Secret Agent Man...Secret Agent Man. Lalalalala. Yeah okay I'm listening to Secret Agent Man if you couldn't tell.

Music Insane Doll: Yeah babies are cute, but really boring lol. They don't do much.
ZiggyGurl: Aw thank you I feel much better. I hope you like this chapter!
Twitch in my eye: Hope you like this chapter!
Dreamer for lyf: Gettin' on sugar highs huh? Lol. Yeah my principal's a dumb dumb too! Oh and yeah there will be a sequel!
blackmagic111090: They should teach her all three! The more she knows the better, I mean I can play four instruments! Hope you like this chapter
Miru Amai: My cousin is having a baby, it's a boy. Boy's are adorable and yes you can buy them cute stuff. I almost spent like one hundred dollars on him, and he's not even born yet!
hippie-chick-forever: I'm glad you like my story! I like yours too!
JupermanPinkyInc: Your very welcome. Of course she's cute, she's Johnny's kid. Lol.
mischeif-maker: I think little girls are so adorable. And I can just see when she gets her period, and if Sage isn't home. Oh poor Johnny. Hey that's a funny thought.
babygurl33: My friends and I have had some pretty stupid fights. Like if a pigeon was a bird or a pigeon. It's a bird! Duh!

Now onto the feature presentation. Chp. 18! Woohoo!


Chapter 18: Never Been Loved

STEPHANIE'S POV

We finished "building" Bethany's nursery. We used the room that we had stored our band stuff in. Now it's all out in the open. Johnny got a job at a pizzeria. He dropped out of school and works full-time. We all helped paint the room mellow yellow, and bought a cheap crib and rocking chair.

We had a little "celebration" for Bethany. Amanda, Belle, and I bought her a bunch of records. So she's only 5 weeks old, she has to learn who the great bands are! Two-Bit bought her a stuffed rabbit. Darry bought her a rattle. Pony and Soda bought her a cute little dress. Steve insisted on giving her a deck of cards and a switchblade. Sage threw the blade out. And Dally...well...he gave her socks.

I was the only one home. Being it was Monday and everyone has to work, except me haha. The Sheldon's are in Paris or something and don't need my help until they come back. Yay! Johnny's at the pizza place. Amanda and Belle are at the DX. Sage just got a job as a waitress at the Dingo. Her parents were coming down in a week. I think they handled the news of their newly grandparent-ship pretty well. Mrs. Porter fainted, and Mr. Porter started looking for real estate. They said that Sage brought herself into this, so she's going to deal with it. But, because they love her, and Bethany, they were going to move down here to be with them. She wanted a good job so they couldn't point a finger at her.

"WHAAAAAAAAA! WHAAAAAAAAA!" Bethany screamed. I got up from the couch and walked into her nursery.

"What's wrong now? I just fed ya!" I picked her up and bounced her up and down. I patted her diaper. "Still dry," I said outloud.

I brought her out to the living room and grabbed her rattle. I waved it in front of her and she smiled brightly and stopped crying. "Thank you Darry!" I thought to myself.

The door bell rang and I walked over to it, as Bethany tugged at the rattle in my hand. I opened the door and glared at the person on the other side.

"That isn't yours? Is it?"

"What do you want Montana? I thought I made it very clear to you that I don't want you around."

"Oh Stephie. My girls here and I need a place to practice. You have instruments and well we don't have any room. So we're going to use yours," Montana pushed past me and her bandmates followed. I hated each and every one of them.

See first there's their singer, Lynn. I've said before we used to be best friends, until Montana. Lynn hit her shoulder into mine as she past me.

Their guitarist, Danny, was my first boyfriend. I lost my virginity to him, such a stupid mistake. Well Montana made up this lie that I was cheating on him. So he promptly left me, and went to be with her.

Montana's band's, which is named Montana (how original), bass player is our older cousin, Suzie. As you can see a pattern, Suzie and I were very close. She introduced me to her boyfriend when I was 14, and she was 16. Montana, who was 15, said I was hitting on him, when in fact he was hitting on me. Suzie's boyfriend backed the lie up, and Suzie hasn't said a nice word to me since.

"Why exactly am I letting you use my stuff?" I asked, shifting Bethany to my other arm, who was chewing on her rattle.

"Because we're older than you, and we said so!" Montana grabbed my drumsticks, and sat at my drum set.

"I always knew you were desperate Steph, but I never knew you'd be stupid enough not to use protection," Lynn giggled, and got a high five from Suzie.

I rolled my eyes. I wished so bad that Amanda and Belle would come home. They would kick these girls, and guys, asses for sure! Hell I wanted anyone to come over. I couldn't kick them out, well except Montana. I have proved that I could take her on. But I'm so damned nice that I can't hurt the other three. No matter how much I want to.

As if to answer my prayers, there was a knock at the door that I had just closed. I sighed and opened it. Now I wasn't sure if it was answer to my prayer or my nightmare.

