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First day

Have you heard about Lily Evans?

She's blind, isn't she?

Yes, that's what I heard

Oh, here she comes.

She really is blind!

Aw, look at her; she has to be walked by an elf!

Lily squeezes the elf's hand tight as the whispered voice hit her ears. Somehow, losing her sight gain her hearing ability, something she wishes it would go away. She rather be deaf too then to hear people talk about her-in such a pity way.

Lily wanted to run away, to hide from the people, people who feel sorry for her. Hide from everything, most of them all, from James Potter. He would have a good laugh at her once he sees her again; he would say it in her face that he told her so.

Lily has no one now; she had stopped talking to her friends, knowing that they'll still be her friend if she let them because they pity her. They don't really want her…who would want to take care of her?

She suddenly stopped; Lily could feel two small hands tugging at her own, motion her to sit down. Once she is seated, she could hear a sound of a chair scooting over by her. The cute looking elf seated herself down beside her mistress; she had a bright smile on her face, happy to be serving the most prettiest and the nicest witch in Hogwarts. The small elf was wearing a white clean dress that goes to her small knees, and small pair of white socks. Dumbledore had asked her to be Lily's servant and bodyguard, and she had agreed in a heart beat.

The elf took out Lily's book with her small hands and laid it in front of Lily

"Here you go, Miss Lily" she said in her small high pinch voice

"What is it, Pinky?" Lily ask softly

"It is a book, Miss Lily" she replies

"Um, I can't read, Pinky…" Lily said, her voice level still the same. She didn't want anybody to hear her talk, to know that she's there. But little did she know that every single head in the room had turn to her since she had walked into the classroom.

"Pinky is sorry Miss! Pinky is so sorry! Pinky forget!" the elf squeaked when she sees her mistress sad face. Pinky immediately hit her head on the table, the loud bang made Lily jump. Lily immediately reaches her hands out blindly to stop the elf. When she feels the fabric of Pinky's dress, sheand yank on it in order to pull Pinky away from the table.

"Pinky, it's okay, please stop" she begs, feeling uncomfortable and embarrassed.

James watched as Lily helplessly tried to hold the small elf back and telling it to stop hitting itself. He wanted nothing more then to jump in the chair next to her, and talk to her, protecting her. Anything that would make her smile again…anything.

But he was too scared…she might blame him for what happen. Like he blamed himself. He could have safe her in that fearful night, he could have run faster…

James took a careful look at her again, she was sitting two rows in front of him by his right, her auburn hair was neatly tied back in two French braid that stops at her ears, andher pony tail stops at her shoulder length, a few strands of hair fell over the side of her face. Her emerald eyes stair blankly to space, she's so beautiful to him...always had.

Lily wonders when the class will start; it seems that the teachers are not in yet, judging by the buzzing noise of people talking. Lily feel a little nerves since this is her second time back at Hogwarts, and the term had only start a little since it was the beginning of the year, and since she had change…

"Settle down, class! Sorry I am late" Lily jump a little at the sound of McGonagall's voice "Today we welcome back Miss. Lily Evans" Lily blushed at the mention of her name, she just wish every one would just ignore her "Good to have you again dear" McGonagall's voice trailed off, and Lily's heart rose.

James could see McGonagall's face soften when she looked at Lily, it's a well known fact that Lily was her favorite student.

"We will learn how to transfer animal into glass today, every one chouse a partner"

"Pinky will be your partner, Miss Lily!" the elf said cheerfully and scrod her chair closer to her mistress

Lily only nodded, Who else would want to be my partner? Who would want to be a partner with a useless blind person?

"Ok, now everybody is settle. One of your partners has to come up and get your owls" explain McGonagall

"Pinky will get it Miss Lily, Miss don't worry" Pinky said before she hop of the chair and juggle her little legs to the front of the classroom.

Lily sigh, how will this work? Why can't she be home schooled? Lily really likes Pinky, but she doesn't want people to see her like this, to be walked like a dog by an elf! She wonders what her hair looks like; she let Pinky do her hair today and it feel quite nice when she touch them, it feels like it's been braided. Oh well people won't look at her anyways.

"Well, well, well, what do we have here? An ugly blind mudblood, how does it felt, Miss perfect? To not be so perfect anymore? You disgust me, mudblood, you should have died instead of become blind, you people filth this school. You're useless, you should get your ugly face out of Hogwarts, no one wants you, bitch, so get the hell out" an unfamiliar female voice sneer as her.

