Ponta: ...WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Momo: ................why is she sad? I'm the one who supposed to be sad!
Ryoma: Mada mada dane.
QueenofEngland: Oh she's not sad. She's just very happy that she received eight reviews for chapter 13.
Ponta: EIGHT REVIEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! I LOVE YOU GUYS! THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING AND REVIEWING MY STORY! YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH JOY YOUR REVIEWS BRING TO ME! THANK YOU!
Momo: .......hurray for you but what about me!?
Ponta: Hmmm, you're still going to be tortured.
::Momo became shocked and then wept::
Kaidoh: ... I'm so glad that I didn't get tortured.
To my reviewers of Chapter 13
Sonic16
Ponta: I'm very happy that you love my fic and you don't really freak me out. And yes I know you're dying and you're awaiting the next chapter and all. BUT SINCE YOU BELOVED PEOPLE SENT ME REVIEWS I decided to update right away! Yes, I know, poor poor Momo.
Momo: ..................................if you're expressing sympathy, then WHY DON'T YOU STOP TORTURING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????
Ponta: Well, I'M DOING IT FOR ANGST! MUWAHAHAHAHA! Yes, I tend to make this fic angsty. MUWAHAHAHAHAHA! I'm feeling evil today.
Momo, Ryoma, Kaidoh, and QueenofEngland: .................................................uh-oh.
Shiomi
Ponta: Yep, Ryoma is a baka.
Ryoma: HEY!
Ponta: Okay, not really a baka but he's definitely bakayora (super-duper idiot) in feelings and relationship. Does he really like someone else or he's lying? ...Hmm
Momo: RYOMA, COULD YOU BE LYING?!
Ryoma: Well....
::Ponta covered Ryoma's mouth:: LET'S JUST SAY IT'S A SECRET!
Darkspider
Ponta: I'm deeply sorry that I make you think Ryoma was with Sakuno but that what is Momo thought it was. HEE! HEE! HEE!
Momo: Do I hear something?
Ponta: ...eh, NO! OF COURSE NOT! It's just the winds! And yes, I know. Poor Momo-senpai. Why he must be in so much pain? Sigh.
Momo: ........................................................
Kaidoh: ...........Aren't you the one who make that idiot in much pain in the first place?
Ponta: OH! THAT'S RIGHT! HA! HA! HA! And who is Ryoma's real special person? Do not worry it will eventually be revealed sooner or later.
Posterior Praiser
Ponta: Sorry for scaring you. Don't worry it won't be RyoSako fic. I love your Silent Sorrow fic and I will continue to support it! Have pride in your story and see it through the end!
QueenofEngland: ........................Didn't you almost give it up on your story long time ago?
Ponta: .....eh, well I did have serious issues plus there was that horrible finals that killed me. Anyhow, I do not want you to give up on your story! About Fuji angst, hmmmmmmmmm, I never thought of torturing Fuji hmmmmm oh well for now I just want to torture Momo!
LilSasamiGrl
Ponta: They will end up together! PROMISE! ...eventually.
Momo and Ryoma: ..............
Ponta: I'm fully aware of my grammar and I APOLOGIZE FOR IT! I KNEW THAT I HAVE TERRIBLE GRAMMAR! I'm glad that you like and you would able to read it.
Paithos
Ponta: Thanks, I'm trying to make a long Momoryo story here. And I do know I have terrible grammar that is why I apologized constantly. Sniff.
Kaidoh: Hiss, you really suck at grammar.
Ponta: ..... :: go wept with Momo:: I do need a beta-reader. DOES ANYONE WANT TO BE MY BETA-READER! PLEASE TALK TO ME OVER AIM! MY Screename is Chosenexiled
Stephanie
Ponta: Wow, I'm not worthy of such praise. The greatest? Well, Thank you for saying that even though I have terrible grammar and limited words.
