TWISTED HEARTS

A: In case you're wondering Remus won't even meet the girl he's going to be paired

with for a bit, maybe in the next chapter, or maybe in the next two chapter….or

maybe I'm lying and you've been introduced to her already O.o You never know…I

might change my mind…..

xxxsaphiretearxxx- blinking indicates surprise, that's all. I'll try to cut down

The Contessa- I'll use your quote later, k? This was already picked out, sorry

"It takes 42 muscles to smile, so instead pick up your middle finger and say 'bite

me' in a bitchy tone."

-Anonymous -

Chapter six: what a whirl we live in

Lynn woke with a pounding headache. "Uhn…." She groaned, pulling herself out

of bed. Her clothes were ripped and dried blood was on her hands. She shook

herself awake. Last night had been the full moon. When the moon was full, she

went berserk in her sphinx form and hunted like a true predator. She ran to

the shower before anyone could see her and turned on the water.

While the water was pouring over her, she started thinking about everything.

Her life sucked at the moment. She had screwed things over with Sirius, her

foster might be evicted, she might have to drop out of the only good thing in

her life and to top it all off… Matthew was transferring here. He said he

wanted to get back with her, but she wasn't so sure she wanted to.

She sighed and turned off the water. After drying off a bit with a towel she

turned to look in a mirror. Her amber-green eyes were glowing with inner

thoughts, none of them her own. Her damp black hair was plastered to her face,

shining in the light. Her skin was naturally pale, no matter how hard she

tried to tan it and she noticed a pimple forming on her nose. She wrinkled the

named body part, looking at her form in repulsion. Even her eyelashes were

off, they didn't curl like most, they slanted downwards.

She growled and punched the mirror, not wanting to see herself. It cracked as

crimson splattered on its normally smooth surface. Lynn removed her fist and

looked at it. Cuts no one ever saw because she normally wore gloves that

covered her knuckles. The scars were pearly white, making them look paler than

the rest of her skin. But there was one cut that was hard to not ignore if her

gloves were off.

It ran from her ring finger, crossed over down her middle, over her pointer's

knuckle and ended at her thumb. She remembered all too well how she had gotten

it. It was during that time when she had slaughtered all of those muggles, she

had scratched at herself out of desperation, trying to snap out of it. Even if

it didn't work, it served as a reminder for what she had done.

Not that she really needed one.

Lynn fingered it gently, shuddering a bit. She suddenly let out a torrent of

curses, yelling them at the top of her lungs after putting a silencing charm

on the room. She refused to cry, she just wouldn't do it! Once she was done,

She looked at the broken glass from the mirror. She took a piece of it,

fingering it lightly, then allowed herself to submit to the darkness.

She woke an hour later, head killing her more than before. She didn't groan

this time. She wiped the blood away from the fresh wound and mopped the

crimson off the floor. She took out her wand and muttered something, causing

the mirror to repair itself.

Lynn sighed and looked down at her arm. "I lost myself again…" She muttered

quietly. She put her glove back on. It would cover the cut for it went halfway

to her elbow. There was a knock on the bathroom door.

"Lynn! You've been in there for over a decade! We need to use the bathroom

too!" A voice she recognized as Phoebe's called.

"One sec!" She replied back. After a quick inspection to make sure no blood or

anything else was to be found, she opened the door after covering herself with

a towel.

"Finally!" Phoebe said, pushing her aside and slamming the door.

"She really had to go, huh?" Lynn said, grinning.

Stephy, who had been sitting on her bed, grinned back. "Yup."

Lynn dressed and sat on her own bed and she suddenly remembered something

James had said a long time ago.

Flashback

"Don't mess with Sirius." James warned after she had a rather flirtatious

conversation with the guy in question.

"What do you mean?"

"Just don't mess with him. If you anger him, he can be as bad as Regulus."

"Nonsense. Besides, I was just kidding around."

"Were you?" He sounded so serious, she felt very nervous suddenly. "You will

get hurt if you keep messing around."

