Disclaimer: Don't own Charmed, or the lyrics 'Here's Your Letter' by Blink-182.

A/N: So, here's the next update, hope its better than the last and that you're not all mad. Just, don't forget the tissues:P PLEASE don't kill me:D

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Cut the skin to the bone
Fall asleep all alone
Hear your voice in the dark
Lose myself in your eyes
Choke my voice Say goodnight
as the world falls apart
Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this

Here's a letter for you
But the words get confused
And the conversation dies
Apologize for the past
Talk some shit take it back
Are we cursed to this life

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For a week Piper thought about her decision, she was more determined than ever. Inside it was tearing her up, either way it would kill her. But it was the best for Melinda. Melinda, Mel was Piper's world; she'd miss her so much. If only things were different.

Piper was in Mel's room watching over her sleeping daughter as Leo was in their room, reading the letter Piper had placed on her pillow as soon as she awoke.

Leo,

What happened to us? I've been thinking for days, but have come up blank. I have come to a conclusion though – I don't think you'll like it- but there are things I must do. You have every right to be angry.

We used to be so happy – so in love. I remember there was a time when I'd do anything for you. I'd walk backwards round the Earth, run blindfolded down Main St. I'd even die for you. My…our love was so deep, pure, and true; I really would have died just to save your soul. I remember how I felt when you died. I felt as if my heart had been ripped out, shattered and I was left alone to die. It was the worst time of my life – still is. I thought I'd never be happy again; but six months later you came back. I was so happy – our relationship was new, fresh and exciting again. At least it was for a little while.

But now…things have changed – I wish I could just say it's me and that I need time. But I can't. Truth is nothing about me has changed, my feelings are the same. Leo, I still feel the same. Leo, I love you. I wish I could erase the past few months – start again. I wish this didn't have to happen, but it does. I wish I could make this quick and painless. Damnit! I wish a lot of stuff didn't or doesn't have to happen; but I'm sorry. God, Leo…I'm so sorry. I wish I could forgive, forget and just move on. I know you'd tell me to ignore this, you'd tell me not to be so stupid. I know this might seem stupid, but Leo, you have to understand. Just understand me, one last time, it's all I ask of you.

Lately, things have gone so wrong. I'm trying to embrace my destiny as a witch; a Charmed One. But I needed someone by my side. Don't you dare say that I had you! Because I didn't. Leo, at a time when I most needed you, you were gone. You haven't been here; for me or our daughter. And Leo I need someone who is willing to stand by my side. I need someone that I can rely on to be there for me and our daughter when I need them. I'm not saying I don't trust you because I do, I just don't know when you'll be there and when you won't. I think I may be beginning to understand why whitelighters and their charges should never fall in love. It's difficult – I fear that it may even be an impossible task. This is why things should end now; whilst we still have something good to hold on to. I wish so much that things could be different, that things didn't have to end like this. I fear that if we stay together all that will be left in the end is pain from all the fighting. If you can't be here now, what's the point in waiting for a time that may never come? I don't want to be left with nothing good to remember.

Melinda. I know you're going to want to know what will happen with Melinda. Truth is, I can't raise her. Not with you or without you. There is no way of winning this scenario. It pains me so much to even dare think about this – but it must be done. I don't know how I'll live without Melinda or you, but I'll get through this. As much as I'd love to give Melinda a stable, happy, safe and loving home – I can't. Love I can her. But I can't promise her stability, happiness or safety. Is it enough to love? Apparently not, just look where it's gotten us. If I can't have a normal life, at least my daughter will get one. Maybe I wasn't really ready, maybe I'm too young, maybe I'll never be a good mother; I don't know. But I can't wait around to find out. I'm doing this for Melinda's sake. I hope she doesn't forget us, but as long as she is bought up well and has a good life, it's a risk I'll have to take.

So Leo, this is my goodbye, at least for now, I may be losing two loves, the two things I treasure the most, but one day the both of you will, hopefully, understand me; I'm not asking that you forgive me. In fact, I'm not really asking anything. Maybe you'll never understand, I don't care if you don't. I just need you to know that this needs to be done. If we are truly meant to be a family, we'll find our ways back to each other. Only time will tell.

