Here's a treat. Update for the next week came early. Did it sooner cuz i wont have time this week to write anything.

The world faded from her view. There was an image imprinted in her head. That woman. The look on her face was looking into darkness its self.

"Why? Why did she do that? I thought she was helping us."

Terra's senses dulled. She no longer felt the sting of the rapier in her chest. Terra thought she heard someone say something to her, but it was washed out by silence.

"Can I finally rest now?" Terra thought to herself

In a void she could see her self. She materialized in the darkness.

"Where am I now?" She said

Moving around in this silent void she could see a series of doors. There were numbers on each of them. She started at a door that was labeled as "1". Opening it there she was engulfed by this moving picture. It played out before her.

There was a Mithra sitting in a chair holding a small child. The image was kind of blurry. The baby was sleeping in her arms wrapped in a blanket. The voices couldn't be made out. Terra closed the door and moved ahead a few. She jumped to the door labeled "4". Opening it Terra looked out onto a field.

The sun was just coming up and she saw a child Mithra running over the grass. Behind her was a wind elemental. The child was running to a taller Mithra.

"Mommy, mommy, look. I can finally control this one." The child said

"That's great work. That adds to earth and water. You're getting better at this than I am." The taller Mithra spoke

The child started to get tired; she released the wind spirit and sat down. After a few minuets she was back up and running around again.

"Who is this?" Terra thought

The images she saw were still blurry. Terra could barely make out the voices she heard. She backed out and closed the door. Looking at this rather short hallway she went to the next door. This door, unlike the others, was dark and old. It looked like it had been scarred and locked shut.

It had the number "5" carved into it. The other doors leading going passed it seemed to be the same. Terra opened this one. Watching she saw the following scene unfold.

There she saw that same young Mithra running ahead of another taller Mithra and an Elvaan. The picture she was watching was still blurry. It kept playing. There, she could see that house.

"Wait… what is happening?" Terra said

The child was running up to the house until she saw a large man standing in all black. He wore a long black trench coat and stood alone. The two adults behind the child quickly came up to the young Mithra. After what looked like yelling the Elvaan dropped a bag of groceries and drew two short katana's. The tall man dashed forward to the Elvaan and threw him aside. As he landed the man knocked him out. Looking back at the two Mithra. He used a magical force to throw the taller Mithra away. This man walked to the child. Before he got to her there was a blue animal standing in between the child and the attacker.

"That creature. This moment. Did, did this happen to me?" Terra said

The attacker was struck by a powerful thunder spell. He dispelled the summoned creature and turned to the woman who cast the spell and walked to her. He kicked her over and struck her with a sword. He left it in her and returned to the child. Before the child was taken away Terra could hear the woman yelling something.

"Is she calling out to me?" Terra thought

She could hear her call out her name, but Terra still could not see her face clearly. It went dark again. The images Terra saw were horrifying. The child was being beaten just so she could perfect a summoning call. The endless hours of training she was forced to do. She was being forced to summon a vast army of lost souls. She called them back from the dead to attack the people of this world. At the last attack she stopped and refused to take part in it anymore. Terra couldn't bear the images any more. She forced the images away. She tried to escape from them but they kept playing. They shifted around quickly. She saw people die before her and others trying in vane to save her. Then there she was again.

"Who is that woman?" Terra said

Whenever something went wrong, or something bad happened to her this woman would show up and make it all go away. When she this child was about to be killed for stopping her summoning this woman appeared again and saved her. She took her away from danger.

In a scene later there was that man who took the child away from that woman. He changed. He shifted forms and appeared as the same as that woman. The images shifter again and she saw that same woman dieing with that child under her arm. Her body did not stay though. Her body faded, a silver mist that absorbed into the child's body. What Terra saw brought her to sobbing tears. She fought against her own will and escaped from that room. Leaning against the wall across from that door she was frightened.

"What the hell is this?" Terra said. "This is crazy. There is no way any of this can be real."

Down the hall she looked at more doors. They only seemed to become darker and darker. She continued down the hall until she found two doors that were opposite each other. There was a black broken latched door, and across from it was a fine red door with a gold doorknob.

"What is this?" Terra said

She couldn't open the first door labeled "15". The one opposite was also labeled "15" mirrored it. On down the hall she saw similar doors that resembled the red one now. There weren't and more of the black broken ones. Terra opened this door. She saw that same Mithra child but, she knew where she was.

The child was in simple robes, she was washed up upon the shores of Basil.

"That's…. me…" Terra spoke

Terra watched on to see herself get out of the water and walk to the house where she met Isclei. Terra closed the door to this memory.

"This, this is what those dreams were." Terra said. "Those nightmares were my life."

