A/N: This is a really bad chapter but I just had to include it.
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Chapter eighteen: Someday
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Zack: If she's smart, she'll tell him to take the kid and go. Otherwise, they're going to wind up sharing a suite back at Manticore
Max: You're a real family values guy, aren't you?
-Max and Zack (Hit A Sista Back)
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'One more day down
Everybody has those days
Where one soft sweet song's
Just enough to clear my head'
-Matchbox Twenty (Black And White People)
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"It's strange- me being here in this reality. I've been here in Terminal City a few weeks and it feels like I belong here. I don't need to walk around with anyone now because they trust me. Dalton's like a little brother to me and Sketchy is one of my best friends. Strangely enough, Alec's become one of my best friends too. Kinda weird since he didn't trust me at first. He took our new start seriously and now he makes every effort to make sure I know he trusts me like his other friends. I still like to wind him up all of the time. We can sit for hours just annoying each other. Who would've thought that I'd be best friends with Alec, the second in command of Terminal City? In some ways it's seriously cool, in others it's seriously annoying. The other transgenics not part of command seem to think that that means they can't talk to me. Oh, well. Alec doesn't flirt with me either which I have to admit is disappointing. He's hotter in real life. I mean, he has these hazel eyes… I better not get started on it. I have a habit of daydreaming when I start to think about Alec.
The transgenics I rescued are cool too. I get on with all of them- maybe I'm a people person? It has been said before. It really makes me want to talk to them though. Really talk. I have to keep reminding myself why I can't:
1) They would begin to ask more questions about my past, and
2) I would blurt something out about my world.
If I don't talk, I have to remind myself not to speak and that makes me remember to think before I say anything.
Joshua is searching for the others in Max's unit that didn't get away. He thinks they're here but too nervous to come and talk to Max and the others. I think they're brainwashed and probably hate them.
Anyway, I'm getting along with everyone- even Mole. I think it definitely helped that I brought those cigars with me. Still, I try not to get on his nerves.
The only person that hates me is Logan. Man, that guy's annoying. He's always watching me with those beady little eyes of his. And another thing, does that guy ever blink? And he's always talking to Max in that voice ya know? Like it's just above a whisper? He thinks that's he's so important. Like everything in Terminal City would fall apart without his presence. He's an idiot; I don't know why I'm wasting paper on him.
You might wonder why I'm writing this. It's because I wanted the others to know my reasons for everything. Every single day I feel guilty about lying to them. They're good people but I have no choice.
I still think of home. I miss my family and my friends. They're all probably worried sick about me. Skye- my best friend is probably writing some whacked out lyrics about this right now, and Dylan- Skye's boyfriend, will be smoking some stronger shit than usual. I just hope he doesn't do something stupid. When Skye dumped him for a week, Dylan got so high he did some really stupid things. I hope that he doesn't wake up with another sheep tattoo on his arse. Now, THAT was funny. Until he decided to show it to me… Damn I miss my life.
I miss playing in the band with Skye and Dylan. I miss boarding in the park with my brother Matt. I miss fighting with him and Ryan. I even miss college!
The reason for me writing this is because I haven't given up hope. I'm going to get home and my friends here will know the truth. They'll be angry, that's for sure. But at least they'll understand. I'm going to keep this journal safe for them until the day I go home, because I know I'll find a way to get back to my family. Someday I'll have my life back."
Next chapter: When We Were Young…
Max pushed thoughts of Logan away. She'd been having conflicting feelings about him since Jam Pony. He was getting more possessive, more controlling everyday, and those pictures. Max winced. Well, love was about what was on the inside right?
A/N: I just had to include this chapter so you guys would know what Erin's thinkin'. It also gives a tiny glance into her life back home. More will be revealed soon I promise.
Tramps- Like-Us: Alec and chocolate- nice…. *blinks* Anyway, if there will be Alec nekkidness, you'll know about it before okay dude? Remember- you get to have me bouncing those ideas off of you. So, how about an Alec in just boxer shorts scene? Now Erin HAS to react to THAT!
Bittany: Glad to hear that your condition was only temporary. This really isn't a comedy but I can't help it! I mean, LOGAN!!! Everything about him is just so annoying! I better stop now or I'll go off on a rant *smiles sweetly* Now if it were Alec I was talking about….
messymissy: Glad that you like this. It just got kinda stuck in my head and I figured I should do something with it. It also helped that someone *cough*Tramps*cough* talked me into it. Anyway, yes, Zack still loves Max he just hasn't shown it yet. I'll get round to writing it in later on. Syl and Krit are together as well as Jondy and Zane. I also need to focus on that a little bit more later on. There's just SO much I have to include. The Erin and Alec ending? *evil grin* you'll just have to keep reading to see how THAT ends.
Elin: *waves* Hi. Thanks for reading my story. It's good to know people like it.
