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Chapter 11 – All Alone
A week had gone. Summer had managed to stay away from Seth. That meeting would just be awkward right now. She stayed home most of the time. There was nobody she really wanted to see. Not right now. She had a lot to think about. But Marissa had been complaining how she never got out so she agreed to go to this party that was tonight. She could just go there for a while to please her and then she could sneak out unnoticed. She wasn't even so good friends with Marissa anymore. They almost never met and when they did they couldn't talk like they used to. They had started to slip away from each other.
Seth woke up. A really bad hang over, like most of the days this week. He felt really bad about how he treated Summer. But he couldn't apologize because… He didn't know why but for some reason he was angry at her. Just because she needed time. Why was that such a big deal to him? After what he did she shouldn't even need time to think about what she feels for me, but when she apparently needed to think about it he went completely ballistic at her. But he had no reason to do that. He was totally confused.
Sandy and Kirsten stood in the kitchen talking when he entered.
"Hello
son! You don't look good"
"No maybe that's because I don't
feel so good"
"You drank too much yesterday again? Sweetie
what's wrong? I can see it's something" His mother looked
concerned at him.
"It's
complicated and kind of a long story"
"Well we are both off
work today so why don't you tell us?"
"Okay
I'm going to take a quick version. I came back, met Summer, met
Zack, told Summer I still loved her, got punched by Zack, get laid in
to a hospital, Summer said she loved me and I woke up, Summer started
to avoid me, I found her, she said she needed time to think over her
feeling for me, I went psychic on her and then I walked away, since
then I haven't spoken to her and I feel really bad, but for some
way I'm angry at her and don't want to apologize"
His
parents looked at him with confused looks. His mother decided to say
something.
"Okay that was interesting. From what I understood
you both love each other. She needs time, but you wouldn't give it
to her. Is that right?"
"Yeah that sounds about right"
"Should
you take it Sandy or should I do it?"
"I can take it honey.
Listen son, if you want this to go anywhere you better apologize
soon. If she needs time you give it to her. My god if she feel like
she needs a giant yacht, you give it to her. Because in the end it is
worth it."
"Maybe you're right. I guess I will see her at
the party tonight."
He walked out and entered the bathroom to take a morning shower as usual.
Ryan sat by the table. Marissa was asleep. They almost hadn't said a word to each other since that day. He wasn't sure he wanted to right now. He hadn't done anything wrong. It was she who was at work all the time. Not him. And she was all distant all the time. He didn't know why. But tonight maybe they could try to get along at the party. So that they could start over and leave this all behind them. She walked in to the kitchen.
"Hey
sweetie"
"Hey Ryan"
"So
tonight at the party, I was thinking we could try and put this behind
us and have a good time. How does that sound?"
"Umm I really
can't go to the party"
"What? Why? Don't tell me you have
to work again"
"But I have to. There is nothing I can do about
it"
"Seriously Marissa what the hell is wrong? You spend like
1 hour at home per day and the rest you are at work. Or at least
that's where you say you are"
"What did you say? Are you
accusing me of something?"
"Why? You don't think I have good
reasons to do so?"
"Well if
you really think that about me then I guess you don't know me
anymore."
"No I don't! It pretty damn hard to know you when
you're never home!"
"Don't
put this on me. I have to work but obviously you have some kind of
problem with that. Why it is so? I don't fucking know. But it is
your problem and you should deal with it."
"Is it my problem?
You are fucking insane you know that? But fine if you fell that way
then stay home and work. It's not like I'm going to miss you."
He
left the kitchen and walked up, grabbed some clothes and then he was
out of the house. Trisha was at a friend for the night so he wouldn't
have to worry about her. He was just going to the party alone.
Newport parties always have a lot of alcohol and he felt like he
needed that tonight.
Summer dialled Marissa's number.
"Hello
Coop! Should I come and pick you up? What you are not going? What the
hell! Then why did you push me to go? Because I need to? Well thanks
a lot for making decisions for me. You know I don't feel like I
know you anymore. Yeah whatever bye!"
She was really mad.
Marissa had some serious problems. She could find better friends than
that. Marissa wasn't worth it anymore. But a party still sounded
good. Only if Cohen weren't there. But hopefully he wouldn't be.
Well I will just have to see for myself. She got in to her car and
drove to the party.
Seth
walked in through the doors. Caleb and Julie's house was really
big. Nice house to have parties in. Maybe to big. It wouldn't be
easy to find Summer in this crowd. But if he was lucky it could go
well. He went to the bar. Hey isn't that Ryan?
"Hey bro what
are you doing?"
"Hey Seth! Just thinking about stuff and
drinking a lot"
He looked at the empty glasses I front of Ryan.
"Yeah I can see that. Is something wrong?"
"No everything is
fine. If sucks like hell counts as alright. Marissa and I have
serious problems. I don't know if we will work this out. We fight
all the time and she is really distant"
"Sorry
man. But I mean you've had problems before. I'm sure you can work
this out too."
"Yeah maybe. But I'm not sure. How about you?
How's the Summer thing going?"
"Hard to say. I thought about
trying to speak to her tonight. If you see her tell her I'm looking
for her. And Ryan, take it a little easy with the drinks."
Summer slide down the stairs and looked around. Oh my god could she be more unlucky. He was standing right beside the stairs looking at her. Guess she couldn't avoid him anymore now. But she wasn't going to be nice to him. He didn't deserve that.
"Hi
Summer"
"Whatever. What are you doing here?"
