Chapter 15 : Im out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message…
After all happened it's time for Connor to act normal and freak out……
Connor ran into the building, reason would've told him to get out of the building but something sure was that whatever was happening there was no blessed backdoor to go out of it. He ran like he was insane and each person he would cross would barely look at him. All this insanity seemed normal to them, Connor felt like he was losing it and yet he still appeared to be the most sane person in this place.
First was fear……feeling like a small child as everything is new and seems so complicated that without the help of someone more experienced you could drown. Second was denial……everything is fine as long as I am, the situation could be worse, I could be alone or dead, and it's a great adventure to tell the buddies, right?. Third was madness……senseless you begin to realize that it is actually worse and that you have to find a way back to reality and if you die well lets just hope that'll trigger you're waking up from this bad dream.
Connor thought that whatever he was in it was paranormal right? So something would show him the way. Well he ran down stairs and through corridors but that divine guidance didn't come so he just entered the first door he saw. He kept looking through the half closed door when a girl cleared her throat. He jumped feet high and turned around very slowly ready to throw his hands up.
- "This room is reserved to the staff with access card. Do you have an access card?"
Connor watched around perplex "no" he said casually.
- "Without an access card you can not enter that room. If you want to enter the archive you have to go get one" she said then she returned her eyes on the files she was reading.
Connor approached her desk lightly. "Hum……what is this room? It's archive of what?" the girl didn't even acknowledge his presence "It's lawyers files and stuff isn't it? …… Helloho"
Annoyed she finally said "It's Wolfram and Hart's archive and you can access them with an access card which you have not."
- "Yeah, I don't have your damn card. I don't care about your archive anyway." He said returning to the door. He stuck his ear at the piece of wood, what was he waiting for. Did he think that people had followed him? It wasn't like he was a prisoner or anything; maybe he should stop watching all those movies because right now he didn't know what was driving him paranoid, those movies or this situation. The girl was watching him with a raised eyebrow.
Connor sat down his back against the door "I'm hiding" he said noting the ridiculous in his own words. Maybe in some minutes he would take a bandana and attached it around his forehead before going hunting in the jungle.
The girl just kept staring at him with overacted blinking. "What are you hiding from?" she finally asked.
Connor didn't really know what to answer, was he hiding from reality or was he hiding from insanity? "This place and those people……I think there's something I don't have right! This isn't right!" he said getting angry. She looked at him blinking.
- "If it's answers you're searching, everything about Wolfram and Hart, it's employees and everything that touches to its clients and its cases are listed here, in the archive"
Connor's eyes shined with joy. "Really? That's great! I need to find what they got on me, and on the investigations they're working on"
- "Of course. It's easy, I can find them in a second. As long as you have an access card to access those files. Do you have an access card?" she said and waited with that look of hers.
- "I told you I don't have that card! I need to see those files!" he said slapping his hands on her desk.
- "No card no files. I am calling the security now" she said taking her phone, this girl was staying so calm it was disturbing.
Connor grabbed the phone as gently as he could. "No, you don't need to. I'm hiding, remember? If I come back with a card you'll let me use the archive, right?"
- "Right" she answered putting the phone back on the desk. She returned to her reading ignoring Connor again.
Connor sneezed "And……er……How does this card look like?"
" " "
- "Hey, if it isn't the little fugitive!" Spike declaimed entering Angel's office. Connor was searching through the desk's drawers and scared shitless by Spike he spread all the papers on the floor. As he began hyperventilating he put a hand full of paper on his heart as it could jump out of his chest any moments. Connor returned to his drawers, signing to Spike to approach with his hand full of the papers. Spike raised an eyebrow but approach padding like a dancer.
- "What's goin' on?" he asked.
- "SHHHH!!!!" Connor whispered angrily throwing the vampire an angry look. Spike sneered.
- "What's goin' on?" he asked again whispering sarcastically. "Everybody's searching for you" he said back to his normal voice and throwing himself into Angel's leather chair.
Connor stopped his searching and looked Spike intensely. Spike returned the look adding a little sardonic touch to it. "You're scaring me pup."
- "What do think of this place? You said you were prisoner of it……were you normal before getting into it?"
Spike swallowed hard, "you mean except the part where I died saving the world from upper vampires in a hell mouth not so far from here?"
- "Er…yeah" Connor replied uneasy.
- "Well, no" Spike answered simply "I'm in this supernatural mess since a long time"
- "But you're a good guy, right?"
- "Well, yeah….where the hell are you going?! Are you asking if you can trust me?"
- "Well yeah, but now that you know you can lie" Connor said feeling uncomfortable.
