Among Icy Hearts
Me: Hello eveyone! This is a chapter that I tried to work really hard on so that everyone would like it.(I rewrote it iin my notebook about three times.) Well I'm pretty sure that you already I own no form of Yu Yu Hakusho. I don't own Hiei nor Kurama nor anybody else except my made-up Now then, on with the fanfic thingy, whatever you want to call it.
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Chapter 10: A Romantic Moment Under the Stars
Despite Kurama's kind question, Sae left without a word to anybody about where she was going, why she was, or when she'd be back. Nobody went to search for her, they decided to let her come back on her own, they knew she'd be back in time for the next round of the tournament. Since she'd left without a word to anyone, nobody knew wether something had been bothering her, or she just needed to be alone, even though they didn't talk about it, secretly each wondered what it may have been.
Botan went sending cheer(or at least she was trying to) around the cabin. Obviously she had just heard that Yukina, Keiko, and Shizuru were coming to see the tournament. She stated that Koenma had told her they should arrive tomorrow. Yusuke perked up at the fact Keiko was coming, while Kuwabara showed both happiness and despair. His first reaction was "Yukina, I have missed you my love!" Hiei insulted Kuwabara under his breath, but nobody even heard him. Kuwabara was also groaning due to the fact Shizuru was coming, he knew that she would find something he had done wrong and beat him up for it. The cabin seemed to buzz with Yusuke, Kuwabara, and Botan's excitement.
After a few hours the sky darkened and the moon rose as night set in. Hiei, finally fed up of waiting for the girl, set out to go find her. He walked throughout the forest during his search, going through deep forest area to cool, lush medows, she was nowhere be found. When Hiei was just about to call it quits, practically convinced that Sae truely had run, he came to a particular clearing. The cool night had set in and the crickes buzzed, it was almost impossible for the fire youkai to see, but through the darkness, he made out the kitsune's form. She was sitting by a gently flowing stream, at first she was staring at her reflection in the water, seemingly deep in thought, than she gazed up at the black sky, which was dotted with stars.
She hadn't seemed to notice Hiei's presence yet, so Hiei approched her silently. When Sae finally did notice that Hiei had walked up to her she got up, turned sharply away from him, and said in an extremly angerd tone "Get away from me...... JERK!" He growled in frustration at her comment, but then heard a distinct sob. It couldn't be he thought, thinking about it, Sae couldn't really be classified as the type to be all dramatic. He moved closer to her, he felt as if he needed to talk to her.
This time she turned to face him. She was indeed crying as her face was tear-streaked and her eyes were red. "I TOLD YOU TO GO AWAY!" she yelled, her voice was hoarse, but still choked with sadness. She let out another painful sob, which she had tried surpress, but failed to hold in, and turned away to run. He grabbed her wrist roughly and turned her to face him again. Glaring, he said in a voice ringing with anger and impaitence "ONNA WHY ARE YOU CRYING?" He glared again,"And this is your bussiness how? she made an attempt to run, but failed. "Tell me-", hs voice now dangerously soft and angry.
She shook her head 'no' and continued to struggle in his grasp, the fell down to her knees and looked at him with a mix of anger and sadness."WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER?" he asked. Pathetic onna he thought, the asked himself why the heck did I even come to find her in the first place? she looked so sad there, she was trying to hold back tears and get her wrist out of his bone-wrenching grasp at the same time. He asked again, this time, in a more calm and concerned voice "What happened? Why are you crying"
Looking at him sincerly now, she asked, "Do you really have to know?" "Yes" he replied curtly, for a few minutes she seemed to debate with herself, finally deciding, she said "Well a long time ago, I lost family, lets just say some of these memories were resurfaced today...and Hiei.... I was worried about you. When you fought, I seriously though you were dead.........I was scared It may seem like I hate you, but I don't want you to die"
Hiei found himself overcome by a wave of surprise, he gently wraped his arms around her in a friendly, suportive way, hoping to comfort her. She sobbed once more, but managed to pull herself together enough to stop crying. Her eyes still shone with sadness, but she managed to smile weakly and say in a shaky voice "Thanks Hiei" He still was hugging her and without knowing why, she threw her arms around him and also embraced him. Shocked at the Sae's response, he tensed for a minute then relaxed. He held her in the embrace for what seemed like forever, it was as if time was standing still. She sighed happily and hugged him tighter. Gently, Hiei lossened his grip slightly. Cupping her cheek, he stared deeply into her eyes, peircing her soul. Why do you have to look so sad and innocent onna? he thought to himself in his head.
