.: To be Love :.

:By:

Mys C

A/N

Yay! Chapter 2 is up…Tell me what you think. Ohk?

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Short Chapter Summary

Sesshoumaru explains why he abducted Kagome, and Kagome gets to see what's wrong with Rin.


Chapter 2…Reasons

She continued to stare in those deep golden eyes. They were so cold, so empty. If she stared in it longer, she might feel empty herself. Like everything about him, his eyes held a secret that wouldn't reveal itself. She continued to stare at him. His long silvery-white hair was flowing around him, as he stood to stare into the setting sun. She followed the direction of his gaze, and was awed instantly.

There weren't any sunsets like this in her time. There were clouds that contrasted against the sun, giving them a light pink and yellow-orange glow. She watched it set completely and turned her gaze back to the large demon, now sitting next to her. His right elbow was resting on his knee. He looked so calm and serene, so at peace with his surrounding. For a second, Kagome didn't want to bother him because for the first time, she saw warmth in his eyes. As if the sunset made it that way.

Feeling the weight of her stare, he turned his gaze to her. Their eyes held for a second, before he stood and walked away from her. He slowly disappeared into the trees. She felt fear instantly wrap around her. She suddenly felt so alone.

She was alone.

She ran after him, she searched for him, screamed his name over and over, but no one answered. All she heard was the echo of her own voice. She didn't want to be alone anymore, she wanted to have someone there, anyone. Kagome failed to find him, she found herself in the middle of the forest surrounded by trees and darkness.

When she felt tears well up in her eye, she tried to stop them from falling, but it was too late. The tears where running down her cheek. Suddenly, he reappeared, in front of her. Half smiling, half crying, she ran to him and buried her face in his chest. Her hands were covering her face and his arms went around her small waist. He stroked her hair trying to stop her from crying.

She was relieved that she wasn't really alone. When she finally calmed down, he released her and he lifted her chin to lock their gazes again. Her face was tear-streaked and her nose a bit red, but still so beautiful. Her lips were in a pout and red. She darted her tongue out to lick her suddenly dried lips. A small growl came from him as his lips slowly landed on hers.

The kiss was slow and gentle. She didn't have time to react to his actions because he quickly pulled away. "I apologize, I should not have acted the way I have." He said with a low and quiet voice. He turned his back and walked away from her.

"Sesshoumaru-sama?" He halted at the sound of pleading in her voice. "Please don't leave me." She walked up to him and looked in his golden eyes. Those eyes made her knees weak.

He started to walk away again and said "I would never leave you, come." She walked beside him, she tried to grab his hand, but there was no hand to grab. There wasn't anyone next to her at all. She felt the familiar feeling of fear, engulfing her, suffocating her. "Sesshoumaru! Please don't leave me, all alone." The last words were more of a whisper. "Sesshoumaru?" She said his name one last time before her tears were spilt. She didn't make effort to control them. She felt betrayed and most of all, she felt so alone.

She still is, and always will be.


Sesshoumaru heard the human moan. She was probably dreaming of his idiotic half-brother. He stood up and stood next to the bed she occupied. His bed. She was in her bizarre white and green clothing. He had never seen anything as indecent as that. Her midnight black hair was spilled around his silky black pillow. Her eyes closed, lips slightly parted, he wondered what she was dreaming of, or who. When she said his name, it answered his questions. He didn't know if she was, but if she said his name that would mean she was.

'Probably a nightmare, if she was dreaming of this Sesshoumaru she is bound to have one.' He almost chuckled, but her soft voice stopped him. "Please don't leave me." She said with a whimper. Sesshoumaru wondered if she was really dreaming, but he would do as she said. He would stay there until she wakes.

The girl was tossing and turning in her sleep. Suddenly he smelled the faint smell of tears. He cringed his delicate nose at the smell, he hated it, with a passion. He looked down at her now tear-streaked face. She was whimpering and making odd noises. The girl was positively having a nightmare.

"Sesshoumaru! Please don't leave me, all alone." The last words were said below a whisper. He didn't know what to do, for the first time in his life, he didn't know what to do. Should he wake her? Should he leave her be? He was just clueless. Odd, he was never caught off guard before. So why now? And why this human? His eyebrows were arched when she said his name one last time; it came out more of a question. Then she stopped whimpering and crying and turned to her side, with her back to him.

