Warnings: Yaoi, slighty OOC Squall
Pairings: Seifer/Squall, Zell/Squall
Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VIII belongs to Square and not me
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Rebel AngelWings :Yes I have played the game, more then once. I know they aren't brother and sister, that's why it's an AU. The rest of the story doesn't have anything to do with the game either, does it?
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A/N: You can now find updates at my journal, a link can be found in my profile. And thanks for waiting so long!
And I'll try to make the chapters longer, all though this one is short again, sorry.


Chapter 4

Zell sighed, pushing himself back into the comfortable chair. He looked around, surrounded by clothes. When Squall had told him they would go shopping he hadn't thought it would take so long. He hated shopping. Of course Seifer's annoying sister, Rinoa, was once again with them. The girl couldn't leave Squall alone for a minute. She kept checking on him in the dressing room, asking if he was all right and needed her.

He groaned when he heard Rinoa's voice once again, asking Squall if he needed help. When he heard Squall's reply he smiled slightly, you could easily hear the annoyance in Squall's voice. Zell pushed himself up in the chair and grabbed one of the magazine's. He muttered something under his breath when he saw it was a woman's magazine. It was filled with make-up, perfume and models.

Rinoa sat down next to him, annoyed.

Zell gave her a quick sideways glance but said nothing and returned reading, more interested to find out about how it felt to be a eighteen year old mother with two children then to listen to the raven haired woman's stories.

"Sometimes I wish my brother had a more simple lover." Rinoa said all of a sudden, wanting Zell to listen to her story. When Zell said nothing she started to tap her fingers on the small table between them, needing to draw the blonde man's attention so he would listen to her story. When Zell still said nothing she started to tap her fingers harder on the table.

Zell groaned, cursing Rinoa. "What." He muttered then, finally giving in because the tapping of the perfect manicured nails was starting to get on his nerves.

"Well if you don't want to listen then just don't." Rinoa huffed, feeling offended. She crossed her arms and looked away, ignoring Zell.

The blonde rolled his eyes and continued reading. He was happy when Squall was ready after two hours of shopping. When they were standing outside of the shop Squall pointed towards a different one. Zell frowned. "I thought you were finished."

Squall started laughing and shook his head. "Of course not silly, it was just one shop."

Zell sighed, following Squall. "And how many are you going to?" He was glad Squall didn't anwser because he wasn't sure if he wanted to know.

I I I

Squall smiled, watching Zell. The blonde was sitting across from him, staying silent while Rinoa kept talking about her awfull week.

"Squall?"

The brunette looked up, smiling when he saw his blonde friend standing next to him. He pushed himself up and hugged Quistis. "What are you doing here?" He asked.

Quistis smiled and sat down next to Squall. "I was just shopping." She held up her bags.

"Me too and, oh." He grinned and then looked at Zell. "This is my new babysitter, Zell."

Quistis smiled and held out her hand for Zell to take. "Hello Zell, I'm Quistis." She smiled and watched him shake her hand.

"Hello Quistis." Zell replied, drawing his hand back.

Squall watched the two his smile slightly fading when he saw the tension between the two. He wondered if they knew each other all though he knew that wasn't possible. But still he wondered why the two of them had that silent tension between them. "Seifer is throwing a party this weekend, would you like to come?" He asked Quistis.

Quistis thought about it for a second and then decided she would come. "Of course." She smiled.

Squall grinned. "Perfect."

I I I

When they returned home Squall made his way to Seifer's room quickly, he pouted when he noticed Seifer still wasn't home. He walked back downstairs and went into the kitchen, Zell following him.

He turned to look at the blonde and sighed. "Want something to drink?"

Zell shook his head. "No thank you."

"Will you be at the party?" Squall asked softly, looking around in the fridge, it was mostly filled with wine and a couple of bottles with water for Squall. He took one and opened it, closing the fridge behind him, leaning against it.

"I don't know." Zell said.

Squall smiled and took a sip of his drink. "I'd like you to be there." The brunette told him, hoping Zell would come. He looked at the bottle in his hand, smiling slightly. "I want you to be there."

Zell raised a brow. "Why?"

The brunette looked up, smiling. "Because I like you, all though you are my babysitter."

Zell leaned back against the wall, watching Squall. "I guess I have no choice then..."

Squall grinned. "No not really." He decided and walked over to Zell. He watched the blonde for a while, he stood in silence, loosing himself in Zell's eyes. All though Zell had just been with him for a couple of days he really liked the blonde. He still didn't like the idea of a bodyguard, but if he just looked past that and tried to Zell as a friend... he really liked having Zell as his friend.

"Squall..."

Squall stepped back when he heard his lover's voice. He smiled and walked out of the kitchen. "Seifer." He cheered and ran over to his blonde lover. He grinned and pushed his arms around Seifer's waist when he found the blonde man in the living room near the couch.

"Hey vixen." Seifer smiled and kissed the top of Squall's head. Then he pulled back to watch Squall. "How are you?"

"Great, we went shopping today."

When Seifer noticed Zell's pressence he kissed Squall's cheek. "I have to leave in a hour, I need to discuss some things with Irvine."

Squall bit his lip, pulling Seifer down so he could whisper in the blonde's ear. "Can we have fun now then?" He asked, whispering.

Seifer grinned but shook his head. "No baby, sorry."

Squall pouted but nodded. "Well, I guess you will be late then?" He asked softly, hating to go to bed without Seifer. He couldn't sleep very well without the blonde next to him.

"Probably..." Seifer agreed and then held up a small box, covered in black wrapping. He pushed it in Squall's hand and then waited for the brunette to open it.

Zell watched in silence while Squall pulled a silver ring from the small box. He looked away when Squall hugged Seifer and kissed him. When he looked up again Squall was standing there alone, Seifer all ready gone again.

The brunette looked up at him, a smile on his lips which didn't reach his eyes. "I'm going to take a bath." Squall decided and then started to walk towards the stairs, leaving Zell alone.

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Squall sighed, the hot water on his skin made him relax slightly. He opened his eyes again and looked at the ring which was now around his finger. He loved it but also hated it. Seifer always gave him presents when he had to leave for a week or longer, it could only mean that Seifer was leaving soon.

Soon his thoughts dwelled, leaving him with a guilty feeling when he though of the other blonde, Zell. He really liked Zell, he was maybe even attracted to Zell, but that was wrong.

He loved Seifer, all though he knew the love had faded slightly over the years of being with the blonde and trying to live with a lover who was gone most of the time. He couldn't complain about the things Seifer gave him, he had everything.

But he didn't want or need everything, he just wanted and needed to be loved. He was sure Seifer loved him but the love was mostly lust. They didn't have a very deep relationship, neither of them knew the secrets of the other. They never spoke of such things.

Squall felt something burn behind his eyes and quickly closed them. He wasn't sure why he was doubting their love now, he hadn't thought about it before. Was it because of Zell?

The brunette opened his eyes again and let out a frustrated sigh. He pulled himself underneath the water, keeping his eyes open until they burned. He could feel the beating of his heart in his ears. When he pushed himself back up he took a breath, closing his eyes.

Did Seifer still love him? It was simple to give someone presents, to have sex with someone. Did it involve love?

Squall leaned his head back and let out a soft sigh. He would talk with Seifer the night after the party.