To Wish Upon a Star
(I don't own any of the characters from sailormoon!)
This story takes place during the seperation of usagi and mamorou during the R season of sailormoon, it takes place in the episode about the promise rings in which usagi tries yet again to get mamorou to "love her". After they meet up on the street corner and mamorou refuses to look at her when she trips and falls, she goes home, and makes a very special wish on a shooting star.
I DON'T own any of the characters in sailormoon, and I'm not responsible for the creation of this wonderful show. ENJOY!
Standing on the balcony, I can see into the distance. A dark cloud is on the horizon, and a hot wind blows from that direction. The sky is dark, and lightning streaks split the sky. The whole moon seems to rumble, and my stomache seems tied in knots. I know I'm not a brave person...I just want everyone to stay together even if it's selfish, but I have to try and change things...I won't let the future unfold like it did back then! Only Endymion's presence, the way he tightly holds my hand, reminds me that I am not alone. I am never alone.
Just like before, she appears before us. Her hatred, her malice, swallows me. I cannot understand how someone can bear so much hatred, how someone can live so alone. I have always had others to go to, friends and a lover that I cherished. I feel pity for the poor creature that Beryl has become.
"Come with me!" She cries out to Endymion. "Together, we can rule the universe! With the Ginzuisho in our possession we can conquer the Moon Kingdom!"
I cannot believe she is asking him such a thing. Her, the woman who killed his family, brought ruin to his kingdom. Yet she boldly proclaims that he will be the King, and she his Queen. Her hatred and malice have blinded her to the truth. Before he can proclaim that he will never serve her, I interupt them by revealing the Ginzuisho. This is the moment when I must change things!
"Beryl! It is this you want, and if you want it, come and claim it!"
She has eyes only for the Ginzuisho, she ignores him now, and comes straight to me.
"Crystal Power!" I shout.
In a moment, the world explodes around me! I feel my body pulled away from this plane, and I float in a void of nothing. Images pass me by, other lives, with other exsistences of me, things I have long forgotton, and memories with tender scar tissue just covering them. Beryl is there with me, but she is surronded by void of blackness. I think the blackness is her malice, her hatred of all the loneliness and fear she possess in her heart that has wrapped her, tightly like a womb.
"Beryl." I say her name, and she opens her eyes.
There is no hatred within those eyes, for this is her true self, what she has forgotton.
"Do not be afraid," I soothe. "Take my hand."
"I cannot," she says.
To her side, and farther away, is the evil presence that traps her here. It lingers, even this far within her mind, and tries continues to wrap her tighter in that black womb.
"Then I will take your hand," I reply.
Reaching through the black is like reaching through oily filth. I feel the surges of dark power trying to swallow me, but the Ginzuisho snuggled between my breasts shines brighter the harder the darkness pushes. Grasping her hand, I pull her through the blackness surronding her. I feel her gasp as the light of the Ginzuisho touches her, healing her through and through.
Tears fall down her cheeks and as float upwards, away from the disentegrating black. The evil presence that was wrapping her tightly, moans in anguish, as it too evaporates.
"Who are you?" Beryl asks as she gazes into my eyes.
"I am the one who was born from love for all...and I was a soldier...Sailor Moon" I say.
"Yes, I know that name from somewhere," she says, rubbing her temples. "You shouldn't be here. Only Serenity is allowed here. Things are...different."
"I changed things. Beryl, show me what did this to you." She nods, and the Ginzuisho's light envelops us.
The Kingdom of the Sun...it shines with a fierce brightness, the most powerfully shining kingdom. And Beryl was born there. She was a member of the royal family, with a lover, and friends to share her life with. She was happy, and she watched the Earth and the Moon from a distance, much as I had watched the Earth.
The people of the sun were decended from a race of gods much like the people of the moon, but as they traversed the galaxy, they were attracted to the light of the sun. Where these gods origionally came from, I do not know...only that they began to watch the Earth jelously. You see, the Earth was green and full of lush plant life, and soft winds. The Sun was a hot, dry place, where it was a struggle to survive. The people of the Sun could not leave, for they had become dependant on the warmth. They would have died had they tried to leave. They began to hate the people of Earth for all their riches, and how they squandered them among petty fights and short lifespans. In their jelousy, they wanted to destroy the Earth.
That is when Metalia was born, she was born of the people's hatred for the Earth. She whispered in their ears, cajoled them to believe violence was the only option, and eventually led them to make contact with the Earth. After she planted the seeds of mistrust among the Earth, all that was left was to destroy the moon, the softly glowing planet that wanted to make peace with the Earth. She whispered into the ears of the people of the Sun that such an alliance would be used against the people of the Sun. Metalia used the seeds of fear and doubt to destroy all who opposed her.
She killed Beryl's family, and when she had weakened Beryl's mental state enough, she reconstructed Beryl's mind and forged a powerful advocate. Metalia's true concerns were never who warred with who, or what was destroyed in this vast universe, she was the entity of evil, her only purpose was to destroy everything she could touch. Metalia would never had been born, if not for the weakness of humanity, the inability to trust one another and believe in love.
When Berly's life flashes before me, I know her sorrow, and her hatred. Her lover, with a knife in his back, courtesy of her own best friends, who had turned against her. Beryl was the last of the royal family to stand up to Metalia. Once Metalia had the Sun's crystal, the name escapes me in it's foregin tounge, she used it to destroy the Sun Kingdom, and the last people who opposed her. She sent Beryl to the Moon palace, to spy, and to sow the seeds of distrust. I can only pity her, for the life that was taken from her. Her own mother, who tried to save her, but only wound up dying from using the Sun Crystal. It is like looking at my life, with all the wrong things happening when they should have gone differently.
