So, more's coming up here, and the story is coming to an end. Again, SO cool that someone's actually reading my fan fiction.
As a reminder, I do not own any of these wonderful characters… (Too bad, but anyway, thank you for reading )
Agreement
"Sawyer, may I speak to you?"
I looked up. Kate looked at me in an awkward way. She though I had been asleep, but I'd just closed my eyes. I didn't sleep much that night neither. I hated her for it.
"What do you want, Freckles?" I snorted as she sat down.
"I don't want to do this to you," she said. I smiled sarcastically. Yeah, right.
"That's
a little late now, sweetie, 'cause you've already done it."
I
had kind of got over her by now, as I knew how she really was. I
never knew she was able to hurt me. And I didn't know she'd
actually do it.
"I mean, we can still be together if you answer my question," She said, meeting my eyes. I frowned. "What's the question?"
"Do you love me?"
I never knew I wouldn't be able to answer a question. I always thought of myself as a person who never needed to search for an answer, because it was already there long before the question was asked.
I didn't answer her that time.
"I thought so," She said, making me notice a tear that was running down her face. I didn't want to make her cry. I didn't thought I was able to at all.
"So what's the point of coming back to you if all you wanted that night was to sleep with me? If you had no feelings for me, you just wanted to get inside my pants? That's exactly what I thought about guys like you, Sawyer, or whatever your name is. That's why I made ran away, so I could be protected by Jack. You used me! There's no place for love in your cold heart, so I never want to see you again!" she spoke very quickly, each word growing louder and angrier. I could see she needed to catch her breath.
After finishing the last sentence, she rose to her feet and turned her back at me. She didn't walk too fast, like she was waiting for me to stop her. I could hear her voice. She was crying loudly. It was no more an innocent tear; she was crying her heart out. I'd really hurt her. But she had actually hurt me too.
Both of us knew that we never would be able to talk to each other again. She was going to return to Jack, staying with him for every night. She would be safe there.
It was like we had some kind of agreement going on. When none of us loved each other, it was best that we never saw each other again.
But her question was still burning inside me. Did I love her? I didn't know. I liked her very much, and wanted to be with her all the time, but I still wasn't sure. That's love, or did I just want to sleep with her, like she shoved in my face?
I still didn't know, and it gave me a horrible headache. I deserved it, I guess.
I got to my feet, watching Kate as she walked over to Jack and Sayid, who were standing nearby. She started talking to them, probably explaining the tears. I knew this would mean more trouble for me when I noticed the looks that Sayid and Jack were sending me. Seconds later they started walking towards me in a hurry. I didn't know what to do or where to hide. I wanted to run, but I didn't want to look like a chicken, so I decided to meet my faith.
"Stop hurting her, will you?" Jack commanded angrily, getting closer. I snorted.
"I haven't done a shit to her, you read me?" I answered in anger, turning my back at him.
"Don't you run away!" Jack grabbed my shoulder and turned me around, hitting me in the face. If he hadn't held my shoulder, I would probably fall.
I shook my body quickly, getting loose from his grip, and did an attempt to escape, until Sayid removed the ground underneath my feet and made me fall hardly on my face. Jack grabbed my hands upon my back so I wasn't able to defend myself.
"Let go of me, will you?" I growled, trying to kick them of me, but it was hopeless. They already had control over me, as they dragged me deeper into the woods.
Jack threw me down against a tree as Sayid held me down so I couldn't escape. Usually, I would be stronger than him and being able to get loose from his weight, but it seemed like all my power had somehow disappeared. I was tired.
Jack stretched my arms over my head and bound me to a branch by using some old rope around my wrist. I tried to get loose but he only tighten the rope, so the pain got stronger. They did the same thing to my legs, using a root sticking up from the ground. I was lying there; defend less, with my arms and legs spread.
"Now you lie there on your own, soaked in your sins, Sawyer," Jack spoke, before he gave me a hard kick in my crotch, sucking the rest of the energy inside me out. I coughed in great pain.
"Goodbye," Sayid said before they left me there all by myself. I was shivering, almost crying. If I could die that moment, I certainly would. I hated myself for being alive, hated myself for ever getting on that plain. I hated myself for being in love with Kate.
Several seconds later, I got slightly surprised when I felt a tear running down my face. It's certainly been a long time since the last time I felt one, I thought. Soon, another one followed. Even more tears rolled down. I wasn't really sure why I was crying, but it wasn't the pain in my crotch anyway. I felt unloved. I didn't want to.
Soon, the tears made me fall asleep, my head resting on my chest.
Note from writer: Pretty short chapter, all right, but the last chapter is finally coming up. And yes, this is actually going somewhere. And more Charlie is coming up too, as the reviewers wanted. Hope you'll all like it, and hope you all like it so far )
