CHAPTER THREE

I was surprised by how fast I fell in love with Jack DiCaprio (A/N: yeah, I know. Combination of Jack Dawson and Leonardo DiCaprio. But I couldn't think of any other names...) He was funny charming, handsome...everything I should have been looking for in a man. He was also very wealthy.

We met a party Gina and I attended to celebrate after finishing midterms at this place Club Utopia. He just walked up to me and said, "Hey, can I buy you a drink?" And before I knew it, we were a couple.

We went to swanky (A/N: I'm not positive if that is a word) club opening parties, Broadway musicals, and dinners at the country club. His whole lifestyle was so foreign to me, but he openly welcomed me into it.

We dated for over a year, but I would never let it go farther than heavy making out. HE always wanted to go further, saying things like, "I need you so bad, Suze. Don't you love me?" But I honestly could not handle being with another man. Not yet.

I wish I could tell you that I never thought of Jesse, but that would be a lie. every time Jack and I kissed, there was Jesse's face, lurking in the back of my mind. I would mentally trace all of him, his chiseled features and olive skin, his strong soft lips that used to be my one source of happiness. His chocolate eyes that I would willingly drown in each time he looked. And at last his big strong arms that would hold me every night.

I would be thinking all of this while I was kissing another man. I felt awful for still thinking of Jesse (and loving Jesse) when I was in the arms of another guy, a guy who loved me, and thought I loved him back. And in a strange way, I did. I loved Jack, but not the way I loved Jesse. Not at all.

CosmoGirl says that you never forget your first love, so maybe this is normal. But I didn't think of Jesse as my first love. I thought of him as my only love. What about Madam Zarra had said? One love that will last until the end of time. But that couldn't be right... Jesse was The One and I knew it. And apparently, that did not last until the end of time. It was all very confusing Well, Jesse didn't love me back, and I couldn't just keep pining away for him.

That's why I said yes when Jack popped the question.

We were at a Yankees game, and normally, any organized sport puts me to sleep. But we usually focus more on each other's mouths than the actual game.

It was halftime or something and all of the sudden, that wedding started playing. 'Ooh!' I thought. 'Someone's going to propose!' I scanned the stadium for said couple.

That's when I noticed everyone was staring at us. We were on that big screen, too.

Jack got down on one knee and took my hand.

'Oh my God' I thought to myself

"Susannah Simon," he said calmly, "Will you be my wife?"

"Yes!" I excitedly squealed. and threw my arms around his neck.

"SHE SAID YES!" The scoreboard flashed. We kissed and everyone applauded. After we pulled apart, he slipped a GINORMOUS rock on my finger and grinned.

"Sweetie...Its beautiful" I breathed.

I stared at the ring on my finer What had just happened finally sunk in. Engaged. I just agreed to spend the rest of my life with a man who wasn't...you know, him.

When I got back to the dorm that night, I ran into the bathroom and threw up all over the place.

Gina walked in on me puking my brains out, and freaked.

"SUZE? What's wrong?"

"Gina," I sobbed. "He...proposed."

Gina put her arm around me and said, "Girl, that's great!...right?"

I sniffed and thought about it for a few seconds and then finally said, "Yeah, I guess it is."

And I meant it.

That night, before I went to sleep, I pulled out the miniature of Jesse from under my pillow, kissed it once, then tossed it out the window before I could change my mind.

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