When we move away from the Sun Kingdom, Beryl looks sad.
"My body was wasted because of the amount of dark power I held within me for so long. I will not be able to live outside of here." She says.
"You will be reborn," I say. "And you will find the happiness that was denied to you in a new life. I will give you this as a gift."
A small piece of the Ginzuisho breaks off and enters her body. It is no more than a sliver, but she looks as though a bucket of ice water had just been dumped on her head. Only for a moment, and than she is smiling that sad smile, and clutching a tiny light in front of her breasts.
"A new light has just been born," She says. "And it is guiding me home." She floats away from me, with a peaceful look on her face. Now there is just me, and I soon return to my body as well.
Endymion is clutching me tightly, and calling my name when I open my eyes.
"Serenity!" He cries when he notices that I am awake.
I brush a few tears lovingly from his face.
"Beryl will be reborn. She will find happiness this time...I think," I tell him. He only smiles at me.
"Where are Mama and the others?" Suddenly, he looks away from me, avoiding my eyes.
"Where are the others Endymion?" I ask softly, already knowing the answer.
"Your mother died defeating Metalia," Endymion begins. "The girl's...they tried to protect the palace at the four crystal points but..."
"No! Your wrong! I changed things. They are supposed to live!" He looks at me worridly.
"Your mother's dying words were...for you to live, Serenity. To find happiness with the one you love. Your friends also said the same thing."
I shake my head, this cannot be happening! I changed things, I changed things! My head is full of thoughts, but at this moment it is clear to me what I must do. I hold the Ginzuisho before me.
"Serenity! Serenity, what are you doing?" I ignore Endymion's cries.
"We will all be reborn in the future," I tell him. "We might not know each other, and we might be lonely for a while...but we will meet again." His shouts grow dimmer as I say the words.
"Crystal Power..."
The power flowing through my veins lingers, and throbs with memories of both my past and future lives. I watch the those first introductions between the girls and I, and in turn, I watch them as they take oaths above my cradle to protect and serve. I see him for the first time, not just as a person or lover, but as a human being. I can feel his sorrow and confusion in that new life, and yet, I watch as we fall hopelessly in love the first time on the Earth of the past. I promise myself that he won't have to be born alone this time, I will find a way to save him any suffering.
There are painful memories, such as how he was taken from me when it was discovered I was the princess. Oh how I cried when they captured him, and felt the humilation and despair when Rei-chan slapped me into reality.
I remember how he died to save me, and how I made a selfish wish to be reborn in a normal life, never realizing that I was bringing all that pain and suffering back to him once again. You see, I had never realized how lonely he was, before I knew what I did, and so I didn't understand that once he recovered his memories, he'd finally found peace, he finally found someone who made him feel like he wasn't alone anymore.
Then there is the big day, the day when I believed he choose Chibi-Usa over me. I was stupid to believe such a thing, but I was hurting. She was always with him, and he accepted her easily. Truthfully, I never felt like he accepted me like he did her, and so I lashed out at her. She must have been so frightened all the time, never knowing if she could trust anyone, and everyone suspicious of her...I would take her sorrow too if I could.
Memories, flooding my veins, and the power, draining my body. I'm going to die, I already know that, but I'm not afraid. I promised everyone that we would be together in the future, and I will keep that promise. I can see Endymion, how he floats a little ways above me in his protective bubble. He's already deeply asleep. I didn't kiss him goodbye because none of the other girls got to kiss the boys they loved goodbye, and I should deny myself that joy, just like that time...My final wish as I drift off is...Ginzuisho...let us all be reborn in the future. We should all be able to live peacefully together, no pain or sorrow...please Ginzuisho...
Docter: "Mrs. Tsukino, you have a beautiful baby girl."
Woman's Voice: "Oh darling! We have a girl! A beautiful baby girl!"
Man's Voice: "What do you want to name her honey?"
Woman's Voice: "Let's call her...Usagi."
Man's Voice: "Usagi is a beautiful name...for a girl who will grow up to be beautiful and kind..."
Voices fade
Usagi's Stray Thoughts
The man I love...I will meet him on the street corner everyday, and I will not know him. I will feel his presence, and be drawn to him as though it is destiny, even if I don't know anything about myself or others. I will go about my daily life with these thoughts somewhere in the back of my heart, and never think twice about them, because the small things...even the small things, make me happy.
My dearest friends...I will see them in school, and on the street corners, and many other places...and I will not have any idea that I've shared a great destiny with them. I will be drawn to them, if only because of the simple things, like homework, or a delicious looking lunch...and somewhere in the back of my heart, I will know that somehow, in some small way, I have spared them something painful. The small things...even the small things, make me happy.
The ultimate sacrafice was payed, and I did it for them. I believe in this world, and all the people in it. I know that even should we never regain those memories, we will never be far apart, and someday, if I am old and grey and I meet them on a street corner in some other place, I will know them if only because of the love we share. Even these things...make me happy.
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ATTENTION ALL READERS: I CREATED AN ALTERNATE ENDING FEATURED IN THE NEXT CHAPTER. IF YOU ARE SATISFIED WITH THIS ENDING AND DON'T WANT TO SPOIL IT, THEN DON'T READ THE NEXT CHAPTER. BUT IF YOU WERE SADDENED BY THIS ENDING, AND WANT A HAPPIER ENDING TO THE STORY, THEN PLEASE READ THE NEXT CHAPTER.
Well, reviews anyone? This is the last chapter unless you want to read the alternate ending which is slightly happier ;) Please check out my other sailormoon fanfiction called "A Day In the Life of Another." It's not complete yet, but please read and review :) Thank you for your time, your effort, your reviews, and your tips, God Bless!
