Rating: PG-13 (going into R)
Pairing: Lex/Clark
Disclaimer: The characters do not belong to me. And all that jazz.
Author's note: Sorry I haven't updated in quite a while. I hope people are still reading this story. Let me know what you think.
"Things are never going to be the same again are they?" Those words echoed in Clark's head as he sat quietly in the dark. Except this darkness was different. This time he was not alone. He could feel his heart beating rapidly in his chest. He closed his eyes and pulled in a deep breath as he felt a soft hand close over his.
A soft panic flashed over his mind and body for a moment. What was he doing? He had never done anything like this. He was out of his mind. But that panic quickly disappeared when he felt the softest lips enclose over his. He was hesitant for a moment but he then found himself kissing back. He pulled back slightly and tried to focus on the face in front of him.
"Lex." he said almost out of breath. "What?" came a mumbled voice as he felt warm kisses on his neck. Lex continued to kiss him softly on the neck and Clark felt his voice rise up again. "Lex." he said louder this time. He swore his voice was shaking.
Lex pulled away and looked him in the eyes. "I don't know if I can do this Lex." Yes. Clark knew his voice was shaking. "What's the matter Clark? Your shaking." He felt two hands on his shoulders. "I can't do this Lex." Clark stood up quickly buttoning his shirt.
He started to walk away. "Clark where are you going?" Clark continued to walk and reached the door handle of Lex's bedroom door. "I'm sorry Lex. I can't do this."
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Lex let his eyes adjust to the dark and he suddenly felt cold. Clark had left. Clark had left him. Slowly he glanced over at the clock. 12 a.m. it blared back at him. He couldn't understand what had just happened. He had been so lost in his own world. He guessed he didn't realize how shaken Clark really was.
After all these months he had finally gotten Clark. Clark had finally told him he loved him. And Lex felt that he truly loved him back. But Clark had ran out. Lex was just as unsure as Clark. He had never done anything like this before either. And only moments before his whole body wanted Clark. Now he sat cold and alone in his bedroom.
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Clark felt the cool night air on his hot skin as he walked down the dark road. His whole body was still trying to recover from Lex's touch. He didn't know why he left. He knew what they had meant to do. He knew it the moment Lex had kissed him in that bedroom. But as he sat on that bed, Lex kissing him, something stirred.
He just became overwhelmed with panic. He was so unsure. All he knew was that he had to get out of there. Clark kept walking absentmindly until he realized he was standing in front of the loft. Maybe he would just sleep here tonight. He needed to clear his mind. He needed to relax.
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The next day Clark found himself sitting in the Talon. He was seriously trying to block out Chloe's ranting and raving. Dear God it was just not what he needed to hear that late in the afternoon. He quickly finished off another cup of coffee and set it next to the other six cups in front of him.
"Somebody is seriously going to be on a caffeine high today." Clark looked at the amused faces in front of him. Chloe laid her hand on his. "Bad night?" Clark almost jumped out of his skin. Obviously it was visible. "Geez Clark. Lay off the coffee."
Clark got up and headed for the bathroom just as Lex entered the Talon. "What was that all about?" Pete mumbled. Chloe just had an amused look on her face. Chloe watched as Lex made his way over to Lana at the counter. He looked just as anxious. There must be something going around. She thought.
"Well I have a paper that's going to be late if I don't get over to the Torch. I can't wait for Clark." Chloe slung her bag over her shoulder and walked out of the Talon. Pete mumbled something incoherently and followed after her.
As Clark left the bathroom he was greeted by an empty table. Nice friends he thought. Clark's brain suddenly shorted out as he saw Lex walking towards him. Clark may have had to jump over a few people to do it but he got out of the Talon before Lex had a chance to open his mouth.
As Clark walked home he thought about this. Was it always going to be like this? He knew he couldn't avoid Lex forever. He didn't want to avoid him. He just didn't know what to do. He avoided his parents for the fiftieth time that day and headed for the loft.
Slowly he plopped down on the couch and let in a deep sigh. When and how had his life become so complicated? The whole alien thing? Sure he had to deal with that everyday. But now he had to deal with being in love. And with a man no less. A man who just happened to be Lex Luthor.
He let out an aggravated sigh and laid down on his back. What the hell am I supposed to do? He thought. The room around him started to grow dark as the sun began to set. His mind was racing and before he knew it he was super speeding out of the barn.
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Lex took in a deep sigh as he wrapped the white towel around his waist. Slowly he sifted through his drawers trying to find something suitable to wear to bed. Finally he settled on a pair of black silk pants and took his time putting them on.
Lex suddenly felt a rush of cold air and heard the door open behind him. As he turned around he saw Clark. His green eyes more green than ever. There was a look on his face that he couldn't quite describe.
"Clark?" he managed to say. Clark moved closer to him and before Lex had time to react he felt Clark's mouth on his. He felt rough hands on his still moist skin. "Clark?" Lex pulled away from the kiss out of breath.
"Are you sure?" he asked. "I love you Lex. Isn't that a good enough answer?" Lex closed his eyes as Clark kissed him again.
