To Wish Upon a Star

(I don't own any of the characters from sailormoon!)

This story takes place during the seperation of usagi and mamorou during the R season of sailormoon, it takes place in the episode about the promise rings in which usagi tries yet again to get mamorou to "love her". After they meet up on the street corner and mamorou refuses to look at her when she trips and falls, she goes home, and makes a very special wish on a shooting star.

I DON'T own any of the characters in sailormoon, and I'm not responsible for the creation of this wonderful show. ENJOY!

It is dawn when we arrive. I cannot remember ever being this tired before, but it is not just the lack sleep I have had, it feels like a physical exhuastion knawing at my bones. I want to lay down on my bed with the sun and the warmth, and the comfort that things are normal...but I know, god do I know...

When we arrive at the palace, we are confronted by the girls. They wear the expressions of those with broken hearts, I feel like they must know already about Endymion's generals. I know it is a selfish thing, but I cannot help holding Endymion that much tighter when I think about his parents...his companions...his kingdom in ruins.

"Come away from him Princess!" There is nothing in Minako-chan's voice like the light scoldings she usually gives me. She looks at Endymion as an enemy, with a cold destructive light in her eyes.

"Yes, Serenity, this is serious buisness. He is a traitor to our kingdom!" Rei-chan is saying

"Rei-chan! You've got it all wrong! Just let us talk to mother, she'll listen!"

"I am listening," mother says as she appears behind the girls.

"Mother! Mother, they've got it all wrong! Endymion has done nothing but protect me! Please don't let them take him away!"

She studies me for a moment, but finally nods in acceptance.

"Serenity, the trust you place in others is one of the most important attributes I have tried to teach you." She smiles, and a burden is lifted from my heart. "I will not have him taken away. You two...belong together. I believe it is destiny."

"But Majesty--!" My mother waves her hand to silence Minako-chan, and she draws me into her arms.

The smell of her soft perfume...the silkiness of her skin...the warmth that flows from her beating heart...these are the things I am most comforted by when my mother embraces me. Mother...I think to myself. Was there something about her I was supposed to remember? Did Something happen to her that I can't remember...? A fleeting thought, and we are moving into the palace.

"The situation is grim," my mother says as we gather in the great throne room. "The forces of the Earth have taken out much of the city, and our forces are weakened."

"We don't know where the Ginzuisho is either," adds Luna as she settles next to Artemis. With a start, I realize that I haven't given it back yet.

"I have it, Mama," I say as I remove it from my locket and hand it to her. She catches my face in her hands and seems to examine me for a moment.

"You have used the Ginzuisho?" She asks. The girls gasp.

"Not intentially," I blush. "I thought I could save the Earth with it, but it reacted when...when things got out of control." I avoid mentioning Endymion's generals in front of the girls, I don't want to hurt them...

"It must have reacted to your desire to protect the one you love," she says. "Remember, your desire to protect your loved ones only makes the Ginzuisho grow stronger." There is a pain in my mother's eyes, as though she had just nearly lost something precious to her.

"Why do you look so sad?" I ask.

"Oh my dear daughter...please do not ever use the Ginzuisho unless you have to. The ultimate sacarfice for such a use...is death." Surprisingly, I don't feel any fear. It is like something in the back of my mind was whispering those words to me, but who?"

(Sad Locket Music Plays). A while later, I try to stay awake, but my exhuastion becomes to much to bear. I dimly feel strong arms carrying me away from the room, and I dimly hear the voices begin to fade as I slip into a dream.

I wake up to white curtains swaying in the breeze...my alarm clock chirps seven o'clock. "You'll be late if you sleep any longer," Mama cries out. I drift off thinking, "just let me sleep three more minutes." I'm late, just like every other day, teacher makes me stand in the hall, I fail another test. On my way home from school I eat crepes with my friends, a party dress decorating a show window catches my eye. Even the little things make me happy. It's that- that ordinary life I want back...I want back.

"Who are you...?" I ask. I know my body is floating in an empty space, but I can see a warrior, with hair like spun gold. She looks bloody, exhuasted. She is dying, but she is not defeated. She wears a sad smile on her face.

"I am the one born from love for all," she whispers. "And I was a soldier...Sailor Moon!"

"You made that wish, didn't you?" I ask. I do not really need to, I know the answer already.

"This was our wish. To protect our home, to protect our loved ones...we sacraficed ourselves."

"Our wish?"

"Yes, the wish that was made before we went to sleep. A long, dreamless sleep. We were reborn together, we loved one another, and protected our important things." Calm flowing through my heart. She is growing fainter, dissapearing...and it is my doing.

"I am sorry..." I say. She smiles, a small laugh escapes her lips.

"We will be born again, to find one another in a new life..." I feel the tears falling down my cheeks in rivers. I will change it! I will!

"Serenity--Serenity!" Yes, someone calling my name. The smell of roses, the brush of velvet, soft lips and strong arms many, many times...

"Endymion?" I open my eyes, bright sunligh streams through the windows. He gazes at me from above. My angel, my true love.

"Do you know what you were dreaming about?" He asks gently.

