To Wish Upon A Star

This story takes place during the seperation of usagi and mamorou during the R season of sailormoon, it takes place in the episode about the promise rings in which usagi tries yet again to get mamorou to "love her". After they meet up on the street corner and mamorou refuses to look at her when she trips and falls, she goes home, and makes a very special wish on a shooting star.

I DON'T own any of the characters in sailormoon, and I'm not responsible for the creation of this wonderful show. ENJOY!

Dear Diary,

We met up on the street corner again today. I think it's destiny that we keep meeting up like this. I don't know why he dosen't love me anymore, and I've tried every possible way to prove to him that I can BE the kind of girl he wants. If he asked me to chop off my odanga's I would gladly do it for him...if he asked me to get better grades, I would study every night for the rest of my life...even if he asked me to find and defeat this new enemy by myself, I would! I know I'm not strong, or beautiful, and I'm a crybaby most of the time...but dosen't our love mean anything to him? We were lovers in the past, when I was the Princess of the Moon, and he was the Prince of the Earth. Even after Ann and Ail were trying to destroy us, he never faltered when proving his love for me was stronger and more important than anything. So why now?

I don't know who to turn to, or what to do anymore...and I'm so tired that I can hardly thing straight. The girls tell me to believe in myself, and believe in our love...I have kept the faith without hesitation, sure that if there is a God, he will be merciful and bestow blessings upon our love, but every day that I see Mamo-chan...every cold word and hurtful thing he throws at me...every way he tries to avoid me or push me away, eats at my soul. No, I think...no, I won't give into these doubts...I will try harder tommorow, and keep believing that everything will turn out ok. Goodnight diary, I finish.

Luna comes trotting into the room and looks at me with concern in her eyes. I feel badly for making everyone, all my friends and my family, worry about me, so I try to smile at her.

"Is there any new information about this enemy?" I ask, trying not to think about Mamo-chan for five seconds.

If I have to grow up for five seconds, and stop thinking about boys and clothes, to get him back, then I will. I will be the warrior everyone believes in. So I hide my doubts, and fears, and insecurities underneath the surface, and put on my game face.

"There is no information yet Usagi, but you should try to restin case Emerodo sends any more monsters at us."

Rest? Yes, I should rest for a while. I had a hard day, trying to make one of those promise rings everyone is so crazy about. Being in one of those classes was like being in school, teacher yells at me, I fail at something I should be able to do, and I cry like a baby because I feel so stupid for being unable to succeed at something yet again. It's always the same...So I tell Luna that I will try to rest. I get into my PJ's and try so hard not to let my last thought be of Mamo-chan as I turn out the lights.

I fail at that too, because I'm crying as I lie in bed. Luna curls up on my chest and puts her warm face against my neck, trying to soothe me with her purrs. I feel a little better, having someone, anyone, who won't laugh at me for crying like this. Luna always understands me, even if she dosen't always agree with me. She always tries to be supportive and helpful, even with being so small and helpless most of the time herself.

I gaze out my window and see a beautiful shooting star crossing the moon. A full moon...where my home used to be, and suddenly, I wish more deeply than anything that I could be back there.

"Oh shooting star..." I whisper. "I wish I may...I wish I might...have this wish, I wish tonight. I wish that I could be the Moon Princess again, so Mamo-chan and I can be together. Please...I don't want him to hate me anymore."

I mentally scold myself for making two wishes. Your only supposed to make one wish at a time, because wishing for more things sounds greedy, and the star might not grant you your wish. A few moments pass, and nothing happens. I fall asleep with Luna on my neck, and I dream that I can smell rose petals all around me. I'm in a garden where the light of the earth washes over me and everything is peaceful and right with the world. Through my dreams, I can hear a gentle voice saying my name..no, not my name, but the voice sounds familer, and so does the name...

"Serenity-Serenity!-Princess Serenity! Wake up Princess, have you slept in the garden again?"

Princess? Me? Of course, I'm Princess Serenity of the Moon Kindgom, and yes, I have been sleeping in the garden againI open my eyes to gaze up into Sailor Venus's concerned face. I'm laying among a bed of roses, in my private garden. Venus offer's her hand to me and helps me off the ground. Something glitters on the ground next to where I was laying, and I bend over to pick it up. It's a pink locket encrusted with jewels, and from it is playing the sweetest melody I have ever heard. For some reason, the melody makes me feel sad, as though a great hole were opening inside my heart, and swallowing everything joyous. It is like an ache of loneliness, I think to myself.