Walking away from this room she went back to the one parallel to the previous door.

"What happened to make me forget. What the hell happened to make me become this way?" Terra said

She tried to open the door but it was firmly locked shut. Terra pried at it trying to open it.

"Damnit open!" Terra yelled. "I want to know now! I want to know why I lost my memories and why my life changed so suddenly!"

In her words the lock broke. The door flew open and she ran in unsure of what to expect.

It was black at first but it grew light. She saw herself in those robes again sitting in lower Jeuno. She was watching kids playing.

"Those three. Those are the ones that came into my room to save me." Terra said

"Hey Terra!" A female voice called out

She looked to her left to see a tall female Elvaan walking with a basket. She walked to Terra and kneeled next to her.

"Dear… please tell me you ate something today." The woman said

"That's." Terra said

Her mind was cracking.

"I know this. I know those people." Terra said. "That's… Ginryu."

Ginryu opened her basket and handed Terra a sandwich.

"Please eat something." Ginryu said to her

In this memory Terra did not say anything. She did not respond to anyone. Terra did take the sandwich but she did not eat it. She just held it and watched the three run around and play.

Later through this memory that played she saw herself sitting in her house cleaning up dozens of empty bottles. She was cleaning this house until there was a knock at the door. Terra answered it. There was Ginryu standing at her door. She asked if she would come to a picnic with them. After a few minuets she hesitated but came out of the house following Ginryu. The three kids met them by the bridge to Rolanberry field. The three were joking around until one of them said something about Terra. After a joke that was said Terra smiled. But she did not want the others to notice. Quickly she hid behind Ginryu and Cifer said harsh words to her.

"Hey, get your own mother!" Cifer spoke

Terra watched this memory play as she saw herself running back to that house and hiding in her room till the nightfall. Watching this there was a heavy feeling on her heart.

"Why am I feeling like this?" Terra said

The memory continued to play. Terra saw her former self walk out into the streets of Jeuno in the dark. Barely lit streets she walked past houses. She walked out onto the bridge and looked down at a mural carved into the side of the wall. Terra could barely see it through the memory.

"Wait. That place. I why was I drawn to that place when I first awoke in that city?" Terra said

She watched as her self in the memory climbed up and sat down on the ledge of the bridge.

"What is going on here?" Terra said

Then she could hear the thoughts of that moment.

"It was this spot." Terra thought "The last I ever saw her, the last time I was ever happy, the last time I was ever warm."

Terra watched as she looked to the sky above her.

"Why does this have to be so hard?" She thought. "Why can't I be happy like them? No care in the world, to be safe and happy."

Terra looked back down to the water below her.

"That can never be possible again." She said

Terra watched as she saw herself let go of the railing. With such powerful emotions Terra forced herself into her own memory. Down through the sky she flew. She landed on the bridge and ran over to her younger self. Just as she started to fall Terra grabbed her and pulled her onto the bridge. Hysterical, her younger self was struggling to get out of her grasp.

"Let me go! I want to die!" She yelled

Terra did not let go. She held her making sure she did not go anywhere. After a while she finally settled down.

"Why won't you let me go? There is nothing left for me here." She said

Terra held her close.

"Please calm down. This won't solve anything." Terra spoke to her

The girl opened her eyes and saw her older self looking down to her.

"This isn't the proper way to deal with your problems now." Terra said

"But there isn't anything here for me any more. My mother is dead. My father is never around, and when he is, he is completely drunk. I don't want to live like this anymore." She cried

"Then change it." Terra said to her. "If your life right now is bad, then get help. You have friends here. They are in pain every time they see you. People want better for you. You just have to open up to them.'

The younger Terra stopped crying.

"Then why are you here?" She asked

"I followed your current path. And it only brought more misery that I could imagine to the people around me." Terra said. "Right now, we both need to stop running from our lives."

The two stood up. Terra walked to the wall of the bridge to see the mural. Terra could see it now.

"RIP Angel. 1576-1599, A loving mother."

Reading those words the world she was in disappeared. In the darkness she was. Nothingness surrounded her. Then a faint light was in the horizon. Terra started running for it. The closer she got the more of a shape the light became. It was a medium sized woman standing there. The light settled and Terra stopped. She looked at this woman. A tail was swaying back and forth behind her as she walked towards Terra.

"Who, who are you?" Terra asked

The woman stopped. Behind her the light widened and there were wings spanning from her back. Terra could see her face. Her clothes.

"You're… that woman from before." Terra said

Her memories were finally connecting. Each of the pieces that she recovered were coming together again.

"You're…" Terra said

The bridge came back to her. That mural, the fight years ago when she was a child.

