Dearest Diary,
It is Starfire again. Though today was a "relaxing" day of potato-ing the couch, I do not feel very relaxed. I do not even feel happy. Today I tried hard to make up for my mistakes yesterday. I tried very hard to make friend Robin smile, but I could not. I suppose he is sill angry with be because I endangered many people. Thought this is something I am angry at myself for doing, it hurts even more when friend Robin doesn't talk to me. I do not believe he will ever know the full extent to which I worry about him. I would do anything to take away his pain, but unfortunately, I do not believe friend Robin knows this, because I saw him talking and sharing his problems with friend Raven. When I saw him doing this I received the awful feeling that I got when Blackfire arrived and began to manipulate my friends. I wished to be Raven; I wished to be Raven so very badly. I was the one who friend Robin was supposed to confide his troubles to! Though at first I felt the immense feeling of anger, it has now become one of great sadness. I have not done anything to fight it, and have let this sorrow consume me. It feels as though I will never be good enough for the team. I will always be naïve, little, innocent Starfire. I will never be good enough for Robin, who cannot even trust me enough to tell me his problems. I do not like these feelings of unhappiness, but as long as I'm in my room of slumber, and no one can see me, I guess it will be ok not to smile. I wish you a goodnight.
Starfire