Minako is looking me over carefully. I straighten up and try to look the best I can for her daily inspection. She is the head of my personal bodyguards, and one of my dearest friends.

"Princess, why did you sleep in the garden again!" She sounds exsasparated. "There are reasons why you have personal bodyguards! You are also the Princess, and it is not proper for you to be sleeping in the garden like this!"

"I know," I nod. "But I can't help it Minako, Endymion was here last night!"

A look of disgust washes over her face when I mention Endymion's.

"Princess, that Earth boy is nothing but trouble! You know communication between the Earth and the Moon is forbidden!"

"I know that!" I begin to pout. "But mother hasn't forbidden me from seeing him! You've just never been in love Minako!" (A sweat drop appears above Minako's head as Serenity walks away.)

I walk away quickly with a pout upon my face. I know I shouldn't pout, it isn't proper, but I can't help it! The memory of Endymion's sweet kisses...the way he wraps me in his velvet cape...the way he whispers 'I love you' into my earwhile we lay under the stars...How could Endymion be anything but wonderful!

In my chambers, I change out of my soiled gown and into a fresh one. The waist band of circlesis high on this dress, and a long yellow bow drapes off of my back. It's sleeveless and flowing, and I match it with a pair of soft white slippers. I leave my tiara on it's stand because I can't stand wearing it most of the time. I know later on Minako will scold me for not wearing it, but I don't mind. I know she loves me, and she is trying to prepare me for my role as Queen someday, I just wish she could understand that Endymion and I are in love!

Endymion...even thinking of his name makes my heart flutter joyfully. I can not wait until tonight, when I can see him once again.

Luna pads into the room, and inspects me like she does every day.

"Good morning Princess! Did you sleep well?"

Placing the locket next to my tiara, I quickly turn around and cross my arms behind my back.

"Of course I did Luna!" I smile...it feels strange..as though I had not smiled in a long time.

Shrugging it off as morning sleepiness, I gather the little cat into my arms and head to my mother's chambers. For some reason, I want to see my mother badly.

She's in her chambers, along with my four friends. We, and the servants, are the only ones permitted to enter her chambers. I hope Minako hasn't told her I was sleeping in the garden again! She smiles when she notices me, and dismisses the girls quietly. After they have gone, she gathers me into her arms and hugs me tightly, stroking my forehead where a tiny cresent moon is visible. (Sad locket music plays). I am still childlike, I need to be held by my mother each day, becuase I always feel secure when she is there. She is wisdom and strength that I do not have yet. She teaches me all the things I will need to know if I am to continue the peace of the Silver Mellenium.

"Did you sleep well Serenity?" She asks. Her smile is sweet and kind, and all-knowing. I think that even if Minako hasn't told her I was sleeping in the garden with Endymion again, she already knows.

"Yes Mother," I reply. "I slept well. I had strange dreams of being someone else for time though."

"Strange dreams?" She inquires, releasing me.

"Yes, there was a girl who looked just like me. She made a wish on a shooting star, but I couldn't hear what her wish was."

"Prehaps her wish is traveling through space, being granted by the star as we speak." Mother says soothingly, but she looks troubled. I believe her. I trust her.

After I have eaten something and refreshed myself a little more, I join my mother in the throne room again for Audience. Together, my mother and I give audience to the people of the Moon Kingdom each day. She tells me that this is a way to gain the people's respect and trust. I should also be aware of the events going on in my Kingdom, so I can appear a kind and caring ruler.

A man speaks before us of vandilisim he believes to be caused by travelers from Earth. He inquires what we might do to prevent the people of Earth from entering the Moon Kingdom again, but my mother tells him to be patient, that she will personally investigate the vandilisim and determine weather it was actually caused by someone from Earth. She then offers him a room in the palace for a few nights, so that the damages done to his home can be repaired.

A young woman speaks of aquiring a posistion as a servant in the palace. When my mother asks her name, she replies:

"My name is Beryl."

The odd feeling of dread in my stomache when I hear that name, startles me out of a plesant daydream about Endymion! I stare so hard at the youthful red-head that I do not even hear my mother polietly clearing her throat next to me. She suddenly whispers in my ear:

"Serenity? Are you ill? Prehaps we should adjourn for the day ne?"

I wordlessly nod my head, making a mental note to speak with mother later regarding this "Beryl's" posistion as a servant.

I have lessons with Ami-chan after lunch. I usually sleep through right through them, but today Ami-chan is lecturing about the Earth...giving me every reason in the world to daydream about Endymion.

