.: To be Loved :.

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Mys C

A/N

Awww. Thanks to all the reviewers! You just made my week. I only update this story every week or maybe twice a week if there isn't much school work. Ohk, for this chapter I think there'll be more explanations. Hopefully it doesn't turn into a bore. I never thought this story would go this far. I thought that this story ends at the last chapter. I'm so happy that you people are interested. Sorry it took so long, it's final exams week.As for the typo's, sorry, I'm only human. :)

Disclaimer

I don't own shi-crap…

Short Chapter Summary

Rules need to be set. What does Kagome do when Sesshoumaru takes things a little too far?


Chapter 4…Pleasures of the Flesh

Her shoulder was on fire. The burning was getting more intense with each breath she took. Rin was confused, as she lay there, she thought about the delicate situation slowly folding in front of her. 'Lady Kagome said that she would help Rin, but she made the pain worse. Sesshoumaru-sama said he would help Rin, but he did not come in time to stop the beatings. They lied, they lied to Rin.' The burning did not ease, each time she would think about either of them it increased, tenfold. But the images never came and for that, Rin was thankful.

If not for that horrible night, everything would not be the way it is. She remembered and that was what terrified her. Rin wanted to forget about everything, but the memory would not pass. Every time she pushed it away it would push back, swiftly reminding her of the evil man. This time, the memory came as swift and as harsh as before.

Rin remembered, it was just like an ordinary night. The stars twinkled bright, the crickets in the grass sang, and there was a cool breeze around. She was starving and remembered what Sesshoumaru-sama always said, "You must fend for yourself." So she did as he said. Rin looked for a village where there was a small field. Before she could even pluck something from the ground she was heaved on to a feathery thing and being led away from the small vegetable patch.

Fear quickly wrapped around her like a thick blanket. Suffocating, frightening. She dared look at the lady next to her. Rin did not notice her until she turned. The lady was pale. Her bangs danced with the wind and her kimono ruffled as the wind grew more brutal around them. Suddenly it hit her, Rin knew this woman. Sesshoumaru-sama often fought with this woman. Was she even human?

"Where are you taking me?" Rin promised herself she would not cry, she would not lose what little strength she had left. She couldn't, not now. Sesshoumaru-sama always said, "Fear is naught but an obstacle, a diversion, you need to see through it and think." And that is exactly what Rin was going to do, think.

"Silence, I'm only doing as I'm told." The woman's voice was a bit shaky as if she was afraid of something. Rin didn't want to find out what that something was.

"Sesshoumaru-sama will come for me, and when he does, hope that he takes pity on you."

With a smirk on her face, Kagura smiled at the child's innocence. She did not seem to know that Sesshoumaru does not have mercy and even if he had, there would be no one to show it to. Because once he finds the child, Naraku is long gone. What Kagura didn't understand, was why this task? What is he to gain with fooling with the Lord of the Western Lands? Obviously there was more to this than simply fooling with Sesshoumaru. For the rest of the trip, the child was awfully quite, Kagura wanted the child kicking and screaming so that she could have a reason to hit her.

But Naraku said there would be no bodily harm done to the girl unless he inflicts it.

When they arrived in Naraku's fortress the girl started to show signs of fear. She was perspiring, she fidgeted, and everything about her screamed paranoid. Kagura's lips curved when the child started shivering.

Naraku was standing proud near the large doors. An evil smirk on his face served as his trademark.

Rin was instantly frightened at the sight of him. There was something about the man that made her spine shiver involuntarily. Suddenly things were happening too fast. One minute she was being dragged by the elbow towards a small room. The next thing she knew her shoulder burned and something inside her was building. Rin didn't even remember when her kimono was being slipped off to expose one soft shoulder.

She certainly didn't remember it when Naraku laughed and plunged in the shikon shard into her shoulder. Rin, however, remembered the pain and the loud shriek she gave when the shard completely disappeared in her shoulder. After that, she fainted falling lifelessly to the floor. Naraku accomplished all that, without saying a word or breaking a sweat.

