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But seriously, it all belongs to Joss and a long line up of others-a line up which I am not a part of!
Summary: Buffy and Angel reunite. Cordelia and Spike share the pain. So what do they do? They set up a dating club where they find each other dates for the weekends. This eventually leads them to each other. But what happens when Angel realizes he may have chosen the wrong girl?
AN: Ya I don't think I actually have one. Thanks to all those who reviewed! Remember this is AU.
Spike growled into his bottle of whiskey. He was relishing in the feel and smell of the gloomy, cold, dank basement. It perfectly matched the way he was feeling right now. "And it's all that pet's fault..." he trailed off, he was not going to go down that road of feelings. He refused to get all emotional. He wouldn't do it. It wasn't a "Spike thing" to do, and lets face it, he had a reputation to with-hold.
'Bloody chip or not.' he thought.
Then he felt that pang again. Worse than a million stakes pounding into him.
'Atleast then I'd be dust and not have to worry about any of this bullocks.' yelled his mind. He felt a loose tear escape and cursed himself. Emotion may not have been for Spike, but for the poet William, he used to be that still lurked somewhere in his psyche, (albeit faintly,) the opposite couldn't be more true.
"This isn't how it's supposed to be!" He slurred into his bottle. Clumsily he lit up a cigarette and took a long drag. "I wasn't supposed to go and fall for the slayer. I didn't go and fall for the slayer-I don't even like slayers! I'm William the freaking Bloody! I kill slayers! Kill them dead...very dead." he rambled on in his drunken fashion until he finally said, "I loved Dru!" Pause.
His sentiments were followed up by two pangs this time.
One for Drusilla his sire who'd scorned him and one for the Slayer he couldn't have.
"It's always that stupid ponce!" Spike said to himself calmly as he took another drag of his cigarette and watched the embers flare.
'Kind of like my dead heart, burning to eventual nothing.' Spike winced at his thoughts. "Why did I have to be a poet?" he asked aloud, looking up at the ceiling. "It sure doesn't help a bloody thing, especially when you're trying to be tough!"
"Too bad I can't blame that on Peaches. Ah what the hell, that's his bloody fault too. If he didn't have to go and sire a lunatic who had a thing for sentimental ninnies, ('not that I was a ninny but the ponce was' he thought between his sentence) I'd never have to be sired by a lunatic and I'd be in a nice grave right now nearly fully decomposed."
He looked thoughtfully at the bottle of alcohol before him and whispered, "And not thinking about her. Buffy! What have you done to me!"
He scowled as he went for a swig and found it completely empty. How long had he been there mopping anyways? Well however long, it wasn't nearly long enough. Spike hated himself right now beyond any hate he'd ever had. He didn't even hate his grandsire as much as he hated himself at this moment. Sulking over the slayer? 'Did you really think she'd like you?' his mind asked him. 'She's been all about Angelus from the start.' Spike snarled his canines protruding from his peeled back lips. "ANGELUS!" he all but screamed. "It's always Angelus, even with Dru, it was always about her stupid sire. Bloody ponce. What kind of idiot lets gypsies curse him with a soul anyway?"
'Why did I have to go and check on her?' he thought in misery.
It was then he'd seen her with him. With the thorn in Spike's side for over one hundred years now. He had gone to check up on Buffy. To make sure she was alright. The others had been so happy to see her back and he was too but while the others didn't notice a thing, he realized the difference in her.
'Too bad she couldn't see the difference in me.' he though angrily. Mad at himself, mad at the slayer, mad at the world.
He had come down to make sure everything was still good with her. He knew they had called "Angel" and he would be hurrying down to meet his precious slayer. He also knew it would probably break both of their weak hearts. Angel he didn't care, but Buffy. 'Why me?' he thought. 'Some big bad I turned out to be. I even do baby-sitting now!' he thought about his little niblet Dawn and the flaming idiot Xander. He put on a little humourless smile.
'Too bad her heart wasn't broken, at least then I could have been the shoulder to cry on.'
When Spike had finally reached Buffy he stopped in the shadows. She saw him with his grandsire in a strong embrace.
He nearly felt himself go to pieces when he saw that she was crying tears of happiness instead of pain. He could hear some of there conversation and it made him sick.
'So they're getting back together? Fine what do I care' he had thought and huffed away.
'And that's when I landed here.' he sat down on the floor of the basement, 'Not before picking up my favourite counselling friend, Jack Daniels.'
Spike let out a frustrated sigh as he pulled at his short bleached hair. Once again he thought, "Why me."
Finally he got up and left into the night. Not even noticing the slightlytearing Dawn who had been sitting by the door listening.
Wow, all done! Sorry if it was short. But on the plus side we can get into the good parts now that the introductions are over.
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Thank you's:
Spike's girl Luna Ash: Sure I'll continue! I'm glad someone wants me too! THANKS FOR THE REPLY!
Imzadi: Ya Dennis rocks! Anya and Dennis...hmm I don't know if I'm going to write that late into the show but I suppose I can just kill anya off anyways seeing as it's AU! Sure I'll try to get Lindsey and Kate in the club but can't make promises cause you'll see...(who mystery!) THANKS FOR THE REPLY!
Dru: Glad you liked it. Ya I thought it would be funny to see Fred talking to her plant. I know I'd hate not being able to talk. THANKS FOR THE REPLY!
MysticWolf1: Why thank you! I was a little worried it may be boring! You know I wasn't thinking about a comedy but now that you mention that I can see what you mean. Maybe I will. I just find that with most comedies characters have a way of going OOC. But I'm definitely going to add Comedy now! THANKS FOR THE REPLY!
Queen J: Hello! and Thank you! I love Dennis! I think he's the coolest ghost out there and he can live in my room any day! Yup thanks fixed the summary! THANKS FOR THE REPLY!