Jewelclaw Lady of Wind
Ponta: Hmm, everyone wanted to know who do Ryoma like. Well it will be revealed eventually. And no, the blond is not Sengoku. Just to tell you readers, the blond is original character and Sengoku has orange hair! And wow, many people are sure impatient for the next chapter. Well, here's the NEXT CHAPTER NOW!
Ponta: I DEFINETLY DO NOT OWN POT!
Karupin: MEOW! (Chapter 14)
Knowing Innocence
Chapter 14
Momo's POV
Tennis. Thank Kamisama (God) its tennis. Many people said I would have been a great basketball player but I chose tennis as my major sport. There was lot of reasons why I chose to play tennis. One of the reasons was that I get to spend time with my roommate, Echizen. Plus, playing tennis help me kept sane and especially where there's no Ryuzaki girl (except Grandma Coach) around.
Ever since Ryuzaki transferred here, she kept hogging Echizen all the time which made me so mad. Because of that, I rarely get to hang out with Echizen in school except tennis practices.
But now here at tennis practices, I get to spend my time with Echizen without that annoying girl around.
I mean there's no way that she would be in the men's tennis team.
As the Nationals came closer than ever with each win, Buchou and Inui continued to torture us endlessly and merciless with extraneous practices and the threat of Inui's monstrous creation, "The Hyper Inui Juice Remix Edition!" I think we practiced hard because probably also that the match with Yamabuki was coming soon.
We regulars were sweating like crazy as we continued to practice until our bones would bust.
Grandma Coach yelled, "Okay! You guys can take a break now!"
Finally! We get to take a relaxing break. Thank Kamisama because I was about to faint from this. Sigh, Buchou knew no mercy at all.
Sweats were pouring all over my body and I was gasping for air as my heart continued to race like crazy. I glanced at Echizen, also tried from practice and breathing hard. His uniform was drenched with sweat and was clinging to his smooth clear skin. I could see through his white shirt and ogled at his adorable body.
Blood were rushing to my cheeks and my heart was racing as I continued to stare at his cute body.
Damn it. He really looked ...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! What am I doing? I'm not supposed to look at Echizen like this! He's just a crush! Damn it, he's just a crush! A CRUSH!
Echizen glimpsed at me, noticing my red face and wondering why my face is red.
I quickly distracted his attention by taunting him, "Hoi Echizen! Tired already?! I thought you can play longer."
Echizen gave me a mock glare and bragged, "Mada mada dane. I can still go on." His hand grasped the racket.
Heh. Arrogant as always, huh? Whatever, I'm just glad that I get to spend time with Echizen without that freshman girl chasing him around, yelling his first name with her high screechy voice.
"RYOMA-KUN!"
Yep, she sounds exactly like that.
...eh? Wait a minute.
"RYOMA-KUN!"
...is it me or am I hearing things? Otherwise, I'm now hearing that freshman's voice.
"RYOMA-KUN!"
...that can't be true. She can't be here at the men's tennis practice! She can't be! ...can she?
"RYOMA-KUN!"
I immediately saw her dashed past me.
...SHE'S HERE?!
I became shocked as she went up to Echizen and hugged him.
...WHY ME?!
Why does she have to be here? Of all the places, why does Ryuzaki has to be here?! Why does she have to take my quality time with Echizen away?!
Just when I was about to finally spent my time with Echizen, she has to come!
Ryuzaki greeted Echizen, "Here Ryoma-kun, have a towel to wipe your sweats off and a water bottle if you're thirsty."
Echizen gladly took it and sipped from the bottle. He asked, "Sakuno, what are you doing here?"
Yeah, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?
Ryuzaki smiled, "I'm Grandma's assistant. So that I can be some help for the team and you."
Assistant? Assistant?! DOES THAT MEANS SHE IS GOING TO BE IN OUR TENNIS PRACTICES ALL THE TIME!!!???
ARGH! Why did this have to happen now?! Kamisama, do you hate me or something?
Ryuzaki continued, "Is it not great!? We get to spend times together like old times."
