Saddened Past, Loving Future Chapter Five
Kenshin felt Sano's lips against his own and he could do nothing. He felt seduced to Sano's kiss, paralyzed. Yet, the warmth from Sano's lips made Kenshin's heart beat faster. He wanted to pull away but for once in his life, he felt safe. Sano broke the kiss to breathe, looking into Kenshin's eyes. He then blinked and turned away as if he had been possesed.
"Gomen na sai, Kenshin. I didn't mean...," said Sano put was broken off. He could feel tears forming in his eyes. Why was he getting so emotional, Kenshin had not even pulled away from the kiss.
"Sano, may I ask you a question?" asked Kenshin looking at Sano with sad eyes. Sano turned to look at him, surprised to see the sadness in the rurouni's eyes.
"Sure, Kenshin," replied Sano.
"Why do you love me?" The question came in slow, quiet words that went right to Sano's heart. He was surprised because he didn't even know why he loved Kenshin. He looked at the door to Kenshin's room trying to think of an answer.
"I don't know, I honestly don't know. I just do, I just love you, is that reasonable enough," answered Sano.
Kenshin turned away but Sano had stopped him. "If you don't want me to love you Kenshin just tell me and I won't. You seem to be upset by my kiss. The last thing I want to do is to make you sad."
"Iie, you did not make me sad. It's just, there was somethingthat happened a long time ago that made me lock the emotion called love away," said Kenshin.
Sano knew he was going to regret the question that his heart was begging him to ask. He wanted to know what was making Kenshin sad, he wanted to help Kenshin. He looked into Kenshin's eyes before asking, "What happened long ago?"
Kenshin's eyes didn't widen to the question which surprised Sano. Instead he looked as if he knew Sano was going to ask the question. He turned away to look at the floor. "I killed my wife, Tomoe, I killed her."
Sano let the words sink in before he reacted. He killed his wife...how...sad... So that is why he is always looking off into the distance, why he always looks so sad. Kenshin was now crying, there was no need for him to hide the tears anymore. He had been hiding them for a long time, waiting for the right time if it ever came.
That is why he said he was sorry while he was sleeping, he was dreaming of her. Kenshin, why didn't you tell me before so that I could have helped you, been there for you. "Gomen ne, Kenshin," said Sano before he embraced Kenshin. Kenshin did not flinch to the embrace but took it. The rurouni buried his head into Sano's chest and cried deeply; it kinda scared Sano that Kenshin, someone he thought was the strongest man ever would cry.
It kinda shocked Sano what happened next. The rurouni had actually leaned up and kissed him. He didn't know exactly how to react but to kiss back. He hugged Kenshin tighter, wanting to squeeze out the sadness. They both broke the kiss in a gasp for air and looked into each other's eyes. Kenshin looked at Sano with eyes full of desire and need. Sano hugged the rurouni that he now claimed as his and lowered him ontop of the futon.
"Aishiteru, Kenshin," said Sano as he filled Kenshin's neck with kisses.
"Aishitheru," replied Kenshin, knowing that his words had meant the truth.
Author's Notes: Oh how I would have made this a lemon chapter. But I just wasn't in the mood. How sad. v.v REVIEW YOU READERS!
