I'm sorry this chapter is sloppy i was in a hurry so i just took out some of the song cause its a long song. The next chapter hopefully you will like better. Everything by Lifehouse is the song in this one.
It seemed everything I had been doing lately had been going wrong. No one could stand to be around me, I hated my best friend, and the woman I love wanted nothing to do with me. What a freakin wonderful week!
The hallway seemed to go on forever, the longer I walked the farther away her room got. I actually would have walked past it if not for the doctor coming out of there. The doctor's face looked grim. Something was up.
I stood at the door not wanting to go in yet how would she greet me? Would her words be full of angry and tell me I'm reading too much into nothing? Would she open her arms and welcome me? I step around the corner and my eyes slowly made their way up to her. I knew she would do neither because she wasn't in this world she was seeing something else as if in anther time. I walk to the end of her bed I am in her line of view not and she stares at me like I am not even there. What could happen to make her be like this? Was this how it was going to take her from me? Slowly cloud her mind until she could no longer see anything else except her memories and would they too began to fade as she slowly looses her grip on reality?
Find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything
And how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this yeah
You calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now
And how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?
Cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
Tears slowly spilled over and made their journey down her cheeks, was she even aware she was crying because she remained still; uncaring where they fell. Maybe it was me who was loosing their grip on reality because her words seemed distant when she did speak in no more than a whisper.
"It didn't work"
I looked at her I mean really looked at her, her face pale; her hair had lost its usual shine and now clung to her head. Her eyes were red and swollen.
"What didn't work Ritza?" She looked at me as if for the first time realizing I was there.
"The bone marrow didn't work" Fresh tears spilled over. "Why wouldn't it work? Is this my punishment?" "Is my body damaged goods?"
My heart broke to see her like this. My mouth suddenly dries. The truth finally set in she was going to die and nothing could be done to stop it.
The look in her eyes changed and she came back to reality slowly. She looked up to me noticing I was here.
"I'm scared Bosco" For the first time since I came she wiped the tears away as more fell. Even when she cried she was beautiful; most woman looked terrible there faces got all red, and their nose runs and ugh I didn't want to think about that. She was just beautiful. I move away from the bed and step closer until I could touch her. I smooth away her hair from her face with my hand. Her eyes asked so much and I would move heaven and earth to give it to her but for the first I was doing everything I could for her. At least I could be there for her, as her final days grew nearer. Her arms go around my waist and mine around hers. I would never leave her, not again. She meant too much to me.