...old times? I almost forgot about that.
Her words brought sadness because I remembered the fact that I didn't really know anything about his past.
I talked about my past couple of times during the last few months but Echizen never mentioned one thing about his past. Ryuzaki knew lot of things about him and I only knew few things. Somehow that made me sad because I don't really know anything about Echizen.
I looked at Ryuzaki talking happily to Echizen.
...Echizen. I wanted to know more about you.
Ryuzaki came up to me and greeted, "Hello, Momoshiro-senpai. As an assistant, I hope that I will be a great assist to you and the team." Then she bowed.
Assist? Assist?! Assist my ass! More like a slut than an assist because you kept hogging my Echizen away!
...my Echizen? What was I thinking? Isn't he just a crush? What is wrong with me?
"Momoshiro-senpai? Here." She offered me my towel and water bottle.
The sight of her just made me sick.
I looked at her angrily and shrugged her off, "No thanks, I don't need it."
I headed for the sinks, leaving those pathetic lovebirds alone.
Neutral's POV
Sakuno became worried with Momoshiro's behavior, especially toward her. She may be a ditz, but she could tell that Momoshiro was mad at her.
She asked Ryoma, "Um, Ryoma-kun? Does your roommate hate me?"
Ryoma looked at her with confused look, "Huh, what are you talking about?"
"It just seemed that Momoshiro-senpai looked mad at me all the time." Sakuno replied.
Ryoma just shrugged, "It must have been your imagination. What reason would Momo-senpai be mad at you? You just met."
"Um...ok." She answered it with disbelief in her tone because she knew it wasn't her imagination.
Momo's POV
Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. I got jealous again.
I turned on the facet and washed my sweating face with the pouring water. As the running water flowed into the sink, I could see my face full of anger. Full of hatred. Full of jealously. It was so obvious.
For a long time, I had never seen my face like this. My face was always a cheery expression because I always make some people laugh with my jokes and attracted people. Most of the time, I was cheerful. I did get angry sometimes but it was rare and wasn't serious at all. But now ever since that girl transferred here, my face show pure anger and jealously. I never felt this huge anger boiling in my bloods before all of these things connected to Echizen. I kept hiding my anger because I don't want the others to see my face of a beast but sometimes I couldn't hold it in and yelled it out on someone like Eiji.
I looked at my reflection again.
Heh. Eiji is right. I do look scarier than Mamushi.
I washed my face again, wanting to wash that look of jealously out of my face.
"Momoshiro-senpai?" I hired a girl's voice calling my name. I quickly recognized the voice as Ryuzaki. I turned around and saw Ryuzaki in front of me. She was looking down at the ground. She seemed very nervous to see me, or frightened.
"What is it?" I asked annoyingly because I don't really want to see her now.
She cringed but immediately bowed, "SORRY!"
I was surprised by her action.
What is she sorry for?
She continued, "I'm sorry if I did something wrong to you. It's just that you looked mad at me all the time."
...mad? Was I that obvious? What happened to me?
She bowed again, "Please tell me if I did anything to bother you."
...you didn't do anything to bother me. I was the one who let me controlled by my own rage.
She continued on, "Please, I don't want friend of Echizen to hate me."
...Echizen. Echizen! ECHIZEN!
Suddenly I felt my anger coming back as I remembered that she was the one who took my Echizen away!
I became angry at her and yelled, "Shut up! You're bothering me now! In fact you pissed me off!"
She became terrified and immediately grabbed my hand.
What the?
She pulled my hand and flipped me over her causing me to fell on the ground on my back.
OUCH! I didn't know she was strong. When does she know karate? Ouch, my back really hurts.
I slowly got up and looked at Ryuzaki. I was shocked when I saw her.
She was crying as she was deathly terrified. Her face showed extreme fear and yet she apologized constantly, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" She ran off, leaving me alone.
How can she apologize especially when I bite her off like that?
