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Chapter 17

Chris sat once again on the bench on the meadow in the Golden Gate Park. He knew that he needed to speak with Leo or else he will tell the sisters who he really is but he couldn't even stand the thought of going back to manor right now to have a nice little chat with his father. But as much as Chris wanted to ignore it, Leo seemed different. He seemed to care. And then he'll just going to leave me on my own again, like he always did.

"Hey!" suddenly a voice called behind him.

Surprised Chris turned around and saw Lindsay standing a few feet away from him. She didn't seemed to be hurt but still she had a pained look on her face. "Hey, everything okay?" he asked worried. She nodded and bite her lips, but remained silent.

"Are the sisters back at the manor?"

Again Lindsay nodded.

Chris sighed heavily. That would mean Leo was probably telling them who he is right now. Pushing this thought away for a while he stood up and went over to Lindsay. "I know this must have been hard for you…" he started but she cut him off.

"No, I hated him all my life. He was never like a father to me and now I found out that he killed my mother" she said with her eyes downcast.

"I'm sorry" Chris replied, not sure of what to say. But then he added "I know how you feel."

"No you don't" Lindsay said lowly.

"Yes I do, better than you would think" Chris responded.

Finally Lindsay looked back up at him and Chris could see that she had tears in her eyes. Without hesitation he pulled her close and hold her tightly. "You can't understand this Chris" she sobbed. "You don't know how it is to know that your own father killed your mother."

"Or how your brother killed your mother" Chris said before he could stop himself.

Lindsay pulled away from him. "Your brother…"

"I don't know" Chris interrupted her. "It was just…"

"What?" Lindsay asked when Chris stopped talking. Chris sat back onto the bench and this time Lindsay sat beside him.

For a few seconds none of them spoke but then he finally said "Once when I saved one of Wyatt's victims after my mothers death he said that he had really enjoyed her screams when – " Again Chris wasn't able to continue.

"Wyatt?" Lindsay asked confused. "He's your brother?"

For a moment Chris started panicking when he realized that he has slipped his secret but then he remembered that Leo also knew already. "Yeah" answered simply.

"But that would mean – Does that mean Piper and Leo are your parents?"

Chris nodded. Even though he knew that no one was ever supposed to know about him he couldn't suppress the feeling of relief that came over him. It has been so hard for him in the last months, always forced to lie to the ones he loved and keeping his identity as a secret has started to tore him apart. And he didn't know if the fact that Piper really seemed to care about him was making it easier for him or not.

"Why didn't you tell them?" Lindsay interrupted his thoughts.

"It could change the future" Chris answered.

"But you're here to change the future, aren't you?" When he didn't said anything she added "You were afraid that they wouldn't believe you."

Surprised he looked up at her. "No I wasn't" he then answered.

"Then why didn't you tell them?" Lindsay repeated.

Chris sighed. "I don't want to become emotional involved with them. In the future I came from, my mom and my aunts are already dead for eight years and as I said I don't really know who killed them, so I can't know if they're still dead in the future even if I save Wyatt. I'm rather afraid that they do believe me and want to get to know me because I don't know if I can bare it to loose them all over again. It's really easier this way."

"I don't believe you" Lindsay said after a while.

Chris frowned confused. "What?"

"I don't believe that it's easier this way" Lindsay answered. "They're your family Chris. You're here to save your brother and I think it would be better if you let them help you. And spend some time with them…"

"I can't!" Chris said, a bit louder than he had wanted.

"And I can't understand you!" Lindsay yelled back.

"What is there not to understand?" Chris asked.

"I would give everything to be able to be with my mom again" Lindsay answered while the tears returned in her eyes. "You can talk with her, be in her arms again and you can tell her how much you love her. Don't you get it Chris? You have the chance to do something that a lot of peole would do anything for. I can't understand that you want to waste it."

Chris couldn't answer for a while. The things she said made sense to him but still he wasn't sure if he wanted them to know about him. But maybe it was too late to hide it any longer. "Leo knows" he then stated.

"Really? But he… well he didn't seemed like he knew" Lindsay stammered as she remembered how Leo had treatened Chris to kill him a few weeks ago in her apartment.

"He found out today" Chris responded. "And maybe he's telling the sisters right now."

"But that's a good thing" Lindsay tried again to convince him.

"Maybe, but…" he trailed off when he heard Piper calling for him. The first thought that came to his mind was She knows. Trying to stay as calm as he could he turned to Lindsay. "Piper's calling me."

Lindsay immediately seemed to think the same as he. "You should go Chris. You can't avoid her for the rest of your stay in this time."

Chris knew she was right. "Are you sure? I mean if you want me to stay…"

"No, just go, I'm fine" Lindsay cut him off. After a sceptical look from Chris she added "Well okay, maybe not completely fine, but I can deal with it. Go."

"Okay… thanks" Chris said and hesitated a second before he leaned over to her and kissed her. She returned his kiss passionately but suddenly he orbed away while they were still lip on lip. She sighed when she remembered how Piper had told her that Leo had used to do this too. Like father, like son. She then stood up from the bench to go home and take a little nap after this stressful day.


"What's up?" Chris asked when he orbed into Pipers room. He looked at her closely and tried to figure out if she already knew who he was but she didn't seemed different.

"Hi, I just wanted to know if you've seen Lindsay already" Piper answered.

Chris felt a huge disappointment coming over him. It seemed like Leo really hadn't told her yet. But why am I disappointed? I should be glad. But he wasn't. Even if he hadn't allowed himself to open up to her in the last months, he had wished that once he would enter her room she would hug him or just say anything that would give him the feeling the he belonged here.