The human continued to doze. She was still turning in her sleep. Sesshoumaru took a chair and sat on the side of the bed. He would stay there until she opened her eyes and see him. Sesshoumaru thought what the girls reactions would be once she wakes, and finds herself no longer in his half-brothers care. He would stay, just to see the look in her face once she sees Sesshoumaru sitting next to her. He smiled at the thought.

'Once she wakes, I would explain everything to her. She doesn't know why she was abducted in the first place. She doesn't know what she really has. Explaining this to the human would be very difficult, but she would not refuse. First would come fear, then questioning, then denial, then frustration, then anger, then finally, the feeling of hope slipping away.' He knew all the signs of human emotions. He would be more than prepared for this human's reactions towards the truth.

As he sat and continued to stare at the human, he was thinking of what Inuyasha was going to do about this delicate situation. He would not allow his pathetic half-brother to distract the miko, in any way, emotionally or physically. He would have none of that. There was too much at risk.

He crossed his arms across his chest and waited. It would be a long wait before the miko would wake. This human, named Kagome, was beyond exhaustion, she was deep in fatigue. She needs a long, peaceful rest and it would be a long wait, indeed.


Kagome tried to blink the sun away. It was bringing in unwanted disturbance. She tried to grasp the last ounce of sleepiness and hold it until the sun went away. She didn't want to go to school today, why couldn't mama close her windows.

"Five more minutes, mama."

Was five minutes too much to ask for? "I don't think I look anything like your human mother." The voice made her shot out of bed. She wasn't in her time nor in her pink bed. The last thing she remembered was…

'Falling asleep in his arms…Agh! He kidnapped me; I must be at his…bed. Don't panic, the stupid hentai dog will pay!' She took around her surroundings. The ground was cold because of the shiny marble underneath her feet; it was a shiny black with pretty white swirls on it. It was so shiny; she could swear one could see one's reflection if one would look close enough. There were two large windows facing the large bed behind her, and a large door in between the windows that lead to an enclosed balcony. The windows were draped with silky black curtains, which were currently pulled up to let the sun's fingers slip in.

She looked behind her, it was a bed, a very very large bed. The headboard was dark wood with carefully defined images and patterns. It was, just like the rest of the large room, covered with black silk. She didn't expect anything less for the great Western Lord. The pillows were covered with them as well. She looked everywhere around the room except for the thing sitting on the side of the bed, with his arms crossed against his chest. His wide muscular chest…She stopped before her thoughts got out of control.

"Oh my God."

"No, that isn't me either. Care to try again?" He said in a sarcastic voice. Kagome never knew the demon lord could make enough room for humor.

"What the hell am I doing here!"

"You never questioned or protested when I carried you in my arms and let you rest. Why so?"

"Because then I didn't have energy to argue, but now I think I'm fully charged. Why don't you start by telling me why you 'held me in your and let me sleep'?" Using his words against him wasn't a really smart idea.

"I held you in my arms and let you sleep because you needed rest."

"I never knew the great Western Lord gave a shit about anyone. Oh, I'm touched." To emphasize, she put her hands to her heart. She said in her sarcastic voice and she instantly regretted it.

With an inhuman speed, he had her against the wall, with his hand around her throat. His eyes were icy cold. A deadly growl escaped his throat, and she was immediately frightened. She was chocking, gasping for air.

"You will not make fun of this Sesshoumaru when you are in my home. Seize you talking and listen to every word I will say and I do not want to hear anything from you before I finish. When I release you, all you will do is listen. Understood?" His voice was calm and there was a smirk in his face when she nodded.

He slowly took his hand away from his throat. She coughed and heaved for air, but she was silent nonetheless. Kagome didn't dare protest, not now when there was a powerful dog demon threatening her.