Lynn gave him a look, unsure. James never was this serious. Was he playing a

prank on her? "Um…right."

"If he wants something, he'll get it." James sighed and suddenly lightened up.

"Did you see the Quidditch match between Ireland and England? It was wicked!"

Lynn blinked in surprise, but nodded and they conversed on that subject.

Though she kept thinking of what James had just said to her.

End Flashback

"Don't mess with Sirius…" She said softly to herself.

Lynn glanced at Sirius who was sitting one seat to the left across from her.

He ignored her, busily chatting with James. She sighed. He hadn't said a word

to her for the past few days.

But then he suddenly looked straight at her, a small smile on his face. "So

what do you think Lynn, should James stay with his black hair or change it?"

She blinked. "Eh….I can change it for him." She waved her wand at it turned

purple with pink stripes.

"Hey! Change it back!" James said, running a frantic hand through his hair as

Sirius and Peter roared with laughter. Remus was too busy with his book to

know what was going on. Like usual.

Lynn smirked. "Why should I?"

"Because if you don't I'll put a silencer on you all day."

"You'd be doing us both a favor. My mouth always is getting me in trouble."

She laughed, but turned his hair black again. He sighed in relief. Lynn bit

into some bacon to suppress her laughter.

Then the owls came in. Like usual, Sirius got his fan letters and Remus got

some from Hannah. Lynn looked up expectantly for hers. Sure enough, a bundle

landed in front of her. She smiled when she saw a few bore the handwriting of

her younger brothers and sisters.

But when she started reading them, she felt herself beginning to tear. She

quickly wiped them away. "Is there something wrong?" Remus asked quietly,

peering at her from over his book.

She nodded and went back to reading. Here were some of the letters:

Deer Big Sis,

Wee all miss you and hop taht you com home soon for the howlidays. It's been a

little hard here, and wee want you bac soon! Love you,

Reni

Dear Sister,

I hope you're doing well. I tried to correct Reni's letter, but she wouldn't

let me. All well. But she's telling the truth, no matter how much I hate to

admit it. We all miss you and want you home. Circe doesn't keep order around

here like you do, and we wouldn't have to hire babysitters. But don't drop

out! That's the last thing you should do. Education is everything. Well, I

have to go, it's my turn to do dishes, see ya!

Donald.

Lynn had to laugh at how her eight-year-old brother tried to act like he was a

grown-up

Sister,

I'm so excited! I've got my first boyfriend! But um, anyway, mom's been under

some stress and keeps snapping at everyone. It really sucks. She made Rei-rei

cry yesterday. She yelled at me for putting socks in the microwave. I just

wanted them to be warm! The weather's freezing! Well, I miss you and I hope

you come home for Christmas. Ciao,

Mimi

Lynn wiped away fresh tears, and pulled out Circe's letter.

Lynn dear,

I'm afraid to say that we've gotten in even more trouble with the landlord.

But I am pleased to say that since Mimi just turned 13 we can use her to

baby-sit. But she hates doing it, unfortunately. We could use your help

however. You are going to come home for the Holidays, right? I'm going to have

to pull four shifts during the break, works been murder. I might as well be

living there. Rei-rei misses you terribly, even more than the rest and has

dubbed her teddy bear 'Lynn-eny.' Well, this letter has to come to an end

sometime. With lots of love,

Madame Circe

Lynn sighed. Rei-rei. How she missed her! She had only just turned three and

was the cutest little thing. The thought of her hugging her with her tiny

arms, placing her small hand into hers, made her want to cry. Without another

word she stuffed the letters into her bag and ran out of the Great Hall.

The others blinked after her. "Is she alright?" Sirius asked, concern lining

his voice lightly.

"She got some letters from her family." Remus said quietly.

Lily sighed. "How horrible."

"She seemed happy at first, but then saddened. It's kind of our fault I suppose."

"How so?"

"Sirius, you've been ignoring her."

