A/N Alright I'm really making an effort here to update more frequently. So I hope it's appreciated.
Buffy,
I don't know what to say to you, or if you'll even read this letter for that matter. I'm going to the grocer's to get food and to your mom's to get you some clothes. I should be back soon. I'll try to hurry-I know you always hated being up here all alone.
I know this is completely ridiculous, and I can't keep you here forever
against your will. I didn't want to kidnap you or force you into
anything, but sometimes you can be such a stubborn little chit. Believe
me when I say I was at the end of my bleeding rope and this was a last
resort.
I want to work through this because I want to be with you, pet. I don't want to be with anyone else. You are truly the greatest woman I've even known, and I can't imagine my life without you in it. It's hard enough imagining the office without you there.
I know I've been terrible to you. I know I'm a git, and I don't deserve you. Please believe me when I say that I love you, and I just thought I was doing the right thing by Liam and by you. I wanted to help my brother so much that I was willing to do anything to get you two together. I didn't take into account that I could end up falling for you. I was scared.
I hope you can forgive me some how. I
hope I didn't permenantly ruin things for us. I never meant to hurt
you. I wanted you to be happy so much that I didn't realize I was the
one taking away your happiness. I promise if you let me, I'll
spend the rest of my life making it up to you. Will you let me?
Love Always,
William
Buffy read over the letter she found on the kitchen table a third and then a fourth time. She had not been this confused in a long time. William loved her. He was sorry. He wanted her. But what did she want?
For the longest time, Angel Giles was her dream. Everything was focused on him. Her sun did not shine if he was not there, but now she was different. She had just been a girl then.
She was a woman now. A woman very much in love with Spike Giles. Spike, William, had hurt her. By giving him her heart, he could only hurt her more. Her mom had given her dad the same thing and look where that got her. Buffy didn't think she could handle that kind of pain.
But what would she do without Spike? Could she really imagine life without his accent or his smile? Did she want to go through a day without the friendly banter and considerate gestures? Yes, he could hurt her. He could break her heart again, but he could also love her. Would she let him?
She knew deep down in her heart the answer. Now all she had to do was wait. For him.
I'm getting so proud of my baby...what do you guys think?