Rin didn't want to get up, the memory of fainting and having no one there to break the fall was too much. Sometimes, when she was alone in that small room Naraku put her in, she wondered if Sesshoumaru-sama was ever going to save her.

On that day Sesshoumaru came for her, Rin wanted to run in his arms and weep until she cries herself to sleep, but she couldn't. She had no control what so ever. No control over her body nor her voice.

'Kagome…She can heal…I need Kagome, please Sesshoumaru-sama…'

Her own voice echoed in her head, was that even hers? Rin didn't even know Lady Kagome could heal her. Rin was trapped inside herself, having little or barely any control over her own actions. Something inside her made herself weak, making her unable to take control.

'Please don't let him take me Sesshoumaru-sama, please…'

She never wanted to say that, but she felt it, deep down she wanted to be the weak, cowardice girl she really was. Whatever was controlling her, it had full control and there didn't seem to be a way to stop it.


As Inuyasha neared Sesshoumaru's estate, he sensed a barrier. With a slice from the Tetsusaiga, he broke through it easy. New scents flashed through him quickly as the barrier disappeared. He wasn't surprised to smell Kagome's scent, but he was thankful that there wasn't any scent of her blood.

Before he could even bolt through the large doors, they were immediately opened. Yet again, he wasn't surprised to find Sesshoumaru, staring down at him. If looks could kill, Inuyasha washalf past dead.

"Where's Kagome?" Inuyasha's voice was fierce and demanding, but Sesshoumaru wasn't intimidated easily.

"She's is sleeping, rather comfortably, in my chamber not to mention." Sesshoumaru grinned when Inuyasha lunged at him with the Tetsusaiga. His idiotic half brother was too blinded by the anger to even notice that this Sesshoumaru was grinning.

Inuyasha swung the Tetsusaiga, over and over, only to have Sesshoumaru duck and dodge each and everyone. Sesshoumaru finally got tired of it and punched the side of Inuyasha's head, sending him sprawling on the ground.

"I didn't touch her, if that's what you're worried about." Sesshoumaru's calm voice only pushed Inuyasha off the edge if anything else.

"I want her back."

"As of right now, you can't have her. I still need her services, for a matter of business that is not yours to know."

"Cut the stupid shit. Now where is she!"

"I've already told you where she is."

Inuyasha tried to run past Sesshoumaru, but obviously he was faster. Sesshoumaru grabbed Inuyasha by the neck and ran him against a wall.

"I do not like to repeat myself Inuyasha, you cannot take her. She needs to finish her task for this Sesshoumaru before she returns, she will be," Sesshoumaru's grip tightened, "unharmed, I assure you."

"I want to see it for myself." He wheezed the words out, as Sesshoumaru's grip tightened more.

"You are lucky to be alive for this long Inuyasha. You cannot see her. You will only distract her from her task. That is not accepted. Now be off with you." He released Inuyasha's neck and stared down at his half-brother's pitiful figure.

"Leave."

Inuyasha looked up at Sesshoumaru's tall figure above him. His face remained emotionless, perfect, and every bit capable of hurting his Kagome, he would never risk Kagome for Sesshoumaru's words. Inuyasha needed to see if Kagome was alright, and unless she bids him to go, he will not.

Inuyasha raised the Tetsusaiga quick enough for Sesshoumaru to loose his composure. That was all he needed, just a second of distraction and he was off. He followed Kagome's scent and hoped the second distraction was enough.


Kagome was woken by a familiar surge of power. It was the same familiar power she feels when…

'Inuyasha…'

It was the same power she feels every time Inuyasha would break a barrier using the Tetsusaiga. It felt like an electric surge, as adrenaline pumps through her blood. Inuyasha has come to save her. With that final thought she bolted out the door and hoped Sesshoumaru doesn't know he was here.


Inuyasha didn't even make it up the grand staircase when he smelled Sesshoumaru's poisonous claws right behind him and tried to dodged it.

