Note: I decided to write this fic after watching Saiyuki Reload Episode 16…that's all. A Goku POV
Disclaimer: Saiyuki Reload is not mine. I wish, but not. Hehehe…
Past and Future
On a journey to the west we are…we've survived the 3 months so far, and I'm surviving with these three companions with me. Hakkai…always the modest one; the one who is always in control of the situation, our route, food, almost everything! But it doesn't mean he is weak, Hakkai, has an amazing power, he could protect us, and would protect us at all cost, but…his past, still hurts. And it's this painful past that keeps him with us.
Gojyo, my mortal enemy; the loud sukebe watermonster cockroach. I could throw any fits and mean names to him, however, when I need comfort and a brother figure, his presence is overwhelming…I know he cares for me. He's always taking care of me.
And…Sanzo…back when I was on the top of a mountain, I had nobody to talk to …I was alone…I witnessed life and death. I saw smiling faces wither, still they were unreachable for me to console…I was a prisoner…chains binds me to that asylum.
A thousand years of solitude.
I didn't know my purpose…why I was born and why I have to endure such torture. Who are my parents? Do I have a family? All I know is I'm a heretic who was born from a rock. And I don't even know what that means…meaningless. Non-sense…I was that being…existence was almost a paradox.
At summer time, birds come to hum a song and flip their little wings on my little fingers. It made me smile, they made me smile. Everyday I saw daylight as my only solitude from the madness they put me into. Still, when winter comes…all sounds disappear…I could hear nothingness…it made me feel more alone…the snow…its coldness covered my very being.
Once, I've almost given up. I was ready for whatever will happen to me in that prison stone. I was ready to give up when a brimming luminosity was before my eyes, extending gracious hands to me, inviting me to a new life, I yet have to witness. The most warming feeling overflowed and I was again happy…I saw his eyes, his beautiful face, his blond hair that burned as hot as the sun; the light that always reminded me of the day of my salvation.
Now, on this very day, the snow falls again. I stare at its whiteness and seemingly innocent charisma which haven't witnessed any pain at all from this person that is facing it. I should move from here…for I'm living a new life. With friends as my support, and my light for which I should always be thankful.
The snow will always remind me of the past.
It may twitch me.
But I could always step forward towards mending.
OWARI
Author's note:
Okay so that was very emotional, indeed. But, seeing that I've somehow shown Goku on the spotlight, with a different light, I've achieved something personally.
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