Lost Inside

Chapter Six: Journal

Um…this is weird.

I'm writing in this because Robin and the other titans thought it might help me regain my memory by recording events in this book.

Like a Journal. Sort of.

Yeah.

I promised I would write in this today.

I guess I am right now but I have no idea what to write about…

Maybe I should write about the titans…

Okay…

So far in the tower, the person I least know about, would probably be Cyborg.

I mean, it is pretty…boring how he always is working on his car…

But he's a great guy…

Like the brother I never had…

Unless I did or do have a brother…

I dunno…

Beast Boy is really sweet…

He tells a LOT of jokes…

Some are funny, some are random…

Sometimes he can be a real idiot.

This morning, he was making tofu pan cakes…

The oven caught on fire.

He put a table cloth on top of the oven, to try and stop the flames…

The table cloth caught on fire.

He threw the table cloth on the ground near Raven's feet…

Raven's shoes and the carpet caught on fire.

He got a fire extinguisher and sprayed it all over the place...

The fire was out.

But Raven looked like a snowman…

You'd think everyone but Raven would laugh AT him.

But he has an incredible talent that makes people laugh WITH him…

Raven was FURIOUS though.

Raven's my best friend in the tower.

I'm not sure if I'm HER best friend though.

I mean, after all, Starfire has known Raven longer than me, so yeah…

Raven likes darkness.

Well, I dunno, that's at least what she lets on…

She gets REALLY angry if anyone calls her 'Rae'.

But the other day, in the hallway…

I saw Raven and Beast Boy talking…

Beast Boy called Raven 'Rae' and she didn't get a bit mad.

Looks like there might be some hidden love there…

Muahahahaha…

Maybe I should try to be a matchmaker…

Hmm…

Nah.

Starfire…

She's really…

Perky…

Naïve…

Bubbly…

Cheerful…

Yeah…

Though I have to admit...

I do get a little bit narked when she calls me a vampire!

She keeps forgetting that vampires don't exist.

She sometimes calls me Vampire Stephanie instead of Friend Stephanie.

A thing I can't believe is how long she can shop!

She shops for sooo long!

I don't know where she gets the energy!

Oh yeah, she has bags of sugar under her bed…

Silly me to forget.

I forgot what I did when I was hyper.

The titans told me what happened.

Cyborg literally needed to be restrained from strangling me…

He couldn't believe I forgot that I blew up his 'baby'…

I guess that I am a pyromaniac…

Well…sort of…

I love fire…

But I do NOT usually blow things up!

Robin…

The leader…

I am surprised I didn't throw up as well as Robin after that car ride I gave him…

I tried to not throw up and I succeeded.

Why did I try?

Well, I wanna keep cool in front of Robin.

Dunno why…

It's strange…

I feel like I really wanna spend time with Robin, but I always feel shy around him…

Is it because I wanna get in the teen titans so badly I feel nervous around Robin 'cause he's the leader?

Or something else?

Oh well…

Like I said a bit earlier, I wanna get in the teen titans…

But I can't…

No one said I couldn't, I haven't asked…

But I can't make cool gadgets and I don't have built in cannons…

I am NOT a master at martial arts…

I cannot fly…

I can't levitate and move objects with my mind, and I cannot shoot Starbolts or shoot eye beams!

I wish I had powers!

Then I could try out to be a member!

But I don't…

And the chances of me getting them would be, what, one out of one hundred?

One out of One million?

So, it really isn't likely.

Maybe I'm that likely one?

Pff!

Yeah right!

I wonder what I should write about now?

I LIKE PIE!!!

That was random. I think the sugar hasn't fully worn off yet…

I like dots. Dot, Dot, Dot.

Lately, I've been having a weird dream…

I keep telling the titans I had a weird dream…

They tell me to not worry about it…

But I do…

I have a feeling it's REALLY important…

I try telling the titans, but I forget as soon as I try…

In my dream…

There's a dark shadow…

He or she is holding a knife…

There are many dark shadows behind the one shadow…

All with shiny knives that long blood…

They charge…

At something bigger than all the buildings in Jump City…

In another dream…

I see myself…

Cowering in a corner…

Surrounded…

A trigger is pulled…

I scream in pain…

And then…

I wake up.

And I think…

What's going on?

Right now, by the way…

It's three pm.

And I'm crying.

I had those two dreams five minutes ago.

I was working out in the gym earlier,and I was exhausted, I fell asleep.

I remembered this journal thing…

And I decided to do it because I'd forget later and I did promise the titans that I'd do it today.

Why didn't I say that at the beginning of this journal…

Probably because I was still asleep…

But thinking about my dreams…

My second dream…

Made me fully awake…

Anyway…

I'm crying…

Why?

I have a horrible feeling…

Someone's out there…

Who's after me…

But that's not why…

I'm crying because…

I don't remember who…

Or why…

Having amnesia sucks…

I hope I remember something, anything, soon…

$lalalalalalalalalalalala – somewhere STILL unknown – lalalalalalalalalalalala$

"Tomorrow, we will send a variety of fairly skilled to poorly skilled assassins"

"But…why Boss? We're fully prepared to send our best assassins and troops!"

"In future…do not question me…or I will kill you. Because I'm so merciful, I shall let you off with a warning. I shall answer your question THIS TIME…but next time, I'll shoot you. We need to find out how strong the titans are… Because…we do need to get the girl and I don't want to be wasting valuable energy on getting her…I want to use as little energy as possible…Now, go prepare the assasins I want to attempt getting her… Tell them to strike when they are at the Pizza place tomorrow…"

"But Boss, what if they don't go to the Pizza place?"

"Your stupidity amuses me! I sent one of the best assassins to seek out all the food in the tower tonight and chuck it all in the sea, so they will HAVE to go to the Pizza place for food…"

"But Boss…"

"What did I say I would do if you question me? Now go prepare the assassins, like I told you to!"

"But…"

"GO!"

$lalalalalalalalalalalala – Author's Note – lalalalalalalalalalalala$

Author (asks mysterious person): I am really evil to be dragging people out and not telling them who you are. They don't even know your name.

Mystery Person: Yeah I guess.

Author: I should tell them next chapter…

Mystery Person: You should, but you won't…

Author: Why?

MP: Because I will make sure you don't…

Author: How? You can't control me!

MP: You're right, I can't control you, but I CAN kill you! (pulls out gun)

Author: Um…help?