I became guilty when I saw her face. I never saw a person so frightened. So scared of me. Looking at her face made me felt so guilty because I let my stupid rage took best of me.
I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't. Was I really that scary?
How could I have done that to her? She was Echizen's girlfriend and I got at mad just for that reason. I never felt so guilty in my life. I have to apologize to her and get rid of this anger within me.
After the afternoon practice, I was back inside my dorm. I skipped dinner because the guilt of scaring that girl was killing me. I was not hungry especially right after what I have done to Ryuzaki. I never yelled at a person like that, but I couldn't help spill my guts out.
I have to apologize to her but I couldn't find her.
Why am I so mad at her? Was it because she kept spending time with Echizen?
...damn it. That was just a pathetic reason. I mean Echizen haven't seen her what? Few years or months? I guess that's what Grandma Coach meant by catching up. Plus she knew Echizen probably for years and I only knew him for few months. Echizen and Ryuzaki must have lot of things to talk about.
There was no chance for me anyway because I knew the fact that Echizen was straight. Echizen has Ryuzaki, so why am I so mad if I knew I have no chance of dating him?
Sigh...either way, I have to apologize to her and accepted the fact that Echizen and Ryuzaki are together. Though, I felt disappointed about it but eventually I will move on out of this jealously.
But I couldn't help it for now.
I heard knock on the entrance door. I rushed to it and yelled, "Echizen?" I wanted to see him.
But it wasn't Echizen, it was Eiji. I muttered, "Oh, it's you, Eiji- senpai."
"Hoi! What kind of greetings is that? To your own friend too." Eiji whined.
I grinned and apologized, "Gomen, Eiji-senpai. So what do you want?"
Eiji spoke excitedly, "Do you know there's no practice tomorrow?"
I looked at him strangely, "Yeah, what about it?"
"TA-DA!" Eiji cheekily grinned as he held nine tickets, "These are the tickets to an amusement park nearby here! I won them in a lottery wheel, so I'm inviting all of us regulars! Do you want to come?"
An amusement park? Well I guess, I do need some major fun and a break from all those practices.
"Sure, I'll go." I replied.
"Great! I already invited most of us, but Kaidoh and Inui said they can't go. They said they are going to train more or something. So I invited Ryuzaki-sensei's granddaughter and Taka-san is going to invite his boyfriend."
"Oh." I spoke disappointedly.
So that girl is going to come.
"Anything wrong, Momo?" Eiji asked.
"It's nothing." I gave him a fake smile.
"Good! Convince Ochibi to come! Meet us at the amusement park at 9:00 tomorrow!" Eiji waved bye as he ran down the hallway.
I waved bye to him too.
So Ryuzaki is coming too. I wanted to spend time with Echizen alone but if that girl is coming, then obviously Echizen will talk to her instead of me.
Sigh, so much for being with Echizen.
"Momo-senpai? What are you doing outside?" I heard a familiar voice calling my name and I turned around and saw Echizen in the flesh behind me.
"Echizen!? You're early!" I yelled with surprise.
Echizen looked at me annoyingly, "What are you talking about? I always came back to the dorm at this time."
...yeah right. I should know because I always stay up waiting for Echizen to come back. He always came back late at night ever since that Ryuzaki girl came.
...late at night? COULD THEY HAVE?! NO, I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT!
I banged my head on the wall repeatedly for thinking such disgusting perverted thoughts.
Echizen looked at me as I was strange. I quickly laughed off my embarrassment and Echizen began to think I was crazy as usual but he shrugged off.
Echizen asked, "What was Eiji-senpai doing here?" He entered our dorm.
I followed him in and replied, "He wanted to invite us to go someplace tomorrow for fun. Wanna come? It would be a nice break from tennis practices."
"Where is it?" Echizen asked dully as he grabbed his usual Ponta from the fridge.
"That popular amusement park near here." I replied.