"Chris?" Piper asked confused. He seemed miles away with his thoughts.

"What?" Chris asked back, but then he quickly remembered her question. "Oh, err… yeah I've seen her."

"Chris are you okay?" Piper now started to worry slightly.

"Yeah sure" he answered and actually managed a small smile.

Piper wasn't convinced. "Really? You don't look like it."

"I – I'm just a bit tired after everything that happened today" Chris lied quickly. When he saw that Piper still looked at him worriedly he asked "Why did you want to know if I've seen her?"

"Well she was a bit upset after this whole thing with her father being a demon" Piper answered. "Is she alright?"

Chris nodded. "Yeah, I mean I think she'll get over it. She's strong."

"Okay then… And you're really okay?" Piper asked again. She couldn't stop herself. Chris looked so sad somehow and this strange feeling of protection towards him kicked in again.

For a second Chris considered it to tell her who he was. She seemed to care about him, so she surely wouldn't reject him, but even if he knew that everything that Lindsay had said in the Golden Gate Park was true, he just couldn't. Revealing his secret could cause him a lot of trouble, because then Piper would maybe care even more about him and would want to get to know him. And this could bring his mission in danger and he just couldn't risk that. He had to save Wyatt.

"I'm really okay" he answered and tried to sound confident. "Don't worry so much."

"I can't help it" Piper responded truthfully. "Do you want to join me and Wyatt by the dinner? Phoebe and Paige are out and it would be really nice to have someone around except from a very speechless baby." She smiled at him sweetly.

"Even if that's someone is your neurotic future whitelighter?" Chris asked sarcastically.

"Especially if it's him, maybe I can bring him to reveal some things" Piper answered cockily.

"Forget it" Chris responded. "Err… listen thanks for the offer, but I'll better go and get some sleep."

Piper nodded. "Okay. I'll see you tomorrow."

Chris frowned. "Why tomorrow?"

Piper laughed slightly. "This day must have really tired you out. You ordered us to vanquish tomorrow the Raven-Clan, did you forget that?"

"Oh, no of course not" Chris answered quickly.

"Yes you have" Piper said and grined. "Well go to bed now before you fall asleep while standing."

Chris nodded and looked after her while she left the room. He sighed heavily once she was out of sight. Why did everything have to be so hard? And why the hell hadn't Leo told her already? He had been sure he would do it. And against everything he tried to convince himself he had hoped he would.

"Chris?"

Chris jumped surprised when he heard the voice from behind him. He turned around and saw Leo standing there. "What do you want?" he snapped immediately, not able to control his anger.

"Why didn't you tell her?" Leo asked calmly.

"What? I thought you would do it! Why didn't you tell her?" Chris yelled.

"Because I didn't wanted to as long as I don't know that you want her to know the truth" Leo answered. He thought that would ease his son down but Chris still looked at him angrily. That was when the realization hit him. "You want her to know."

"No" Chris said quickly, but he knew that he didn't sounded convincable.

Leo took a step in his direction but he backed away from him. "Chris it's okay. She's your mother, you can tell her. You have to tell her. I'm sure she won't freak out, she loves you…"

"Not like you" Chris interrupted him. "You hate me."

Now it was Leos turn to concradict quickly "No Chris, I really don't hate you. I know that I did some horrible things to you but I just wanted to protect Wyatt…"

"That's nothing new to me Leo. You always wanted to protect your son, you just loved it to forget that you have two!"

"Chris, I know you're angry at me about the things that happened in your time, but I haven't done anything of this" Leo tried to reason with him.

"Not yet" Chris said bitterly.

Leo sighed frustrated. "Please give me a second chance. Give us a second chance."

Chris stared at him for a while. He seemed so sincery and desperate. "You want to have a second chance?" he then asked. Leo nodded while a slight hope spread in him. "Okay, then be there for mini me when he's born, I mean if he's even born."

"What do you mean?" Leo asked confused.

"Well you and mom are seperated so there's a rather huge possibilty that I will cease to excist in a few months" Chris answered and was surprised when he saw the shocked expression on Leos face.

"We have to tell her Chris" Leo said after he had take this horrible news in.

Chris laughed condescending. "What? That you two have to screw or I'm screwed?"

"Hey, watch your mouth" Leo exclaimed embarassed.

"Or you'll send me to my room?" Chris asked mockingly.

"Chris I don't know what's your problem…"

"You're my…" Chris tried to cut him off, but Leo continued. "But I refuse to let you do this any longer. You can't act like you are just a stranger to us, you have to let us help you. And you will let us help you, do you understand me? You're part of this family, if you like it or not. And helping each other is what families do."

Chris was stunned at this speech. He looked down at the floor before he asked "You mean that? You don't just say this things because you feel guilty?"

"I meant every word like I said" Leo responded. "Tell her."

Chris looked back up at him. "What if…"

"And forget about this whole future consequences thing" Leo ordered, knowing what his son was about to say.

Finally Chris gave in and nodded slightly. "Okay, I'll tell her. I just hope she really won't freak out."

Leo put a comforting hand on his arm. "She won't and even if she does a little, don't be mad at her. I mean all grown-up sons from the future aren't really every days things that happen –even in our lives."

Chris smiled slightly. "I know. Let's tell her tomorrow okay? Today happened enough already."

Leo nodded. "Okay. Do you want me to be there?"

Chris shrugged. "If you want" he said and tried to sound like as he wouldn't care what Leo did. But actually he cared a lot.

"I'll be there" Leo responded firmly and felt happy when he saw that his son had to smile at his comment.

TBC… (Thanks to everyone who reviewed so far. I'm really happy about your comments! In the next chapter there will be a bit more action again)