"You dare defy my command. Pathetic weakling." His eyes held only a hint of red, Inuyasha was relieved he wasn't completely angered. He didn't dodge quite fast enough. Sesshoumaru's claws painfully punctured his shoulder sending him sliding through the marbled floor, splattering blood all over the clean floor.

Kagome didn't miss a beat. She screamed his name when he hit the floor. Kagome wanted to run to his side and tend to his wounds, but Sesshoumaru's arm around her stopped her from getting to Inuyasha. The next thing she knew, Sesshoumaru's hot breath was near her ear, it started an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of her belly.

"Let me go." Kagome squirmed under him.

"No. Tell him to leave or else he will never leave my fortress alive." His hot breath sent unwanted shivers throughout her body. Sesshoumaru felt each shiver and smirked at the thought that he made the human uncomfortable.

"Ka-go-me. Don't listen to him." Inuyasha's voice was fierce and angry at the sight of his brother holding her in such a way. The scent of poison and burning flesh made him light headed.

Kagome stopped squirming. Her bangs fell, shielding her eyes. She didn't want them to see the tears that brimmed her eyes, threatening to fall. They would both think she was weak and emotionally unstable.

"It's ok Inuyasha, please leave." Her voice barely made it above a whisper, but she was heard. Inuyasha wanted to argue, he wanted Kagome back, with him, where she was safer. If she could only see the confusion that clouded Inuyasha's golden eyes, the tears would have already fallen. Inuyasha was struggling inside, pride wanted to fight more, to win her back, but he knew he couldn't argue with Kagome now. The situation was too delicate.

"If that's what you truly want." He got up, ignoring the pain on his shoulder and the ache in his heart and started walking away.

He didn't bother to look back when Sesshoumaru snickered, nor when he smelled Kagome's tears falling silently, nor when he said, "Just remember this Sesshoumaru, I will come back for her and when I do, I will take her back whether you like it or not."

Sesshoumaru did not like his brother's confidence. He was about to let the miko go and pierce Inuyasha's back with his claws and inflict more damage, but the miko's hold on his arms were restricting him. Sesshoumaru could have easily separated the human from him, but the thought behind her actions confused him.

"Please Sesshoumaru, just let him go." Her voice was only loud enough for only Sesshoumaru to hear. She felt his muscles tense up and relax again, when Inuyasha was out of sight.

Sesshoumaru's grip did not loosen, so Kagome was still in his arms, trying with all her might not to squirm under him. She stopped thinking all together when his hot breath came in contact with her ear.

"Why do you care for the pathetic hanyou? Why do you still care when he prefers the dead miko over you? Tell me, why?" His voice was soft and low. He wanted a better view of the miko's feelings. He wanted to know how she can find happiness in a fool such as Inuyasha. Why does she persist?

"No. I don't want to talk about him right now. Let me go."

She looked up at him, finding his golden orbs cold as it's always been. Kagome's eyes were pleading, her brows were knitted, and tears still brimmed her eyes. She hoped she looked intimidating.

"Answer my question and I will let you go."

"I care for him because he cares back. It doesn't matter if he prefers Kikyo, he can live his life and love who he wants." Kagome winced at the truth in her own words.

Sesshoumaru was impressed by the boldness in her words. A promise was a promise; he let her go and regretted the unwanted feeling of lost warmth. He walked away without looking back. He didn't like the new emotions that surround him when she is around. Maybe it would be better if she went back to Inuyasha. And then he thought of Rin, and immediately changed his mind. Rin needed both hers and his help, now more than ever.

He entered his room not caring if the human slept outside.


Kagome was both happy and sad. The feelings clashed deep in the pit of her heart. It hurt and confused her.

Happy because Sesshoumaru let her go and walked away, giving her, her space back. And sad because Inuyasha just left her, actually left her, here of all places. She thought Inuyasha would fight for her, to win her back, but he didn't. Why did she have to ask him to go? And why did he go so willingly. The Inuyasha she knew would never back down from a fight.

The Inuyasha she knew would never have given up so fast. It was odd watching him, he let his guard down, and turned his back, he could have been attacked from the back. He was so vulnerable and he didn't care. It was like the Inuyasha she knew disappeared.