Sirius blinked. "No I haven't. I just didn't have anything to say."

"You, nothing to say? You're joking right?" James said, laughing a bit. Peter

laughed along with him.

Sirius shrugged. "Just….didn't…"

Lynn didn't show up for classes that day and no one heard from her.

Sirius was trotting up the girl's dorm room stairs in dog form to see his new

girlfriend, Tina, when his ears picked up a noise. Someone was crying. He

followed it to the fifth-year dorms. He went into the hallway and transformed

into his human form before continuing. He couldn't hear the crying anymore,

but he figured who it was. It had to be Lynn.

He found his way to her and five other girl's dorms, and opened the door

cautiously. Lynn was sitting on what he supposed was her bed, face in her

hands, crying softly. He noticed instantly the letters that were littered

about her, damp from her tears.

Being the person he was, and allowed himself in. She didn't bother to look

up, her body wracked with silent sobs. He sat next to her. "Lynn…." He said

softly, realizing that this was a good opportunity to get her back, as

unfeeling as it sounded.

She finally looked up, her eyes red, but strangely not puffy. She wiped her

cheeks to no avail, sniffing. "Sirius…. How'd you get up here?"

"That's not important. Are you alright?" He asked gently, working his charm on

her.

"I'm…I'm fine…" She said shakily, still on the verge of tears.

He placed an arm around her shoulders, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear

with the other hand. "Are you sure?"

She sighed. "No." She suddenly started crying again, except this time she

hugged him, tears falling on his chest. He blinked in surprise, but decided

that he could work this to his advantage. He started stroking her hair, trying

to comfort her. Once she finally got a hold of herself, she realized what she

had done, and blushed crimson. She pushed away. "sorry…" She murmured.

He smiled. "It wasn't a problem." He stroked her cheeks, rubbing away the

tears. She looked at him, surprised, and he seized the chance. He kissed her,

causing her to fall down on the bed. Lynn wrapped her arms around his neck,

pulling him down. Seeing her passion, he realized this would be the perfect

opportunity. He tried to pull away, but he found that his body wouldn't let

him. And he found he was reluctant, which scared him further. They finally

broke apart, panting.

Once Lynn got her breath, she shivered. "Was that from sympathy or something

else?" She said suddenly.

He blinked, still trying to recover from his body's doings. After all, once it

doesn't obey, it doesn't really feel like yours, right? "What?"

"Was the kiss out of sympathy or did you do it for another reason?"

"Another reason." He could still get her back. Tell her he only did it because

he wanted revenge. But he found he couldn't say it.

"What was the reason?" Lynn asked boldly. She always was that kind of girl who

didn't like idle chit-chat and always got straight to the point. He almost

smiled. Sirius didn't trust himself to speak so he just shrugged. Lynn sighed.

"Just go away…" She lay down, pulling her pillow over her head.

It was only then he finally understood what Remus had told him yesterday.

Flashback

Sirius shrugged impatiently, not wanting to really stay in the library. He

wanted to practice Quidditch with James. But Remus held him back. "If there

was a girl that liked you and she was a friend, would you date her?"

Sirius shrugged again. "I dunno, if she was pretty maybe…" He thought for a

moment. "We don't have a friend who's a girl… Prongs maybe…"

Remus shook his head impatiently. "Forget it Padfoot, I wasn't joking. But

keep in mind that there are others who consider you a friend that aren't apart

of the Marauders."

"Whatever...can I leave now?"

"If you want to."

"Finally!" He left the library as quickly as he could.

End Flashback

He looked down at Lynn and realized she was a girl. I mean, he knew she was a

girl, just not a girl girl, like one you'd actually date. He guessed because

he hung out with her for so long, he thought of her as 'one of the guys,' just

not close enough to be a Marauder. He also realized two other things.

Author: I was thinking of naming this chapter flashbacks…..hm….well, hope you liked

it. Woo, this story is going to be long. Sorry if the formatting is irritating, but

it's not my fault!