"I took you for one reason, and that is your services," 'Abducted was more I like it' but she didn't dare speak her thoughts. "I need you to heal my keep. She has been abducted by Naraku, weeks before he disappeared. When he was in hiding I took that opportunity to attain her. The moment I saw her, I knew she was…changed. She has been acting very different. She was always joyous and active, now she is solemn and quiet. He's done something with her and I want that to know what, but I do know it has something to do with the useless shard he embedded in her back. He left her with a disgusting scar on her back. Now I need you to find out what's wrong with her, and fix her. Do I make myself clear? I would not allow her to die, because she is…" There was discomfort he was feeling in telling her this. "…important."

She didn't know if she could talk now, but she wouldn't take that risk. "Well? Can you not heal her? Answer." His eyes narrowed to slits when he saw her fidgeting.

"Umm, you see. I don't have healing abilities all I can do is purify arrows and umm yea. I can't heal her." He merely arched an eyebrow at her strange answer.

"You are a miko. Are you not?" She slowly nodded.

"You can purify. Can you not?" Once again she nodded.

"You are the descent of the priestess Kikyo. Are you not?" This time she didn't know what to do, but anger built up quickly at the sound of her name. She was the reason Inuyasha would never love her, the reason why the jewel shard embedded itself in her. The reason why she was here, for the stupid jewel shard. "No I'm not a descent of her. I'm just her…reincarnation. Kikyo's more powerful and much more experienced. You should have taken her instead of me."

"I would not allow some dead priestess to touch my keep. She was specific to ask for you. She says you could heal her. She says you are the only one who could." There was slight desperation in his voice, but she didn't want to acknowledge it.

"I don't know what she told you, but I can't heal her. If I can't do it, surely Kikyo can. Now bring me back to Inuyasha. I'm sorry, I can't help you. I don't have those abilities. If I did I wouldn't say no."

"Are you implying that my keep is lying? How dare you accuse her. I would not bring you back to Inuyasha until you have healed her."

"What? You can't do this! You can't keep me here."

"Watch me." A smirk grazed his mouth before he turned towards the door.

He paused when his hands were resting on the door handle. "I will return later and bring you to her, food will be sent up shortly. Don't try to escape miko; it will only make things much complicated. You will be returned to Inuyasha whence you finish your deed."

With those last words he walked out of the room and the door closed with a silent thud, followed by a series of clicking. 'Probably the locks.' She couldn't believe it. She was being held captive by an arrogant demon lord, expecting her to heal 'his keep'. Whoever she is, she must be hella important for him to go to such lengths to heal her.

If Naraku was behind this, it could only mean trouble. It must have something to do with his disappearance. She had to be careful; there certainly wasn't any room for anger or frustration. Clearing her mind would be the best thing to do right now. At these times she wished Miroku was here, he was almost the smart one, the strategic one. Always thinking of strategies and best ways to approach things. She let out a frustrated sigh.

She wished she was back with her friends, where she felt safe and secure. She wished she was back with Inuyasha, where she felt the safest. He was probably on his way here right now, trying to climb through Sesshoumaru's gates to get to her. She half expected him to be climbing up that balcony right now. She could almost hear him say, "Hop on wench." Or "Feh, stupid wench." Those things comforted her, but then reality set it. He wouldn't come for her today.

She was immobile for a full five minutes, when she worried. 'What if he isn't planning to get me at all? What if he found Kikyo and asked her to look for the shards for him? What if he never wanted a loud, talkative, annoying, and emotionally unstable girl traveling with him all the time? What if he prefers a quiet, powerful and matured dead woman travel with him instead?' She stopped herself before her thoughts saddened her and made her lose the little hope she had left. It was just paranoia

Kagome walked out to the balcony she rest her hands on the marble rail. She let the wind brush her hair while she thought about what Naraku was planning, unaware how much she affected the youkai still outside the room with his back against the door.

Sesshoumaru never encountered a more stubborn human than her. She denied the fact that she could heal, just as he expected. Rin needed to be healed fast. Since the day he rescued her from Naraku she hasn't spoken much. Sometimes a simple 'Yes Sesshoumaru-sama' or 'Thank you Sesshoumaru-sama' was the best he could hear from her.

Jakken didn't seem to be any help for him. He didn't expect the human girl to survive Naraku, but Sesshoumaru knows that he did something to the girl to change her this way. Why would Naraku deliberately try to rid of the shards inside of the girl? 'Naraku, you coward, hiding behind a defenseless human girl. Hope that our paths never cross again, for if they do only one will come out with the memory.'