But when he said those words…

'I will come back for her and when I do, I will take her back whether you like it or not.'

All her doubts disappeared. Her Inuyasha would come back and he would rescue her from this…prison. The more Kagome thought of it, it didn't exactly lookor feel like she was in prison. It was…very comfortable. That's what it was. She hated to admit it; the time she spent here wasn't what she expected. She had a comfortable bed, delicious food, proper hospitality. But she missed her friends, their late night talks, arguments, the warm fire, and she couldn't believe she missed the rocky ground she slept on with only a thin sleeping bag in between, but she did. She missed all those little things. The fights with Inuyasha made their relationship stronger, in an odd way.

The hurt that was building in her bosom was too much. If she thought about Inuyasha and her friends, she might not be able to survive another day with Sesshoumaru as a companion. Most of the time it felt like he wasn't there and when you know he's there he wouldn't acknowledge the fact that you're there too. The demon brothers were both complicating.

Now she had to worry about where she was going to sleep. She remembered waking up in a bed. She also remembered lying on the floor next to bed before she slept. She did the math, sleep + floor bed, the formula was stupid to begin with. First of all, a person does not sleep on the floor to wake up on a bed, second of all, even if a person who slept on the floor woke up on a bed, that person could not have gotten there by her self, this meaning someone put her on that bed.

The wicked truth slapped her in the face. Sesshoumaru had felt pity for her and offered her warmth. Sesshoumaru actually feels pity? This fact, Kagome did not know, and was better off not knowing. Noticing that she was standing there with her thoughts jumbled up in herhead, Kagome decided to settle in the room next to Sesshoumaru's.

The room was a lot smaller than his room, but it was so elegant and had more decorations and fancy colors than Sesshoumaru's. The room had a hint of must, hinting that it hasn't been used in ages. Unlike Sesshoumaru's bedchamber, it had a feminine feel to it.

She dusted the covers and instantly went to sleep.

Sesshoumaru heard a door creak open and slowly thumped shut. He tried to ignore the ice and cherry blossom scent that filled the next room.

'Damn that human. She and her intoxicating scent can go to the depths of seven hells for all I care.'

He didn't want her to wander around his estate like some scavenging human. Sesshoumaru needed to set the laws, he did it with Rin, and so it wouldn't be hard to lay the laws to her.

The confrontation with his brother didn't even excite him as it used to. The need to damage, injure and wound his brother's pride seemed to bore him. Sending his brother sliding on the marbled floor lost its appeal. The thought of killing him seemed to lose its touch.

There was something wrong with the Lord of the Western Lands and he wasn't going to admit it. Since the miko's abduction everything seemed to go downhill. Rin still had not returned to normal, he's been feeling a sexual attraction to the miko, and he lost the passion to kill his brother. Every inch of his mind screamed Naraku was deep behind these pitiful events.

Sesshoumaru was never wrong. And he hoped the miko would see to Rin fast, before he does something he will seriously regret.


"Rules?"

"Yes miko, there are rules when you are at my estate."

"What kind of rules?"

"Many and I will not repeat myself, understood?"

"Yes."

The moment Sesshoumaru entered the miko's bedchamber. He knew this would not be as simple as it had been with Rin. It was bad enough that the miko's clothing barely covered her body when she was awake, but this was too much. The covers were tangled in between her legs that weren't fully covered by her indecent skirt. Her palms were being used as a pillow, seeing as to her pillow was on the floor. Her black hair was tousled and a button on her blouse was open, exposing the curve of her breast leaving the rest hidden in an odd material.

"You will address me with honor."

"What do you mean?" She knitted her brows to her confusion.

"You will address me by Lord Sesshoumaru."

"Oh, so that's what you meant by honor. Can I call you Sesshoumaru-sama?"

He nodded because he didn't know how to answer this verbally.

"You will dress properly," He eyed her clothing and she examined herself and he continued, "I will not allow you to dress so indecently around Rin."

"But I didn't bring anything with me."

