Warnings: Yaoi
Pairings: Squall/Zell
Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VIII belongs to Square. Quinn, Aleixo and Carme belong to me
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A/N: New chapter, this time it didn't take to long...thank god!
Chapter 6
Zell watched the three of them, Squall with his children. He couldn't help but laugh when he saw Carme give Squall a playfull punch when the brunette man grabbed Aleixo. Squall let go of his son and shook his head, smiling. He started to walk back towards Zell, leaving the two children to play alone with each other.
Zell waited until Squall sat down next to him and then he started laughing, watching Squall. The brunette gave him a strange look, raising a eyebrow which made Zell laugh even harder.
"What?"
Zell shook his head, still smiling. "It's just nice to see you with those two." The blonde decided, turning to look at the two children again. They were playing together, wrestling playfully.
Squall smiled, getting closer to Zell. He watched Zell's hands for a while which were resting in his lap, before covering them with his own hand. His smile grew when he felt the comfortable warmth of Zell's hands.
Zell watched Squall for a while, keeping silent. He smiled when he saw Squall's face. The brunette was smiling, looking at their hands. Zell leaned his body against Squall's, closing his eyes while he rested his head against Squall's shoulder.
"Zell..."
Zell kept his eyes closed, listening to Squall's regular breathing. "Yes?"
"I...I was scared, because I didn't think it was normal to be with a man." He started, watching the two children playing. "But I did love you, that's why I wanted to stay with you, the only way I could be with you without anyone else knowing was to keep it secret." He continued softly. "I'm sorry I hurt you by keeping it secret, I thought I was doing the right thing."
Zell opened his eyes, now watching the children. He sighed, not sure what to tell Squall. He had been hurt by the brunette, by keeping their relationship secret for everyone, by not even telling their closest friends.
Squall continued, needing to tell Zell everything. "And with everyone thinking that Rinoa and me were together I thought it would be best if we would be together, it would be normal." The brunette said. "In the beginning I couldn't even touch her and when I did I thought of you..."
Zell let out a soft sigh, not sure if he wanted to listen to more of Squall's story. He wanted to hear it, needed to hear it but it made him hurt.
"I thought living without you would be easy, but it wasn't." Squall decided. "But that doesn't mean I didn't love Rinoa, I did...but more like a sister then a wife." Squall smiled when he saw his children. "But I am happy with my children, I love them very much."
Zell sat back, watching Squall. He smiled softly. "Why didn't you come back if you felt like that..." The blonde whispered.
"I was afraid, once again for what people would think of me." Squall anwsered.
"Then how can I be sure that you won't leave me again, once people start thinking about us. Do you even want other's to know about us?"
Squall watched Zell. "I won't leave again, I promise you..."
"Daddy, why are you sad?" Aleixo asked, pouting.
The brunette smiled when he saw his son. He pulled Aleixo on his lap and kissed the top of his head. "It's nothing Aleixo."
Zell watched the two of them and smiled. The little child was resting his head against Squall's chest, his eyes closed and a smile on the small mouth. Squall rested his chin on Aleixo's head, looking at the blonde next to him. When Zell noticed he took one of Squall's hands.
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Quinn placed a book back in the bookcase, listening to Zell's story. The boy smiled, glad Zell was happy again. He turned to look at the blonde, blowing a strand of hair out of his face. "I'm glad you are happy."
Zell grinned, looking up at the brunette. He was sitting on the ground between the two bookcases, waiting until Quinn was finished so they could go drink something together. "I'm glad I'm happy too." He decided.
"But what happens when Squall returns to Balamb Garden?" Quinn asked then.
Zell frowned. "I haven't thought of that." The blonde said, he hadn't really thought about it before. He hadn't even remembered that Squall didn't live in F.H. but was only on vacation.
"Squall won't stay here, he's a SeeD." Quinn decided. "That would mean you have to go to Balamb."
Zell shook his head, pushing himself up. "I don't want to go back to Balamb." The blonde decided.
"Maybe you should talk with Squall then." Quinn told him, crossing his arms and leaning against a bookcase.
The blonde nodded. "I think you are right."
"Good luck." Quinn said, giving Zell a soft smile.
Zell nodded and started to leave the old library. Squall would probably be home right now, with Carme and Aleixo.
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Squall frowned when he heard someone knock on the door of their hotel room. He pushed himself up, making sure Aleixo and Carme were all right while they were watching a movie. He walked to the door and opened it. "Zell?"
Zell smiled, nervous. "I have to talk to you."
Squall nodded and opened the door further so Zell could step inside. "What about?"
"When are you going back to Balamb?" Zell asked, getting inside.
Squall closed the door and leaning against the wall. "We have another week, then we go back." He said, crossing his arms. "Why?"
Zell frowned, stepping back. "What about us when you go back to Balamb?"
Squall smiled. "You will come with us of course."
Both Aleixo and Carme grinned when they heard this, knowing they shouldn't be listening. They continued watching the tv and listening to their father and Zell.
"What?" Zell asked again.
Squall let his arms fall to his sides. "You will come with me to Balamb." He said again, wondering why Zell was even asking this.
"I'm not going back to Balamb." Zell told him.
Squall laughed a little. "What?"
"I don't want to go back to Balamb." Zell said, watching the brunette. He took another step back, resting his back against the wall.
"You will come back with us." Squall said, not understanding why the blonde was making such a problem out of it.
"No, I won't." Zell said, getting angry. How did Squall dare to make choices for him like this. He didn't want to go to Balamb so he wouldn't go back. It held to many memories for him, to many things he had lost.
"Yes you will." Squall hissed between his teeth.
Zell stepped closer to Squall, standing in front of him. He gave Squall a soft kiss on his lips and shook his head when he pulled away from the brunette. "No, I won't, I don't want to go to Balamb."
Squall frowned. "I'm not staying here..."
Zell nodded, understanding. "Then I guess we have one week left." He started smiling, trying to ignore the turning of his stomach. "Let's enjoy it."