I didn't hear an answer and I looked at Echizen. I was surprised because he seemed shocked when I mentioned that theme park. His face was telling me that he knew something about the amusement park. I could see in his shocked eyes that he must have been there.
He regained his cool composure right away and spoke coldly, "I'm not going."
"Why not?" I asked right away.
"I just don't want to." He replied in icy tone.
"Why? Most of us regulars are going to be there." I countered.
He retorted, "The more the reasons not to go. I don't want to talk about this, okay."
"But why?" I continued to ask. I wanted him to go with me.
"I'm going to my room!" He yelled at me as he was annoyed with this conservation.
I was hurt when he yelled at me but when he did; I could tell it must be something connected to his past.
Echizen, what happened in your past? Why couldn't you tell me?
Few hours pass by ever since Echizen went to his room. During these few hours, I decided to wait for Echizen to cool down and at the same time, I was doing my homework.
I wanted him to come. I wanted to be with him.
I knocked on his room door and there was no response. I let myself in and saw Echizen was lying in his bed. I know he wasn't sleeping because Karupin was still playing around. Echizen once told me Karupin only sleeps when he sleeps. I went to his bed, and sat down next to his body.
I smiled as I admired and snickered at his cuteness when he tried to sleep but couldn't.
He became annoyed with my presence and got up, "What?"
"Why didn't you want to come? I'm not leaving until you give me a good reason." I said it determinedly.
"Why do you care?" Echizen asked.
"Well, you're my friend and I wanted you to be there." I said it passionately.
Echizen knew I was stubborn, so he just groaned and lied down in his bed, covering himself with his quilt.
Echizen was also stubborn too.
I muttered, "Is it has something to do with your past?"
I could feel his body shake in his bed.
"It is, isn't?" I spoke quietly.
Echizen didn't reply and still hid himself under his blanket but silence was all I need.
"Is it bad memories?" I continued to ask.
Echizen revealed his face and responded, "Not really. ...it was a good memories but that's just make it worse." He said it sadly.
I saw that his face and eyes were filled with hidden sorrow. It takes lot of guts to open up to someone. I just smiled and rubbed his head, "Well, let's just make new memories and have some fun."
Echizen was annoying by my rubbing but smirked, "I guess."
I was so distracted by my jealously of Ryuzaki that I forgotten the most important thing. That is to enjoy the time we spend together.
Echizen asked, "Is Sakuno coming?"
My smile turned upside down and I answered, "Hai."
"That's good." He answered and he went to sleep.
I couldn't help but felt disappointed.
I look at his sleeping tranquil face.
I became tired and saw that Echizen's bed does indeed look very comfortable and warm. I lied down next to him and embraced the person I care for.
Even though time was short, I wanted to enjoy it as long as I can.
The next morning came, I woke up feeling extremely good and enveloped in warmth that I desired so much. I didn't want to wake up and let go of him. But I knew I have to, I removed the quilt from my body, not wanting to wake up Echizen.
I just want to enjoy my time with him.
Suddenly I shivered as I felt this chill haunting my heart.
Why did I have that chill just now?
I continued to shiver as fear was overcoming me.
Why am I scared?
I heard some yawn and I quickly looked at Echizen rubbing his tired eyes.
Oh crap, I'm not supposed to be here in his bed! I was about to leave but Echizen looked at me already. He blinked and rubbed his eyes again. He looked at me and then he widened in surprised.
I laughed nervously and then I realized that I wasn't wearing anything except a boxer. I quickly panicked, "Umm...this isn't what you think!"
Echizen immediately punched me on the face out of his bed, HARD I may add. I landed on the floor on my back and I yelled, "HEY! Why do you punch me!?"
"What were you doing in my bed, you...gay HENTAI!?" Echizen accursedly yelled at me.
Gay hentai? I blushed at the thought of it and I yelled in my defense, "I ONLY SLEPT WITH YOU, THAT'S ALL!"
Echizen's eyes widened in shock as he took the wrong meaning of the word, "slept."