Sesshoumaru still remembers the day he came to Naraku's abandoned fortress. He could just feel that Rin was there. Naraku let his barrier down, or it just disappeared because there wasn't a barrier at all, because there was nothing to hide. There was no half demon waiting for him, no miasma surrounded the area, no Kagura nor Kanna, just an unconscious human child on the floor, left to starve, maybe to death. Sesshoumaru could never forget the way the child's eyes looked when she woke.

.: Flashback :.

He landed on the ground with a soft thump. He expected the area filled with miasma or being greeted by the wind demon, Kagura, but there was no miasma, no Kagura, just a fortress, an empty one. There was a faint smell of miasma. He could smell Naraku, but it smelt like it was weeks old. Everything smelled old and musty. He cringed his nose as the disgusting smell threatened him with unconsciousness.

Besides the rotting smell, he could smell something familiar. The musty smell was hiding the scent of the familiar. He tried to follow it, the smell took him to a small door, he slowly pulled it open and the sight instantly made his blood boil with anger.

There, on the corner was a small figure, facing down. Her short dark hair was a tousled over her head. Her face was hidden under her hair. Her orange and white kimono was tattered and there were tears and grime everywhere. He could smell blood, but he could feel that the girl was still breathing.

She was alive, thank Kami. He slowly approached the girl, he had to bow his head seeing as the room was small. For a second he didn't want to touch her, not because she was covered with dirt and grime, it was the thought that he might hurt her with the slightest touch.

Slowly, he pushed his fears aside and took the young human girl in his arms. There was dry blood at the side of her head. Her lips were bruised and she had one swollen eye. Both eyes were closed and her bangs stuck to her face because of perspiration. He brushed the hair away from her face and her eyes slowly opened.

Then there was a sight that Sesshoumaru would never forget. Her eyes were blank, just staring into oblivion. They were doe brown and lifeless. She wasn't blinking. Sesshoumaru continued to stare at her wondering where the sparkle in her eyes went. For a moment he thought he was staring into nothingness because of the look in her eyes.

"Rin? Is there something the matter?" He tried to speak above a whisper, but the still blank expression was stopping him.

"Kagome…She can heal…I need Kagome, please Sesshoumaru-sama…" Before tears started to fall she said her name one last time trying to grab on to Sesshoumaru even tighter.

"As you wish." And he walked out of the fortress, vowing he will kill Naraku for his pitiless act. He would rip him apart with his bare claws. He could sense the human's fear and sadness, not for him, but for the past events that took place when Naraku was still around. He could sense her hunger, maybe she wasn't fed properly. Suddenly he felt a powerful tug within the girls being.

The same powerful tug he feels when…

Shikon no Tama is near. 'I can feel it. It's in her.'

"Please don't let him take me Sesshoumaru-sama, please." Tears still ran down her cheeks as she tried to bury her small face in his chest. Then he did something he never did, to anyone. Wouldn't do to anyone else.

He cradled her in his arms, the same way Inuyasha's mother once had. That was his first and last experience with love. He cradled the girl until she cried herself to sleep. And when Sesshoumaru was sure that she was sleeping, he silently whispered in her ear, "I won't let him take you, ever."

.: End Flashback :.

The girl specifically asked for, Kagome. She needs to be healed and fast. There was more behind this, than a simple jewel shard.


The first knock she answered, she was greeted by a chambermaid. She was a young youkai dressed in a simple white kimono. The youkai brought her food in a silver platter. When she looked at it, she wasn't surprised to see meat and lots of it. repared in every way she thought possible. Fried, sautéed, in broth, and many other ways she didn't care to remember, for the rumbling in her stomach ordered her to eat. Until now, she didn't notice how hungry she'd been. Traveling with Inuyasha really took a lot out of here. 'No! Stop thinking about him. It'll only make things harder. Focus on FOOD, Kagome. Just FOOD.'

As soon as the chambermaid left, she hurried over to the table where all the food was. She tried to stuff her mouth with everything on the silver platter. And when she finished she gave a healthy burp and drank the elegant sake that was served. Sesshoumaru knew how to treat his guest, abducted or not. She tried to lick her fingers clean, but fortunately before she could make an ass out of herself, the second knock sounded.

