Author's Notes: Yay! New chapter. This one took me ages to actually get together, I've been working on various other things and I kinda forgot about it. But then I went and watched an AMV and this idea popped up straight away.
Chouji: AMV?
Fox: Yeah, an Anime Music Video.
Chouji: …You're such a nerd.
Fox: That's mean to everyone out there who enjoys AMV's!
Chouji: Well it was only directed at you.
Fox: Hmph! –pouts-
Reviews!
Queen of Paperclips: Was it really? Yay! I'm glad someone understood what I was trying to get out of this chapter. I don't like it when people think that there's no more to him then a pair of fuzzy eyebrows that need waxing and a weird relationship with his teacher (I don't even want to IMAGINE that!) and it may well be that that's all he's meant to be in the actual anime and manga, but I don't see him that way. He's smart and strong, he's a role model to anyone who's not perfect or pretty or cool, because he didn't give up straight away when he we dubbed as a loser. But still, even guys like him have to have problems, right? So I just thought 'what if he just decided to give up or something?' So I started writing it like that, but as all my work does, it changed into the creature it now is . Thankies for saying I can write something complex! Yay! They just sort of write themselves, my fingers just happen to be able to type relatively well. --; Here, have a Kiba plushie!
Azamiko: Yay! Thankies for saying so! I'm glad you liked it! The poem was annoying for me, cause I had to think it up, but yes…Lol. But anyway, lets give you an Itachi plushie!
Purple Witchy Angel: Thank you so much for saying so! I am doing more for everyone who reviewed! Whee! Meh, I'm tired now, so have an Kunai Plushie!
Fiction time!
It's always surprising to see how other people react to a person you know.
It's amusing to watch and figure out if they feel about that person the way you feel or the exact opposite to your emotions towards them.
It's just as interesting to watch the particular person in question act when they're alone, or even when you're not their. It's fun to just lose your sense of everything around you and just watch them be. It's something I've very rarely been able to do.
It's also some thing I've never been able to do with Sasuke.
Whenever I'm near him I'm always on my guard just in case he speaks to me, just in case he calls my name. I need to be just right, perfect for him and only him. It's a hard thing to do, but I've been doing it for so long now, it's almost automatic. Almost, anyway.
But not with Naruto.
It's easy to be around Naruto and feel just…just fine. There's no need to change yourself for him, to become something else just to please him. I know I don't need to please him anyway.
Because I'm fine to just be myself when I'm with him.
Ino once told me that the perfect person to be with was someone you could just relax with and not have to play pretend, that they'll love you no matter what you wear or how you put you wear your hair.
Someone who you could just be real with.
I sometime forget who the real me is, through all the game playing. Someone once told me they envy me, having two boys chasing me all the time. I just told them that it was annoying and I wished for it to stop, but I know that's not true. I like it, having people wanting me even though I turn them away so many times. It's nice to know I'm wanted, desired by someone. I've mentioned it in a passing conversation with Ino once, I remember. She just shook her head and told me that I was a fool.
She told me that I'm always chasing the things I can't have, the things I don't need.
"One day you'll get hurt, maybe not physically, but in a different way, and then you'll have no one to run to, because they hurt too much from you turning them away so many times.' She looked sad then, for a moment. 'It hurts to be turned away.' She whispered, but then it was over, and the conversation went elsewhere.
I think she was talking about Naruto, but I'm not quite sure.
It's strange though, the different ways I react to people, especially the ways I react the Naruto and Sasuke. Sasuke seems like the perfect guy, he's beautiful and he's never gone for another girl, so you know he won't leave you for them, but then, you know he won't go for you either. He's cold and unfeeling, but I love him and I want him,
even as he opens new wounds in my heart.
And then there's Naruto.
He always manages to make me feel better, without even knowing. He's not the sort of person who dwells on things; he always forgives and goes on to tackle new things with a bright smile and a warm heart. I know that when I need him he'll be there for me with his arms wide open, ready to hold me close. He's not a fake person, he doesn't do it just to get to me, he does it because he cares for me.
Maybe, maybe he loves me.
Even though I have him there ready, I still want more, but not from him. I want it from another and I can't help but wish he'd return my feelings. I wish for Sasuke to hear me calling. But still, I know he won't ever come to me. He's the angel that fell away long ago and refuses to climb back up.
But I know I'll never come for Naruto either, I don't love him like he wants me to.
Because he's no Sasuke, he's no fallen angel hiding in the shadows who's given up on all he has. No, instead he's the angel that soars higher then all the others, he strives to reach his goal despite the odds, he basks in the light and beauty of the sun.
He's not perfect; he never will be, because he's more then that. He's the light that gently leads me towards the thing I want to become, though it's not what he wants. And he does it because he loves me.
So thank you for it all, Naruto, thank you for being the perfection I'll never have.
I am everything you want
I am everything
you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could
be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But
I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why…
Author's Notes: That was really long and boring. I didn't like it. It was originally supposed to be a hell of a lot shorter and much better written, but it didn't end that way. It rambled on way too much and I can bet the mistakes are really obvious, but oh well. –shrugs- Please review!
