A/N: I talked about a Ryan and Marissa story earlier. I've changed that a lot now but it's going to start a little bit now but it really begins in the next chapter. So you can look forward to that. Now let's see how you like this one. Enjoy!
Chapter 10 – Time For What?
He walked in to his room. Hasn't changed in a week. But why should it have?
"Are you okay now?" His mom looked at him.
"Yeah I've said it like a million times already. I'm fine and you don't have to baby sit me."
"Okay if you are sure. Good night sweetie" She kissed him and left the room.
She had been like that ever since he woke up yesterday. Obviously she cared about him but it was starting to get annoying. But that wasn't what was bothering him now. It was Summer.
She was at the hospital with him all the time was what he heard, and when he woke up she said that she loved him. But now she was nowhere to be seen. No one could find her. His parents told him to go look tomorrow but he wasn't sure if he could just wait for that. He grabbed a black sweater. I'll go for stealth. It doesn't usually work but maybe if I'm lucky this time it will. He slowly sneaked down the stairs and walked out the door without anyone noticing and off he was on his search.
Ryan sat in the kitchen. Marissa was working late in the store again. He hadn't really talked to her the last few days because they always missed each other when they were going to work and she had worked late almost the whole week. He just missed her. Trisha was in bed sleeping happily when he told her she could meet Seth tomorrow. knock knock
He went to
the door. Seth!
"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at
home resting? At least that's what mom and dad told me"
"I
know but I had to look for Summer. Have you heard anything from
her?"
"No I haven't. Maybe Marissa has though, you could
talk with her"
"Okay where is she then?"
"At
work"
"Now? Isn't it a little bit late for that?"
"Tell
that to the workaholic. Are you free tomorrow by the way? Trisha
wanted to see you"
"Yeah sure I suppose I am. If I just could
fins Summer. I'll call if I can't make it."
"Okay see you
then. And Seth, good luck man"
"Thanks"
He waved at him and then jumped back in to the car.
He really loves that girl. They are really destined to be together. If it only could be so easy for everyone.
Summer sat at the beach alone. She had a bottle next to her. Half empty. But it wasn't to strong so she wasn't so drunk. But she felt it. But she had to do it. Something had to numb the pain in her heart. She had gotten some pills which were in her purse. It would be so easy to take them, if she did that then everything would be over and she wouldn't have to worry anymore. No one would have to worry about her. But she didn't know if she had what it took to take them. But in case of emergency she had them.
Seth probably was at home now, sleeping. Not knowing where she was and what she was doing. She just couldn't see him. She just started to think about the accident if she did and that made her afraid and sad. And she didn't like that feeling. So that's why she sat here alone on the beach and pushing everything and everyone away from her.
Seth stopped the car. He was right at Marissa's work down by the pier. But that wasn't why he stopped. He saw Summer's car standing in parking lot. She had to be somewhere around. Of course maybe she was with Marissa. Better go and check. He rushed in to the building.
"Marissa!
Are you here? Marissa!"
After about a minute Marissa came out of
her office. She looked kind of tired and her hair was all untidy. She
looked like she just woke up or something.
"Gees
you don't look so good. Maybe you should go home and get some
sleep."
"Yeah maybe. Was that why you came? "She had quite a
harsh tone,
"Relax!
No I was wondering if Summer was here with you. I saw her car outside
so I wondered if you knew where she was"
"No I don't. Maybe
she's down by the beach. I don't know"
"Okay I'll go and
leave you here to… do whatever you were doing"
He walked
out and headed against the beach.
"Summer! Summer where are
you?"
Suddenly he saw her. Sitting by herself in the middle of
the beach. He walked to her.
Ryan
picked up the phone.
"Hello"
"Hey
Ryan."
"Hey are you coming home now. Because I'm still up
and kind of hungry so maybe we could eat something or…"
"Ryan
I have a lot to do so I think I'm going to sleep here
tonight"
"What? Seriously Marissa. You have slept there four
of five days this week. We have seen each other less then when I was
in Chino for a whole summer,"
"Stop it. I just have a lot
right now. It's not like we can't eat some other time"
"I
know but it wasn't really just about us eating a meal. It was about
us seeing each other and have a real relationship and not one over
the phone"
"Now you're just being stupid"
"Oh really
am I? Well fine then. Why don't you stay at you r fucking work
then!"
He slammed the phone down and threw it in o the wall.
"Daddy
I'm scared"
Trisha stood in the door crying.
"Baby I'm
so sorry. I just got a little bit angry. It's okay now. Don't
cry. You want me to read you a bed time story?" They walked up to
her room hand in hand.
"Hey
Summer"
She didn't look at him. She just took another sip from
the bottle.
"What
are you doing out here?" Nothing. "Okay I was kind of hoping for
an answer there"
"What do you want from me?"
"What?
What do I want from you? I thought I already made it clear that I
want you."
"Yes and you said why you did. But I can't
believe that. I can't believe that anyone would want to be with me
the way I have acted. Especially not you after the accident"
"You
are a lovely person and I would be a shame if nobody could be with
you, and what about the accident?"
"It was
my fault. If I hadn't rushed away from you and Zack had found out
because of me then you hadn't been hurt. And it's hard to be
around you when I think about that"
"Stop it! That wasn't
your fault. It was Zack who was an idiot and it was me who really
sucked at fist fighting. No one blames you for that"
"Yes! I
do! I blame myself for that. And it doesn't matter what you think.
It was hard. It's been really hard to be around you ever since you
came back"
"Because you love me?" She turned her head to
look at him at last.
"Why do
you think that?"
"Because you said so at the hospital when I
woke up"
"Oh you heard that"
"Yes
I did and I love you too. So that's a good thing right?" He moved
closer to her and took her hand in his. But she dragged it away.
"What is it?"
"You don't understand Cohen! You left me.
You are the only person I ever loved and you left me. For 5 years
without even calling. And I have never been so hurt in my whole life.
How can I know you want do it again?"
"I won't. I
promise"
"But you did before too"
"What?"
"When
we were together you promised me we would always be together and that
you would never leave me. But you did. I can' trust you right now
and I need time"
"What? You need time? We love each other! Why
isn't that enough?" He stood up and his voice got louder. So she
stood up too and raised her voice.
"Why don't you tell me? It
wasn't good enough for you then so why is it now? Can you tell me
that? You don't know a thing about love Cohen! You just go around
telling people how much you love them and then you leave. No man with
a heart could do that to someone"
"Oh my god get over it
already. It was five years ago"
"Yeah and it still hurts as
much because I love you so much" She cried big tears. They just
came flowing out. He looked at her and tried to wipe the tears out of
her face.
"Oh my god! You haven't understood a word I've
said have you. I need time. Time without you involved so that I can
think about this"
"Fine! Because apparently five years wasn't
enough time for you to think so why don't you call me when I'm 70
and tell me if you're done" He walked away.
She sat down
again. She cried and took the bottle and drank the last of it. He was
so fucking stupid. This wasn't what she wanted. It just happened. I
love him.
Okay what do you think of it? I think it was pretty good. Okay so next chapter the Ryan and Marissa story will take more space but it will be Seth & summer too. Some of you will hate me for the R&M story though. But that's how I feel and you can't change it. If you know me in private you can probably figure out what I'm about to do. You others… just wait and see. I think you will be surprised by some of it.