I quickly explained in panic, "NO THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT! I JUST SLEPT ON YOUR BED! THAT'S IT!"
Echizen just looked at me with disbelief, "Whatever. Just get out of my room."
I quickly picked up my clothes and I asked one more time, "Say, Echizen, are you going to the amusement park with us?
Echizen replied, "I guess, there's nothing to do anyway."
My face brightened with happiness. Hurray! I get to spend time with him. Perhaps that chill I felt was just my imagination?
Echizen dressed up in new clothes and asked, "Momo-senpai, what time is it?"
...I wasn't really listening because I was staring at Echizen's body as he puts on his new clothes.
I realized that Echizen was glaring at me and I quickly looked at my watch, "It's ...8:55." I froze as I realized something.
"Oh, what time we're supposed to be there?" Echizen asked.
"...um 9?" I spoke nervously.
Then it was Echizen's turn to freeze.
Neutral's POV
Half of hour has past nine and the other Regulars including Sakuno were waiting at the amusement park.
Eiji yelled, "ARGH! WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY!? THEY ARE LATE!"
Oishi tried to calm him down, "Eiji, please calm down. I'm sure they have a perfectly logical reason why they were late."
Sakuno was worried, "Oh, I hope Ryoma-kun is alright."
Oishi replied, "Don't worry. Momoshiro is with him."
Fuji taunted, "Actually that makes it worse."
Sakuno became frightened, "EHHHHHHHH!?"
Takashi calmed her down, "They will be fine!"
Tezuka crossed his arm and twitched his eyes. He wondered why he has to be here instead of enjoying a nice cup of tea and a good book. But since Fuji insisted so "nicely" he has no choice but to go.
Eiji was moving around impatiently until he heard a skidding noise.
Momo's POV
"Faster than a car! Faster than a plane! FASTER THAN A SUPERMAN!" I yelled passionately as I continued to pedal my bike like crazy as I was in a marathon.
Echizen spoke annoyingly, "Weren't we in the same situation like this?"
"WHO CARES!" I yelled, "WE'RE LATE!"
I saw the others waiting in the front of the theme park. I immediately put on my brakes but I still continued to speed like crazy. I saw Eiji in the way. I yelled, "EIJI-SENPAI! WATCH OUT!"
But it was too late. We immediately crashed into him and as the result, Echizen and I were tangled with Eiji and my precious ruined bike.
Echizen muttered, "Yep, we definitely were in same situation like that."
I just laughed nervously.
When we untangled ourselves, Eiji gave us a yelling but calm down as he remembered we're just here for funs. As we were about to enter the theme park, I talked to Ryuzaki, "Ryuzaki?" I called out her name.
She looked at me frightened but I assured her, "Don't worry, I'm not going to bite you off. Look, I just wanna say sorry for my temper yesterday. I wasn't in the good mood."
Ryuzaki looked at me and spoke, "Oh, thank you for your apology. I wanted to say sorry for throwing you." She bowed.
"Nah, its okay. I just amazed how strong you are." Geez, my back was still sore from that.
We entered the main square and we were planning what to do in the park.
Eiji complained, "Taka-san! Where's your boyfriend?!"
Takashi blushed, "Umm, he's already here. That reminds me, I have to go meet him."
Eiji pouted, "Oh, why can't he show himself? I mean he did take my free ticket."
Takashi, "Gomen. He's just very shy about meeting other people. I have to go see him. Bye." He left us.
Fuji smiled, "We also wanted to go somewhere too. So we're going to leave too."
I asked, "Eh! You're leaving us."
Fuji grinned, "Yes, Tezkua and I wanted to do something alone."
Buchou just blushed and then they left.
Eiji whined, "Awww, everyone is leaving. That's no fun." Then he sighted something exciting such as a roller coaster with many, many, loops, "OISHI! LET'S RIDE THAT ONE!" He exclaimed like a child.
