Chapter 7: Decent into darkness

Kensuke Cried as his friend was killed, he shouldn't have to die, he saved his life. One of the patrol guards spotted Kensuke, he tried to run but it was too late, Kensuke rose his gun to shoot but found he couldn't pull the trigger he froze, the soldier smirked and rose his own gun.

There was a single gunshot.

The guards Smile disappeared, as the bullet entered the side of his head, another bullet entered his chest and he fell backwards.

Kensuke cowered on the ground clutching himself, he was alive, how was he alive, he should be dead, he failed his friend, he failed Shinji, that bullet should have been for him.

He looked up over to the hill, Hikari was there, looking through the scope of her Sniper rifle, taking out guards and soldier as Shinji and Asuka ran across the base to the exit point.

Kensuke ran up the hill quickly and lay down beside her. She was shaking, Kensuke could see.

"You ok Hikari?" he asked calmly.

"Ask me in a few years", was her only response as she pulled the trigger again sending another solider to his death, another life ended by her hand, the only real comfort she could take from it is that it was necessary.

Shinji and Asuka made there way to the exit point unharmed thanks to Hikari's sniping and Shinji's quick reflexes, Shinji paused for a second taking the Detonator out of Asuka's pocket, pressing the red button one more time to set off the remaining explosives.

Shinji watched for a moment as fire crews rushed from place to place trying to get the fires under control, now was the time to make his escape. They both rushed to the sniper point without stopping telling both Hikari and Kensuke to run which they did without question.

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Oneness

Completeness

Unity

That was everything Shinji felt, so complete, alive, he wasn't alone anymore, wasn't lonely, he felt complete like this was natural, like this was right.

A Voice came to him in his mind; the voice of Rei Ayanami though the voice seemed to carry more confidence and conviction than Rei ever did when she spoke.

"Come to me, my Children" spoke Rei.

"Where am I", Shinji could feel his mind reach out

"You are with me", said the voice.

"Mother". Spoke Shinji.

"Yes", replied the voice. Shinji could feel its warm words wrap around his thoughts like a mother hugging a child.

"You are not my true mother" Shinji spoke.

"I am Mother to all, I am Lilith"

"What have you done"

"I have removed all borders"

"Shinji". The voice of Gendou Ikari came to Shinji

"Father?" Shinji spoke out.

"Yes, look Shinji, Human nature had reached the pinnacle of its evolution, separated by out differences, now we are one, no more nations, no more borders - True Unity"

"But Father..."

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Shinji Jumped awake, this was the fourth dream about instrumentality, Father, Mother, Rei, Misato, they were all gone. It was his fault too weak. Asuka was right all along; he really wasn't anything but a weak little boy.

He glanced at his shoulder Hikari had fallen asleep on it she sighed comfortably in her sleep. Could he really protect her, heck did he even deserve her after he was too weak to protect Touji

Touji

He didn't even know if his friend was alive now, Kensuke had survived

"He who desires death more than anything, shall be granted his wish", The voice of Rei...no Lilith played over in his mind.

After the...accident all Touji wanted to do was die, he could do sports anymore... he was paralysed from the neck down, bed ridden for the rest of his life, Shinji pushed the thoughts of his friend away like he always did, he failed them all. He was supposed to protect the world.

He failed.

Several hours passed and no one came after them, Shinji still sat next to Hikari as she woke briefly, took a swig of water from her Canteen and then nestled back down to rest her head on Shinji's shoulder, falling back asleep, he absently rubbed her hair. Trying to make her feel safe.

Asuka looked at the two of them from across the room as she rested he back against the cold concrete, the blatant show of affection between Shinji and Hikari made her feel sick, it was supposed to be her, that bitch stole him off her. She cocked her gun and went upstairs simply saying she was going on watch.

Kensuke just huddled himself in the corner, a mixture of both fear, remorse, self pity and mourning for his friends death, everyone tried to console the boy but it was something he had to deal with himself.

His own demons had got the better of him, and he had lost his spirit, one of his best friend was dead, he couldn't believe it, those bastards had gunned him down without mercy or quarter.

He started to cry again, he couldn't help it, he told himself men don't cry. He looked over to Shinji as Asuka walked away; he heard the stomping of her combat boots go up the stairs.

Shinji simply nodded said, "Boys don't cry. Men do".

Kensuke sobbed openly into his hands.

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Asuka walked up the stairs. Why was she so angry? Its not like she really wanted Shinji anyway, if she did she would have been nicer to him, all boys are perverts, I don't need him, I don't need Hikari, I don't need boys, I don't need ANYONE!

"You hear me!" she screamed; "I don't need anyone!" she exhaled, as the words spewed forth from her mouth like a vengeful demon of hell

She dropped to her knees; her anger all used up in one spurt, tears rolling from her eyes.

I don't...I don't need anyone...

Authors Notes: Really, REALLY sorry this took so long but I finished the chapter, wasn't happy with it so re-wrote it with more angst for all the main characters. as usual RR Thanks :)

(Also I hate QuickEdit, it kills my Paragraph Seperators)

Next Episode: Everything is falling apart, as Asuka, Shinji, Hikari and Kensuke fall into there own personal hell. Can they escape the downward spiral of self-destruction and break through? - Find out next Episode.