"It will be provided." His voice remained toneless and flat, it spooked Kagome how someone could stay like this. Emotionless. Nothing but an empty shell.

"You cannot wonder the estate at night, you will dress properly when it is time to eat. You will not reject any food given to you, you should be happy if you are fed and given a home." Not when you're forced to do all this. Kagome thought Sesshoumaru was reading her mind, his eyes were fierce and he had a scowl glued to his face.

"If you ever attempt to escape you will be punished and do not think just because you are my half-brother's wench does not make me less cruel, that increases the punishment tenfold." She gulped and was instantly pissed when he sensed her discomfort, but she didn't want to say anything.

"You will see to Rin twice a day, at sunrise and before sunset. Starting on the morrow."

"What do you expect me to do with her?"

"Do what you are here for."

"And that is?" She didn't know where this conversation was going. Didn't she already heal Rin or helped her at least?

"You will bring her joy back and return her to normal."

"That isn't exactly easy. Human emotions aren't easy to control or return, it takes time and healing, mostly time."

"That is your burden, not mine. I do not deal with emotions, human or not."

Kagome was disturbed by this. Even Sesshoumaru could feel emotions, everything had them, demon or human, animals, insects, plants, everything. It's either they feel emotions or connected to one. Sesshoumaru has at least one and she knew which ones he knows. Anger, pain, agony, and abuse. Kagome couldn't believe that this demon has never felt the great emotions, like love, happiness, bliss, joy, contentment, fulfillment and all those other feelings that makes humans, well, humans.

"Are you listening?"

Kagome didn't notice that she's been drifting again. She nodded once. "Are there any more rules?"

"Listen and pay attention, I will not repeat myself."

And that's how she spent her morning, listening to Sesshoumaru, she watched as he barely moves his lips, but his voice was strong and demanding. Sometimes he sounded bored and almost miserable being here, doing this, with her.

Sesshoumaru noticed her eyeing his lips. He felt uncomfortable being observed intimately by a human. "Are you listening?"

"Huh? Oh, um yeah. I'm listening." She tried to look anywhere, but his lips. It was either looking into his cold eyes, which wasn't going to happen. So she decided to travel north, a little too far north… She was looking at his...at his nether regions, which made her give herself a mental slap.

'Of all things to look at! That! That Kagome, that's what you decide to look at.'

She felt herself instantly redden. She tilted her head, eyed the ceiling, and prayed to Kami, Sesshoumaru didn't notice anything.

Her prayer wasn't enough. Sesshoumaru noticed every single action she made right after she eyed his lips. He noticed the slight increase in her heart beat, it made a hypnotically calming sound in his head. Then she tried to look elsewhere and looked him in his eyes. His face was remained expressionless, but inside he couldn't help feeling the warmth spreading throughout his body.

Kami, he missed that. Her heated glaze traveled down his body to his nether area. And heat instantly pooled there. His body betrayed him, for the first time, Sesshoumaru had no control. He saw the way she blushed instantly and looked up at the ceiling. She fidgeted with her hands, she suddenly liked her dry lips and control's thin line snapped.

Sesshoumaru grabbed her before she could look down. He held her head in place and rammed her to the wall. Not hard enough to hurt her, but it wasn't gentle either. He liked the loud beat her heart made, the raspy breathing, and the tingling sensation of fear, engulfing her, eating her slowly.

"When I talk, you listen." He pushed her higher on the wall, so his lips brushed her neck. He held her by her small waists, her legs straddled him. She wiggled in his hold, brushing herself over his growing length. While Sesshoumaru was in his own personal torture, she was completely oblivious that she was causing this.

"Stop." Was that her voice? It sounded husky and out of breath. She put her hands on his lean shoulders and pushed. It wasn't hard enough, he didn't even bulge. Why was he doing this? The better question was: Why was she letting him do this to her?

