immediately. The doctor advised that during that recovery time, Ranma would need to avoid fights of any kind and would also need to remain in one form.
The pair groaned at that and gave a quick explanaition of their life, beginning with their parents and running thtough all the suitors and rivals the pair had. The doctor thought for a moment and decided that he would bring the results to the Tendo dojo himself and explain to all about the dangerous nature of the surgery and about the limitations that Ranma would be under while in his care. They then explained the way water always seemed to find Ranma. The doctor suggested staying in female form for the month, but realized that that would be counter productive since the surgery would mainly effect his male form. He asked if there was a way to block the transformation and they hesitantly told him about the waterproof soaps the Amazons had. He thought for a moment and told them that by Saturday, he'd have the means to convince the Amazons that lending them a month long supply of the soap would be in their interests, without compromising the engagement between Ranma and Akane.
They said their farewells and made their way back to the elevators, emotionally drained by the experiences of the day. Once in the elevator car, Ranma's stomach growled loudly and was echoed faintly by Akane's, much to her shagrin. In preparations for the test, Ranma had not eaten since lunctime the day before and they had already missed dinner at home so the three decided to stop at a small eatery near the hospital for a quick bite before returning to Nerima. Yosamisensei had provided Ranma with several invitations made out to their socalled friends for the following Saturday and advised them that Ranma was under his care and any attacks of any kind, be they romantic in nature or revengeful, would result in the person being charged with assault and would mean that Ranma would be hidden away from them until he was fully recovered.
Ranma was looking forward to seeing the looks on their faces as he handed his friends the doctor's orders. He doubted any of them would really obey the orders and wondered if they would really be arrested. He hadn't seen much evidence that there even were police in Nerima, and doubted that any of them would be able to contain even the weakest of his friends and enemies. Of course, they could always call in the JSDF, but that might be too much effort for too little reward.
