I never posted whom the song was by in the last chapter so I'm doing it now. All She Wrote by Default. Enjoy! Also trying to make the chapters longer. Thanks for the reviews!

As much as I wanted to I knew I couldn't spend the day with her, she wouldn't allow it. This time I did the begging; even at her weakest moment she was strong and stood her ground. She won the argument when she used her bitchy voice that she used everyday at work. Then her voice changed if I didn't know who she was I would have thought she had spilt personalities.

I sit on the bench in front of my locker my eyes closed. This was harder than I thought it was how could I pretend like nothing was wrong? How could I forget that she was dying? So far everyone seemed to think I was tired in a way I was but I needed to be strong for the both of us. The day seemed drag on and the shift hadn't even started yet.

She seemed different when I went to visit her; distant and uncaring almost like she was at work. She wouldn't even talk to me at first until I got right in her face and made her speak to me, even her voice seemed different.

"What's wrong?" knowing that somethingwas bothering her if she was acting this way. She began to look everywhere else but me and that's when it hit me; she was breaking it off. Why?

I could tell by the look on her face she was sorry but it had to be done. How could she do this to me? After all we've been through together and she's breaking up with me? The room began to double. Great just what I needed another vision problem; I tried to focus on anything that wasn't double but everything moved around in two's even when I knew it wasn't moving.

There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me

She hasn't said anything else yet because she her voice usually broke through this problem, which shocked me a little bit because I had tried everything to make the double vision go away, but it didn't work. Her voice just made it stop. I don't know how and I don't really care but it stopped. The room slowly became into focus again which followed with the usual headache.

"I think it's best if we ended things now"

This time she looked me directly in the eyes as if mockingly challenging me to do something about it. But what could I do? It was hard changing her mind once it was made up believe me I know.

I wanted to know why, why now? Was she saving hurt for the both of us? Why I didn't get was how she thought it was ok to rip out my heart and hold it in her hands but drop it once it started beating again almost like it had burned her. As if it was unholy. Why was she doing this when she needed someone the most?

I clear my throat before I speak trying to dislodge the lump in my throat

"Why?" I looked over at her and willed her to look at me, she didn't. She wouldn't. She was a chicken, an Emu some type of animal that ran away from trouble when the goings got tough. This was unlike her.

"Just Because" Neither was her answer Just Because? What the hell was going on? I refused to believe it.

"I want to know why?" She wasn't getting out of this one that easy.

"It's just time to end it" "Great while it lasted but its over" her tone never quivering and I knew that she had nothing else to say. This wasn't fair. I nodded my head and walked out of the room slamming the door as I went. It was hard to describe what I was feeling hurt, disappointment, resentment, anger, pity, empathy, frustrated, Take your pick. The headache came back stronger than before. Aspirin wasn't going to take this pain. Would time? Ha only time would tell.

I needed to get drunk and find someone to screw. I received the most dirtiest looks from the nurses after I walked passed them. Who the really cares? I didn't. Let them hate me, they aren't the only ones and they certainly wouldn't be the last.

What happened to us?
We used to be so perfect,
Now we're lost and lonely what happened to us?
And deep inside I wonder, did I lose my only?

Ma had told me a couple days ago that she had gotten anew job at some bar. Great as if she didn't have enough trouble. Free drinks that's is what it meant. I walk into her bar she's making a drink for some gentleman and smiling too. It was good to see her smile from time to time and this smile wasn't forced like it was after Pops had beaten her and trying to put on a brave front for us. A nice genuine smile. I plop myself right in front of her. I needed her now. And if anyone didn't like it the hell with them.

"Maurice what's wrong honey?" This was a mistake I shouldn't have come here. I didn't want to talk. All I could do is shake my head and she knew better and left it at that. I don't remember much after that I do remember closing time where she was going to take me home to her house. I also remember the blonde that tried to pick me up but somehow ma got rid of her. I didn't need a screw after all Somehow I felt like I was cheating on Ritza just for thinking about screwing some one else.

His last thought before he fell passed out was of his precious Ritza.

Across town, Ritza laid awake thinking about what she did. When the doctor comes in his face grim. She knew why he was here. How many times did she have to tell him? No she didn't want any treatment.

"We've found a match for you"

"Then what am I still in this room for? Let's Go!"

The song in this chapter was Disappear and What happened To Us? By Hoobastank.