She looked surprised, this wasn't like Hiei, it wasn't his natrual attitude. Stll, she stared back into those captivating crimson eyes, she didn't know what to say, lost for words. Hiei himself, was surprised at his own actions, but still continued too stare into those emerald green eyes of hers. What are you doing Hiei? He asked himself. Pull away. Hiei, unable to follow his own orders leaned in slighely cloer to her, Sae only blinked. His face was only inches away from hers, she could feel his hot breath on her face. He smiled and leaned in closer, brushing his lips softly to hers. At first, she was too shocked to do anything, but when the shock wore off she hugged him tighter and kissed him gently back. Hiei deeoended the kiss, combing his fingers through her hair.
When Hiei broke the kiss he stared deep into her eyes again, truely smiling. Suddently realized what he had just done, he muttered "Sorry" and away from her. "Hiei!" Sae called after him, he had already ran to far to be able to hear her. Hiei didn't stop running until he was sure that he was of great distance away from the girl. He sat in a tree and stared up to the sky, thinking deeply about the matter. How could he possibly have done that? The onna probobly would make fun off him for it. She doesn't love me. How could she love a guy like me? he asked himself in fury.
Sae sat down and thought about it. Why did he run away? she asked herself. It was obvious, he didn't like her. Then why did he kiss me? she countered her last thought, even though she couldn't find the answer she was convinced that Hiei hated her. What else would it be? All Hiei ever adressed her as was Onna or Baka Onna, he even once said he hated her, so how could he possibly ever like her even as just a friend? She got up and looked sadly at the sky, she could only dream of the day Hiei liked her. Sadlly, she started to head back towards the cabin, hoping that she wouldn't meet anyone else on the way back, especially Hiei.
Meanwhile, Hiei was still debating with himself. He thought Sae didn't like him, so why even bother. Inside his heart, the hope that she truely did love him was strong, but both his brain and his instincts told him othwise. Love is a weak and senseless emotion, don't bother with it! He told himself. He felt so frustrated, it felt as if both emotions for her, love and hate had gone on a rampage inside of him. He didn't know what to think about her anymore.
Leaping out of the tree, he walked towards thee cabin, taking a diffrent way back so he wouldn't face the possibility of running into Sae. When he got to the cabin he saw everyone else had already headed to bed. He walked into his room and slamed the door behind him, not caring about waking anyone up. Yusuke and Kuwabara stayed sound asleep, but Kurama sat up. He didn't seemed shocked by the slamming of the door, so he must have been still awake. "Hiei, is there anything wrong?" he asked. "No kitsune!, why would you think that?" Kurama didn't answer his question Hiei climbed into bed, but had trouble falling asleep, and when he finally did his dreams didn't let him forget about Sae.
The gentle beat of a lover's heart
The blood you've spilt for me
As I wonder in my dreams
Is this truely meant to be?
You shunt me off, push me away
Say that I have no meaning
An object without words, without value, without reasoning
Away from you I walk
As I truely do wonder
Why now? Why me? Why do I love you so?
I remain alone
Like a flightless bird
Because you are my one and only love
My love, yet my despair
(AN: I wrote the poem myself so no stealing please)
Sae sighed, she was alrady up in her room. Botan was sound asleep, but Sae was unable to so she sat awake in bed in the dark. Why did she have to fall in love with Hiei? It hurt her to belive that he didn't love her, yet her love never waned for him, it only grew. How could she tell him that? He'd probobly just push her away, tell her that love is a weak emotion. She sighed, she absolutly hated how she felt, all the sadness this hated emotion brought. Well, Hiei would be right about the love being a weak emotion....... She thought to herself. Slowly she fell into a restless sleep, plaqued with dreams of Hiei.
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Me: Well, I'm actuaaly really satisfied with this chapter, it's longer than all my other ones and it was a lot of fun to write. Reveiw please, until next time Ja!