- "You know, you're not that subtle. Just tell me why you're all secretive even though it's not that shocking." Spike said laying in the chair like home.
- "I'm trying to find answers and there's that girl and that card. That damned card!! I don't find it!!" Connor yelled histerically.
- "Well, took you time enough to freak out, we thought you swallowed all of it to easily. But I think you should just ask instead on going into some crusade on your own. This building is full of shit and things you don't wanna know from people you don't wanna know"
- "Yeah, well I'm just gonna stick to my plan"
- "Find a card, good plan, you'll go far with that" Spike said rolling his eyes.
- "Got it!" Connor said triumphantly. He stood up so fast that he hurt the chair which almost threw Spike backward. Spike caught the desk with both hands and steadied himself before sighing. He quickly jumped on his feet to catch Connor who was already at the door ready to go out.
- "Wait!" he screamed. Connor watched him approached. "Don't go there, we'll go find Wes"
- "Oh no! Not that freak! Either you stay here, or you come with me but if you pipe a word to the others…well…Ill…never talk to you ever…again" Connor said threatening, as far as he knew this threat was only working in kindergarten.
Spike watched him blankly "And that is like, so horrible!" he said mugging.
Connor sighed and opened the door before sneaking out. Spike followed him exasperated. Connor walked stuck to the wall, he arrived at a plant pot and hid behind it as some employees made their way toward him. Spike joined him whispering.
- "This is a bad idea"
- "And yet, you're still here. Mustn't be so bad after all"
- "Kiddo, believe me when I tell you that everything you would learn from those files are things that'll just disturb you more than you already are"
Connor turned his eyes toward Spike "What you are saying is disturbing more! Now I have to know! Thank you!" he said before running through the room hoping he would be fast enough for no one to see. Spike clenched his teeth with anger before running through the room at his turn why am 'I' hiding!
- "You little rascal, don't make it sound like I'm the one who pushed you over the edge!" he whispered angrily behind Connor as they were hiding behind a wall again.
- "I need to know why I'm here, I'm sure they know more than they say. Hell I'm sure you too!"
- "Believe me I know really little" Spike said mimicking the proportion with two fingers.
Connor slapped his fingers away "You big fat liar!" and he ran again toward the staircase.
- "I'm everything but fat, little boy!" Spike spoke after him.
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Connor entered the room and put the card under the girl's nose. She moved back an inch and grabbed the card. She observed it a little and her face wasn't the one Connor hoped to see.
- "This card is the multi pass of this building's CEO." She said showing him the card "Are you the CEO?"
Connor was suddenly possessed by a surreal annoyance. He clenched his teeth and his chest was moving as he was breathing loudly. "Yeah" he said ironically "So would you hurry up I have plenty of copies to make"
She passed the card in some kind of machine and gave him back. When she returned to her reading, Connor advanced in the alleys. There were many drawers full of many files. How was he going to find the ones he wanted? He grabbed a drawer trying to see if all those papers had some kind of classification. The drawer closed echoing through the room. The lady at the desk lifted her eyes a second but didn't seem to be bothered.
- "Oh man! I'm getting better!" Spike said examining his hand with self-admiration.
- "Congratulations, now fuck off!" Connor threw before opening the drawer again. Spike tried in vain to push it back again. Connor took a file without even looking and opened it. Inside were pictures of demons doing some kind of ritual. Connor closed it quickly and shook his head clear. He searched the drawer but it looked like there weren't any categories any hints on how this archive was classified.
- "Won't you listen!!" Spike said in a last attempt.
- "No" Connor said facing the man with all his confidence. Spike shrugged.
- "Okay then…try to see if there's one on me" he added following Connor.
- "Is there a problem?" the lady asked.
- "I don't find anything!?" Connor said frustrated clenching his fists.
- "What are you searching for?" she continued and for the first time she seemed to actually really pay attention to the boy.
- "Anything where I'm in" he said his eyes full of uncertainty.
The girl watched him then took a ring binder and held it to him.
- "It's in there?" he asked.
- "This contains the references to the files you'll find in the cabinets."
- "Great!" he said sighing.
He quickly made his way into the files and found the first one. His name was written on it and nothing more. It was like in the movie with that girl who falls into a hole and there are objects labelled with 'eat me' and stuff. He felt like he had to open it.
- "Hey kid, watch! Moonwalk!" Spike said as he was fooling around, being a ghost mustn't be funny Connor thought.
He freed the file from the drawer and pictures fell from it to the floor. Those pictures were of him. He as a baby he as a grown up. He watched them all intensively, who was this guy? Because there was no way it was him.
- "Footswivels!" Spike said still doing what looked like dancing.
