Chap. 11 Missing

Starcat sat on the cot, head bowed. She rubbed her thumb hard on the middle of her palm. Thinking about what she had done…

"Hey cutie, brought you a present." X entered with a little box. It was red with a cute golden bow on it. He sat next to her on the cot, he opened her hands gently and put the box in them. She pulled the bows thread slowly to open it, she tipped off the lid and gasped.

Her eyes grew bigger and glowed more in delight. It was a heart with a rose in the center, the petals were rubies, and the petals were emeralds. There were cat ears on it, and silver thorns surrounded the rose. Starcat was speechless!

"I see you admire my gift to you." X took it out of her fingers and took it around her neck. She was slightly confused. Why do I deserve this? I do not. It can not be mine, for all that I have done… no. Besides, how do I know if X had stolen it or not, it doesn't belong to anyone but the store. She faced X as he was done attaching it.

"Red X… I… Ummmm…" She did not know how to put it. She didn't want to be tortured again by being X'd down with no light because she had refused the gift. He'd probably hurt her and keep her locked away forever. Yet again, it's still wrong to keep it. "Did you buy this?"

Red X lied, "Yes, just for you. To pleasure you, to make you mine forever! Starcat looked away with a frown for a moment. X reached for her chin, he pulled her face towards him. He lifted the mouth part of his mask and kissed her deeply, again. Starcat placed her hands on the sides of his mask, she enjoyed being loved, but realized… Why am I falling in love with Red X? We have nothing in common, he is evil, and I… am not? I hope I am not? Oh…No… She forgot the words in her head as X laid her on the cot still kissing her. They were laid side-ways. His fingers traced her cat like ears then flowed through her hair. She broke away and sat up.

"What's wrong?" X questioned. "Nothing, I am just tired and need some sleep." Starcat replied.

"Sweet dreams." Red X got up and kissed her forehead, he left and locked the door.

Starcat ran to the little drawer the candle was on. She opened it. She found a book with a pen. She flipped through the pages, luckily it was blank. She took the pen and laid on her stomach on the cot. She wrote…

Please, Please, Forgive Me…

But I won't be home again…

Maybe someday you'll look out…

And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:

Isn't something missing?

Starcat thought about her friends, then Tye.

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?

Tye sat on her edge of her balconie, he sighed.


Isn't someone missing me?
((They both thought))

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
He's too broken now... She thought
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
He gazed out towards the city, broken.


Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
She wrote more.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
Starcat... Why!
Isn't something missing?


Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
I'm begging for forgiveness, but he probably would never wish to see my ashamed face again...
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Where are you? I need you Starcat...


Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
He hates me... He hates me! She stabbed the pen in her arm and let blood flow a little.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
He laid on her bed starring out of his dreams...
Isn't something missing?
Starcat's missing... Tye is missing...
Isn't something...
us

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
She stopped writting.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
He left her room to his.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Starcat put the book away and laid on her back. Tye laid his head on the pillow in his room. They fell asleep at the same time.