"The Earth was created five hundred million years ago when a great calamity occured in space," she lectures. "The sun collided with an unknown object and chunks of the sun broke off into space. They drifted aimlessly for millions of years, cooling as they went until finally the largest chunk was swept into the Moon's gravity field and there it remained. At this time, the moon was overcrowded with primitive lifeforms and some of these lifeforms opted to decend to Earth. Over a period of about one thousand years they lost all the powers that the people of the Moon possess such as long lifespans. They forgot that they had origionally come from the Moon.

"So Endymion is like me..." I whisper dreamily.

Ami-chan snaps her history book shut and gazes over her large glasses at me.

"Princess, as heir to the Silver Mellineum you have a mountain of things to learn! One of those is that the people of Earth are not anything like us anymore! Now, could you please try to focus on the topic at hand?"

She tries to sound kind while saying this, but I know that underneath the surface there is a line of worry crossing her mind.

Even though I'm sixteen hundred years old (which roughly translates to about sixteen years on Earth) I still like to have an afternoon nap. My mother takes time out of her day to come into my chamber and stroke my hair while I lay my head in her lap and fall asleep.

"Mama, is it true that the people of Earth once lived on the moon?" I whisper softly.

I can feel my mother's gaze on me as she replies:

"Yes, my daughter, they were once like us."

"Ami-chan said that they aren't like us at all. But how could that be? I have met people from Earth who are just as kind as people from the Moon!"

"Endymion is not like them," She soothes. "He has special qualities that set him apart from his people. One of them is the ability to accept our differences, as I have."

"Mama, he isn't bad is he? Minako-chan tells me that he is trouble, but I don't want to think that way about Endymion!"

"Rest your head child," she soothes again. "Endymion is not like them."

She gently lifts my chin and gazes into my eyes.

"Remember Serenity, you are the most important person to all of us. As your heart grows stronger, so does your ability to love, and with that love will come the power to wield the ginzuisho. So when you feel uncertain, as though you are trapped in the dark forever, remember that the light of the ginzuisho, powered by your love for others, will always shine brightly, and guide you to the light again."

Sunlight is streaming through the large bedroom windows, warming my back as I fall asleep. The silver crystals adorning my canopy, my stuffed animals in a pile by my bed...the sweet music playing from the locket as a gentle wind stirs the white curtains...

My nap ends late in the afternoon, and I prepare for dinner. The girls are there to dress me accordingly and escourt me to banquet. Everyone in the palace almost always dines together, and there are only a few times I can remember that mother and I have eaten dinner alone, or with just the girls. We dine, and then dance away the night under the glow of the Earth, with the stars to guide our feet. It rarely happens, but sometimes Endymion shows up in time to dance with me, and I hope tonight be will be there early enough to do so.

"Princess, shall we just dress you in a fresh white gown?" Makoto-chan asks gayly.

Makoto-chan, Sailor Jupiter, must have a new love because she never gets this excited about banquet unless there is a new man she craves! Rei-chan is fussing with my odango's, trying to straighten them and tuck in loose ends.

"Ow!" I wine as she pulls harshly on one of them.

"Serenity! Hold still for two minutes so that I can make you look presentable!"

"Stop treating me like a child!" I yell as I try to swat her hands away.

"But you are a child the way you squirm whenever your told to be still!"

"Do not!" I shout.

"Do too!"

"Come on guys," Ami-chan steps in. "We are going to be late if we don't hurry!"

"Yes," Minako-chan points out. "I'm sure Serenity is starving!"

I throw myself into Minako-chan's arms and hug her fiercly.

"Minako-chan, you are the only one who understands me!" I squeal.

The girls cover their ears at the sound of my squeal, which even hurts me surprisingly!

"It dosen't take much to understand a child like Serenity!" Rei-chan sticks out her tounge.

"Better than being a hag who is to difficult to understand!" I retort, but I know that we are simply playing now.

We always argue, but in the end, we always make up. Rei-chan is probably the fiercest of my guardians, the most loyal, and the most concerned. We head down to the banquet hall and await the trumpets that will announce us properly. My tummy grumbles loudly, I'm so hungry!

What seems like an eternity later, the trumpets sound and a voice cries out:

"Announcing her Majesty, The Queen of the Moon Kingdom, Queen Serenity!"

There is a cry of "Hail the Queen! and "Let the Silver Mellineum Last Forever!" and then the announcment:

"Announcing her highness, the Princess of the Moon Kingdom, Princess Serenity! And also announcing the four senshi of the Silver Mellineum, Sailor Mars, Sailor Mercury, Sailor Jupiter, and Sailor Venus!"