Oishi looked at the roller coaster and cringed, "Um, Eiji, do we really need to ride that thing?"
Eiji bounced happily, "OF COURSE! I WANT TO GO THERE!" He immediately dashed off, dragging poor frightened Oishi with him.
I pouted, "Eh, no fair. Everyone left us. I guess, it's just us, Echizen." I looked at Echizen and saw that he was gone. I quickly found Echizen, walking with that girl. I yelled angrily, "HEY! DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Then I felt that chill again as something wrong was going to happen.
What's wrong with me? Why do I suddenly felt scared?
I decided to ignore it but some reason, I still felt scared. Why?
I yelled out his name, "Hoi, Echizen!" But he wasn't listening to me, he was talking with Ryuzaki.
Well, that's okay. I mean they are in relationship and they haven't seen each other in a long time. I just want to enjoy my time with Echizen.
We visited numerous attractions and somehow with each attraction, my fear increase. As my fear increased, there was this unspeakable pain in my heart.
We visited game stands which were one of my favorites, because I love the challenges and you get to win prizes. I tried to call Echizen but he wasn't listening. He was talking with that girl and was staring off into the space.
Why was he staring? Why wasn't he listening to me?
Then I remembered what Echizen said that he had good memories here.
Could he be remembering them?
I heard Ryuzaki calling his name, "Ryoma-kun! Do you remember this place?"
Even Ryuzaki must have memories of this place. Both of them must have good memories of this place. Somehow I felt so jealous and lonely.
I continued to follow them through numerous attractions. Each attraction, I tried to grab his attention but it was futile. Echizen wouldn't listen to me. Each attraction, my fear increase and this pain became unbearable. Echizen was talking with Ryuzaki or he was remembering those nostalgia memories. I could see in his face and his eyes expressing faint happiness as he remembered those places.
That was when I realized. That was why I felt afraid. That was why I have this pain in my heart. I realized that I'm just nothing to Echizen and Ryuzaki's eyes. I'm just a stranger to them. The worst of all, I'm the third wheel. I never felt so lonely, so this is what I feared. This is my pain.
I realized that if I accepted Ryuzaki and Echizen's relationships or Echizen's relationship with anyone else. I will also have to accept the fact that Echizen will spent less time with me.
He will eventually leave me.
Even though I was his friend for few months, it won't change the fact, that he will spend more time with his beloved ones. I never knew Echizen's past or his sorrows. I will never know Echizen well as Ryuzaki. All I am was his roommate and his noisy friend.
Eventually, Echizen will get married and he won't have any time for me. One day, he will forget me.
That day has come. I was forgotten. My image in Echizen's eyes was gone.
No, I don't want to believe it.
Now that I thought about it, it was true. Ever since Echizen's girlfriend came, each day my time with Echizen dwindled and it will eventually decrease into nothingness. The thought of losing him made me so scared. The thought of it made me want to cry. With tiny hope hanging on the cliff, I called out.
"Ryoma." For the first time, I have spoken his first name, to prove that I deeply care for him.
But it was futile. Echizen didn't hear it. He was gone.
Well Echizen, I hope you have happy relationship with her. Good bye.
Neutral's POV
Ryoma suddenly heard his name. He mused, "Someone said my first name." He turned around and saw that his friend has disappeared.
TBC
Ponta: That was beautiful. Sniff. WAHHHHHHHHHH!
QueenofEngland: ...that was angsty.
Ponta: I know. MUWHAHAHAHA!
Momo: .........................................I can't believe it.
Ponta: ONCE AGAIN! LET ME TELL, THIS IS NOT A RYOSAKO FIC! OKAY THIS IS YAOI! THIS IS JUST FOR ANGST!
Ryoma: Thank God, I'm not paired up with that blabbermouth.
Ponta: Again, well you know the usual apologies and request. I would like to request again for five reviews! So I'm not going to post a new chapter until my review number reached at least 44. Sorry and thank you!