Lily blink, shock and scared to her stomach. The word sink in to her one by one, she felt hurt. What had she ever done to that person? Did she know her? But for sure, who ever is talking right now must be one of the Slytherin. Lily knew better then to talk back, she knew she can't defense herself, the voice was right, she is useless. Lily could feel her eyes burning with hot tears that were threaten to come out.

"Oh, what's this? Is poor mudblood goanna cry? Where is her filthy mummy and daddy? Are they disgust in you too?" the voice said with fake baby voice.

Lily could feel her warm blood slowly sips down to her palm, she clench her fist so hard that her nail is digging into her flesh.

"Who are you?" she ask quietly, her voice's shaking

"Can blind people cry?" the same voice asks, ignoring Lily's question. As if answering to her, tears slip out of Lily's eyes, she wants to get out of here, she felt low, and she hated herself. She should have died instead of become blind…

"Leave me alone" she whisper

"What's that, mudblood? What did you say?" the voice mock, and then let out a bark of laugh at her

"What's going on here?" ask a voice of none other then James Potter, he took one look at Lily and his face grows red, why is she crying? Who made her cry? James turns his head to look at the girl who stand in front of Lily's desk and his heart rise.

"What did you do, Amoral?" James asks the attractive dark haired Slytherin girl.

Lily just wanted to craw into a whole and die, why does bad things always happen to her? She must have done something really bad in her previous life to be this fuck up in this one.

"Why, I did nothing, Potter. Just being friendly" she said with a smirk, she flipped her shiny black hair and licked her full pink lips at James seductively while James just shudders with disgust.

"I would appreciate it if you would stay the hell away from Evans for now on" James said, his tone dead.

Amoral just snorted and walked away, swaying her hips seductively, leaving the guys to drool after her.

"I don't need your defense, Potter" Lily said, her anger rise, she don't need help, damn it! She doesn't want Potter to pity her. She clenches her fist tighter, ignoring the hurt that shot throw her hands.

"But Evans, I can't just stand hear and listen to her insulting you" James said softly.

"I don't want help form anybody, Potter, especially from you. I deserve to be insult anyway..." Lily said, her voice even. Then suddenly she felt a pain shot throw her heart, the familiar pain she felt so many times before when ever she and James had a fight; it feels like it's going to break.

"Besides, what she said is true" she continues on "I am a mudblood, I am blind and useless. I should have died instead of become blind…I should given up school…" by now, her heart was trembling with pain, but she didn't feel sick, not at all, her heart was just hurting, hurting ever so badly then before. Why, she didn't know. She never know…

"Don't say that, Lily…" he said quietly, and…sounded hurt? But her name on his lips makes her unclench her fist, she felt so shooting, having him say that…It was a first time in a while since he say her first name...

James was about to say something else but a high pinch voice cut him.

"Pinky is sorry Miss, it is very hard for Pinky to carry this owl" said a panting elf who only reaches to James's knees. She was struggling to keep an owl from flying away, an owl that take up half of her little size.

"Here, let me help you with that" James said kindly and take the owl away from the elf's tiny hands and put it down gently on Lily's desk.

"You is so kind! Thank you, sir" Pinky said with a bow and climb up to the chair she's been previously sitting on. The elf's eyes almost pop out of its head when she saw her mistress' hand.

"Miss Lily is hurt! Miss Lily is hurt!" she said hotly, picking up Lily's hand to take a closer look at it. James snatch Lily's hand away from Pinky and takes a look at it worriedly himself, he saw a cut across her palm and nothing more before she quickly snatch it away from his reach.

Once again, Lily's heartache, she put her hands down to her laps and look down.

"Please leave me alone…" she whisper

Silence fell between them, and Pinky looked between the two worriedly

"If that's what you want…" he answers before quietly walking away, he sit at his seat and look over at her, he'll watch over her from here. No matter what she'll say, he'll protect her. Always.


:Smile nervously at the quit audience: Umm…I know the ending is not very well done, but i'm very sleepy...and i want to update for all my lovely reviewer as soon as i can :Smile triedly: I hope i didn't dissapoint you...Good night :Yawn: Bui bye!