I will always love you; but love is simply not enough,

Piper – forever xx


Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this

I'm talking to the ceiling
My life just lost all meaning
Do one thing for me tonight
I'm dying in this silence


Leo stared up at the ceiling, his eyes wet with tears, he couldn't believe it. His wife, the love of his life, was throwing him out. She no longer wanted him around. And what's worse, wouldn't to give their daughter, their beautiful bouncing toddler, up for adoption. How could she? Why didn't she just rip his heart out and stamp on it. Would've made the same pain.

Not fully understanding, Leo went off in search of Piper, he met her on the landing. Piper stared at him, she let a tear slide down her cheek, she was obviously in pain, Leo could tell her heart was breaking, and all he wanted to do was pull her into his arms. Slowly Leo stepped forward and embraced her, for what would probably be the last time.

"W…what's this?" He asked holding up the letter after he stepped back.

"You read it, you know what it is…" Piper trailed off looking at her feet.

"You want me to walk away?" He asked, a tear fell from his eye.

"No, I don't want…I just, feel that it's what needs to be done, for now at least. I'm sorry."

"You want to give our daughter up?" He asked in disbelief.

"No, Leo, you don't understand. I don't want to give her up, but we have to. I can't possibly raise a demanding toddler and fight off demons and warlocks every damn day. And unless you have a better idea as to what we can do; don't mess with this witch!"

"But I can look after her." Leo argued.

"No, Leo you can't!" Piper was one determined witch, nothing would change her mind. Leo looked at her questioningly.

"You're never here for me or Melinda, when we need you. Don't give me that face Leo Wyatt! You're constantly with other charges. When we call you, it takes so long for you to come; I'm scared that one day you won't come until it's too late. And I don't want that to happen, one day you won't be able to save one of us, and I don't want it to be Melinda. Now do I want her to grow up with that pain. Leo she's a good girl, she deserves a normal life and as much as I love her and want to I can't give her that." A flood of tears made their way down Piper's face. She looked at Leo in pain.

"I'm sorry you feel like this…if…maybe if you'd told me before we could have worked it out." Leo said.

"Don't you realise I tried? I tried so hard, and it did no good whatsoever." She paused and stepped closer to him. "I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry Leo." She held her hand up to his face, and tenderly kissed him for the last time.

After they pulled apart, Leo gave Piper one last longing look before orbing out.

That night Piper sat in her daughter's room and wrote a letter. The next week, she gave the letter and her daughter to one of the nuns at their local church; Piper trusted that the nun would find Melinda a good, loving home.

The letter Piper had written read:

Melinda,

Baby, I love you so much right now. I wish this didn't have to happen. I wish you could stay with me, I wish you're father could stay too. But one day you will learn that everything happens for a reason. You will also learn that even though something tears you up on the inside, you know it's the right thing to do. On day you will be wiser than anyone else your age. That might sound good; but it's not really a good thing – not in the way that I meant it. Believe me; I'm doing this to protect you.

Even if you don't understand me now, you will one day. One day we will meet again – I'm sure of it.

I'm sure you want to know why I'm doing this. I can't provide you with every reason. But I can tell you this: I want you to grow up with stability, happiness, safety and love. Whilst I may be able to provide plenty of love, there is no way that I can guarantee stability or safety. I probably wouldn't be able to provide you with happiness either. I guess, I just want you to know, that this decision has been tearing me up on the inside, it's been killing me; even now, as I write this letter, with tears streaming down my face, I wish with my whole heart that I didn't have to do this. But please, you have to understand I'm doing it for you, it's for the best. I'm so sorry honey.

All my love,

Your Mother, Piper.

The letter was shorter than the one she had written to Leo, but it was filled with a mother's love. It said all she needed to say. And every last word was true…it really was killing her. Tearing her up on the inside because she knew, however much she hated the decision, it was the right one.


The last star left in heaven
Is falling down to earth and
Do you still feel the same way
Do you still feel the same way

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A/N: Okay, there's one chapter left after this, then I'll work on the sequel to this. I'm planning three stories in the series. So next chapter, will be the last of this one. But then there'll be a whole new story to look forward to. And I swear, it'll work out, just trust me.  Y'all trust me w/ PiperLeoness right?

These letters, I've had written for months, I've also had the beginning of the next story written for months. It was just getting here that got me stuck. And I had so much writer's block and everything…I was lost…but I'm finding myself again, and whilst doing that finding my ability and love to write:D YAYNESS! And lucky for you; I sat down on 24/3/05 and just started writing, so I finished the last chapter, wrote most of this one, and started the next. And you all happy for me:P