"No," I lie. "I can't remember."

Even if memories come crashing back down upon me, I won't let them swallow me! If I can just change things, no one will have to die this time! The memory of Sailor Moon-no-myself!...dying, the grace with which I accepted it, and the wish I made for all of us...

"They are marching on the palace!" One of the girl's is saying.

"On the palace!" I jump up and just remember to wrap the silk sheets around my naked body.

"The Queen's orders...she means to see Serenity escourted off the planet before the destruction is complete."

"Destruction?" I stare as the girls all file into the room.

Ami-chan, the tatician, studies me for a moment, and sighs.

"I would have spared you this if I could, Princess. The forces marching against the palace are to great. The outer guardians are no where to be found. Our combined strength is not enough to save the Moon Kingdom."

"What about the Ginzuisho!" I cry out! There are stray thoughts rushing through my head, stray memories of another person's life, another person's memories.

"The strength of the Ginzuisho would kill your mother," Makoto-chan says. "We will not sacrafice our queen, or the princess."

"Maybe you don't have too!" I say as I scramble out of bed. A little red flushes Endymion's cheeks, even though he has seen me before, and he hastily turns away. The girls cock their heads suspiciously, and he mumbles about having to see to something as he rushes from the room.

Ami-chan grabs my arm as I try to rush from the room.

"There is one more thing Princess," she says gently, "A woman named Beryl is commanding the Earth Forces. She claims to serve an even greater force of evil called 'Metalia'.

"I know it," I surprise myself by saying it. Even with these holes in my memory, I can still remember her...the one who destroyed our happiness that time.

Endymion is in the my rose garden. I couldn't carry out my plan without at least this last moment.

"This is the garden where our love was born," I surprise him by sneaking up behind him. He offers me a perfect rose.

"You were the most beautiful creature I had ever seen," he replies. "All the roses in your garden dimmed when compared to your beauty, your grace, your light..." I put a fingertip gently against his lips, and he kisses it tenderly. Just the feel of his skin against mine stops my heart. The love I feel for this man is unexplainable in words. It grows each moment, matures into something beautiful, and powerful.

"I was a little frightened at first," I admit. "You looked so strong, so brave. But when you offered me a rose, I knew your heart was gentle."

"Do you think you can live with that gentleness for the rest of our lives?" He asks.

"What are you saying?" I ask.

"Serenity," he kneels before me, "I have already spoken with your mother, and now I wish to ask you. Will you marry me?" He places a small ring on my finger. He looks nervous, and I comb my fingers through that thick, silky black hair that seems to always fall untidily into his eyes. It is these little things that make me fall more in love with him by the minute, even when it seems I can not hold another ounce more of love without bursting.

"I have been waiting for you to ask--" I begin, but he is already sweeping me off my feet and twirling me around. I loose myself in kissing him. It dosen't matter if I'm Serenity, Usagi, or Sailor Moon...his kisses will always be perfect, and his love with always be tender.

Later on, I go to see my mother in her chambers. Laying my head in her lap for prehaps the last time, I listen while she hums a sweet lullaby from my childhood.

"I love you, Mama," I whisper. She contiunes to stroke my forehead, but I sense that feeling of loss within her again.

"You are my daughter no matter what happens," she says finally. Prehaps she knows the truth about me and comtemplates a change in future events, or prehaps she does it reassure me that she will always love me, either way, it feels good to lay my head in my mother's lap, and listen to her hum sweet lullabies while the sun slowly fades away.

As night falls, clouds begin to darken the sky. The girls and I gather for prehaps the last time.

"He asked you to marry him!" Minako-chan stammers as she stuffs a cake into her mouth.

"Minako, stop eating all the cakes!" Rei-chan complains as she stuffs two, one after the other, into her mouth. Ami-chan tries to caculates the rate at which we will run out of cakes, and when we tease her about it, she laughs right along with us.

"Well, let me design your gown and you won't be lacking in beauty or fashion!" Minako-chan proclaims.

"More like you'll wish you did lack in some fashion," Rei-chan teases.

"I'll design your wedding cake for you!" Makoto-chan offers. "We'll make it fifteen feet tall, with pink and blue frosting!" Everyone's mouths gape a little at her proclamation.

"I've got it!" Ami-chan cries out. "We will run out of cakes in approximitly...now--" She looks at the empty cake platter, and bursts into laughter. In a moment, we join her.

I wish this night could go on forever...but eventually, the cake dishes are taken away, and we fall silent. They leave, one by one, never mentioning that they might not come back...never frowning or crying. Each one, has something special to say to me.

"There's no time to cry Princess," Makoto-chan says. "So please cheer up."

"Today, might be the last day I use these brains to think up tactics," Ami-chan says, "but don't despair, we'll always be together."

"What a crybaby our princess is," Rei-chan says is fondly, "but let's count of getting together like this again neh?"

"Yes, we won't be able to eat cakes, or plan your wedding if we don't make it back," Minako-chan gives her famous thumbs up. Finally, I find Endymion, and we go to my mother's chambers to retrieve the Ginzuisho. She knows what I must do.

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