"Hi Dallas!" Montana waved.

"Hi Montana," Dally walked in like it was his place and didn't even notice me.

I cleared my throat loudly. "Oh hey Steph," he nodded to me.

Lynn and Suzie were blushing and staring at Dally like he was Adonis. I snorted.

"I didn't know you had a pig," Danny smirked.

"You know what, you should all leave," I tried saying but The Montana's started playing and Dally was listening intently. I was ready to scream! If only someone would hit me to get me mad!

I stomped into the nursery and put Bethany down. I stomped back out and went over to the wall where we had the amps plugged in. I smiled evilly to myself and pulled the amp plugs out.

"What the-" Suzie and Montana said at the same time.

I waved the plugs around and smiled. "Stop using our instruments, your going to get your nasty germs on it, and I might catch the bitchin' disease you all have. What is it called? Bitchitis?"

"I think you're the one being the bitch," Montana stood up, waving my drumsticks in the air.

"Do I need to kick your butt again?"

She scoffed. "Don't worry little sister, you haven't gotten rid of me. You might have won this battle, but I'm winning the war," she growled. Then she snapped her fingers ordering her cronies to follow her. I slammed the door behind them.

"I was on your side the whole time. Montana needs to get a life, she can't walk all over ya." Dally smiled charmingly.

I glared at him angrily. I was always angry at this boy, man, guy. I walked past him and into Bethany's room.

"Oh what did I do know?" He followed me.

I picked Bethany up. "Hmm I don't know. Maybe you've been ignoring me since we was at the hospital."

"I'm the one who was ignorin' you? I don't think so baby. You're the one who's mad as hell." he said taking Bethany out of my arms.

"I wasn't ignoring you! Damn it Dallas I love you! And it makes me so mad! You rather be with anything else than someone who loves you. I know you don't love me back, you don't love anything. That's what your rep says," I blurted. As soon as I did I wish I would have kept my mouth shut. He smiled devilishly, but had a small flicker of hurt in his eye. He was watching Bethany though, who had fallen asleep in his arms, with her tiny hand wrapped around one of his fingers.

"Ya think I'm that shallow babe? I've loved a lot of people in my life. I just try not to. 'Cause every person I love ends up leavin'."

"Want to give some examples?" I pressed him. Montana's right, I am a bitch.

"I loved my mom. She fuckin' ran out on me and my old man when I was four. I loved my old man, and he doesn't give one shit about me. I loved Montana." he looked me in the eye now. "Probably the only girl I ever did love. She was sweet and gorgeous. Perfect in my eyes. But she was only usin' me to impress her damned friends. In the beginning I thought she loved me. And I love Johnny. He's like my little brother, ya know. Like I gotta protect him. I've loved a lot of people, I just don't show it."

I felt something wet run down my cheeks. I felt them, and realized I was crying. That had to be the most emotional thing Dallas Winston has ever said to me.

"I'm sorry," was all I could whisper.

He put Bethany in her crib, and then looked at me. "It ain't your fault kid. Look if ya know what's best for ya, don't love me. It's a waste of ya time. Besides, I ain't ever goin' to love ya back," he said bluntly and kissed my cheek. I didn't know what to say. I guess we were over. 'No way you're getting this one back Steph,' I told myself as I watched his retreating back. I sat down on the rocking chair and whipped my tears. I realized that I've never heard the words I love you. Not from any boyfriends, not from my mother, or my sister. Not from my dad, not even my brother.

Johnny walked in just as I started to cry. Really cry. I brought my knees to my chest and buried my head in them.

I knew it was him because he didn't make a big commotion. I sobbed silently as he came into the room. He picked up Bethany and held her in his arms.

"Steph? Are you cryin'?" I heard him walk closer to me.

I shook my head.

"Then let me see," he picked he head up and saw the Niagara Falls streaming out of my eyes.

"What happened?" he asked concerned, and gave my back a slight rub.

I sniffed and whipped the tears again. "It's nothing you need to be worrying about," I said, feeling selfish that I was sitting here crying like a little girl. I got up and smoothed out my shirt and started going to the kitchen.

"Was it Dallas? Did he say somethin' to you?" he was following me, still cradling his daughter in his arms.

"How do you always know?"

"Elementary, my dear Watson," he humored, trying to get me to smile. He saw it wasn't working and cleared his throat. "What'd ol' Dal say?"

I don't why but the next thing I knew I was telling Johnny everything. My inner most feelings I was telling to this boy, who was my age, but seemed so much older. He felt so wise to me, so safe. When I was with Johnny I felt like I did when I was with my older brother Chachi. Protected.


Awww how sad. Bad Dally! Bad! What did you guys think? I'm kind of running out of ideas between here and the Battle of the Bands chapter. So if you have any ideas of what you think should happen between then, please tell me! I love you all! Toodles!