This time it wasn't a chambermaid bringing more food; it was the Western Lord and all his beautiful masculinity. He took one look at the silver platter, with empty plates, that looked like they were licked clean and he took another look at the innocent looking human with grease and sauce all over her full pink lips. He diverted his gaze to her clothing and that didn't seem to help, as her chest heaved up and down. So hypnotic and just now he noticed, he's been far too long without a mate. 'Focus on Rin.' And after that the human and her diversions were forgotten.

"Clean yourself before we visit her. I want you to look presentable and…descent." Eyeing her clothes, he slowly shook his head. Then he snapped his fingers and there appeared the same chambermaid bringing in a beautiful blue and white kimono with intricate patterns. "Change into something more descent, she will help you dress."

She was assisted to be washed and changed without complain. Kagome wished that she got more of this while traveling with Inuyasha. When she got out in the hallway, she saw Sesshoumaru standing near the door ready to lead her to 'his keep', whoever she is.

She tried to follow his elegant strides, which made him look like his feet were barely touching the marble floor. They walked through the long hallway, passing numerous windows, overlooking a beautiful garden below. Then they took a right, away from the window and towards a hallway filled with doors. They stopped in front of a double door. When he opened the door she took in the pink walls and the hard wood floor and in the corner was a small bed, big enough for a child. And there was one. She was sitting on the side of her bed just staring into the wall across her.

"She's been in this state since her abduction. She only speaks to me and she won't leave this room for anything." His voice had a sad tone in it and Kagome almost thought he was feeling compassion and pity for the girl.

…The girl, this was his keep? Kagome's seen her before. She was the young human girl that travels with him. The same human who took care of Sesshoumaru's wounds when he was heavily injured. And Sesshoumaru gave the girl her life back. What was her name. 'Rin. That was it.' She bent down in front of the girl, so that their eyes met.

'Her eyes, they're so…Blank, so empty.' Kagome thought of Kohaku. He had the same eyes when he was under Naraku's spell. She felt a jewel shard and knew it came from the girl. She's been embedded with one, just like Kohaku. And Kohaku needed one to… 'Stay alive…Is Rin…dead?' She couldn't be, there was only one way to find out.

"Rin?"

"Yes?" She continued to stare behind Kagome where the spot on the wall was.

"Are you alright? What happened to you?"

She blinked and suddenly warmth flooded her eyes. Rin stopped staring at the empty spot behind Kagome and looked her in the eye. Her voice was so flat, so emotionless when she said, "I'll show you." She touched Kagome's shoulder and suddenly both were on the floor, very much unconscious. Sesshoumaru didn't see it coming. First Rin's eyes changed expressions for the first time, then she talks to the miko, and they're suddenly unconscious.

Before darkness completely clouded her vision, Kagome saw Sesshoumaru rush to both their sides, to break their fall.

Suddenly visions and images came rushing through her head and then darkness was all she saw. She couldn't feel anything. She didn't feel it, when Sesshoumaru laid her and the girl on the bed. She didn't hear it when Sesshoumaru called for Jakken. And she certainly didn't see the look in his eye when he calmly stroked the human girl's hair. Then the visions came back, whizzing in her head. Horrible images, of Naraku and Rin. With blood and a young girl's voice, she was screaming and then Kagome heard that sinister voice, he was laughing and he said, "Got you." The images kept coming. Blood was pounding in her ears, blinding her with pain.

Then darkness once again.


A/N:

Ohk that was a bad chapter. Things aren't clear enough. TOO MANY THOUGHTS! Anyways in the next chapter everything gets a little clearer. Like what the visions where, what the jewel shard was doing in Rin's back. And then we could take a look at Inuyasha and the rest of the crew.

Thanks soo much for the reviews…I really appreciate it!

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Sesshoumaru's last thought:

'Weak humans.'


:Disclaimer:

The characters of Inuyasha do not belong to me. I claim no rights to any, those rights rightfully belong to Rumiko Takahashi. This is a mere fan fiction to show my passion for the anime/manga series created by the talented Rumiko Takahashi.

Mys C -