"You're…"

The memories she had focused and cleared. In each of them she could see the people in them, she could hear their voices.

"You're… my mom." Terra finished

Angel walked forward to her and embraced her.

"You finally remembered." Angel said

Her wings closed around the two.

"You have to go on living for the two of us." Angel said to her. "I will be here for you. You just have to be strong, Terra…"

In those words the world brightened.

Terra opened her eyes. Looking around she saw Zanu holding her.

"…daddy…" Terra said meekly

What she said got to him. He never thought he would hear her say that again.

"Yes. I'm here." Zanu said

"I'm… sorry…" Terra said. "I'm sorry for what I did."

Terra felt the pain again in her chest. She clenched her teeth and closed her eyes in the pain. Ginryu and Seres were back, they were casting the strongest curing spells they knew.

"We lost you once before. I will not allow us to lose you again." Ginryu said

She poured her everything into the spells she cast. Slowly the bleeding stopped.

Terra got up. She put both hands on the sword. She quickly fell to her knees. With one hand holding her up and pulled the sword out of her. The old ragged blade tore at her skin opening the wound more. In one sharp tug Terra pulled the whole sword out. She leaned over coughing up blood upon the floor.

"I won't end like this." Terra said softly

Holding the sword she wiped her thumb over the etched letters near the hilt. Her blood filled in the crevasses. The letters that could not be seen filled with her blood.

"Angelsheart." It read.

"This was hers." Terra said. "Mother, please help me." Terra thought

Words were coming back to her. The knowledge she had lost came back.

"I know what to do now." Terra said

The swords blade was covered in her blood. Using it Terra drew an elaborate circle on the ground around her. She was getting light headed from the blood she was losing.

"Terra… what are you doing?" Zanu asked

Ginryu and Seres were trying to cure her wounds but they would not seal up. Terra kept bleeding.

"I'm doing what my mother told me to do." Terra said

Finishing the circle she dropped the sword to the ground. Taking the summoning stance her mother taught her she started to speak. With her arms coupled together she was gathering her power.

"Before she left my mother gave me something that until this moment I forgot about." Terra said sullenly

She is in pain. Trying to focus her power she was straining her body to remain upright and not collapsing.

"Creature of light, and wolf of night, come hear my call." Terra said

In opposite sides of the summoning circle she drew elemental seals grew over the ground. One of light and one of dark.

"Earthen sage and lightning mage, come to my side." Terra said

On opposite sides of the circle grew elemental seals of earth and lightning.

"God of fiery might, priestess of wind and flight, please hear my wish." Terra said

Elemental seals of wind and fire grew over ends of the summoning circle.

"Queen of ice, and serpent of water and life, appear in my sight." Terra said

The final two elemental seals grew over Terra's summoning circle.

"My mother wanted me to live, so I ask that you help me fulfill her dying wish." Terra finished

Terra releases the power she was focusing. In once fluid movement she finished the summoning call. The ground erupted. From each of the seals came the avatar of it origin. From light grew Carbuncle, Earth grew Titan, Wind grew Garuda, Fire grew Ifrit, Water grew Leviathan, Ice grew Shiva, Lightning grew Ramuh, and Dark grew Fenrir.

The use of all of her magical power to summon these creatures left her so weak she couldn't stand anymore. Falling down she took hold of "Angelsheart" in one hand. Trying to get up Carbuncle quickly walked over to her.

"Child, you are mortally wounded." Carbuncle said. "Why do you call upon us?"

"My mother… entrusted her power to you. Now as her daughter she gave that power to me. I plead of you to grant me the same so I may go on living and finish this fight." Terra said

Carbuncle looked into her eyes. He looked past her body and into her soul.

"She is truthful. There is nothing but a pure heart within this one." Carbuncle said

Turning to the others.

"I will grant her my power, what say the rest of you?" Carbuncle asks

Shiva steps lightly along the ground picking Terra up.

"She is hurt and needs our help." Shiva speaks

Ramuh holds a hand over her heart.

"She does not have long. I will accept you as my new master. If you could summon all of us under such a condition you are worthy enough for my power." Ramuh speaks

The rest agree. Shiva sets Terra down and Carbuncle nudges her with his nose.

"She will be fine." Carbuncle says

He jumps into the air. Collecting energy from his fellow avatars his ruby begins to shine. In a flash his ruby flares. All of Terra's wounds mend themselves and she is back to perfect health. The avatars give her their best wishes. Each of their auras are absorbed into Terra. In unison they speak to her.

"In our final words we bestow upon you the powers and gifts we gave to your mother before you. Sleep well, you have much work to be done." They all finished

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