He didn't seem to hear her voice, he was too busy stuck in his own little world. For that moment that felt like eternity they stared at each other.She looked down at him with her doe brown eyes andhe looked up at her with cold golden orbs.A small part of his mind screamed, 'HUMAN! DON'T TOUCH, FILTHY. HUMAN!' But an incredibly large amount of his brain begged him to take her, to loose his control, to be lost in pleasures of the flesh. It was already obvious which side he was to choose and he would hate himself after this is over.

"Please Sesshoumaru." His name rolled off her tongue and wished she kept quite. The way his name came out from her, was so sleek, so sensual, so … natural.

He dipped his head at the sensitive area at her neck. He licked where her pulse beat and she shut her eyes, parted her lips, and allowed herself to be lost.She started to ease up when he started nipping at the sensitive curve of her neck.

She wanted him to stop and at the same time, she wanted him to continue what ever he's doing. She felt light headed and completely confused.

Sesshoumaru was so hard, it ached. He needed release, now! His mind still held the battle whether to take her or not. The fact that she was human and Inuyasha's wench made everything harder. Then he smelled her arousal, mixed with his own, she was driving him mad.

He quickly ripped her indecent blouse, sending some buttons to ricochet against the wall. The ripping sound of her blouse increased his arousal. Then he met a challenge. There was an odd type of clothing wrapping her bosoms. He tilted his head back to look at her face. She could have been mistaken for a very ripe tomato. She opened her eyes to look down at him, then at her bra.

She wanted to laugh at him, but she thought it was a lot smarter not to.

"What is this?" He indicated her lace bra.

"Um, it's a … a bra. The clasp are in the back."

"What are 'clasps'?" But he didn't bother to wait for her answer. He took one sharp claw and snapped the front, exposing her breast, for his eyes to see. "Hey!"Her nipples were pink and flushed. She heard himgasp. Next thing she knew he was suckling her, fangs and all. Her breathe got stuck at her throat and she moaned.

That drove him over the edge. He suckled harder and left one nipple for another. His claws were tearing her skirt and it scratched her thighs, sending little beads of blood to appear on her creamy skin. She was completely nude in front of him, with just her panties and socks. Her thigh started to draw a little more blood.

"Please, Sesshoumaru, stop." When he didn't she put her hands on his shoulders to draw him back, instead, he was sent flying to the opposite side of the room. The light pink sparks still playing in her fingertips. Did she just attempt to purify him?

'Wait, Sesshoumaru's a demon right? And good doesn't mix well with bad so…Oh no…'

Did she kill him? She didn't even mind when she fell from her high position. Her thigh still drew blood and she panicked. Her thoughts went a mile a minute. Was Sesshoumaru dead? An agony-filled groan broke the silence. He was alive. She paled at the thought of what he would do to her when he finds out that she sent him flying.

It was better when she thought he was dead.


Hope you didn't think it was odd…Cuz I sure as hell did. Anyways Sesshoumaru and Kagome feel attracted to each other because of something, maybe I'll reveal it next chapter or so. Hehe…Ohk now for the review responses.

Silvar: There is going to be a lot more…Hehe…

Sora's Chi Aka KaminariI will kill him in a horrible disturbing way! Sorry Kagome had to wake up alone. It makes it easier for both of them.

parsnip: You'll figure out Naraku's plan in a chapter or two. Hehe.

Crutches the magic hippie: The lemon? Uhmm…I honestly don't know…

DudettRin101: Rin will be fine, she has to go through some things, but she's gonna be fine…Nah Inuyasha won't break her heart, if he does I'll poke him until he gets stretch marks.

Filit tel' Yoru: I have no clue how long this story will be. I wrote a kidnapping scene, but I didn't like it so I guess I'll figure it out later and write a better one, as for now, I'll keep you all wondering. The typo was well a typo…Hehe sorry bout that. He lightens up later and he won't be so bossy, much.

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Off to the next chappy….


Inuyasha's Last Thought:

'I'll be back!'


:Disclaimer:

The characters of Inuyasha do not belong to me. I claim no rights to any, those rights rightfully belong to Rumiko Takahashi. This is a mere fan fiction to show my passion for the anime/manga series created by the talented Rumiko Takahashi.

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