"I heard
there was a party going and I figured you would be here"
"Yeah!
So what? You came to mock on me even more is that it?"
"No
that isn't it I…"
"No so what is it then? You have
something hard you can hit me with?"
"What? What the hell is
your problem?"
"You are my problem. You come home. Say you
love me. You don't get that I need time to think about it so you
just freak out on me and then avoid me. What the fuck do you think is
my problem? You!"
Their voices were kind of loud and some people
started to look at them. Seth was getting pissed of. He came to
apologize and she freaked at him.
"Yeah
well I didn't know you were such a sissy. I thought you could
handle some setback without giving up but I guess you don't love me
enough"
She slapped him hard.
"Don't
you ever say that again! Don't you dare! I love you more than
anything in the world. I love you so much it hurts. And when I think
about what you did it hurts even more. I'm afraid of being with you
because if I get hurt again I don't know if I can live with myself.
You left for 5 years and people changed. So did I. You don't know
me anymore if you believe all the things you just said"
She ran
out of the house crying and kept running and running.
Seth just stood there. He was so fucking stupid. He hurt her much as hell. That wasn't what he wanted. She cried. He made her cry. And soon he would start to cry too. He had to find her before she did anything to hurt herself. He ran out of the door. Where could she have gone? Maybe the beach again. I will look there first. I have to find her.
"Hey
Ryan you don't think you've had enough now?"
He looked up
from his glass.
"Oh hey
Anna. No I need this. Why don't you join me, I could use some
company"
"Sure why not. Some drinks would do me good. So why
are you sitting here alone drinking looking like all hell has broken
loose?"
"Marissa and I have problems. But I really don't
want to talk about it"
"Okay fine. Then we can just sit here
and drink"
"Good! That sounds good"
There she was. Standing at the railing by the pier. Wait! Why was she standing there? She wasn't going to jump, right? Oh my god I have to stop her.
"Summer!
What are you doing?"
"Cohen? What are you doing here? You came
to watch me die"
"No I came to tell you I'm sorry. And to
save you from jumping"
"Well you know I wouldn't be standing
here if it wasn't for you. Why do you even care if I
jump?"
"Because I love you. I love you like no one else.
That's the real reason to why I came back. Because I needed to see
you and tell you how I felt. Otherwise I don't think I would have
come back. You were the thing that brought me home."
"I
brought you home?"
"Yes my love for you brought me home. So
please come down from there. Because if you jump I would have to jump
down after you and I really don't want to do that"
She slowly
climbed down from the rail and he moved forward against her. Then he
took her in his arms.
"Oh my god! You know how much you scared
me. I thought I would lose you. And I don't want that. And if you
need time I respect that. You can take all the time you need. I will
wait for you"
"I think my need of time is over. I just want
you now"
"Really?" She nodded. "Good because I just want
you too"
He pulled her close and kissed her gently. Finally they
were together again.
Shit I am
so fucking drunk. Anna was pretty drunk too but not nearly as drunk
as he was.
"You know Ryan? I have always really liked you"
"Yeah
you have? I like you too. You are a good friend"
"No I mean,
after I came back and Seth was good I kind of had a little crush on
you. I still have. You are so nice and kind and almost
perfect"
"Really? Thanks Anna"
"My pleasure" She
leaned closer to him and lay her hands on his cheeks. "And if
Marissa can't see how good you are I think you deserve better"
She kissed him and he kissed her back. It was a long kiss but after a
while Ryan came to his senses and pulled back.
"I'm
sorry Anna but I'm married with Marissa and…"
"Yeah I
know. I don't know what… I'm sorry. It must be the alcohol
speaking and acting. I'm so sorry. I will just go. I'm sorry
again"
She ran off. Ryan got up. Maybe I should go home and fix
the little that is left of my marriages. He walked home.
He opened the door slowly. The lights were off so Marissa was probably asleep upstairs. He sneaked up and opened the door. Then he freezed at the sight before him. Marissa quickly got up from the bed and so did her male friend. Their yard guy DJ.
"What
the fuck are you doing?"
"Ryan please calm down it's not
what you think"
"What? You just slipped down the bed with him"
DJ walked towards him.
"Hey man
calm down. It's not like it happened before. I thought you would
have guessed it by now"
"Shut up DJ"
"What it's the
truth. She is good you know. Or maybe you don't because she almost
don't sleep with you"
Ryan punched him hard, pushed him
against the wall and started to punch him numerous of times.
"Ryan
calm down. Stop hitting him!"
He stopped and let him go. Blood
was coming through his nose and mouth but he was still standing.
"Get
the fuck out of my house" DJ ran out scared as hell. "I meant you
to"
"What? It's my house too."
"No it isn't. I paid
for it and built it. So get the fuck out of my house and don't ever
come back again."
"But Ryan…"
"Get out! Or I will not
be responsible of what I do"
"You are threatening me?"
"That's
not a threat. It's a promise. Get out now. I will send you r stuff
away to wherever you are tomorrow. Now get out!"
He pushed her
out of the room down the stairs and out through the front door and
slammed it at her face.
"Ryan! I need clothes" But he didn't
listen. He just walked up to their and sat at the bed. Then he
started to cry. He cried and cried. Now he was all alone
Okay some of you probably hate me right now. But I don't think Marissa and Ryan really fit together. Marissa is a spoiled brat in my opinion. I hope you still continue to read and review even if I disappointed you with this. There are tons of girls for Ryan out there.