There are equal cheers of joy for us, as we enter the hall and take our places at the table. I sit next to mother and she looks me over concernedly.

"Serenity, have you slept well? You look a little pale."

I had just noticed Beryl looking in my direction from the entrance to the kitchens. As soon as she notices me, she turns back into the kitchens, as though trying to avoid my seeing her.

"Mother, I wanted to ask you if we could discuss the posistion of that girl named Beryl that you hired today."

"Does she frighten you Serenity? She is a little lonely, apparently she has no family, they were all killed on Earth."

"She's from Earth?" I almost choke on my mouthfull of rice at mother's mention of it!

"I have spoken with her a little, and she is very kind...kind, but sad...There are things about her that I have yet to discover, but I cannot turn her down."

"Oh!" I exclaim, suddenly losing my appetite.

"Don't worry Serenity!" Minako-chan gives me the thumbs up from a few seats away. "Your mother knows what she's doing, and nothing will happen!"

I smile, and begin to stuff my face with the delicious food at our table! I'm so hungry!

The meal ends, and the tables are cleared away. The orchestra strikes the first notes to a beautiful ballard, something soft and relaxing. I let my body go in time to the music and feel the rythem sweep me along. There are applause and gasps as I dance across the floor...there is even some dissaproval that I am dancing alone.

After I take the first dance, everyone else joins in. I take this oppertunity to make my way to up to a stone balcony that is bathed in the light of the Earth. Fireworks are exploding in the sky. Below the balcony, and along the walk leading to the castle gates, fountains are gushing water.

"Princess!" A voice calls out. My heart skips a beat as I gaze down and see Endymion gazing back at me.

"Endymion, your late!" I try to sound cute, but for some reason his eyes reflect a serious nature. There is no playfullness within him.

Before he can say anything, the shouts of the guards makes him turn. He glances back up at me hesitantly before whispering:

"I'll meet you inside!"

Then he is running along the walk with the guards on his heels. I gracefully decend the majestic stone steps and someone catches my hand. Gasping, I look into Endymion's eyes, hidden behind a mask. Such a handsome face should not have to hide under a mask, yet I understand his desire for secrecy. There are people of the Moon who would be less then welcoming with the Prince of a country they are preparing to go to war with! He whisks me onto the dance floor and we begin a slow and gracefull waltz.

"I can't stay long," he brings me close and whispers into my ear.

"Why not?" I pout, even if his whisper sends chills up my spine.

"The people of Earth are stirring and becoming angrier every day. War could break out at any moment! You understand don't you...I must be there to protect my people."

"I understand Endymion," I lie. I don't understand, not at all.

Later on, he escourts me to the balcony where I first saw him and begins to explain things in more detail.

"The sun has been extremly active this year," he begins. "It has been killing our crops and our people, and turning the Earth into a burning wasteland! Now, near the royal palace, huge stone pillars have appeared and people are gathering there to worship these strange gods of the sun. They contiune to claim that we are origionally decendants of gods from the sun, and that living under the control of the people of the Moon is demeaning and wrong. I have tried to explain to my people that we are not under any control, but every day more followers join those zellots."

I have only decended to Earth a few times, but I have always kept the memories of those visits in the front of my mind. The Earth is warm, and lush, and full of hopes and possibilities. I begin to cry, thinking of such a beautiful place decaying like Endymion has described!

Gently, Endymion wipes a tear from my cheek and cups my face in his hands. He slowly wraps me in his velvet cape and presses his lips to mine. All my fears and doubts are blown away, and I feel nothing but this moment and this place. It's as though the Moon contiunes to move around us, yet we are not a part of it.

"Don't cry Serenity!" He pleads. "I will come back to see you like I always do. You know that I will protect you. I have spoken with your mother, and if war breaks out, I am responsible for taking you to saftey." He turns to leave, and I grab his arm.

"Let me come with you!" I beg. I know this is a crazy idea, but I can't stand the tought of him leaving me again.

"No!" He says in a and-thats-final tone, but I catch his eyes and I see that he has been near to tears as well.

"I can't put you in such danger..." he begins, but I put a finger to his lips. "I have something that might help us, just wait for me at the teleportation area, I will be there shortly."

Wordlessly he follows my commands, prehaps realizing that I can act like a queen if I want to!

Well, what do you think? Good or bad? Please read and review because this is one of the few fanfics I have released so far!